Roderick on the Line

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00:00:18 ◼   ► i'm ron has a gun mmm do good you caught [TS]

00:00:23 ◼   ► me in the middle of a peanut butter [TS]

00:00:24 ◼   ► sandwich did I caught you [TS]

00:00:27 ◼   ► yeah i mean i was sitting here expecting [TS]

00:00:31 ◼   ► your call but I thought in the meantime [TS]

00:00:34 ◼   ► I would have a peanut butter sandwich [TS]

00:00:35 ◼   ► food [TS]

00:00:37 ◼   ► kind of but you get for something like [TS]

00:00:38 ◼   ► that all people are sandwich button they [TS]

00:00:42 ◼   ► were one of those elephants expands my [TS]

00:00:43 ◼   ► research [TS]

00:00:44 ◼   ► oh you you know music is still to get [TS]

00:00:49 ◼   ► thai pretty sweet [TS]

00:00:51 ◼   ► okay um you know years of making music [TS]

00:00:58 ◼   ► records I've learned that I think they [TS]

00:01:01 ◼   ► call the call music music records i [TS]

00:01:03 ◼   ► learned to think of vocals as a kind of [TS]

00:01:06 ◼   ► like a digital graph you know what I [TS]

00:01:08 ◼   ► mean like you you see the you see the [TS]

00:01:10 ◼   ► the the visual of a of the waveform of a [TS]

00:01:16 ◼   ► radical instrument and so my first my [TS]

00:01:19 ◼   ► first thought is is there is there a [TS]

00:01:22 ◼   ► filter we could put on that would just [TS]

00:01:23 ◼   ► take out all the smacking and the food [TS]

00:01:26 ◼   ► sounds that's not so really it's a very [TS]

00:01:29 ◼   ► very good question is certainly [TS]

00:01:30 ◼   ► something that I thought about you know [TS]

00:01:33 ◼   ► as you know as somebody who's made lots [TS]

00:01:35 ◼   ► of music records you know that there are [TS]

00:01:36 ◼   ► various sorts of things I believe they [TS]

00:01:38 ◼   ► call the filters with letters that will [TS]

00:01:40 ◼   ► filter is I think the music filters the [TS]

00:01:41 ◼   ► colors filters that intelligently go out [TS]

00:01:43 ◼   ► and find certain kinds of things you [TS]

00:01:45 ◼   ► know you pick if you get the home you [TS]

00:01:47 ◼   ► can pick one area getting rid of home [TS]

00:01:49 ◼   ► safe take out this this is a list of [TS]

00:01:51 ◼   ► music frequency you get rid of hiss hiss [TS]

00:01:53 ◼   ► exactly what can you get rid of the [TS]

00:01:55 ◼   ► peanut butter and the streetcar meet up [TS]

00:01:58 ◼   ► in the streetcar or the great Aesop's [TS]

00:02:00 ◼   ► fables now won one of the things I need [TS]

00:02:02 ◼   ► to say right before we start our is that [TS]

00:02:04 ◼   ► a yeah last night i was eating I i was [TS]

00:02:08 ◼   ► eating some food [TS]

00:02:10 ◼   ► and-and-and might die broke my tooth off [TS]

00:02:14 ◼   ► like I wasn't gonna I was gonna I was [TS]

00:02:16 ◼   ► gonna write it off the peanut butter and [TS]

00:02:18 ◼   ► then I was gonna ask if you had your we [TS]

00:02:20 ◼   ► had your your the Dodgers all done right [TS]

00:02:22 ◼   ► you said you're done with that [TS]

00:02:23 ◼   ► yeah but now I know I'm missing my tooth [TS]

00:02:25 ◼   ► again that one tooth the one tooth the [TS]

00:02:27 ◼   ► big one no no no the one my achilles [TS]

00:02:31 ◼   ► tooth [TS]

00:02:32 ◼   ► I'm so sorry John is that must feel [TS]

00:02:34 ◼   ► weird to have that back but my back I [TS]

00:02:36 ◼   ► mean not not their backpack being up [TS]

00:02:39 ◼   ► there it's a it's not that weird that [TS]

00:02:42 ◼   ► he's running my tongue over all the time [TS]

00:02:44 ◼   ► yeah i'm doing that but I did that I did [TS]

00:02:45 ◼   ► that when I had a fake tooth in there [TS]

00:02:47 ◼   ► anyway I'm noticing i'm noticing i don't [TS]

00:02:50 ◼   ► have the plosives power that I normally [TS]

00:02:51 ◼   ► have 1i when I say words that start with [TS]

00:02:54 ◼   ► l like fake tooth you hear hear the it's [TS]

00:02:59 ◼   ► like a lost I lost some of my father [TS]

00:03:02 ◼   ► power right answer for you but we should [TS]

00:03:05 ◼   ► we should do maybe we should try to [TS]

00:03:07 ◼   ► avoid words start with that letter M or [TS]

00:03:10 ◼   ► you know what you're John water your [TS]

00:03:11 ◼   ► fucking John roddick you should drive [TS]

00:03:12 ◼   ► that train right into the right into the [TS]

00:03:14 ◼   ► tunnel we just really hit the ass hard [TS]

00:03:16 ◼   ► right yeah you know what your own God of [TS]

00:03:19 ◼   ► trying to use as many f words we can now [TS]

00:03:22 ◼   ► I I think I i think i've asked you about [TS]

00:03:25 ◼   ► this but it's worth sharing with our [TS]

00:03:26 ◼   ► audience and curious now for those who [TS]

00:03:28 ◼   ► don't know John John you have that [TS]

00:03:31 ◼   ► memory serves it's like a whole like [TS]

00:03:33 ◼   ► diagonal it looks like somebody cut a [TS]

00:03:36 ◼   ► peanut-butter-and-jelly sandwich in half [TS]

00:03:37 ◼   ► diagonally accepted your tooth right [TS]

00:03:39 ◼   ► you've got a whole that kind of half a [TS]

00:03:41 ◼   ► tooth missing right [TS]

00:03:42 ◼   ► no no I have an entire tooth missing in [TS]

00:03:44 ◼   ► fact missing all the way oh that's right [TS]

00:03:47 ◼   ► yeah it look at hobo costume it's it's [TS]

00:03:50 ◼   ► like it's the bits may be the best hobo [TS]

00:03:53 ◼   ► costume the world has ever known in fact [TS]

00:03:55 ◼   ► I've definitely thought about going down [TS]

00:03:58 ◼   ► to hollywood in this state and little [TS]

00:04:01 ◼   ► bit on the nose but hey listen you need [TS]

00:04:04 ◼   ► do you need to cast someone who looks [TS]

00:04:06 ◼   ► like he's not thriving right now haha [TS]

00:04:09 ◼   ► I am that actor yeah I really that's so [TS]

00:04:14 ◼   ► easy for me it's kind of a running joke [TS]

00:04:15 ◼   ► with a lot of my friends that I you know [TS]

00:04:18 ◼   ► look homeless [TS]

00:04:19 ◼   ► which is you know like i have a home and [TS]

00:04:21 ◼   ► I was seriously just come back to this I [TS]

00:04:23 ◼   ► want us to have a starting a lot more [TS]

00:04:24 ◼   ► nuanced letting that term is abused em [TS]

00:04:27 ◼   ► and yeah yeah well i think you're right [TS]

00:04:29 ◼   ► i think know it's a huge a friend's I [TS]

00:04:31 ◼   ► like to come on right that I'm gonna [TS]

00:04:32 ◼   ► capture that here that were going to [TS]

00:04:33 ◼   ► come back to hobos bombs all those let's [TS]

00:04:38 ◼   ► let's shoot for nuance I'm gonna but [TS]

00:04:40 ◼   ► while you're writing a nice that the [TS]

00:04:41 ◼   ► same can go right ahead was hurt doesn't [TS]

00:04:43 ◼   ► hurt does it hurt is exposed nerve or [TS]

00:04:45 ◼   ► don't hurt no there's no truth there now [TS]

00:04:48 ◼   ► to think so just nerve yeah nothing [TS]

00:04:51 ◼   ► their mother hobos bombs homeless and [TS]

00:04:54 ◼   ► Street rats ok I'm now about typical [TS]

00:04:59 ◼   ► street rat is they're gonna leave one of [TS]

00:05:03 ◼   ► their ideas you sure this is a good time [TS]

00:05:05 ◼   ► while you were talking you were you [TS]

00:05:09 ◼   ► running a card so I thought maybe I'd [TS]

00:05:10 ◼   ► have a I another bite of the sandwich [TS]

00:05:13 ◼   ► oh man are you gonna hear it this week [TS]

00:05:15 ◼   ► now you lost that is quite a while ago [TS]

00:05:18 ◼   ► you know they call it a crown is that [TS]

00:05:20 ◼   ► what they call it to put in there what [TS]

00:05:21 ◼   ► they call the thing they put our bridge [TS]

00:05:22 ◼   ► what do you have [TS]

00:05:23 ◼   ► what is it you haven't lost a tooth am I [TS]

00:05:26 ◼   ► not [TS]

00:05:26 ◼   ► am I not told you this whole just bring [TS]

00:05:28 ◼   ► story is the story that I think it is [TS]

00:05:30 ◼   ► that I've been wanting to hear for a [TS]

00:05:32 ◼   ► long time [TS]

00:05:32 ◼   ► good it could be yeah well I'd like to [TS]

00:05:36 ◼   ► hear that screaming write that down and [TS]

00:05:38 ◼   ► write down that one story my question to [TS]

00:05:40 ◼   ► you is this and and I i don't know i'm [TS]

00:05:42 ◼   ► sure most of our listeners at this point [TS]

00:05:44 ◼   ► like me like I like myself most opposed [TS]

00:05:47 ◼   ► to our most listeners to like you more [TS]

00:05:49 ◼   ► thank you very much thank you i don't i [TS]

00:05:50 ◼   ► want you to know that and I want you to [TS]

00:05:52 ◼   ► do either way of quantifying that [TS]

00:05:53 ◼   ► something is that just a gut feeling I [TS]

00:05:55 ◼   ► feel like the number of tweets that I [TS]

00:05:58 ◼   ► read that say i love merlin man who is a [TS]

00:06:03 ◼   ► good indicator of how many people out [TS]

00:06:05 ◼   ► there in the world love merlin I think [TS]

00:06:07 ◼   ► we're on a different twitter haha shit [TS]

00:06:11 ◼   ► we should double check i think a lot of [TS]

00:06:14 ◼   ► your fans send me their appreciative [TS]

00:06:16 ◼   ► tweets that is so nice [TS]

00:06:18 ◼   ► only got like we don't want to blow [TS]

00:06:20 ◼   ► Merlin's mind we have no we don't wanna [TS]

00:06:22 ◼   ► bug and we know he's busy but [TS]

00:06:23 ◼   ► once again why don't we send John [TS]

00:06:25 ◼   ► Roderick some nice Merlin beamed a [TS]

00:06:29 ◼   ► bittersweet for you John [TS]

00:06:30 ◼   ► on the one hand yeah you know we're pals [TS]

00:06:32 ◼   ► i like to think and you look out for me [TS]

00:06:33 ◼   ► and my welfare you're happy to see me [TS]

00:06:35 ◼   ► doing well and are probably a little bit [TS]

00:06:37 ◼   ► sad when I'm sad but there must be a [TS]

00:06:39 ◼   ► little bit galling because you probably [TS]

00:06:40 ◼   ► know it's you know you should be having [TS]

00:06:42 ◼   ► to carry my mail so no I might my [TS]

00:06:45 ◼   ► theoretical fan mail you got you you [TS]

00:06:46 ◼   ► should be the one receiving compliments [TS]

00:06:48 ◼   ► you doing is helping people it doesn't [TS]

00:06:49 ◼   ► it doesn't bother me at all in fact that [TS]

00:06:51 ◼   ► calling at all in fact i enjoyed because [TS]

00:06:53 ◼   ► I I'm my inboxes is so crowded with fan [TS]

00:06:57 ◼   ► mail directed to me that's a good point [TS]

00:06:59 ◼   ► it's nice to see fanmail directed to [TS]

00:07:01 ◼   ► someone else every once in a while just [TS]

00:07:03 ◼   ► to just to realize that there are other [TS]

00:07:05 ◼   ► people in the world [TS]

00:07:06 ◼   ► easy you've taken a variable broadview [TS]

00:07:08 ◼   ► to this and i just i'm very grateful for [TS]

00:07:10 ◼   ► that so here's the thing i like me and [TS]

00:07:13 ◼   ► people who love me I think the world has [TS]

00:07:16 ◼   ► finally I i'm gonna guess you never [TS]

00:07:18 ◼   ► expected this i'm going to guess that [TS]

00:07:20 ◼   ► you never expected how many people that [TS]

00:07:22 ◼   ► should have known about your band along [TS]

00:07:24 ◼   ► winners a long time ago [TS]

00:07:25 ◼   ► it's turns out surprising to learn how [TS]

00:07:27 ◼   ► many people had not heard of the band or [TS]

00:07:29 ◼   ► had not associated you with the band or [TS]

00:07:31 ◼   ► that one song they heard in that one [TS]

00:07:33 ◼   ► place and I don't know if you see this [TS]

00:07:34 ◼   ► on the Twitter that i get i see a lot of [TS]

00:07:36 ◼   ► people definitely means interacting with [TS]

