00:00:11 ◼ ► more than men how are you you sound like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/11">TS</a>]
00:00:18 ◼ ► no you know i'm so dizzy yeah you're a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/18">TS</a>]
00:00:21 ◼ ► busy person i'm so dizzy I think people [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/21">TS</a>]
00:00:26 ◼ ► busy busy busy busy now I love life is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/26">TS</a>]
00:00:30 ◼ ► you know you're always gonna you're [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/30">TS</a>]
00:00:32 ◼ ► gonna fill up every one of them no [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/32">TS</a>]
00:00:34 ◼ ► absolutely true you know people say [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/34">TS</a>]
00:00:39 ◼ ► indisputable that most other people in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/39">TS</a>]
00:00:42 ◼ ► the world are not doing anything you're [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/42">TS</a>]
00:00:45 ◼ ► not busy at all and the so those few [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/45">TS</a>]
00:00:48 ◼ ► people who are busy who say I'm really [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/48">TS</a>]
00:00:50 ◼ ► busy right now they are the better git [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/50">TS</a>]
00:00:53 ◼ ► er done errs for the actual busy people [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/53">TS</a>]
00:00:55 ◼ ► and we should support them with all of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/55">TS</a>]
00:00:57 ◼ ► our efforts i got mixed feelings because [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/57">TS</a>]
00:01:00 ◼ ► when i say i'm busy it usually means one [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/60">TS</a>]
00:01:03 ◼ ► of a couple things and they're both my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/63">TS</a>]
00:01:08 ◼ ► disgusting the nature of what I quote [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/68">TS</a>]
00:01:11 ◼ ► unquote do it since there's never time [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/71">TS</a>]
00:01:13 ◼ ► that I should be too busy unless I you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/73">TS</a>]
00:01:15 ◼ ► have chosen to be too busy mean because [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/75">TS</a>]
00:01:18 ◼ ► I'm really its kind of trip everybody [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/78">TS</a>]
00:01:19 ◼ ► when they like to admit it or not but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/79">TS</a>]
00:01:22 ◼ ► overcommitted or a plan poorly or all in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/82">TS</a>]
00:01:28 ◼ ► the midst of all that i'm just not being [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/88">TS</a>]
00:01:30 ◼ ► very good our effective if you like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/90">TS</a>]
00:01:33 ◼ ► yeah I I whenever I say I'm busy I could [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/93">TS</a>]
00:01:37 ◼ ► just replace that with i'm behind the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/97">TS</a>]
00:01:39 ◼ ► 8-ball i'm behind the eight ball that's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/99">TS</a>]
00:01:43 ◼ ► screams I'm sitting in a room right now [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/103">TS</a>]
00:01:45 ◼ ► that is basically just boxes and bags of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/105">TS</a>]
00:01:49 ◼ ► things that I haven't attended to and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/109">TS</a>]
00:01:52 ◼ ► the boxes and bags are stacked on other [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/112">TS</a>]
00:01:54 ◼ ► boxes and bags until I'm like a I'm like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/114">TS</a>]
00:01:59 ◼ ► a hoarder person where you can only get [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/119">TS</a>]
00:02:01 ◼ ► to my computer desk through a corridor [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/121">TS</a>]
00:02:03 ◼ ► through a corridor just like stacked [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/123">TS</a>]
00:02:12 ◼ ► these newspapers tied with tied with [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/132">TS</a>]
00:02:16 ◼ ► ramen noodles and a little taste of the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/136">TS</a>]
00:02:20 ◼ ► orient in your home organization and i'm [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/140">TS</a>]
00:02:22 ◼ ► just i'm behind the eight ball just even [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/142">TS</a>]
00:02:24 ◼ ► walk in here and like a behind the eight [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/144">TS</a>]
00:02:26 ◼ ► well I hate to admit tonight that I know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/146">TS</a>]
00:02:28 ◼ ► this but there are stages to hoarding [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/148">TS</a>]
00:02:31 ◼ ► and there are like they're like in the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/151">TS</a>]
00:02:33 ◼ ► same way you look at dsm you know this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/153">TS</a>]
00:02:35 ◼ ► all the are you a person who has you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/155">TS</a>]
00:02:37 ◼ ► know depression with them some kind of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/157">TS</a>]
00:02:41 ◼ ► yeah it's a role-playing thing is the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/161">TS</a>]
00:02:45 ◼ ► oh the diagnostic stimulation modulator [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/165">TS</a>]
00:02:49 ◼ ► 4got sybian sibilance is that is a UH [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/169">TS</a>]
00:02:55 ◼ ► that gosh where do i begin first of all [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/175">TS</a>]
00:02:58 ◼ ► it's it's it's all I can do not turn [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/178">TS</a>]
00:03:00 ◼ ► this into you know one of those other [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/180">TS</a>]
00:03:01 ◼ ► shows right about bad stuff stages of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/181">TS</a>]
00:03:04 ◼ ► stages according to their stations [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/184">TS</a>]
00:03:05 ◼ ► reporting and you know it's a I had I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/185">TS</a>]
00:03:07 ◼ ► had a reason and one point my life to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/187">TS</a>]
00:03:09 ◼ ► learn about these things their family [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/189">TS</a>]
00:03:10 ◼ ► you're into my house do you feel like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/190">TS</a>]
00:03:12 ◼ ► I'm on the hoarding continuum John we're [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/192">TS</a>]
00:03:15 ◼ ► all on the horn continue and that's only [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/195">TS</a>]
00:03:17 ◼ ► two continuum you're right you're right [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/197">TS</a>]
00:03:18 ◼ ► everybody's a little special mi mi [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/198">TS</a>]
00:03:21 ◼ ► somewhere out along the horn continuum [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/201">TS</a>]
00:03:24 ◼ ► as you can jaan i'm not a hoarding [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/204">TS</a>]
00:03:27 ◼ ► clinician right but yeah there's that I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/207">TS</a>]
00:03:31 ◼ ► forget how many faces there are but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/211">TS</a>]
00:03:34 ◼ ► there's once you're it's you know it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/214">TS</a>]
00:03:36 ◼ ► again once you want to become aware [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/216">TS</a>]
00:03:38 ◼ ► something it's hard to stop seeing it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/218">TS</a>]
00:03:39 ◼ ► everywhere and i have to tell you that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/219">TS</a>]
00:03:41 ◼ ► I'm pretty sure one of the middle phases [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/221">TS</a>]
00:03:45 ◼ ► uh-huh right when you believe we have to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/225">TS</a>]
00:03:47 ◼ ► blaze trails through stuff I think [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/227">TS</a>]
00:03:51 ◼ ► exceedingly slightly more special part [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/231">TS</a>]
00:03:54 ◼ ► of a continuum that's like when you when [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/234">TS</a>]
00:03:56 ◼ ► you buy of a Volkswagen bug and then all [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/236">TS</a>]
00:03:59 ◼ ► of a sudden you see Volkswagen bugs [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/239">TS</a>]
00:04:00 ◼ ► everywhere i didn't know i think this i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/240">TS</a>]
00:04:05 ◼ ► availability heuristic that you make [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/245">TS</a>]
00:04:07 ◼ ► decisions about what's going on in the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/247">TS</a>]
00:04:09 ◼ ► world based on the information that's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/249">TS</a>]
00:04:10 ◼ ► available to you in your own experience [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/250">TS</a>]
00:04:12 ◼ ► right right for instance i never used to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/252">TS</a>]
00:04:17 ◼ ► thank god you're lucky i know i had a PT [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/257">TS</a>]
00:04:20 ◼ ► Cruiser screen on my consciousness like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/260">TS</a>]
00:04:24 ◼ ► let a little like a little protective [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/264">TS</a>]
00:04:25 ◼ ► advisor it was a protective visor a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/265">TS</a>]
00:04:27 ◼ ► mental visor that screened out PT [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/267">TS</a>]
00:04:30 ◼ ► Cruisers but then one time Kathleen [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/270">TS</a>]
00:04:32 ◼ ► Edwards came here to visit me and she [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/272">TS</a>]
00:04:33 ◼ ► rented a PT Cruiser so cute and we're [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/273">TS</a>]
00:04:37 ◼ ► driving around town in his PT cruiser [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/277">TS</a>]
00:04:39 ◼ ► and all of a sudden i'm a member of the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/279">TS</a>]
00:04:40 ◼ ► PT Cruiser fraternity and people are [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/280">TS</a>]
00:04:43 ◼ ► like PB pie other PT Cruisers everywhere [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/283">TS</a>]
00:04:46 ◼ ► and I and I have to see them i'm in one [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/286">TS</a>]
00:04:50 ◼ ► and it did change me forever and not in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/290">TS</a>]
00:04:54 ◼ ► no no I I feel the same way uh ever [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/294">TS</a>]
00:04:58 ◼ ► this is probably a phenomenon with the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/298">TS</a>]
00:05:00 ◼ ► name but you you feel like you have [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/300">TS</a>]
00:05:01 ◼ ► there's a word that you haven't heard [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/301">TS</a>]
00:05:03 ◼ ► your whole life and then one day you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/303">TS</a>]
00:05:05 ◼ ► hear it and then that same day you hear [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/305">TS</a>]
00:05:06 ◼ ► it again and so either you heard that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/306">TS</a>]
00:05:09 ◼ ► word before and you didn't remember it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/309">TS</a>]
00:05:11 ◼ ► when there's some you know you know dark [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/311">TS</a>]
00:05:14 ◼ ► matter what and when you say it's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/314">TS</a>]
00:05:16 ◼ ► probably the name you mean your name [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/316">TS</a>]
00:05:18 ◼ ► Merlin Mann never heard it that advisor [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/318">TS</a>]
00:05:20 ◼ ► protect advisor what you know what I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/320">TS</a>]
00:05:23 ◼ ► hate is a legitimate so what the first [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/323">TS</a>]
00:05:25 ◼ ► time somebody's on abracadabra to you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/325">TS</a>]
00:05:26 ◼ ► you're like a boy and a man but you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/326">TS</a>]
00:05:35 ◼ ► my wife had a few years ago her boss was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/335">TS</a>]