00:07:38 ◼   ► people is that is it a lot of people now [TS]

00:07:40 ◼   ► are like they go out there like oh gosh [TS]

00:07:42 ◼   ► John has been helping me and terrifying [TS]

00:07:45 ◼   ► me with his train and now i just went on [TS]

00:07:47 ◼   ► itunes and I bought every long winters [TS]

00:07:48 ◼   ► album and I can't stop listening to them [TS]

00:07:50 ◼   ► so yeah that's lovely [TS]

00:07:51 ◼   ► it is lovely it is lovely and now that [TS]

00:07:53 ◼   ► we're done congratulate yourselves my [TS]

00:07:54 ◼   ► point being I think the people who are [TS]

00:07:56 ◼   ► new to the John Roderick scene they may [TS]

00:07:57 ◼   ► not realize that for a surprisingly long [TS]

00:08:00 ◼   ► time I you look horrifying not know in a [TS]

00:08:05 ◼   ► good way like you had the one that [TS]

00:08:07 ◼   ► picture of you and my daughter that I [TS]

00:08:08 ◼   ► treasurer of the several that i have is [TS]

00:08:10 ◼   ► you really looking like it's something [TS]

00:08:11 ◼   ► like Memphis Yeti em you gotta get [TS]

00:08:14 ◼   ► creepy Elvis glasses you have like when [TS]

00:08:17 ◼   ► I say dishwater blonde I mean maybe like [TS]

00:08:19 ◼   ► hydrogen peroxide and literal dishwater [TS]

00:08:21 ◼   ► to your shoulders is memory serves creek [TS]

00:08:24 ◼   ► and just be clear you got super creepy [TS]

00:08:26 ◼   ► smoky glasses molestie and then you're [TS]

00:08:30 ◼   ► missing a tooth [TS]

00:08:30 ◼   ► yeah and you know here's the thing you [TS]

00:08:32 ◼   ► rock that look not for a week or a month [TS]

00:08:35 ◼   ► you didn't you didn't go buy some kind [TS]

00:08:36 ◼   ► of pie [TS]

00:08:36 ◼   ► get the fucking walgreens you write a [TS]

00:08:38 ◼   ► fucking giant ass you you were Santa [TS]

00:08:41 ◼   ► with a missing tooth memory serves [TS]

00:08:42 ◼   ► yeah for several years because I felt I [TS]

00:08:45 ◼   ► felt like here's the thing [TS]

00:08:49 ◼   ► who there are a lot of there are a lot [TS]

00:08:52 ◼   ► of cosmetic improvements that one can [TS]

00:08:55 ◼   ► make to one cell to mask the the inner [TS]

00:09:01 ◼   ► critic esker that the inner inner [TS]

00:09:03 ◼   ► testiness and in my case I i arrived at [TS]

00:09:07 ◼   ► a point where there just was there was [TS]

00:09:10 ◼   ► not enough spackle on the earth to [TS]

00:09:13 ◼   ► smooth out the cracks in me and I just [TS]

00:09:14 ◼   ► thought i would let it roll [TS]

00:09:16 ◼   ► I just like that you know for many many [TS]

00:09:17 ◼   ► years during the grunge years when I was [TS]

00:09:19 ◼   ► when I was a terrible person and and on [TS]

00:09:23 ◼   ► drugs and doing a doing it but like 11 [TS]

00:09:28 ◼   ► mm charitable no no I was never on [TS]

00:09:33 ◼   ► charitable but but i but i don't but i [TS]

00:09:36 ◼   ► just was not I was not a living the life [TS]

00:09:39 ◼   ► that you could they that that you could [TS]

00:09:43 ◼   ► see you could she could show to st. [TS]

00:09:45 ◼   ► Peter let's say I was not I was not [TS]

00:09:47 ◼   ► living a lie i was living a life that [TS]

00:09:48 ◼   ► will be able to get forward to that guy [TS]

00:09:50 ◼   ► open up the book and put your glasses [TS]

00:09:51 ◼   ► can make said here we go let's take a [TS]

00:09:53 ◼   ► look at this [TS]

00:09:54 ◼   ► I was going to I was going to be I was [TS]

00:09:56 ◼   ► gonna bash wall i was gonna be touching [TS]

00:09:58 ◼   ► my toes together and staring at the [TS]

00:10:00 ◼   ► floor is not only that you're gonna [TS]

00:10:01 ◼   ► definitely going to help it was going to [TS]

00:10:02 ◼   ► take a really fucking long time you sit [TS]

00:10:04 ◼   ► there and listen to that they were going [TS]

00:10:06 ◼   ► to talk about a lot of stuff and I was [TS]

00:10:07 ◼   ► going to go [TS]

00:10:08 ◼   ► oh yeah that got about the yeah yeah [TS]

00:10:10 ◼   ► yeahs no no I mean yes but come on give [TS]

00:10:14 ◼   ► it a nine ease the guy some slack but [TS]

00:10:16 ◼   ► during that entire time i looked like a [TS]

00:10:19 ◼   ► cop you know like I was as I was a [TS]

00:10:21 ◼   ► straight looking as a guy could be i had [TS]

00:10:24 ◼   ► short hair i was i was fresh-faced I had [TS]

00:10:27 ◼   ► you know I blue eyes that they looked [TS]

00:10:30 ◼   ► innocent i mean i would go to i would go [TS]

00:10:33 ◼   ► to situations all the time where I would [TS]

00:10:35 ◼   ► walk in the door and some guide dressed [TS]

00:10:38 ◼   ► all in black sitting behind a table [TS]

00:10:40 ◼   ► covered with drugs would stand up and [TS]

00:10:42 ◼   ► yell at the guy who brought me what you [TS]

00:10:44 ◼   ► your copier man and then have to stand [TS]

00:10:49 ◼   ► there in the doorway while you know [TS]

00:10:50 ◼   ► while everybody jumped out the windows [TS]

00:10:53 ◼   ► and my friend was like no no man i know [TS]

00:10:55 ◼   ► i'm i know he's cool he's cool [TS]

00:10:57 ◼   ► I was like I was the I was the [TS]

00:11:00 ◼   ► undercover cop that everybody can i call [TS]

00:11:02 ◼   ► you mean he's still very filling in as [TS]

00:11:06 ◼   ► your job gotten hotter than fresh [TS]

00:11:07 ◼   ► pumpkin chili tired of kissing the wrong [TS]

00:11:09 ◼   ► bird mired down by your managers fear of [TS]

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00:11:47 ◼   ► but you never know it might be a penny [TS]

00:11:50 ◼   ► never know so many many years later when [TS]

00:11:55 ◼   ► all of that behavior came home to roost [TS]

00:11:57 ◼   ► which is to say that the that but the [TS]

00:12:00 ◼   ► decisions I made during my youth when i [TS]

00:12:02 ◼   ► felt that i was going to live forever [TS]

00:12:04 ◼   ► and that nothing could ever hurt me all [TS]

00:12:07 ◼   ► those things were saving up their [TS]

00:12:09 ◼   ► consequences for right about the time I [TS]

00:12:13 ◼   ► turned 40 and basically the day I turned [TS]

00:12:17 ◼   ► 40 everything that was in me that was [TS]

00:12:21 ◼   ► held together with with bailing wire and [TS]

00:12:24 ◼   ► toothpaste it all broke it ones [TS]

00:12:27 ◼   ► my tooth fell out and you know my knees [TS]

00:12:31 ◼   ► gave out and my it was it was it was it [TS]

00:12:33 ◼   ► was a catastrophe and now I'm living now [TS]

00:12:36 ◼   ► I'm living in the post consequences [TS]

00:12:39 ◼   ► world where I realized that everything [TS]

00:12:41 ◼   ► you do in your youth just lights the [TS]

00:12:44 ◼   ► fuse all the all the all the scars they [TS]

00:12:49 ◼   ► just they just wait kind of dormant [TS]

00:12:50 ◼   ► until they're there they're just comes [TS]

00:12:55 ◼   ► that one moment where all your [TS]

00:12:56 ◼   ► connective tissue stops working in here [TS]

00:12:58 ◼   ► and you're just a spear of pile of bones [TS]

00:13:00 ◼   ► just 34 years ago [TS]

00:13:03 ◼   ► yeah yeah so so I i knocked out my front [TS]

00:13:07 ◼   ► tooth half a dozen times but it finally [TS]

00:13:13 ◼   ► had no there there there was it finally [TS]

00:13:17 ◼   ► was so corrupted so it had been broken [TS]

00:13:20 ◼   ► so many times that there was nothing [TS]

00:13:21 ◼   ► left to cap and they had to just extract [TS]

00:13:25 ◼   ► this this little bit of a route that was [TS]

00:13:27 ◼   ► left and most people you see who are [TS]

00:13:29 ◼   ► missing a tooth they there [TS]

00:13:31 ◼   ► I tooth is gone because they were using [TS]

00:13:34 ◼   ► it to they were using their tooth to [TS]

00:13:36 ◼   ► check the veracity of a gold coin or [TS]

00:13:39 ◼   ► something but you don't see a lot of [TS]

00:13:41 ◼   ► people whose main front though the [TS]

00:13:44 ◼   ► largest toothed in their in their face [TS]

00:13:46 ◼   ► the most visible one their main front [TS]

00:13:48 ◼   ► tooth is missing that is not a that's [TS]

00:13:50 ◼   ► not a charming missing tooth that's much [TS]

00:13:53 ◼   ► more of a like that you've been drinking [TS]

00:13:57 ◼   ► hairspray kind of missing tooth [TS]

00:13:59 ◼   ► Oh up so everybody ok it's a it's a poor [TS]

00:14:06 ◼   ► judgment space [TS]

00:14:07 ◼   ► yeah that's right that's what that's [TS]

00:14:09 ◼   ► what's so interesting and you think for [TS]

00:14:10 ◼   ► one fucking second you're getting away [TS]

00:14:11 ◼   ► from this unit because this is really [TS]

00:14:12 ◼   ► super interesting but it's this is going [TS]

00:14:16 ◼   ► to sound strange but it's almost [TS]

00:14:17 ◼   ► shockingly medieval in a way a feeling [TS]

00:14:22 ◼   ► of going like oh my gosh there's all [TS]

00:14:23 ◼   ► this shit inside of me and all of this [TS]

00:14:26 ◼   ► fake connective tissue holding me [TS]

00:14:28 ◼   ► together and believing brother I [TS]

00:14:29 ◼   ► understand your arm [TS]

00:14:30 ◼   ► there's all this inside of me but I can [TS]

00:14:32 ◼   ► shave and i can put on a tie or i can do [TS]

00:14:36 ◼   ► whatever i can become the shockingly [TS]

00:14:37 ◼   ► normal-looking person is quivering and [TS]

00:14:39 ◼   ► God yeah but then you lose your fucking [TS]

00:14:41 ◼   ► front tooth and get us a medieval it's [TS]

00:14:44 ◼   ► you know there's almost this idea of you [TS]

00:14:47 ◼   ► know you think about a time even when [TS]

00:14:49 ◼   ► the sixteen hundreds where you would try [TS]

00:14:51 ◼   ► and make a lady flow to see if she was a [TS]

00:14:52 ◼   ► witch or whatever their thirties there's [TS]

00:14:54 ◼   ► this weird Theodoric of York feeling [TS]

00:14:58 ◼   ► about like there was a time when you [TS]

00:15:00 ◼   ► really thought that you could look at [TS]

00:15:01 ◼   ► somebody and tell a lot about their [TS]

00:15:03 ◼   ► morality you know juror phrenology I [TS]

00:15:06 ◼   ► mean for knowledge Asher like they did [TS]

00:15:08 ◼   ► it with a they got the plague and they [TS]

00:15:09 ◼   ► didn't let if somebody was running their [TS]

00:15:11 ◼   ► hands over my head trying to discern my [TS]

00:15:13 ◼   ► character her it would be like running I [TS]

00:15:16 ◼   ► mean running your hands through my hair [TS]

00:15:18 ◼   ► is like running your hands over a model [TS]

00:15:20 ◼   ► train set [TS]

00:15:21 ◼   ► I mean there are so many crisscrossing [TS]

00:15:23 ◼   ► scars up on my scalp and and various [TS]

00:15:28 ◼   ► like you know place where I come from [TS]

00:15:30 ◼   ► traumatic injury [TS]

00:15:32 ◼   ► yeah no shit yeah let's talk about the [TS]

00:15:35 ◼   ► time I got I got jumped by three guys [TS]

00:15:37 ◼   ► with ax handles still think you that [TS]

00:15:41 ◼   ► sounds like an Alaska story [TS]

00:15:43 ◼   ► no no that happened in seattle now way [TS]

00:15:45 ◼   ► but you know so when I shave my head but [TS]

00:15:48 ◼   ► I look like you know I like george the [TS]

00:15:51 ◼   ► animal' steele you got that whole puppy [TS]

00:15:52 ◼   ► typography thing going on [TS]

00:15:54 ◼   ► I do and you know other browsers used to [TS]

00:15:56 ◼   ► cut themselves that's why there's this [TS]

00:15:57 ◼   ► card they cut themselves the tiny bit of [TS]

00:15:59 ◼   ► razor blade to get on that plane going [TS]

00:16:00 ◼   ► to get the facebook on your life you do [TS]

00:16:02 ◼   ► not if you cut your eyebrow just a [TS]

00:16:03 ◼   ► little bit you know any head when you [TS]

00:16:05 ◼   ► bleed a live normally doing this with [TS]

00:16:06 ◼   ► residents believe you but the parties [TS]

00:16:11 ◼   ► but you gotta have a distraction before [TS]

00:16:13 ◼   ► you get to the pickles want to talk [TS]

00:16:15 ◼   ► about how much was bleeding you do out [TS]

00:16:16 ◼   ► of a head wind up your guy so you shaved [TS]

00:16:22 ◼   ► your head [TS]

00:16:23 ◼   ► no I don't shave my head I don't think [TS]

00:16:24 ◼   ► about the accident ah okay so the axe [TS]

00:16:26 ◼   ► but the accident you were jumped in when [TS]

00:16:28 ◼   ► I hear the word jump [TS]

00:16:29 ◼   ► I think of you were surprisingly [TS]

00:16:32 ◼   ► attacked by three guys at one time and [TS]

00:16:35 ◼   ► it's completely unfair fight [TS]

00:16:36 ◼   ► yeah that's that's kind of a description [TS]

00:16:41 ◼   ► of what happened I was I was I was [TS]

00:16:45 ◼   ► heavily intoxicated and but I was [TS]

00:16:48 ◼   ► intoxicated on a cocktail of intoxicants [TS]

00:16:51 ◼   ► that made me [TS]

00:16:53 ◼   ► very lucid while also being very [TS]

00:16:56 ◼   ► intoxicated yet at that bar and and I [TS]

00:17:03 ◼   ► was on the street and these guys these [TS]

00:17:07 ◼   ► guys were I i think this was during the [TS]

00:17:11 ◼   ► era of gay bashing [TS]

00:17:13 ◼   ► uh-huh but this was a this was a thing [TS]

00:17:16 ◼   ► that that people from the sticks would [TS]

00:17:18 ◼   ► come into town and gay bash and so I [TS]

00:17:24 ◼   ► don't know why these guys were so [TS]

00:17:25 ◼   ► heavily armed but I was in all honesty I [TS]

00:17:30 ◼   ► was standing on the street with a [TS]

00:17:32 ◼   ► lighter lighting posters on a phone pole [TS]

00:17:36 ◼   ► on fire and watching the posters bird [TS]

00:17:39 ◼   ► and I wasn't are you enjoying a [TS]

00:17:43 ◼   ► hallucinogen out you know that I'll get [TS]

00:17:47 ◼   ► you I'll get to the bucket to that size [TS]

00:17:49 ◼   ► but first first post attorney so i'm [TS]

00:17:51 ◼   ► watching I'm just standing on this on [TS]

00:17:53 ◼   ► this on the street watching a bit [TS]

00:17:56 ◼   ► lighting posters on this phone poll on [TS]

00:17:57 ◼   ► fire and and a couple of cops pull up [TS]

00:17:59 ◼   ► and they say hey knock that off and and [TS]

00:18:03 ◼   ► I was like oh yeah man hey hey [TS]

00:18:07 ◼   ► why why why do pigs have to like step on [TS]

00:18:10 ◼   ► my scene or whatever it is the least [TS]

00:18:12 ◼   ► however we talked back then and the cops [TS]

00:18:15 ◼   ► are like listen if you don't knock it [TS]

00:18:16 ◼   ► off and then was it was a busy friday [TS]

00:18:18 ◼   ► night they're like we got shit to do [TS]

00:18:20 ◼   ► that you your your small potatoes but if [TS]

00:18:22 ◼   ► you don't knock it off we're going to [TS]

00:18:23 ◼   ► get out of the car and we're gonna we're [TS]

00:18:25 ◼   ► gonna like I put handcuffs on you and I [TS]

00:18:29 ◼   ► was like those sorry sorry I'm burning [TS]

00:18:31 ◼   ► your phone pole cop and so I I've [TS]

00:18:35 ◼   ► momentarily stopped in the cops drove [TS]

00:18:36 ◼   ► away and then I immediately liked [TS]

00:18:38 ◼   ► started doing this again i don't know [TS]

00:18:40 ◼   ► why i was i was i was 22 years old [TS]

00:18:43 ◼   ► there's no excuse for standing on the [TS]

00:18:45 ◼   ► street corner this is the kind of petty [TS]

00:18:47 ◼   ► a delinquency that a thirteen-year-old [TS]

00:18:52 ◼   ► should have grown out of but here i am [TS]

00:18:54 ◼   ► and i'm i'm on a variety of intoxicants [TS]

00:18:57 ◼   ► and I'm I'm lighting [TS]

00:18:59 ◼   ► the phone poll on fire because it was [TS]

00:19:02 ◼   ► fascinating to me [TS]

00:19:03 ◼   ► suffice to say so anyway I stand out [TS]

00:19:06 ◼   ► there i am doing it a little bit longer [TS]

00:19:08 ◼   ► and all of a sudden there's these three [TS]

00:19:10 ◼   ► guys and they have their bats and [TS]

00:19:16 ◼   ► they're like what are you doing man and [TS]

00:19:20 ◼   ► I turn around I engage them in [TS]

00:19:22 ◼   ► conversation like I'm just like in this [TS]

00:19:23 ◼   ► phone poll on fire and they're like will [TS]

00:19:26 ◼   ► fucking knock it off and that was a [TS]

00:19:29 ◼   ► challenge that I felt I really needed [TS]

00:19:32 ◼   ► just really needed to stand my ground [TS]

00:19:34 ◼   ► because this was important work I was [TS]

00:19:36 ◼   ► doing and who are these three guys to [TS]

00:19:40 ◼   ► tell me to knock anything off so I was [TS]

00:19:41 ◼   ► like you know why don't you knock off [TS]

00:19:43 ◼   ► telling people what to do and I i [TS]

00:19:47 ◼   ► noticed that they have bats I mean I am [TS]

00:19:48 ◼   ► I'm acutely aware but I all but I also [TS]

00:19:53 ◼   ► feel like I'm in command of the [TS]

00:19:55 ◼   ► situation and they kind of circle around [TS]

00:20:00 ◼   ► me you know in a triangular-shaped [TS]

00:20:02 ◼   ► grouping and i'm in the center of it and [TS]

00:20:06 ◼   ► I'm i feel like i have this matter quite [TS]

00:20:09 ◼   ► in hand and I start to lecture them on [TS]

00:20:13 ◼   ► how cities work and how phone poles are [TS]

00:20:18 ◼   ► coated with creosote and so are [TS]

00:20:20 ◼   ► inherently not flammable and at a [TS]

00:20:26 ◼   ► certain point they are no longer [TS]

00:20:27 ◼   ► interested and one of the guys that it [TS]

00:20:29 ◼   ► has circled around while you're there [TS]

00:20:30 ◼   ► just arguing argumentative Lee arguing [TS]

00:20:32 ◼   ► with me because they already know what [TS]

00:20:35 ◼   ► they're going to do and this was before [TS]

00:20:39 ◼   ► I you this was before I had learned to [TS]

00:20:41 ◼   ► protect my six and somebody gotta get [TS]

00:20:45 ◼   ► around behind me and just took a massive [TS]

00:20:46 ◼   ► swing like he was swinging for the [TS]

00:20:48 ◼   ► outfield and hit me on the back of the [TS]

00:20:51 ◼   ► head with a but the what turned out [TS]

00:20:53 ◼   ► later be accidental [TS]

00:20:54 ◼   ► God and then once i was down all three [TS]

00:20:57 ◼   ► of them just stood over me and just just [TS]

00:20:59 ◼   ► pounded on me like they were tenderizing [TS]

00:21:01 ◼   ► them side of beef and at this point i [TS]

00:21:05 ◼   ► was aware that i was in trouble so I was [TS]

00:21:09 ◼   ► yelling and I was crawling to try and [TS]

00:21:11 ◼   ► get under a car and they were just going [TS]

00:21:14 ◼   ► to town on me and they broke both my [TS]

00:21:16 ◼   ► hands [TS]

00:21:17 ◼   ► Wow and they I mean often cop from top [TS]

00:21:21 ◼   ► to bottom I was just I was just a black [TS]

00:21:25 ◼   ► black and blue but but mostly black [TS]

00:21:28 ◼   ► I crawled under this car and some girl [TS]

00:21:33 ◼   ► up the street started screaming and [TS]

00:21:34 ◼   ► eventually somebody nearby scream loud [TS]

00:21:38 ◼   ► enough that these guys can it took one [TS]

00:21:41 ◼   ► last walk each and ran off into the dark [TS]

00:21:44 ◼   ► and so then the cops came back the cops [TS]

00:21:52 ◼   ► who had yelled at me 10 minutes before i [TS]

00:21:55 ◼   ► came back and the aid car came and I was [TS]

00:21:59 ◼   ► kid I was laying there convinced that i [TS]

00:22:01 ◼   ► was holding the holding the back of my [TS]

00:22:04 ◼   ► skull on I haven't got my hands up and I [TS]

00:22:07 ◼   ► was like you know I can't move my hands [TS]

00:22:09 ◼   ► and the aid car guys were like you know [TS]

00:22:11 ◼   ► you got a movie and we got to see what [TS]

00:22:12 ◼   ► was going on I was like no I can't [TS]

00:22:16 ◼   ► because if I do the back my it's going [TS]

00:22:18 ◼   ► to fall off and make it card guys you [TS]

00:22:23 ◼   ► know they were all shining lights in my [TS]

00:22:24 ◼   ► face and they were like are you on any [TS]

00:22:27 ◼   ► kind of drugs i was like no I just had a [TS]

00:22:33 ◼   ► beer and you know they're looking at my [TS]

00:22:36 ◼   ► pupils they're like mmm [TS]

00:22:38 ◼   ► now we need to you need to tell us like [TS]

00:22:40 ◼   ► what you're what drugs you're on and I'm [TS]

00:22:43 ◼   ► like no I just have just had a beer but [TS]

00:22:46 ◼   ► I can't move my hand because my my my [TS]

00:22:50 ◼   ► head is is going to you know fall off or [TS]

00:22:53 ◼   ► fall apart so they take me to the [TS]

00:22:55 ◼   ► hospital and the doctor in the emergency [TS]

00:22:57 ◼   ► room again kinda says listen we need to [TS]

00:23:02 ◼   ► know what your on your ear obviously [TS]

00:23:04 ◼   ► like on some drugs and we need to know [TS]

00:23:05 ◼   ► what they are because we can't treat you [TS]

00:23:08 ◼   ► you can't give you more drugs unless we [TS]

00:23:10 ◼   ► know what drugs you're on we can't treat [TS]

00:23:11 ◼   ► you unless we know what's going on and I [TS]

00:23:15 ◼   ► had it in my head that if you told the [TS]

00:23:18 ◼   ► doctor that you had taken some drugs [TS]

00:23:21 ◼   ► that that would somehow I still like [TS]

00:23:25 ◼   ► still added in my mind that my permanent [TS]

00:23:28 ◼   ► record was something i need to be [TS]

00:23:31 ◼   ► worried about you know like that i was [TS]

00:23:34 ◼   ► going to that this was going to go down [TS]

00:23:36 ◼   ► on my permanent record and I wasn't [TS]

00:23:38 ◼   ► going to get into graduate schools i [TS]

00:23:39 ◼   ► don't know what i thought my permanent [TS]

00:23:40 ◼   ► record was but I had I had grown up [TS]

00:23:44 ◼   ► being told that your transcript was this [TS]

00:23:47 ◼   ► thing you need to worry about so much [TS]

00:23:49 ◼   ► and I didn't want to tell some doctor in [TS]

00:23:51 ◼   ► the emergency room [TS]

00:23:52 ◼   ► what drugs that was on because he was [TS]

00:23:56 ◼   ► going to write it down on a piece of [TS]

00:23:57 ◼   ► paper and then it was then the then I [TS]

00:23:59 ◼   ► love the CIA was never going to let me [TS]

00:24:01 ◼   ► be the president of the united states [TS]

00:24:02 ◼   ► and so I kept insisting that no I'd only [TS]

00:24:06 ◼   ► had a couple of beers and so the doctor [TS]

00:24:09 ◼   ► goes okay you know what kid that's fine [TS]

00:24:12 ◼   ► and he turns to the nurse next to him [TS]

00:24:14 ◼   ► and he said don't get many anesthesia [TS]

00:24:17 ◼   ► and so they proceeded to sew up my head [TS]

00:24:22 ◼   ► and my hands which were you know they [TS]

00:24:29 ◼   ► were they were broken but they were also [TS]

00:24:31 ◼   ► like I i think i showed you a scar on my [TS]

00:24:35 ◼   ► finger one time where one of that one of [TS]

00:24:38 ◼   ► the bats hit my finger as it was trying [TS]

00:24:40 ◼   ► to protect my head and the finger meats [TS]

00:24:43 ◼   ► like squirted out the other side so they [TS]

00:24:47 ◼   ► had to push all that finger me back [TS]

00:24:49 ◼   ► inside and sew it up and they they just [TS]

00:24:52 ◼   ► did it they did it all without even [TS]

00:24:53 ◼   ► giving me a topical anesthesia so I was [TS]

00:24:55 ◼   ► thinking they're being sewed like a like [TS]

00:24:59 ◼   ► a like a rag doll like three different [TS]

00:25:01 ◼   ► people running thread through me a time [TS]

00:25:03 ◼   ► and then they rolled me out on a [TS]