00:05:38 ◼ ► just talking about you know whatever [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/338">TS</a>]
00:05:39 ◼ ► like you do in office cuz you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/339">TS</a>]
00:05:41 ◼ ► really work in an office and and she [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/341">TS</a>]
00:05:44 ◼ ► said and then have you ever seen those [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/344">TS</a>]
00:05:46 ◼ ► PT Cruisers and she's like yeah sure [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/346">TS</a>]
00:05:48 ◼ ► just that seems like the kind of car you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/348">TS</a>]
00:05:51 ◼ ► oh and you know I think that's the way I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/351">TS</a>]
00:05:54 ◼ ► think that's a way of saying to somebody [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/354">TS</a>]
00:05:55 ◼ ► that you really knows mostly through [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/355">TS</a>]
00:05:57 ◼ ► work as a way of saying you're a fun [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/357">TS</a>]
00:05:59 ◼ ► like kinky individual Oh interesting [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/359">TS</a>]
00:06:03 ◼ ► it's a kicky it's a it's a quirky cards [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/363">TS</a>]
00:06:05 ◼ ► like ya on ya can tech this is from a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/365">TS</a>]
00:06:08 ◼ ► lady this is from a lady has reached [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/368">TS</a>]
00:06:10 ◼ ► that kind of menopausal age we start [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/370">TS</a>]
00:06:11 ◼ ► wearing a lot of chunky jewelry and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/371">TS</a>]
00:06:12 ◼ ► saying what's on your mind you know but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/372">TS</a>]
00:06:16 ◼ ► no no she meant that Madeline was a was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/376">TS</a>]
00:06:18 ◼ ► like a funky gal it totally and it's you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/378">TS</a>]
00:06:21 ◼ ► know the things that we buy for other [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/381">TS</a>]
00:06:23 ◼ ► people as present as an example is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/383">TS</a>]
00:06:25 ◼ ► another example usually say much more [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/385">TS</a>]
00:06:26 ◼ ► about us than it does about the other [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/386">TS</a>]
00:06:28 ◼ ► person often it shows that we have bad [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/388">TS</a>]
00:06:31 ◼ ► well i hope that Madeline enjoys the the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/391">TS</a>]
00:06:33 ◼ ► pearl handle derringers I border for [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/393">TS</a>]
00:06:37 ◼ ► she was gonna give her anything with [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/397">TS</a>]
00:06:41 ◼ ► it's a but you know that's that seem [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/401">TS</a>]
00:06:42 ◼ ► like a sweet thing to say but do you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/402">TS</a>]
00:06:44 ◼ ► know gosh where I even begin I want to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/404">TS</a>]
00:06:45 ◼ ► get back to the hoarding but yeah yeah [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/405">TS</a>]
00:06:47 ◼ ► you know it's like when you're a little [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/407">TS</a>]
00:06:49 ◼ ► kid and you know you know exactly the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/409">TS</a>]
00:06:51 ◼ ► kind of GI joe that you want like a very [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/411">TS</a>]
00:06:54 ◼ ► specific my case files in the big gym [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/414">TS</a>]
00:06:58 ◼ ► yeah which is kind of like a bicurious [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/418">TS</a>]
00:06:59 ◼ ► GI joe who likes to go to the beach how [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/419">TS</a>]
00:07:01 ◼ ► about Stretch Armstrong did you have a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/421">TS</a>]
00:07:03 ◼ ► stretch arms from test marketed for [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/423">TS</a>]
00:07:08 ◼ ► test-market Stretch Armstrong general [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/428">TS</a>]
00:07:10 ◼ ► did you ever have a really cool little [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/430">TS</a>]
00:07:12 ◼ ► car called an SST we pulled the t-strap [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/432">TS</a>]
00:07:16 ◼ ► test marketed I stories right saw them I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/436">TS</a>]
00:07:19 ◼ ► never had one myself another broken by [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/439">TS</a>]
00:07:21 ◼ ► your mother up the wizard the wizard top [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/441">TS</a>]
00:07:24 ◼ ► this tops it goes across the floor yeah [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/444">TS</a>]
00:07:27 ◼ ► I was a test marketer for counter toys [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/447">TS</a>]
00:07:30 ◼ ► how did you get this gig i was bored in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/450">TS</a>]
00:07:33 ◼ ► class and I i think what happens counter [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/453">TS</a>]
00:07:36 ◼ ► and Family Services encounter was is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/456">TS</a>]
00:07:37 ◼ ► based in Cincinnati or at least has a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/457">TS</a>]
00:07:39 ◼ ► big outpost there right this is the kind [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/459">TS</a>]
00:07:41 ◼ ► of thing you can do in a public school [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/461">TS</a>]
00:07:42 ◼ ► in the seventies is you would take a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/462">TS</a>]
00:07:44 ◼ ► mean let's be honest it was the smart [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/464">TS</a>]
00:07:45 ◼ ► kids the kids they could afford to just [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/465">TS</a>]
00:07:47 ◼ ► miss the whole class to go play with the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/467">TS</a>]
00:07:48 ◼ ► toy and please don't ever make the other [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/468">TS</a>]