00:25:05 ◼   ► blood-soaked gurney into the hallway of [TS]

00:25:07 ◼   ► Harborview emergency room was its harbor [TS]

00:25:12 ◼   ► view is like the the one level for [TS]

00:25:15 ◼   ► trauma center in the northwest but it's [TS]

00:25:17 ◼   ► also one of [TS]

00:25:19 ◼   ► hospitals where you will roll down to a [TS]

00:25:20 ◼   ► halt and they'll be just kind of one [TS]

00:25:22 ◼   ► lightbulb flickering above you like [TS]

00:25:25 ◼   ► flickering and sometimes it goes out and [TS]

00:25:27 ◼   ► then the power comes back on and the and [TS]

00:25:31 ◼   ► the hallways are just on friday and [TS]

00:25:32 ◼   ► saturday night [TS]

00:25:33 ◼   ► they're just full of people like [TS]

00:25:35 ◼   ► motorcycle wreck gunshot wound [TS]

00:25:37 ◼   ► motorcycle wreck gunshot wound and so [TS]

00:25:40 ◼   ► they roll me out into this hallway and [TS]

00:25:41 ◼   ► they just let me sit there as the as the [TS]

00:25:43 ◼   ► blood on my gurney coagulates while [TS]

00:25:47 ◼   ► while people who are really in trouble [TS]

00:25:49 ◼   ► are wheeled past me screaming and I was [TS]

00:25:54 ◼   ► on hallucinogens among other things and [TS]

00:25:58 ◼   ► so it wasn't your trippin while they [TS]

00:26:00 ◼   ► were selling up your head without [TS]

00:26:01 ◼   ► anesthesia [TS]

00:26:02 ◼   ► yeah there was a really it was a hell of [TS]

00:26:05 ◼   ► a night [TS]

00:26:06 ◼   ► um I really like it [TS]

00:26:09 ◼   ► I learned a lot that night about about [TS]

00:26:12 ◼   ► everything about everything [TS]

00:26:14 ◼   ► certainly about mortality ok but a but [TS]

00:26:21 ◼   ► yeah so that was that that was [TS]

00:26:25 ◼   ► definitely that was definitely when I [TS]

00:26:27 ◼   ► started checking my six if you notice i [TS]

00:26:30 ◼   ► mean checking your sixes like it's [TS]

00:26:33 ◼   ► fighter pilot terminology that means [TS]

00:26:35 ◼   ► look behind you like a twelve o'clock is [TS]

00:26:39 ◼   ► straight ahead and sixes visit hundred [TS]

00:26:41 ◼   ► eighty degrees behind you right [TS]

00:26:43 ◼   ► check your six so yeah my check my six [TS]

00:26:48 ◼   ► now and so should you [TS]

00:26:51 ◼   ► Merlin was thinking about it and [TS]

00:26:52 ◼   ► thinking about my sex right now it [TS]

00:26:54 ◼   ► should yeah right about that I tried to [TS]

00:26:57 ◼   ► think too much about my sex better [TS]

00:26:58 ◼   ► that's probably a a terrific reason to [TS]

00:27:00 ◼   ► check it yeah well you don't want to you [TS]

00:27:02 ◼   ► don't want to get to a to a position [TS]

00:27:04 ◼   ► where you're here now forced to check [TS]

00:27:06 ◼   ► your six together double-dog CWI's kind [TS]

00:27:08 ◼   ► of six the devil dogs are on your six [TS]

00:27:12 ◼   ► and until you're checking your sex [TS]

00:27:14 ◼   ► because you know that they're okay and [TS]

00:27:15 ◼   ► then they are mice they aren't my six [TS]

00:27:17 ◼   ► per se it's a notional concept right [TS]

00:27:20 ◼   ► there hanging hanging by the six there [TS]

00:27:22 ◼   ► on your six yeah yeah [TS]

00:27:23 ◼   ► and so when you're when you're looking [TS]

00:27:24 ◼   ► over your shoulder I mean that's why [TS]

00:27:25 ◼   ► when I sit in a restaurant when I go [TS]

00:27:27 ◼   ► into a restaurant I always liked pick my [TS]

00:27:29 ◼   ► seat [TS]

00:27:30 ◼   ► rather judiciously who did you get the [TS]

00:27:33 ◼   ► only time Malcolm X this is the only [TS]

00:27:35 ◼   ► city where you can see the door [TS]

00:27:36 ◼   ► that's right you want to see where you [TS]

00:27:38 ◼   ► can see the door but also sit where like [TS]

00:27:40 ◼   ► you're not going to get it nobody's [TS]

00:27:41 ◼   ► going to surprise you on your six [TS]

00:27:43 ◼   ► uh-huh I mean you're there can be people [TS]

00:27:46 ◼   ► behind me I just wanna I just wanna know [TS]

00:27:47 ◼   ► who they are just like the bulleted the [TS]

00:27:50 ◼   ► booth is nice i like take a bank at [TS]

00:27:52 ◼   ► every chair challenge that said that's [TS]

00:27:54 ◼   ► that's terrific and i'm not even that's [TS]

00:27:57 ◼   ► not even how I lost my to my tooth yeah [TS]

00:27:59 ◼   ► but it's still still got a couple more [TS]

00:28:03 ◼   ► trips before thanks [TS]

00:28:05 ◼   ► settle down until until about what point [TS]

00:28:08 ◼   ► where things like that happening about [TS]

00:28:12 ◼   ► what era year uh 1994 was the last time [TS]

00:28:16 ◼   ► I was going but I was about to say 1994 [TS]

00:28:20 ◼   ► was the last time i went to jail but [TS]

00:28:23 ◼   ► there were a couple of there were couple [TS]

00:28:25 ◼   ► of things that hung out a couple of [TS]

00:28:27 ◼   ► couple of bench warrants that were still [TS]

00:28:29 ◼   ► periodically active into 1995 so so so I [TS]

00:28:35 ◼   ► so I went to jail I went to jail on [TS]

00:28:38 ◼   ► things that happened before 1994 a [TS]

00:28:41 ◼   ► couple of times when I like because it [TS]

00:28:43 ◼   ► took me it took me a year to get it took [TS]

00:28:47 ◼   ► me a couple years to get a fully [TS]

00:28:48 ◼   ► functioning set of credentials like your [TS]

00:28:51 ◼   ► normal ID and stuff that would end to [TS]

00:28:55 ◼   ► have all that stuff cleared so that [TS]

00:28:56 ◼   ► every time I got stopped by a cop he [TS]

00:28:59 ◼   ► didn't go [TS]

00:29:00 ◼   ► oh hello and pulled me out of the car [TS]

00:29:02 ◼   ► and take me downtown [TS]

00:29:06 ◼   ► there was one time they they actually [TS]

00:29:09 ◼   ► pulled one of those they pulled one of [TS]

00:29:11 ◼   ► those this is the this is the thing that [TS]

00:29:12 ◼   ► they're doing in cities now where they [TS]

00:29:14 ◼   ► said that he send letters out to [TS]

00:29:17 ◼   ► everybody that has an outstanding [TS]

00:29:18 ◼   ► warrant [TS]

00:29:19 ◼   ► it's like you want a thousand dollars [TS]

00:29:21 ◼   ► that that's from the simpsons that's not [TS]

00:29:23 ◼   ► real [TS]

00:29:24 ◼   ► no really happy and kind of take out [TS]

00:29:26 ◼   ► your free ballot this area and then [TS]

00:29:28 ◼   ► everybody comes down there like you're [TS]

00:29:30 ◼   ► arrested you're arrested your that's did [TS]

00:29:31 ◼   ► like it they totally actually totally do [TS]

00:29:34 ◼   ► that and may they they got me it was a [TS]

00:29:40 ◼   ► legitimate it wasn't a scam it was a [TS]

00:29:42 ◼   ► legitimate thing where I went into the [TS]

00:29:44 ◼   ► to the comptroller's office trying to [TS]

00:29:47 ◼   ► get four hundred dollars that somebody [TS]

00:29:50 ◼   ► had one time a guy we were i was driving [TS]

00:29:54 ◼   ► a car with a guy one time over in [TS]

00:29:56 ◼   ► bellevue and he was an african-american [TS]

00:29:58 ◼   ► gentleman and we see and i would have [TS]

00:30:00 ◼   ► gone over there to go to the movies [TS]

00:30:02 ◼   ► because they had a good movie theater [TS]

00:30:04 ◼   ► and we were driving back through you [TS]

00:30:08 ◼   ► know at night through bellevue and we [TS]

00:30:10 ◼   ► got pulled over and we weren't doing [TS]

00:30:13 ◼   ► anything [TS]

00:30:14 ◼   ► it was a case where the my friend was [TS]

00:30:19 ◼   ► convinced as it was happening that it [TS]

00:30:21 ◼   ► was a case of them pulling us over [TS]

00:30:23 ◼   ► because he was black and I was white and [TS]

00:30:25 ◼   ► we were driving in a car right now I [TS]

00:30:27 ◼   ► can't be up there obviously up to no [TS]

00:30:29 ◼   ► good [TS]

00:30:30 ◼   ► something something isn't right [TS]

00:30:31 ◼   ► something's not Dutch with this so the [TS]

00:30:32 ◼   ► bellevue cops pulled us over and I was [TS]

00:30:34 ◼   ► like what that's crazy and he's like no [TS]

00:30:36 ◼   ► I swear that's what's happening right [TS]

00:30:38 ◼   ► now like oh my god [TS]

00:30:40 ◼   ► and so the cop comes over and he's he's [TS]

00:30:43 ◼   ► very condescending to the driver my [TS]

00:30:47 ◼   ► friend but everything checks out and [TS]

00:30:50 ◼   ► then the cop asks for my ID at which [TS]

00:30:52 ◼   ► point he finds that there's a warrant [TS]

00:30:54 ◼   ► for my arrest and so he varies very [TS]

00:30:57 ◼   ► happy about this because to the [TS]

00:30:58 ◼   ► policeman it seems like a very ironic [TS]

00:31:01 ◼   ► situation but the white guy is going to [TS]

00:31:04 ◼   ► be the one that he's going to have to [TS]

00:31:05 ◼   ► arrest and he's he's indicating this to [TS]

00:31:08 ◼   ► us like he's he thinks this is hilarious [TS]

00:31:09 ◼   ► i look at this is a little bit racist oh [TS]

00:31:12 ◼   ► Henry moment yeah exactly like this [TS]

00:31:14 ◼   ► that's the one kid that i'm going to [TS]

00:31:16 ◼   ► arrest what do you know and you know and [TS]

00:31:18 ◼   ► we're both like new [TS]

00:31:20 ◼   ► that's that's hilarious the Conte and I [TS]

00:31:23 ◼   ► and I'm and and I'm I'm glad that I get [TS]

00:31:26 ◼   ► to go to jail tonight to make two you [TS]

00:31:28 ◼   ► know to make this a story that you're [TS]

00:31:29 ◼   ► going to tell this weekend at the bar [TS]

00:31:31 ◼   ► and so I go to jail and my friend his [TS]

00:31:36 ◼   ► name was Howard I said to him as they're [TS]

00:31:39 ◼   ► putting as the cops put him in his car I [TS]

00:31:41 ◼   ► say yeah here's my ATM card [TS]

00:31:45 ◼   ► go get the bail money which is four [TS]

00:31:47 ◼   ► hundred dollars [TS]

00:31:50 ◼   ► and so Howard goes and gets the bail [TS]

00:31:51 ◼   ► money but of course Howard and not [TS]

00:31:55 ◼   ► having been through this before [TS]

00:31:57 ◼   ► bails me out under his name rather than [TS]

00:32:01 ◼   ► because it was my money bailing me out [TS]

00:32:04 ◼   ► under under my name where or stimulating [TS]

00:32:07 ◼   ► the best so he's the one responsible for [TS]

00:32:10 ◼   ► the recognizance or the well I mean this [TS]

00:32:13 ◼   ► isn't his so bail is a certain amount of [TS]

00:32:15 ◼   ► money in as an insurance that you will [TS]

00:32:18 ◼   ► show up for court is the idea right [TS]

00:32:20 ◼   ► right and no he's not responsible for me [TS]

00:32:24 ◼   ► but if but they assume if he put 400 [TS]

00:32:28 ◼   ► bucks up it's his money he's going to [TS]

00:32:30 ◼   ► make himself responsible in this case it [TS]

00:32:32 ◼   ► was my money I showed up for my court [TS]

00:32:35 ◼   ► date and so now I wanted my bail [TS]

00:32:37 ◼   ► refunded and they said oh that's not [TS]

00:32:41 ◼   ► your bail that towered that's Howard's [TS]

00:32:42 ◼   ► money and only howard can come get the [TS]

00:32:45 ◼   ► money [TS]

00:32:46 ◼   ► well suffice to say how it was kind of a [TS]

00:32:50 ◼   ► preppy guy and this experience of me [TS]

00:32:54 ◼   ► getting arrested in his car kind of [TS]

00:32:57 ◼   ► soured hour but not nuts our friendship [TS]

00:33:01 ◼   ► but it soured his interest in going with [TS]

00:33:03 ◼   ► me to anymore [TS]

00:33:05 ◼   ► police stations or city courts or [TS]

00:33:08 ◼   ► anything like that and so Howard kept [TS]

00:33:12 ◼   ► dodging my phone call and you know and [TS]

00:33:16 ◼   ► like oh yeah totally i'll help you that [TS]

00:33:18 ◼   ► many would then add many disappear and I [TS]

00:33:19 ◼   ► wouldn't hear from howard for a long [TS]

00:33:21 ◼   ► time the missiles at a time when $400 [TS]

00:33:24 ◼   ► met quite a bit meant a lot to me anyway [TS]

00:33:27 ◼   ► I went down to the court one time to [TS]

00:33:31 ◼   ► explain to them at great length that was [TS]

00:33:33 ◼   ► my money not Howard's they were they [TS]

00:33:36 ◼   ► were not interested in my story and also [TS]

00:33:39 ◼   ► while i was there they discovered [TS]

00:33:40 ◼   ► another war by God but the woman behind [TS]

00:33:43 ◼   ► the counter who discovered this did not [TS]

00:33:45 ◼   ► she was not empowered to arrest me she [TS]

00:33:49 ◼   ► can't hit a button in some martial comes [TS]

00:33:51 ◼   ► out or something so what she did she [TS]

00:33:52 ◼   ► said oh here's what you need to do you [TS]

00:33:54 ◼   ► need to go across the street [TS]

00:33:56 ◼   ► two and Tamia card with an address on it [TS]

00:33:59 ◼   ► she said you need to go across the [TS]

00:34:00 ◼   ► street to this place and they'll refund [TS]

00:34:02 ◼   ► your money and i was like wow awesome i [TS]

00:34:05 ◼   ► like it finally worked i i i finally I [TS]

00:34:09 ◼   ► finally met someone at the at the police [TS]

00:34:12 ◼   ► department who understands and who cares [TS]

00:34:15 ◼   ► about me and I was gonna fill out a [TS]

00:34:17 ◼   ► comment card on that now I thanked her [TS]

00:34:19 ◼   ► profusely I was like ma'am thank you for [TS]

00:34:21 ◼   ► resolving this issue [TS]

00:34:23 ◼   ► this has been an albatross has been [TS]

00:34:24 ◼   ► hanging over my head for for many months [TS]

00:34:26 ◼   ► i really appreciate your help and she [TS]

00:34:28 ◼   ► was like my pleasure and I will i took [TS]

00:34:31 ◼   ► the card I walked out of the door the [TS]

00:34:32 ◼   ► courthouse i walked up the street two [TS]

00:34:34 ◼   ► blocks across the street to a storefront [TS]

00:34:36 ◼   ► that was like kind of a had frosted [TS]

00:34:41 ◼   ► glass windows and I was like go [TS]

00:34:44 ◼   ► this must be the city accountants office [TS]

00:34:46 ◼   ► or something and I walked in the door [TS]

00:34:48 ◼   ► and it's like the set of barney miller [TS]

00:34:51 ◼   ► know there are there is a room with [TS]

00:34:55 ◼   ► desks and a bunch of guys with pistols [TS]

00:35:00 ◼   ► and and like shoulder holsters with [TS]

00:35:05 ◼   ► their jackets off sitting on the desks [TS]

00:35:07 ◼   ► drinking coffee smoking cigarettes and [TS]

00:35:09 ◼   ► chatting with the extension casting it [TS]

00:35:11 ◼   ► really was and I walked in the door and [TS]

00:35:13 ◼   ► I was like oh and may have everybody in [TS]

00:35:16 ◼   ► the room turns and looks at me and goes [TS]

00:35:17 ◼   ► hey come on in buddy how's it going to [TS]

00:35:20 ◼   ► see you like this is not the first time [TS]

00:35:22 ◼   ► that somebody's somebody was a young man [TS]

00:35:24 ◼   ► has wandered in [TS]

00:35:26 ◼   ► obviously not knowing what he's there [TS]

00:35:27 ◼   ► and this is this has happened before [TS]

00:35:28 ◼   ► Janice's done this before [TS]

00:35:30 ◼   ► yeah every single person that walks in [TS]

00:35:32 ◼   ► that door is a is about to be arrested [TS]

00:35:34 ◼   ► and they didn't know it [TS]

00:35:36 ◼   ► this is the this is the gag and I'm sure [TS]

00:35:39 ◼   ► these guys all the time have to have to [TS]

00:35:41 ◼   ► sprint down the street after somebody [TS]

00:35:43 ◼   ► returns around the doorway and runs and [TS]

00:35:45 ◼   ► then I said then they sit down in a [TS]

00:35:47 ◼   ► chair I'm like oh man god what a writ [TS]

00:35:51 ◼   ► water rep and they're like good to see [TS]

00:35:54 ◼   ► you hey we got a computer printout here [TS]

00:35:57 ◼   ► that says bloody bloody blah so anyway [TS]

00:36:01 ◼   ► that's it was a it was a real was a real [TS]

00:36:04 ◼   ► prank you ever get your money back [TS]

00:36:08 ◼   ► never did [TS]

00:36:09 ◼   ► it's one of those things where I Howard [TS]

00:36:11 ◼   ► is going to get a letter someday the 15 [TS]

00:36:14 ◼   ► years from now that says we have [TS]

00:36:17 ◼   ► undiscovered moneys for you and he's [TS]

00:36:21 ◼   ► gonna be like what could this possibly [TS]

00:36:22 ◼   ► be and he's not gonna remember and I [TS]

00:36:24 ◼   ► have not spoken to her in years that [TS]

00:36:27 ◼   ► four hundred dollars just that's i have [TS]

00:36:30 ◼   ► just decided that that is four hundred [TS]

00:36:31 ◼   ► dollars i'm never i'm not going to [TS]

00:36:33 ◼   ► pursue I just wanted to go out into the [TS]

00:36:36 ◼   ► world and pay for some pay retribution [TS]

00:36:39 ◼   ► in some way for some crime I committed [TS]

00:36:40 ◼   ► against the city the people of the city [TS]

00:36:43 ◼   ► yeah like Ben Franklin says you know [TS]

00:36:45 ◼   ► it's a child every day if it that you [TS]

00:36:47 ◼   ► don't know what it's for they will I'm [TS]

00:36:50 ◼   ► sure you can find a good use for this [TS]

00:36:51 ◼   ► country you could recreate so this this [TS]

00:36:54 ◼   ► phone call if nothing else it's to pay [TS]

00:36:57 ◼   ► for all the parking meters that I didn't [TS]

00:36:59 ◼   ► put quarters in when I just ran into a [TS]

00:37:01 ◼   ► drugstore whatever he's down he's got [TS]

00:37:03 ◼   ► some interesting threads to this um I [TS]

00:37:06 ◼   ► hope it's interesting i think it's super [TS]

00:37:08 ◼   ► interesting people are gonna be [TS]

00:37:10 ◼   ► terrified by this but the you know that [TS]

00:37:14 ◼   ► thing of you you talking about your [TS]

00:37:15 ◼   ► morning on your permanent record which I [TS]

00:37:17 ◼   ► by on one level but there's also just a [TS]

00:37:19 ◼   ► sense of like you know not the invasion [TS]

00:37:22 ◼   ► is the wrong word but there's the sense [TS]

00:37:24 ◼   ► of like I'm running and I'm still [TS]

00:37:26 ◼   ► running and like well of course I'm not [TS]

00:37:28 ◼   ► gonna tell them i'm trippin like I'm not [TS]

00:37:29 ◼   ► fucking stupid i may be high but I'm not [TS]

00:37:31 ◼   ► high you know about that but the [TS]

00:37:33 ◼   ► permanent record thing has had a had a [TS]

00:37:35 ◼   ► more profound effect on me then then [TS]

00:37:39 ◼   ► that might be obvious really close to [TS]

00:37:42 ◼   ► say though is like a cubic we do the [TS]

00:37:43 ◼   ► same thing as the four hundred dollars [TS]

00:37:44 ◼   ► there's times when a roll of quarters [TS]

00:37:46 ◼   ► makes all the difference i mean big time [TS]

00:37:47 ◼   ► you know i mean its end and so I mean [TS]

00:37:50 ◼   ► but there's this this ongoing threat of [TS]

00:37:51 ◼   ► like again you're your body's like all [TS]

00:37:54 ◼   ► mostly held together you're walking [TS]

00:37:55 ◼   ► around you're kind of keeping it [TS]

00:37:57 ◼   ► together on some level you're not like [TS]

00:37:58 ◼   ► you know change in a dungeon somewhere [TS]

00:38:00 ◼   ► but like yeah you're out and about but [TS]

00:38:02 ◼   ► at the same time like you're on the edge [TS]

00:38:04 ◼   ► and you're going to be always looking [TS]

00:38:06 ◼   ► for that tiny little adjustment he keeps [TS]

00:38:08 ◼   ► you free and moving and you know drunk [TS]

00:38:12 ◼   ► or whatever right over the thing that's [TS]

00:38:13 ◼   ► going to the other way and that's [TS]

00:38:15 ◼   ► absolutely true but because i have it [TS]

00:38:17 ◼   ► was a habit [TS]

00:38:18 ◼   ► there was a simultaneous narrative going [TS]

00:38:20 ◼   ► on in my head [TS]

00:38:21 ◼   ► the whole life that was instilled by my [TS]

00:38:24 ◼   ► my my my father primarily because my dad [TS]

00:38:28 ◼   ► was a politician my uncle was a [TS]

00:38:29 ◼   ► politician my great-uncle was a [TS]

00:38:31 ◼   ► politician my great uncle who raised my [TS]

00:38:33 ◼   ► dad they were all politicians and their [TS]

00:38:39 ◼   ► ambition for me was to also be a [TS]

00:38:41 ◼   ► politician and two and i think to be [TS]

00:38:43 ◼   ► finally up like a politician on a [TS]

00:38:47 ◼   ► national scale like these guys were all [TS]

00:38:49 ◼   ► local politicians in the northwest and [TS]

00:38:53 ◼   ► they were in the back rooms smoking [TS]

00:38:56 ◼   ► cigars and handshakes and making the [TS]

00:38:58 ◼   ► making the port run and you know in [TS]

00:39:03 ◼   ► trading suits and tires with each other [TS]

00:39:05 ◼   ► but they have had ambition for me that I [TS]

00:39:08 ◼   ► would go on to national office and that [TS]

00:39:10 ◼   ► that would somehow validate our [TS]

00:39:12 ◼   ► political dynasty [TS]

00:39:15 ◼   ► oh you're like the not jack not Ted here [TS]

00:39:20 ◼   ► like the the good candidate you're like [TS]

00:39:21 ◼   ► the community that Joe just he died in [TS]

00:39:24 ◼   ► the war I got a job in the world Joe is [TS]

00:39:26 ◼   ► like the chosen one he was the one that [TS]

00:39:27 ◼   ► that I was gonna be big [TS]

00:39:30 ◼   ► he was anointed and Joe died in a [TS]

00:39:31 ◼   ► suicide mission [TS]

00:39:33 ◼   ► you told me about this what they fucked [TS]

00:39:35 ◼   ► him over with his aircraft right now I [TS]

00:39:37 ◼   ► don't think they fucking motor was [TS]

00:39:38 ◼   ► getting into it was one of those like we [TS]

00:39:41 ◼   ► don't know what happened but he was in a [TS]

00:39:42 ◼   ► he was in a bar right loaded with [TS]

00:39:45 ◼   ► explosives that his job was to fly it [TS]

00:39:47 ◼   ► over and and like bail out of it and [TS]

00:39:50 ◼   ► after he pointed it at 0 and a 1 a damn [TS]

00:39:54 ◼   ► i don't i don't remember what it what is [TS]

00:39:56 ◼   ► what this bucket i think was a damn he [TS]

00:39:59 ◼   ► was using this in Europe it was in [TS]

00:40:01 ◼   ► Europe [TS]

00:40:01 ◼   ► yeah he was flying a bomber loaded with [TS]

00:40:03 ◼   ► explosives and he armed the bombs he [TS]

00:40:06 ◼   ► armed explosives after he was over the [TS]

00:40:07 ◼   ► English Channel and either set either [TS]

00:40:11 ◼   ► slipped on a banana peel and pushed the [TS]

00:40:13 ◼   ► wrong button or somebody in one of the I [TS]

00:40:16 ◼   ► think he was here there was a chase [TS]

00:40:17 ◼   ► plane that was supposed to after he Bob [TS]

00:40:20 ◼   ► after he dived out the chase point was [TS]

00:40:21 ◼   ► supposed to follow the bomber down and I [TS]

00:40:23 ◼   ► whatever maybe there's a short in the [TS]

00:40:25 ◼   ► electrical system but the thing blew up [TS]

00:40:26 ◼   ► into a million billion trillion pieces [TS]

00:40:28 ◼   ► in the middle [TS]

00:40:29 ◼   ► what a failure on so many levels yeah [TS]

00:40:31 ◼   ► you said you touch my chicken shit thing [TS]

00:40:33 ◼   ► to do but then it's also i mean i don't [TS]

00:40:35 ◼   ► know who might say I'm not in the [TS]

00:40:37 ◼   ► service but like then it's also like [TS]

00:40:38 ◼   ► that what a waste of a dude and like [TS]

00:40:41 ◼   ► what a what a what a waste of a plane to [TS]

00:40:44 ◼   ► all those bombs [TS]

00:40:46 ◼   ► yeah i mean you can put those bombs to [TS]

00:40:47 ◼   ► good use i mean that is that is in on [TS]

00:40:49 ◼   ► civilians it is a strategic target to [TS]