00:07:50 ◼ ► kids love us they want to thank you baby [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/470">TS</a>]
00:07:52 ◼ ► love you test market toys in school to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/472">TS</a>]
00:07:54 ◼ ► me Jenny balcom Billy shallower we did [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/474">TS</a>]
00:07:57 ◼ ► they take us out the second let's go and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/477">TS</a>]
00:07:59 ◼ ► and all the kids who star who already [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/479">TS</a>]
00:08:00 ◼ ► done with work they get to go play with [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/480">TS</a>]
00:08:01 ◼ ► toys for the other kids haha I you thank [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/481">TS</a>]
00:08:09 ◼ ► wonderful but it's terribly awful i hate [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/489">TS</a>]
00:08:11 ◼ ► me 2 i'm like a PT Cruiser oh you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/491">TS</a>]
00:08:14 ◼ ► what I had to do I had to pretend I was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/494">TS</a>]
00:08:15 ◼ ► sick and go to the nurse's office to how [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/495">TS</a>]
00:08:18 ◼ ► do you have a method did you put that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/498">TS</a>]
00:08:19 ◼ ► you put a thermometer under your arm up [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/499">TS</a>]
00:08:21 ◼ ► against the light or anything like that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/501">TS</a>]
00:08:23 ◼ ► oh no I file it i mean you want to see [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/503">TS</a>]
00:08:25 ◼ ► right through you actually have to get a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/505">TS</a>]
00:08:28 ◼ ► clearly i was sick when I was never you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/508">TS</a>]
00:08:31 ◼ ► know it's funny we had cats my whole [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/511">TS</a>]
00:08:34 ◼ ► life growing up and I'm allergic to cats [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/514">TS</a>]
00:08:36 ◼ ► so I always orders was a little sick [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/516">TS</a>]
00:08:41 ◼ ► oh really you're like you're like will [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/521">TS</a>]
00:08:42 ◼ ► ring you have to constantly call upon [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/522">TS</a>]
00:08:44 ◼ ► your healing abilities in order just to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/524">TS</a>]
00:08:46 ◼ ► stay alive and that causes baseline [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/526">TS</a>]
00:08:50 ◼ ► many ways in which I'm like wolverine [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/530">TS</a>]
00:08:52 ◼ ► that is one of the ways radians fuck you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/532">TS</a>]
00:08:54 ◼ ► up with all that metal that's not going [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/534">TS</a>]
00:08:57 ◼ ► marbut so so nobody ever thought maybe [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/537">TS</a>]
00:09:00 ◼ ► this kid is allergic to cats so I had a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/540">TS</a>]
00:09:03 ◼ ► constant scratchy cough and runny nose [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/543">TS</a>]
00:09:05 ◼ ► for I'm serious now 14 years your eyes [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/545">TS</a>]
00:09:08 ◼ ► you get the eyes itchy eyes and so I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/548">TS</a>]
00:09:11 ◼ ► would sit in class and if I wanted to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/551">TS</a>]
00:09:13 ◼ ► if class was boring i wanted to get out [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/553">TS</a>]
00:09:15 ◼ ► i would just be like I've really thick [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/555">TS</a>]
00:09:17 ◼ ► right down and they sent me to the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/557">TS</a>]
00:09:19 ◼ ► nurse's office and I I'd lay on the way [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/559">TS</a>]
00:09:21 ◼ ► on the cot in the nurse's office and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/561">TS</a>]
00:09:23 ◼ ► count the dots in the ceiling tile you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/563">TS</a>]
00:09:27 ◼ ► can call upon your your your conquest [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/567">TS</a>]
00:09:29 ◼ ► space fantasies for really any room [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/569">TS</a>]
00:09:35 ◼ ► somewhere lay down have him turn the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/575">TS</a>]
00:09:37 ◼ ► lights down a little bit and then leave [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/577">TS</a>]
00:09:38 ◼ ► me the leave me alone and you know and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/578">TS</a>]
00:09:40 ◼ ► they thought i was sleeping but I was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/580">TS</a>]
00:09:42 ◼ ► just you know what you needed you needed [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/582">TS</a>]
00:09:46 ◼ ► oh interesting many people are very [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/586">TS</a>]
00:09:48 ◼ ► think about it it's one of those things [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/588">TS</a>]
00:09:49 ◼ ► the etiology is really tough you can [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/589">TS</a>]
00:09:51 ◼ ► look at somebody and tell whether they [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/591">TS</a>]
00:09:53 ◼ ► do or don't have a migraine is they're [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/593">TS</a>]
00:09:55 ◼ ► really good at looking like they have a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/595">TS</a>]
00:09:57 ◼ ► well or chronic fatigue syndrome no I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/597">TS</a>]
00:09:59 ◼ ► don't want to get into chronic fatigue [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/599">TS</a>]
00:10:00 ◼ ► syndrome because i believe it's a real [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/600">TS</a>]
00:10:01 ◼ ► thing and there are people who is well [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/601">TS</a>]
00:10:04 ◼ ► the people who suffer from it are very [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/604">TS</a>]
00:10:06 ◼ ► very serious about it being real thing [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/606">TS</a>]
00:10:09 ◼ ► and and they have impressed upon me that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/609">TS</a>]
00:10:16 ◼ ► that is got to be a terrible terrible [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/616">TS</a>]
00:10:18 ◼ ► fate right to be like completely sick [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/618">TS</a>]
00:10:22 ◼ ► and you're essentially telling somebody [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/622">TS</a>]
00:10:24 ◼ ► that they're either insane a liar or [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/624">TS</a>]
00:10:27 ◼ ► yeah right these people go to the doctor [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/627">TS</a>]
00:10:28 ◼ ► and they're like I feel like I can [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/628">TS</a>]
00:10:31 ◼ ► barely function and the doctors like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/631">TS</a>]
00:10:34 ◼ ► uh huh you know and for years this goes [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/634">TS</a>]
00:10:36 ◼ ► on so I i won't make I won't make jokes [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/636">TS</a>]
00:10:38 ◼ ► about chronic fatigue syndrome x6 that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/638">TS</a>]
00:10:41 ◼ ► helped except that it does sound like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/641">TS</a>]
00:10:44 ◼ ► they're faking it sound like it but you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/644">TS</a>]
00:10:46 ◼ ► know there's there's a funny thing in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/646">TS</a>]
00:10:47 ◼ ► medicine as you know not physician but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/647">TS</a>]
00:10:49 ◼ ► there are a range of things where they [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/649">TS</a>]
00:10:51 ◼ ► know that there's a condition that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/651">TS</a>]
00:10:52 ◼ ► exists but there's no etiology for it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/652">TS</a>]
00:10:56 ◼ ► and there's no test for proving that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/656">TS</a>]
00:10:57 ◼ ► exists right and having one of those [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/657">TS</a>]
00:11:00 ◼ ► x sucks it sucks and that chronic [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/660">TS</a>]
00:11:02 ◼ ► fatigue syndrome is one you know what I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/662">TS</a>]
00:11:04 ◼ ► gotta tell you up until and you're gonna [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/664">TS</a>]
00:11:06 ◼ ► get you know about this but up until the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/666">TS</a>]
00:11:08 ◼ ► last few years I was pretty sure that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/668">TS</a>]
00:11:11 ◼ ► kids with food allergies was mostly a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/671">TS</a>]
00:11:13 ◼ ► fake things my thought it was maybe a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/673">TS</a>]
00:11:15 ◼ ► doting mother or something you know but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/675">TS</a>]
00:11:18 ◼ ► it's like why did why is it suddenly [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/678">TS</a>]
00:11:19 ◼ ► everybody has food allergies and it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/679">TS</a>]
00:11:22 ◼ ► oh yeah tell you the truth I don't know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/682">TS</a>]
00:11:24 ◼ ► why that is and I kind of don't care [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/684">TS</a>]
00:11:25 ◼ ► because now i do I have a friend whose [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/685">TS</a>]
00:11:28 ◼ ► kid to Justin brief when they knew that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/688">TS</a>]
00:11:32 ◼ ► like once I'm healing touch the piece of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/692">TS</a>]
00:11:33 ◼ ► cheese and it looks like a tattoo on his [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/693">TS</a>]
00:11:36 ◼ ► whoa yeah just from like a little piece [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/696">TS</a>]
00:11:39 ◼ ► yeah and they started with i think an [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/699">TS</a>]
00:11:41 ◼ ► eighth of a teaspoon of milk and I think [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/701">TS</a>]
00:11:45 ◼ ► it's such a horrible story said mom I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/705">TS</a>]
00:11:47 ◼ ► feel crazy I feel weird or something in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/707">TS</a>]
00:11:50 ◼ ► his eyes rolled back in his head he went [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/710">TS</a>]
00:11:52 ◼ ► into anaphylactic shock and they had to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/712">TS</a>]
00:11:54 ◼ ► give him like two or three EpiPen shots [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/714">TS</a>]
00:11:56 ◼ ► and taken to the emergency room he [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/716">TS</a>]
00:11:59 ◼ ► holy cats yeah yeah so like he's so when [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/719">TS</a>]
00:12:02 ◼ ► you hear stuff when i first heard like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/722">TS</a>]
00:12:03 ◼ ► there's a little lactose intolerance [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/723">TS</a>]
00:12:05 ◼ ► what you're saying that he's a little [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/725">TS</a>]
00:12:06 ◼ ► lactose intolerant but here's the thing [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/726">TS</a>]
00:12:09 ◼ ► imagine now the this this wonderful that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/729">TS</a>]
00:12:12 ◼ ► the parents he has a good friend of mine [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/732">TS</a>]
00:12:14 ◼ ► and she's a pistol begin with and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/734">TS</a>]
00:12:16 ◼ ► crystal sheer all she's assisting your [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/736">TS</a>]
00:12:19 ◼ ► son and more like when you follow her on [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/739">TS</a>]
00:12:21 ◼ ► Twitter she's very this isn't this is a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/741">TS</a>]
00:12:23 ◼ ► non-public story meeting grouper their [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/743">TS</a>]
00:12:25 ◼ ► kid has an extreme allergy and she [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/745">TS</a>]
00:12:28 ◼ ► carries EpiPens everywhere and she's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/748">TS</a>]