00:40:51 ◼   ► hit a damn i guess [TS]

00:40:53 ◼   ► oh yeah big deal it's a getting a damn [TS]

00:40:54 ◼   ► is a big deal and war because it's all [TS]

00:40:57 ◼   ► it's all that electricity electricity [TS]

00:40:58 ◼   ► and plans you know but Anna and and if [TS]

00:41:02 ◼   ► he's in the dad will send a big tidal [TS]

00:41:04 ◼   ► wave down the valley that can and [TS]

00:41:06 ◼   ► particularly if you believe the plot of [TS]

00:41:07 ◼   ► force 10 from navarone that's what [TS]

00:41:09 ◼   ► Harrison Ford right yeah let's get any [TS]

00:41:11 ◼   ► the water from the dam can knock out the [TS]

00:41:13 ◼   ► bridge where the Germans are coming [TS]

00:41:15 ◼   ► across to attack the partisan see now [TS]

00:41:17 ◼   ► that you get a twofer a twofer [TS]

00:41:19 ◼   ► okay so you were Joe you're going to be [TS]

00:41:21 ◼   ► talking there's different just senior [TS]

00:41:23 ◼   ► and you told me you were going to be [TS]

00:41:25 ◼   ► judging i was gonna be Joe Jr and so [TS]

00:41:27 ◼   ► anyway even at the even at the point [TS]

00:41:29 ◼   ► when I was living very much in a kind of [TS]

00:41:32 ◼   ► hand to mouth or like hand to drugs to [TS]

00:41:36 ◼   ► mouth way there was always a narrative [TS]

00:41:41 ◼   ► in the back of my head that I needed to [TS]

00:41:42 ◼   ► protect my reputation because i needed [TS]

00:41:47 ◼   ► to be able to because when they [TS]

00:41:49 ◼   ► investigated me for top secret clearance [TS]

00:41:51 ◼   ► right I needed to be able to pass up [TS]

00:41:56 ◼   ► because i was one day going to be a [TS]

00:41:57 ◼   ► united states senator and these two and [TS]

00:42:01 ◼   ► these two totally incompatible [TS]

00:42:03 ◼   ► narratives the one where I was like a [TS]

00:42:08 ◼   ► scrounging in the carpet for invisible [TS]

00:42:12 ◼   ► crack rocks that i might have that [TS]

00:42:14 ◼   ► matter dropped and ended up you know [TS]

00:42:17 ◼   ► smoking somebody's dog dander because i [TS]

00:42:21 ◼   ► was sure that it was some kind of drugs [TS]

00:42:22 ◼   ► that had fallen in the carpet that [TS]

00:42:24 ◼   ► narrative simultaneous with this but I [TS]

00:42:27 ◼   ► can't let anybody know because i'm going [TS]

00:42:28 ◼   ► to be a united states senator one day it [TS]

00:42:31 ◼   ► there there's a there's still a version [TS]

00:42:33 ◼   ► of it in me now and I and I know [TS]

00:42:36 ◼   ► I think about this sometimes that I'm on [TS]

00:42:39 ◼   ► record now and the problem would not be [TS]

00:42:42 ◼   ► that I'm now on record admitting to [TS]

00:42:44 ◼   ► having done a a a cornucopia of drugs [TS]

00:42:49 ◼   ► literally a horn of plenty of drugs [TS]

00:42:51 ◼   ► thanksgiving decoration full of drugs [TS]

00:42:54 ◼   ► some of which people have never even [TS]

00:42:56 ◼   ► heard of full of games and many pumpkins [TS]

00:42:58 ◼   ► and handbags and I just week and you [TS]

00:43:03 ◼   ► know I did I did every kind of squeak [TS]

00:43:05 ◼   ► squeak [TS]

00:43:06 ◼   ► well now i'm looking up later fuck yeah [TS]

00:43:08 ◼   ► I told you but anyway it's not it's not [TS]

00:43:10 ◼   ► as the Cornucopia itself is not the [TS]

00:43:12 ◼   ► problem in the admission of cornucopia [TS]

00:43:14 ◼   ► well but even if but but that isn't even [TS]

00:43:16 ◼   ► the primary problem the primary problem [TS]

00:43:18 ◼   ► for me being elected to the United [TS]

00:43:20 ◼   ► States Senate is that i have yet but I [TS]

00:43:22 ◼   ► have gone on record a thousand times [TS]

00:43:26 ◼   ► saying a seattle is a dumpy little [TS]

00:43:29 ◼   ► shithole and and you have people who [TS]

00:43:34 ◼   ► believe in God are dumbasses and you [TS]

00:43:40 ◼   ► know that everybody that doesn't know [TS]

00:43:42 ◼   ► how to drive in snow should be taking a [TS]

00:43:44 ◼   ► late line up against a wall and shot etc [TS]

00:43:46 ◼   ► etc so that it's storming the embassy if [TS]

00:43:50 ◼   ► there are numerous there are numerous [TS]

00:43:52 ◼   ► numerous closets with numerous bones [TS]

00:43:54 ◼   ► yeah if there is an opposition [TS]

00:43:55 ◼   ► researcher was was given the task of [TS]

00:43:59 ◼   ► educating not leave any I'm just imagine [TS]

00:44:01 ◼   ► the process of vetting you like whether [TS]

00:44:02 ◼   ► the guys in the back room with the [TS]

00:44:04 ◼   ► cigars i got like as John Martin [TS]

00:44:05 ◼   ► Roderick I think it'd be a fella that's [TS]

00:44:08 ◼   ► right and just runs the basic checks [TS]

00:44:09 ◼   ► Ollie said fucking cornucopia an [TS]

00:44:14 ◼   ► opposition researcher would be rolling [TS]

00:44:15 ◼   ► on the floor laughing within 30 seconds [TS]

00:44:18 ◼   ► of trying to dig up some dirt on me [TS]

00:44:20 ◼   ► because how am I going to run for how I [TS]

00:44:22 ◼   ► can run for office in seattle out having [TS]

00:44:26 ◼   ► said all the things that I've said we're [TS]

00:44:28 ◼   ► just pointing out all the ways that you [TS]

00:44:29 ◼   ► can help it you know it's like my mom [TS]

00:44:30 ◼   ► would say when I got a c-minus he knows [TS]

00:44:32 ◼   ► room for opportunity to improve well and [TS]

00:44:35 ◼   ► it's what i would do at what what I've [TS]

00:44:37 ◼   ► always imagined is what Bill Clinton [TS]

00:44:40 ◼   ► should have done when they asked him [TS]

00:44:41 ◼   ► whether or not he'd slept with Monica [TS]

00:44:43 ◼   ► Lewinsky who [TS]

00:44:45 ◼   ► you know I i never understood why he [TS]

00:44:48 ◼   ► didn't look at wedding face down the [TS]

00:44:49 ◼   ► cameras and say that's not a none of [TS]

00:44:52 ◼   ► anybody's business next question instead [TS]

00:44:55 ◼   ► instead of instead of falling back on [TS]

00:44:57 ◼   ► parsing words it's very hemming and [TS]

00:44:59 ◼   ► hawing and saying like well you know [TS]

00:45:01 ◼   ► about Peppa to depict I like that [TS]

00:45:05 ◼   ► they're there is there will come a time [TS]

00:45:06 ◼   ► and we've already seen it was wet with [TS]

00:45:09 ◼   ► the Barack Obama's admission not only [TS]

00:45:11 ◼   ► having smoked marijuana but have done [TS]

00:45:13 ◼   ► cocaine and he you know he admitted to [TS]

00:45:16 ◼   ► it in his book and then he said I had [TS]

00:45:19 ◼   ► it's a it's not a pertinent question is [TS]

00:45:21 ◼   ► that it doesn't bear on my ability to [TS]

00:45:23 ◼   ► govern next question right and if Bill [TS]

00:45:26 ◼   ► Clinton had just said that's not [TS]

00:45:28 ◼   ► anybody's business and if they had [TS]

00:45:29 ◼   ► continued to throw questions at him she [TS]

00:45:33 ◼   ► said alright the press conference is [TS]

00:45:34 ◼   ► over i'll be back when you can figure [TS]

00:45:36 ◼   ► out i'll be back when you the press [TS]

00:45:38 ◼   ► corps have grown up enough you can [TS]

00:45:40 ◼   ► figure out some reasonable questions to [TS]

00:45:43 ◼   ► ask the President of the United States [TS]

00:45:44 ◼   ► goodbye right and if he doesn't come [TS]

00:45:47 ◼   ► back when you're ready to ask a grown-up [TS]

00:45:48 ◼   ► question about running the world [TS]

00:45:50 ◼   ► yeah because what would it would end up [TS]

00:45:52 ◼   ► being Clinton's undoing was not that he [TS]

00:45:53 ◼   ► slept with Monica Lewinsky that he lied [TS]

00:45:55 ◼   ► about it and so there will come a time [TS]

00:45:59 ◼   ► well so he lied about it in an age where [TS]

00:46:02 ◼   ► is the line about it was not something [TS]

00:46:04 ◼   ► that he could count on everybody to help [TS]

00:46:06 ◼   ► him paper over we were was ok for us to [TS]

00:46:08 ◼   ► not make a big deal of how much help [TS]

00:46:10 ◼   ► Britain Got walking up to the lectern [TS]

00:46:12 ◼   ► and we had our reasons right there was [TS]

00:46:14 ◼   ► there was just a kind of decorum at the [TS]

00:46:16 ◼   ► time where you know Kennedy got so much [TS]

00:46:18 ◼   ► more tail than Clinton do you think I [TS]

00:46:20 ◼   ► mean community had a lot of lot of [TS]

00:46:23 ◼   ► intercourse but the problem with Kennedy [TS]

00:46:26 ◼   ► wasn't that he wasn't just that he had [TS]

00:46:28 ◼   ► intercourse with her that he had that he [TS]

00:46:31 ◼   ► made congress with a lot of young ladies [TS]

00:46:33 ◼   ► but Kennedy was completely doped up 24 [TS]

00:46:37 ◼   ► hours a day because of the was Addison's [TS]

00:46:39 ◼   ► disease [TS]

00:46:40 ◼   ► yeah i mean he was in he was in [TS]

00:46:41 ◼   ► excruciating pain right barely he could [TS]

00:46:43 ◼   ► barely walk and dr. feelgood was [TS]

00:46:45 ◼   ► shooting a cocktail event Federman's [TS]

00:46:48 ◼   ► asset that's the other cover-up thing [TS]

00:46:50 ◼   ► that's so interesting the joe i think [TS]

00:46:51 ◼   ► didn't have to have a big role in that [TS]

00:46:53 ◼   ► of like nobody ever finds out that like [TS]

00:46:55 ◼   ► every every place the president ever [TS]

00:46:57 ◼   ► goes is is full of all kinds of drugs [TS]

00:47:00 ◼   ► for helping him get by but then all [TS]

00:47:02 ◼   ► kinds of stuff in case he just goes tits [TS]

00:47:04 ◼   ► up and if that's a serious security risk [TS]

00:47:06 ◼   ► during like the cuban missile crisis [TS]

00:47:09 ◼   ► like this would have been nice to know [TS]

00:47:10 ◼   ► yeah well i know i mean if you if you [TS]

00:47:13 ◼   ► think about now like john-john Kennedy [TS]

00:47:17 ◼   ► would not only would he never be elected [TS]

00:47:19 ◼   ► president States but john kennedy from a [TS]

00:47:21 ◼   ► very young age would have been treated [TS]

00:47:24 ◼   ► as a special little flower who needs it [TS]

00:47:26 ◼   ► needs a little cup with his medication [TS]

00:47:29 ◼   ► in it every day at lunch and every day [TS]

00:47:31 ◼   ► you know like John Kennedy way like i [TS]

00:47:34 ◼   ► said he'd be seen as kind of a fag [TS]

00:47:35 ◼   ► because your books and read books and [TS]

00:47:37 ◼   ► stuff is maybe I think about who john [TS]

00:47:39 ◼   ► kennedy was he is entirely the product [TS]

00:47:42 ◼   ► of a being bullied by his father and his [TS]

00:47:44 ◼   ► older brothers and of course we've made [TS]

00:47:46 ◼   ► that illegal now you can't bully a kid [TS]

00:47:48 ◼   ► and and also he was frail and teased and [TS]

00:47:53 ◼   ► so he you know he fought and fought and [TS]

00:47:56 ◼   ► fought against being frail and and sick [TS]

00:47:59 ◼   ► and bullied and he became president the [TS]

00:48:03 ◼   ► united states but that we've made all [TS]

00:48:05 ◼   ► those things illegal now so well he got [TS]

00:48:07 ◼   ► only a lot of help from Kennedy would be [TS]

00:48:10 ◼   ► a lot of Health getting into office [TS]

00:48:11 ◼   ► right now he'd be somewhere [TS]

00:48:13 ◼   ► riding on his blog about his struggles [TS]

00:48:17 ◼   ► with the you know he put his struggles [TS]

00:48:20 ◼   ► to get get the right ad cocktail [TS]

00:48:24 ◼   ► yeah and treasurer and yeah but I get a [TS]

00:48:26 ◼   ► lot of people there's a lot of there's a [TS]

00:48:28 ◼   ► lot of people in their fifties in the [TS]

00:48:30 ◼   ► South right now riding around on boats [TS]