00:12:30 ◼ ► ready but you know the thing is i have [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/750">TS</a>]
00:12:32 ◼ ► to say like a few years ago i got when i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/752">TS</a>]
00:12:34 ◼ ► was a kid I remember Julie schlessinger [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/754">TS</a>]
00:12:37 ◼ ► didn't like oranges so she had to wait [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/757">TS</a>]
00:12:42 ◼ ► oh and she would cry and now now that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/762">TS</a>]
00:12:45 ◼ ► might have been a food allergy but no [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/765">TS</a>]
00:12:46 ◼ ► kid I knew that stuff that they just [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/766">TS</a>]
00:12:48 ◼ ► couldn't eat because they would get sick [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/768">TS</a>]
00:12:51 ◼ ► yeah yeah but I am a hundred percent [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/771">TS</a>]
00:12:52 ◼ ► positive that israel now but this is the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/772">TS</a>]
00:12:55 ◼ ► problem with are both being from our [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/775">TS</a>]
00:12:58 ◼ ► mmm this is that this is one of those i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/778">TS</a>]
00:13:01 ◼ ► remember the first time I heard the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/781">TS</a>]
00:13:04 ◼ ► first well and the first time I heard a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/784">TS</a>]
00:13:05 ◼ ► DD i was in a psychologist's office [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/785">TS</a>]
00:13:09 ◼ ► psychiatrist's office actually and he [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/789">TS</a>]
00:13:13 ◼ ► I want you to sit in front of this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/793">TS</a>]
00:13:15 ◼ ► computer and and play this game and i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/795">TS</a>]
00:13:18 ◼ ► sat in front of a computer and i played [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/798">TS</a>]
00:13:20 ◼ ► this game where things flashed at me and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/800">TS</a>]
00:13:22 ◼ ► I was supposed to choose this thing or [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/802">TS</a>]
00:13:25 ◼ ► that thing and then something shot [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/805">TS</a>]
00:13:27 ◼ ► across the screen and I was supposed to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/807">TS</a>]
00:13:29 ◼ ► choose between two options and I get to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/809">TS</a>]
00:13:32 ◼ ► the end of this not very fun game and he [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/812">TS</a>]
00:13:35 ◼ ► goes well here's the problem you have [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/815">TS</a>]
00:13:39 ◼ ► attention deficit disorder who and I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/819">TS</a>]
00:13:42 ◼ ► said what's that he said oh it's this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/822">TS</a>]
00:13:45 ◼ ► new diagnosis where people who are [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/825">TS</a>]
00:13:51 ◼ ► people who are struggling to integrate [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/831">TS</a>]
00:13:56 ◼ ► themselves into the world's it turns out [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/836">TS</a>]
00:14:01 ◼ ► it's just that you can't stay focused on [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/841">TS</a>]
00:14:04 ◼ ► things and there's a medicine for that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/844">TS</a>]
00:14:06 ◼ ► and I said I was old enough at this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/846">TS</a>]
00:14:11 ◼ ► point I like 17 that i was at and I had [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/851">TS</a>]
00:14:16 ◼ ► been going to psychologist for a long [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/856">TS</a>]
00:14:18 ◼ ► time that I was suspicious of them and I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/858">TS</a>]
00:14:20 ◼ ► was suspicious of this diagnosis as I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/860">TS</a>]
00:14:22 ◼ ► think a lot of people were at first a TD [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/862">TS</a>]
00:14:26 ◼ ► attention deficit disorder what is that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/866">TS</a>]
00:14:28 ◼ ► mhm and then attempted attention deficit [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/868">TS</a>]
00:14:31 ◼ ► hyperactivity disorder and these these [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/871">TS</a>]
00:14:32 ◼ ► were things when we were in when we were [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/872">TS</a>]
00:14:36 ◼ ► if you had that what they did it took [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/876">TS</a>]
00:14:37 ◼ ► you out of class and let you test market [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/877">TS</a>]
00:14:39 ◼ ► some toys in usually with school you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/879">TS</a>]
00:14:42 ◼ ► know what I mean like that was that was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/882">TS</a>]
00:14:43 ◼ ► their shares your prescription complete [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/883">TS</a>]
00:14:45 ◼ ► stretch armstrong yeah or like he's a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/885">TS</a>]
00:14:47 ◼ ► spirited little kid or whatever it was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/887">TS</a>]
00:14:50 ◼ ► you know but all of a sudden that the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/890">TS</a>]
00:14:51 ◼ ► EPA to become a pathology and now of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/891">TS</a>]
00:14:55 ◼ ► course we live in a world where I mean I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/895">TS</a>]
00:14:58 ◼ ► don't spend a lot of time in great [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/898">TS</a>]
00:14:59 ◼ ► schools yet but i imagine when you're in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/899">TS</a>]
00:15:01 ◼ ► great schools now the number of kids [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/901">TS</a>]
00:15:05 ◼ ► hyperactivity disorder or something on [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/905">TS</a>]
00:15:07 ◼ ► that spectrum it's probably forty [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/907">TS</a>]