00:48:31 ◼   ► it there Sheriff grandfather's got spot [TS]

00:48:33 ◼   ► with Joe Kennedy's money [TS]

00:48:35 ◼   ► oh don't worry it's gonna be fine you're [TS]

00:48:38 ◼   ► fine you're gonna get you're gonna carry [TS]

00:48:40 ◼   ► you but no problem [TS]

00:48:42 ◼   ► they're all nickname Gator it said the [TS]

00:48:45 ◼   ► other Gator here's the problem it's 47 [TS]

00:48:48 ◼   ► minutes and 56 seconds too late to make [TS]

00:48:50 ◼   ► this funny show but like this is the [TS]

00:48:52 ◼   ► thing and this is why i think the Senate [TS]

00:48:54 ◼   ► might be a waste of your time but it's [TS]

00:48:56 ◼   ► certainly we should be in Special Forces [TS]

00:48:57 ◼   ► it certainly is you being elected I [TS]

00:48:59 ◼   ► think it's probably just a bad idea for [TS]

00:49:00 ◼   ► a variety of reasons logo i think that i [TS]

00:49:02 ◼   ► think would be a tremendous idea the [TS]

00:49:03 ◼   ► problem is that what that you got to get [TS]

00:49:05 ◼   ► elected you should order the line is you [TS]

00:49:08 ◼   ► got to have stupid people like you [TS]

00:49:10 ◼   ► yeah but stupid people [TS]

00:49:11 ◼   ► always like me are you kidding me right [TS]

00:49:14 ◼   ► stupid people think i'm aware you feel [TS]

00:49:15 ◼   ► like you really get on with stupid [TS]

00:49:17 ◼   ► people i mean i can get on with all [TS]

00:49:19 ◼   ► kinds of people that could you adjust [TS]

00:49:20 ◼   ► these no you don't you don't adopt a [TS]

00:49:22 ◼   ► patois but you feel like you adjust are [TS]

00:49:24 ◼   ► you able to convincingly uh what's [TS]

00:49:27 ◼   ► squelch down your belt and strong when [TS]

00:49:30 ◼   ► you need to [TS]

00:49:30 ◼   ► I i think it has to do with [TS]

00:49:33 ◼   ► understanding for spending a lot of time [TS]

00:49:36 ◼   ► trying to understand someone who does [TS]

00:49:39 ◼   ► not want to make a mental effort but [TS]

00:49:44 ◼   ► prefers to make an emotional effort to [TS]

00:49:47 ◼   ► but prefers to interact with the world [TS]

00:49:49 ◼   ► strictly on our kind of like immediate [TS]

00:49:53 ◼   ► emotional basis her and not sit and [TS]

00:49:56 ◼   ► think about even the basic building [TS]

00:49:59 ◼   ► blocks of a what their experiences but [TS]

00:50:02 ◼   ► just react to it emotionally and [TS]

00:50:05 ◼   ► immediately and I've tried to explain my [TS]

00:50:07 ◼   ► thinking again was in while in [TS]

00:50:08 ◼   ► simplified version taking taking many [TS]

00:50:11 ◼   ► things at face value without considering [TS]

00:50:14 ◼   ► in my case one of my obsessions is what [TS]

00:50:16 ◼   ► is whether it's a compliment or an [TS]

00:50:18 ◼   ► insult or to be honest guys with ax [TS]

00:50:21 ◼   ► handles like what's really going on [TS]

00:50:23 ◼   ► there like that what is being said and [TS]

00:50:24 ◼   ► what's being not said when the whole [TS]

00:50:25 ◼   ► time you're telling a story and all I [TS]

00:50:28 ◼   ► could see was scared guys like they're [TS]

00:50:29 ◼   ► not real tough guys like real tough guys [TS]

00:50:32 ◼   ► wouldn't need three of them in ax [TS]

00:50:33 ◼   ► handles like they were scared and they [TS]

00:50:35 ◼   ► kept hitting you after they couldn't [TS]

00:50:36 ◼   ► stop because now they're adrenalin was [TS]

00:50:38 ◼   ► high and they realize they could do it [TS]

00:50:39 ◼   ► yeah you know and that's Matt and they [TS]

00:50:41 ◼   ► weren't listening to me as I was [TS]

00:50:43 ◼   ► patiently explaining to them all the [TS]

00:50:44 ◼   ► reasons why me [TS]

00:50:45 ◼   ► lighting this poster on fire a wasn't [TS]

00:50:47 ◼   ► their business and be wasn't really a [TS]

00:50:49 ◼   ► bigger reason that you guys can have [TS]

00:50:50 ◼   ► just found something to do together as a [TS]

00:50:52 ◼   ► project right now i mean i think that [TS]

00:50:54 ◼   ► the Venn diagram for that you certainly [TS]

00:50:56 ◼   ► had time to dry but I mean like that [TS]

00:50:58 ◼   ► with there's a lot more to it and that's [TS]

00:51:00 ◼   ► all that's one of the four of us take [TS]

00:51:01 ◼   ► these bats and this lighter who and go [TS]

00:51:03 ◼   ► like make a make a fire someone soup [TS]

00:51:07 ◼   ► right i have some fun [TS]

00:51:08 ◼   ► it's like if you get but the dumb people [TS]

00:51:10 ◼   ► think they don't like Saddam I mean you [TS]

00:51:12 ◼   ► know that stupidly abled are na ah i [TS]

00:51:17 ◼   ► think it's it's not i feels to me like [TS]

00:51:19 ◼   ► from a remove [TS]

00:51:20 ◼   ► it feels like even with my friends who [TS]

00:51:22 ◼   ► are really really smart and are so into [TS]

00:51:24 ◼   ► the politics you know they are they're [TS]

00:51:26 ◼   ► so smart people let me just stipulate [TS]

00:51:28 ◼   ► but along the line especially in [TS]

00:51:30 ◼   ► politics there's just so much branding [TS]

00:51:32 ◼   ► and looking for somebody that says [TS]

00:51:34 ◼   ► something you can agree with without [TS]

00:51:36 ◼   ► doing any of your due diligence on how [TS]

00:51:38 ◼   ► that you know comports with what they've [TS]

00:51:40 ◼   ► done in their life you know what I mean [TS]

00:51:42 ◼   ► and like you're not out there going like [TS]

00:51:44 ◼   ► well here's a chart showing like what i [TS]

00:51:45 ◼   ► should say this week you would be [TS]

00:51:47 ◼   ► somebody you could go out there and say [TS]

00:51:48 ◼   ► like believe me I understand being [TS]

00:51:49 ◼   ► fucked up [TS]

00:51:50 ◼   ► I've been pretty fucked out now that [TS]

00:51:52 ◼   ► that but also immediate all politics is [TS]

00:51:55 ◼   ► local as the is the phrase and one of [TS]

00:51:58 ◼   ► the things that I learned growing up in [TS]

00:51:59 ◼   ► surrounded by people in politics was [TS]

00:52:03 ◼   ► that but the e you get so you get so [TS]

00:52:11 ◼   ► much of of what is what ultimately is [TS]

00:52:13 ◼   ► national politics but ultimately is all [TS]

00:52:15 ◼   ► this like what are we going to do with [TS]

00:52:17 ◼   ► our bodies what are we going to do with [TS]

00:52:18 ◼   ► this what are we gonna do with that that [TS]

00:52:20 ◼   ► these different versions of a of what we [TS]

00:52:24 ◼   ► imagine his government and it all comes [TS]

00:52:26 ◼   ► down to ultimately different ideas of [TS]

00:52:29 ◼   ► public land use policy you know it all [TS]

00:52:32 ◼   ► comes down to zoning in a way and zoning [TS]

00:52:35 ◼   ► is a way that you can really get inside [TS]

00:52:38 ◼   ► your neighbors heads and zoning is a way [TS]

00:52:41 ◼   ► that you can start to understand why [TS]

00:52:43 ◼   ► stupid people are so mad all the time [TS]

00:52:44 ◼   ► because when you're trying to govern a [TS]

00:52:47 ◼   ► city you're looking at zoning and you're [TS]

00:52:51 ◼   ► saying this is going to be our business [TS]

00:52:53 ◼   ► district this area over here is the [TS]

00:52:55 ◼   ► these are going to be farms and if a guy [TS]

00:52:58 ◼   ► wants to build a skyscraper out here on [TS]

00:53:00 ◼   ► a farm [TS]

00:53:02 ◼   ► we're not going to let him do it because [TS]

00:53:03 ◼   ► we don't have the infrastructure there [TS]

00:53:05 ◼   ► that's not where you get to build [TS]

00:53:06 ◼   ► skyscrapers so we're workin finding the [TS]

00:53:09 ◼   ► skyscrapers to downtown [TS]

00:53:11 ◼   ► well so the guy that owns the farm says [TS]

00:53:16 ◼   ► who the hell are those guys downtown to [TS]

00:53:17 ◼   ► tell me I can't build a skyscraper here [TS]

00:53:19 ◼   ► because not so much about skyscrapers as [TS]

00:53:22 ◼   ► that this larger states rights it should [TS]

00:53:25 ◼   ► become the state's rights not expressly [TS]

00:53:27 ◼   ► know what I mean that's exactly states [TS]

00:53:29 ◼   ► like note in the states rights and [TS]

00:53:30 ◼   ► decoded sense of I'm the south and [TS]

00:53:32 ◼   ► nobody's gonna fucking tell me [TS]

00:53:33 ◼   ► to do right and that happens everywhere [TS]

00:53:35 ◼   ► you go and watching it here in seattle [TS]

00:53:37 ◼   ► where for a long time there was no there [TS]

00:53:40 ◼   ► was no zoning and people were just going [TS]

00:53:42 ◼   ► out and they were buying 500 acres of [TS]

00:53:45 ◼   ► farmland right on the edge of town and [TS]

00:53:48 ◼   ► they were building a cookie cutter [TS]

00:53:49 ◼   ► development as fast as they could nail [TS]

00:53:52 ◼   ► it on her until there were no farms left [TS]

00:53:54 ◼   ► and so the city so everybody's [TS]

00:53:57 ◼   ► complaining to the city why are you [TS]

00:53:58 ◼   ► letting them do this with your they're [TS]

00:54:00 ◼   ► ruining the city and so the city says [TS]

00:54:02 ◼   ► okay I you can't do that anymore [TS]

00:54:05 ◼   ► you can't be can't we're going to [TS]

00:54:07 ◼   ► preserve that farmland and we're going [TS]

00:54:10 ◼   ► to concentrate development downtown [TS]

00:54:13 ◼   ► well I'm instantly every farmer within [TS]

00:54:17 ◼   ► 400 miles of seattle was infuriated not [TS]

00:54:20 ◼   ► but not because most of them ever [TS]

00:54:22 ◼   ► intended to build a subdivision on their [TS]

00:54:25 ◼   ► farm but because the city had just taken [TS]

00:54:27 ◼   ► away that possibility but it said you [TS]

00:54:28 ◼   ► know it's like passing a law that says [TS]

00:54:30 ◼   ► it's illegal it's still legal for you to [TS]

00:54:33 ◼   ► win a lottery up to a hundred and [TS]

00:54:34 ◼   ► seventeen dollars but you're not allowed [TS]

00:54:36 ◼   ► to win a lottery over 15 million dollars [TS]

00:54:39 ◼   ► right [TS]

00:54:40 ◼   ► think about that for a second right you [TS]

00:54:41 ◼   ► go to somebody you know what here's the [TS]

00:54:43 ◼   ► thing you can keep playing for somebody [TS]

00:54:44 ◼   ► said to me [TS]

00:54:45 ◼   ► whoa whoa nobody's gonna take my way my [TS]

00:54:47 ◼   ► right to win a hundred and seven in [TS]

00:54:48 ◼   ► there are millions and millions of [TS]

00:54:50 ◼   ► millions of dollars even there's no [TS]

00:54:51 ◼   ► fucking way in the entire world that [TS]

00:54:52 ◼   ► they're ever gonna win the lottery the [TS]

00:54:54 ◼   ► fact that you've taken away their right [TS]

00:54:55 ◼   ► to do that every component to be small [TS]

00:54:57 ◼   ► potatoes is is philosophically at odds [TS]

00:55:01 ◼   ► with those folks now [TS]

00:55:02 ◼   ► well not just that but but you're at [TS]

00:55:04 ◼   ► you're going to if you want to each one [TS]

00:55:05 ◼   ► of these farmers and set down in the [TS]

00:55:07 ◼   ► living room you said listen do you want [TS]

00:55:08 ◼   ► to see a world where there are no more [TS]

00:55:10 ◼   ► farms they would say of course not right [TS]

00:55:15 ◼   ► it's like selling somebody a vacuum [TS]

00:55:17 ◼   ► cleaner you just get them to say yes [TS]

00:55:18 ◼   ► five times and somewhere around the 7th [TS]

00:55:21 ◼   ► or 8th time they will buy a fucking [TS]

00:55:22 ◼   ► vacuum cleaner is what they've gotten so [TS]

00:55:23 ◼   ► used to saying yes would you say that [TS]

00:55:25 ◼   ► the life of your children is more [TS]

00:55:27 ◼   ► important than the fat cats on Wall [TS]

00:55:28 ◼   ► Street [TS]

00:55:29 ◼   ► oh my god yes what the fuck is an [TS]

00:55:31 ◼   ► infraction and then people use that same [TS]

00:55:33 ◼   ► sentence to sell both political views [TS]