00:15:09 ◼ ► percent of the kids in the school and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/909">TS</a>]
00:15:12 ◼ ► when you combine food allergies as [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/912">TS</a>]
00:15:15 ◼ ► burgers all the other ways in which [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/915">TS</a>]
00:15:22 ◼ ► yeah well I mean is there really is a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/922">TS</a>]
00:15:26 ◼ ► thing and it's like yeah here's the kid [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/926">TS</a>]
00:15:28 ◼ ► writes his letters backwards but but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/928">TS</a>]
00:15:30 ◼ ► there are a lot of parents that are [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/930">TS</a>]
00:15:33 ◼ ► self-diagnosing their kids as Bergen and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/933">TS</a>]
00:15:36 ◼ ► a lot of parents that are still like in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/936">TS</a>]
00:15:38 ◼ ► denial about it but their next-door [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/938">TS</a>]
00:15:39 ◼ ► neighbors are diagnosing their kids as [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/939">TS</a>]
00:15:41 ◼ ► birkin that's the aerial i mean i i've [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/941">TS</a>]
00:15:44 ◼ ► got a couple kids in my life with with [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/944">TS</a>]
00:15:48 ◼ ► plus the doctor said ass burgers and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/948">TS</a>]
00:15:49 ◼ ► everybody but their parents I was ready [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/949">TS</a>]
00:15:53 ◼ ► to cop to that the parents were the last [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/953">TS</a>]
00:15:55 ◼ ► but yeah I mean if your kids got a thing [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/955">TS</a>]
00:15:57 ◼ ► you don't you don't want to be labeled [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/957">TS</a>]
00:16:00 ◼ ► right except that except that I mean in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/960">TS</a>]
00:16:02 ◼ ► park slope right now if your kid doesn't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/962">TS</a>]
00:16:03 ◼ ► have a thing who your gotta get a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/963">TS</a>]
00:16:07 ◼ ► he's the outlier and I mean you remember [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/967">TS</a>]
00:16:09 ◼ ► when we were and this is true all the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/969">TS</a>]
00:16:11 ◼ ► way through high school for us there [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/971">TS</a>]
00:16:13 ◼ ► were kids that were separated out and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/973">TS</a>]
00:16:15 ◼ ► put in special classes but there was one [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/975">TS</a>]
00:16:18 ◼ ► special class there was one special [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/978">TS</a>]
00:16:20 ◼ ► class and everybody you know everybody [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/980">TS</a>]
00:16:22 ◼ ► went there including probably now that i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/982">TS</a>]
00:16:25 ◼ ► think about it kids who were mentally [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/985">TS</a>]
00:16:28 ◼ ► functioning at a high level but they [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/988">TS</a>]
00:16:31 ◼ ► how is it was ridiculous in the same [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/991">TS</a>]
00:16:33 ◼ ► thing happen my dad with dyslexia and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/993">TS</a>]
00:16:34 ◼ ► Men and poor vision and it's what [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/994">TS</a>]
00:16:37 ◼ ► happened a lot of people and you get [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/997">TS</a>]
00:16:39 ◼ ► this one place that basically becomes [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/999">TS</a>]
00:16:40 ◼ ► like a what a pedagogical holding cell [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1000">TS</a>]
00:16:47 ◼ ► depression serious health problems or [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1007">TS</a>]
00:16:52 ◼ ► yeah right read too fast right well but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1012">TS</a>]
00:16:55 ◼ ► but i guess the getting getting back to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1015">TS</a>]
00:16:57 ◼ ► your point at which is that it's very [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1017">TS</a>]
00:16:59 ◼ ► like we were raised certainly I was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1019">TS</a>]
00:17:02 ◼ ► raised in an environment where mind my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1022">TS</a>]
00:17:08 ◼ ► proliferation of human problems was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1028">TS</a>]
00:17:12 ◼ ► suspicion that that people were making [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1032">TS</a>]
00:17:15 ◼ ► up these diagnoses that that that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1035">TS</a>]
00:17:18 ◼ ► chronic fatigue syndrome and attention [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1038">TS</a>]
00:17:21 ◼ ► deficit hyperactivity disorder were on [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1041">TS</a>]
00:17:24 ◼ ► the same spectrum which was the spectrum [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1044">TS</a>]
00:17:27 ◼ ► themselves to excuse their shoddy [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1047">TS</a>]
00:17:29 ◼ ► performance and as you know as time goes [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1049">TS</a>]
00:17:34 ◼ ► you accept that these things are real [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1054">TS</a>]
00:17:36 ◼ ► you think back to our childhood when [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1056">TS</a>]
00:17:40 ◼ ► everybody had to just cope if the if [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1060">TS</a>]
00:17:44 ◼ ► these problems existed 40 years ago your [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1064">TS</a>]
00:17:46 ◼ ► your solution was cope or go to the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1066">TS</a>]
00:17:49 ◼ ► special class where you have to wear a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1069">TS</a>]
00:17:52 ◼ ► absolutely and I mean in terms of like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1072">TS</a>]