00:55:35 ◼   ► absolutely absolutely but but if you go [TS]

00:55:37 ◼   ► to if you go to America and you say we [TS]

00:55:40 ◼   ► do you want to see the death of the [TS]

00:55:41 ◼   ► family farm in your lifetime [TS]

00:55:42 ◼   ► they're all going to say no if you say [TS]

00:55:44 ◼   ► okay in that case eat [TS]

00:55:46 ◼   ► where we have passed a law that you can [TS]

00:55:48 ◼   ► no longer develop your property they're [TS]

00:55:51 ◼   ► going to say well I want that line drawn [TS]

00:55:54 ◼   ► right on the other side of me you know [TS]

00:55:57 ◼   ► that restriction placed right on the [TS]

00:55:59 ◼   ► other side of my opportunity to develop [TS]

00:56:01 ◼   ► my farm and make a hundred million [TS]

00:56:03 ◼   ► dollars even if I never do it how many [TS]

00:56:05 ◼   ► people would stop to think that if you [TS]

00:56:06 ◼   ► really want to keep family farms alive [TS]

00:56:07 ◼   ► you probably shouldn't let fucking [TS]

00:56:08 ◼   ► skyscrapers people don them right now a [TS]

00:56:11 ◼   ► lot of family farm anymore it's like if [TS]

00:56:13 ◼   ► you agree if we agree you're gonna have [TS]

00:56:15 ◼   ► to make this sacrifice we all make [TS]

00:56:16 ◼   ► sacrifices you as a farm owner are going [TS]

00:56:18 ◼   ► to have to make this sacrifice and [TS]

00:56:21 ◼   ► that's the point at which right [TS]

00:56:23 ◼   ► most people don't want to be the one [TS]

00:56:25 ◼   ► hand and most people walk away from that [TS]

00:56:27 ◼   ► encounter not thinking about the big [TS]

00:56:29 ◼   ► picture but saying to themselves and [TS]

00:56:31 ◼   ► this is the narrative of the whole of [TS]

00:56:33 ◼   ► all conservatism which is why am I the [TS]

00:56:37 ◼   ► one that has to make the sacrifice right [TS]

00:56:39 ◼   ► if you listen to anyone on the [TS]

00:56:41 ◼   ► conservative spectrum talk about being [TS]

00:56:44 ◼   ► asked to make sacrifices they all they [TS]

00:56:47 ◼   ► all speak about it in language as though [TS]

00:56:49 ◼   ► they are the only one who ever had to [TS]

00:56:51 ◼   ► make a sacrifice and so so that's the [TS]

00:56:55 ◼   ► difference between you know that that is [TS]

00:56:57 ◼   ► where local politics expands to national [TS]

00:56:59 ◼   ► politics and that is a that is a world [TS]

00:57:01 ◼   ► I've spent my whole life trying to [TS]

00:57:02 ◼   ► understand so I feel like I could I [TS]

00:57:05 ◼   ► could I could easily run for office and [TS]

00:57:09 ◼   ► at least make myself understood to those [TS]

00:57:11 ◼   ► people because I because I understand i [TS]

00:57:14 ◼   ► can put myself any of us can put [TS]

00:57:16 ◼   ► ourselves in the shoes of feeling like [TS]

00:57:18 ◼   ► that kid on Christmas morning and all of [TS]

00:57:21 ◼   ► your brothers and sisters got a present [TS]

00:57:22 ◼   ► but the family ran out of money and [TS]

00:57:24 ◼   ► you're the one that doesn't get right on [TS]

00:57:26 ◼   ► it and let the risk of falling into this [TS]

00:57:28 ◼   ► but you know what lake off identifies in [TS]

00:57:30 ◼   ► that and I don't think an elephant book [TS]

00:57:32 ◼   ► the conservative model of government as [TS]

00:57:34 ◼   ► a family or nation as a family you know [TS]

00:57:36 ◼   ► that'sthat's paradigm that was very [TS]

00:57:38 ◼   ► effective like You Don't Tell I don't [TS]

00:57:39 ◼   ► need a permission slip to invade [TS]

00:57:41 ◼   ► Afghanistan are necessary iraq so forth [TS]

00:57:43 ◼   ► but i mean i think that family thing [TS]

00:57:45 ◼   ► think of it this way this is where it [TS]

00:57:46 ◼   ► becomes valuable to me is like imagined [TS]

00:57:49 ◼   ► like if you are a parent and you had god [TS]

00:57:52 ◼   ► forbid you had a bunch of kids under the [TS]

00:57:54 ◼   ► age of six like do they get to vote [TS]

00:57:56 ◼   ► about whether you're going to have mms [TS]

00:57:58 ◼   ► for dinner [TS]

00:57:59 ◼   ► like do they get of [TS]

00:57:59 ◼   ► but in that we would you say to them is [TS]

00:58:01 ◼   ► in the school is just a reminder on how [TS]

00:58:03 ◼   ► liberal you are because I know a lot of [TS]

00:58:06 ◼   ► money to bring your own bag lot of [TS]

00:58:09 ◼   ► hippie a lot of hippie parents around [TS]

00:58:10 ◼   ► here in Seattle they're like you want [TS]

00:58:11 ◼   ► you to stick of butter / dinner the [TS]

00:58:13 ◼   ► rights as long as vegan butter smeared [TS]

00:58:16 ◼   ► on a spider sugar the um no but i guess [TS]

00:58:19 ◼   ► i'm saying is a sound making them [TS]

00:58:20 ◼   ► business terribly mixed metaphor here [TS]

00:58:21 ◼   ► but but you know what i want is a [TS]

00:58:24 ◼   ► candidate and I've seen if they feel [TS]

00:58:25 ◼   ► like sometimes people like barney frank [TS]

00:58:26 ◼   ► or like people not just click because [TS]

00:58:28 ◼   ► the gate park because the [TS]

00:58:29 ◼   ► straight-talking part the occasional [TS]

00:58:30 ◼   ► straight-talking part of the politician [TS]

00:58:32 ◼   ► we're so what are my values if it is a [TS]

00:58:35 ◼   ► value it at least value in the sense if [TS]

00:58:37 ◼   ► I know when I'm fucking up at it i think [TS]

00:58:38 ◼   ► and i definitely see what other people [TS]

00:58:40 ◼   ► are fucking about it is like everything [TS]

00:58:41 ◼   ► that you are your green ok your green [TS]

00:58:44 ◼   ► for what cost to you know know that [TS]

00:58:47 ◼   ► green for like how much money it saves [TS]

00:58:49 ◼   ► you right and this is why bit with the [TS]

00:58:51 ◼   ► fucking hotels you go in and every [TS]

00:58:53 ◼   ► single thing they do to be green save [TS]

00:58:56 ◼   ► some money right and it does not save [TS]

00:58:58 ◼   ► you anything or well it's absolutely or [TS]

00:59:01 ◼   ► more stimulated this point if they [TS]

00:59:03 ◼   ► wanted to be green [TS]

00:59:04 ◼   ► why don't they spend whatever it takes [TS]

00:59:06 ◼   ► to become become completely solar light [TS]

00:59:10 ◼   ► or or whatever [TS]

00:59:11 ◼   ► why don't you what would it cost not for [TS]

00:59:13 ◼   ► you just to get more insulation to save [TS]

00:59:14 ◼   ► you money I get it but you don't get to [TS]

00:59:16 ◼   ► call yourself green just because you [TS]

00:59:18 ◼   ► save money you get to call yourself [TS]

00:59:19 ◼   ► green when you give things up [TS]

00:59:21 ◼   ► mhm including money including money and [TS]

00:59:24 ◼   ► that's the thing is fucking politics [TS]

00:59:25 ◼   ► that drives me bananas [TS]

00:59:26 ◼   ► there's two things in politics first of [TS]

00:59:28 ◼   ► all politics as pro wrestling it is [TS]

00:59:30 ◼   ► about as valuable to follow politics as [TS]

00:59:31 ◼   ► it is to follow for wrestling if you [TS]

00:59:33 ◼   ► enjoy you should do it but if you care [TS]

00:59:35 ◼   ► if i can change yourself get out there [TS]

00:59:36 ◼   ► be a man about it don't worry about [TS]

00:59:38 ◼   ► Twitter you don't time for twitter you [TS]

00:59:39 ◼   ► got to change the world gum we go now [TS]

00:59:41 ◼   ► here's the second one the second one is [TS]

00:59:42 ◼   ► what the fuck that you give up because [TS]

00:59:44 ◼   ► your ex so if you really care a lot [TS]

00:59:47 ◼   ► about anything I want to know what you [TS]

00:59:50 ◼   ► gave up for that not just even money you [TS]

00:59:53 ◼   ► know what I mean like I'm not for the [TS]

00:59:54 ◼   ► parent park ever comes in case somebody [TS]

00:59:56 ◼   ► comes up and goes what about the values [TS]

00:59:58 ◼   ► of the green space [TS]

00:59:58 ◼   ► of the green space [TS]

01:00:00 ◼   ► there what are we going to do for our [TS]

01:00:01 ◼   ► children and then the schools and it's [TS]

01:00:04 ◼   ► like I want to have politician can fire [TS]

01:00:06 ◼   ► straight back at that person and say [TS]

01:00:08 ◼   ► that's an excellent question let me ask [TS]

01:00:09 ◼   ► you what you're willing to pay for that [TS]

01:00:10 ◼   ► right and let me show you here's the way [TS]

01:00:12 ◼   ► it works we have this much pie and we [TS]

01:00:15 ◼   ► can cut it up in all kinds of ways but [TS]

01:00:17 ◼   ► every day I spend every day figuring out [TS]

01:00:19 ◼   ► who to disappoint least today right well [TS]

01:00:21 ◼   ► helping the most people and just because [TS]

01:00:23 ◼   ► you stood up there with your little [TS]

01:00:25 ◼   ► funny bag and give me some remarks but [TS]

01:00:27 ◼   ► you know I want somebody can fucking [TS]

01:00:28 ◼   ► take that person down and say here's why [TS]

01:00:31 ◼   ► we do that and then people like I think [TS]

01:00:33 ◼   ► you Harvey Milk was kinda like this you [TS]

01:00:35 ◼   ► can you get maybe it's all just a punk [TS]

01:00:36 ◼   ► bitch nobody straight-talking you can [TS]

01:00:39 ◼   ► say here's what that cost child probably [TS]

01:00:42 ◼   ► that though is that that that you do get [TS]

01:00:44 ◼   ► politicians like that like chris [TS]

01:00:46 ◼   ► Christie or even Mitt Romney with his [TS]

01:00:48 ◼   ► 47% comments [TS]

01:00:50 ◼   ► it's just that well as soon as you start [TS]

01:00:52 ◼   ► quote-unquote straight talking with [TS]

01:00:54 ◼   ► people you start saying things that you [TS]

01:00:58 ◼   ► know that the opposition is like here he [TS]

01:00:59 ◼   ► goes [TS]

01:01:00 ◼   ► I mean you-you-you see straight that [TS]

01:01:03 ◼   ► that the gift is to be able to say those [TS]

01:01:06 ◼   ► things in a way that the way where you [TS]

01:01:09 ◼   ► don't end up hanging by your own rope [TS]

01:01:11 ◼   ► when straight talk straight talk first [TS]

01:01:13 ◼   ► of all what pass i'm gonna shut up after [TS]

01:01:15 ◼   ► this fucking cares I don't care about [TS]

01:01:16 ◼   ► politics by what passes for population [TS]

01:01:19 ◼   ► today really bugs me because it is the [TS]

01:01:21 ◼   ► kind of populism that basically says if [TS]

01:01:22 ◼   ► there's any other single person in the [TS]

01:01:24 ◼   ► world that has the tiniest thing that [TS]

01:01:26 ◼   ► you don't whether you want it or not [TS]

01:01:27 ◼   ► like they're a dick and you're awesome [TS]

01:01:30 ◼   ► and you're fucking martyr and that [TS]

01:01:32 ◼   ► driving that is not populism that is [TS]

01:01:34 ◼   ► just selfish and stupid and Prevention [TS]

01:01:36 ◼   ► behavior like everybody's got problems [TS]

01:01:38 ◼   ► and if when you grow up you realize that [TS]

01:01:41 ◼   ► everybody's got different problems and [TS]

01:01:42 ◼   ► you can't always understand other [TS]

01:01:43 ◼   ► people's problems but that is exactly [TS]

01:01:45 ◼   ► the kind of attitude that opens us up to [TS]

01:01:48 ◼   ► these charlatans and so all these people [TS]

01:01:50 ◼   ► who can sell us on that emotion without [TS]

01:01:51 ◼   ► ever causing us to think a little more [TS]

01:01:53 ◼   ► well what do they have to gain by [TS]

01:01:55 ◼   ► sending nicely populism that's always [TS]

01:01:57 ◼   ► been popular really think so [TS]

01:01:59 ◼   ► Andrew Jackson ran a campaign [TS]

01:02:02 ◼   ► oh well I'm based on even more somebody [TS]

01:02:05 ◼   ► who drops the g's and touch their [TS]

01:02:07 ◼   ► suspenders and says oh gosh oh golly [TS]

01:02:09 ◼   ► makes it sound like a regular dude and I [TS]

01:02:11 ◼   ► get you [TS]

01:02:11 ◼   ► yeah yeah I mean populism is by by by [TS]