00:17:54 ◼ ► today the so many kids go to private [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1074">TS</a>]
00:17:56 ◼ ► I mean and again you can't really can't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1076">TS</a>]
00:17:57 ◼ ► compare there's so many different [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1077">TS</a>]
00:17:58 ◼ ► variables that have changed in the last [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1078">TS</a>]
00:18:01 ◼ ► 40 years but you know the only kids I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1081">TS</a>]
00:18:03 ◼ ► knew who went to private school went to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1083">TS</a>]
00:18:05 ◼ ► private school because it was a Catholic [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1085">TS</a>]
00:18:06 ◼ ► school and just went that was I didn't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1086">TS</a>]
00:18:08 ◼ ► know anybody who went to the like the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1088">TS</a>]
00:18:10 ◼ ► huntington academy or something like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1090">TS</a>]
00:18:12 ◼ ► now they want to probably isn't just got [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1092">TS</a>]
00:18:14 ◼ ► finger in the pooper uh-huh sure and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1094">TS</a>]
00:18:16 ◼ ► free bread and butter but you know so [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1096">TS</a>]
00:18:19 ◼ ► you camp so I i become more sensitive [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1099">TS</a>]
00:18:22 ◼ ► you can only hear caches million threads [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1102">TS</a>]
00:18:23 ◼ ► here it's supposed to supposed to eat [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1103">TS</a>]
00:18:25 ◼ ► again where we made it through the age [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1105">TS</a>]
00:18:27 ◼ ► of reason you know we don't believe that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1107">TS</a>]
00:18:29 ◼ ► there's a you know a troll in your head [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1109">TS</a>]
00:18:31 ◼ ► tiny troll causing your headache and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1111">TS</a>]
00:18:32 ◼ ► stuff like that and so when should you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1112">TS</a>]
00:18:34 ◼ ► use haha just an animist you just say to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1114">TS</a>]
00:18:40 ◼ ► my dad he would say stuff you don't be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1120">TS</a>]
00:18:43 ◼ ► oh it's great that you're a musician [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1123">TS</a>]
00:18:45 ◼ ► that some it's it's your jeans for genes [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1125">TS</a>]
00:18:50 ◼ ► are responsible for you being a good [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1130">TS</a>]
00:18:52 ◼ ► musician i would say screw off thats [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1132">TS</a>]
00:18:56 ◼ ► that well stroll in your head there's a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1136">TS</a>]
00:18:58 ◼ ► Welsh troll that lives in your brain all [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1138">TS</a>]
00:19:00 ◼ ► that trouble is so fucking well she's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1140">TS</a>]
00:19:02 ◼ ► not even fun comes up with shitty things [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1142">TS</a>]
00:19:03 ◼ ► to say he started rubbing alcohol and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1143">TS</a>]
00:19:06 ◼ ► your 3-way family takes the credit away [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1146">TS</a>]
00:19:08 ◼ ► from me that well stroll in your brain [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1148">TS</a>]
00:19:10 ◼ ► and he was like I don't have a well [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1150">TS</a>]
00:19:11 ◼ ► stroll and we would get would argue [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1151">TS</a>]
00:19:14 ◼ ► about the wealth troll that lives inside [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1154">TS</a>]
00:19:15 ◼ ► of you know exactly who would say [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1155">TS</a>]
00:19:16 ◼ ► there's no well stroll is a guy who has [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1156">TS</a>]
00:19:19 ◼ ► yeah yeah yeahs well stroll is what [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1159">TS</a>]
00:19:21 ◼ ► saying there's no well I'm not in denial [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1161">TS</a>]
00:19:24 ◼ ► I'm not a well stroll girl stroll [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1164">TS</a>]
00:19:27 ◼ ► I'm senses that like a couple things [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1167">TS</a>]
00:19:29 ◼ ► here 10 yeah irritable bowel syndrome [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1169">TS</a>]
00:19:31 ◼ ► that's another thing you know I've got [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1171">TS</a>]
00:19:33 ◼ ► I've got the intestinal issues but i do [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1173">TS</a>]
00:19:35 ◼ ► not have IBS and some ways I'm grateful [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1175">TS</a>]
00:19:37 ◼ ► to go nitro disease i get the other one [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1177">TS</a>]
00:19:40 ◼ ► oh yeah but it's like we talked about [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1180">TS</a>]
00:19:42 ◼ ► that you want but I vs is that it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1182">TS</a>]
00:19:44 ◼ ► by you stay there when i'm having a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1184">TS</a>]
00:19:48 ◼ ► yeah I know dear but you but unlike a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1188">TS</a>]
00:19:49 ◼ ► lot of people you keep chopsticks on the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1189">TS</a>]
00:19:51 ◼ ► back of the toilet to go through your oh [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1191">TS</a>]
00:19:54 ◼ ► yeah terms of that just kind of sifting [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1194">TS</a>]
00:19:56 ◼ ► through doing a little bit of panning ya [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1196">TS</a>]
00:19:58 ◼ ► little panting panting for corn I keep [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1198">TS</a>]
00:20:01 ◼ ► that I keep some poultry shears I'm a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1201">TS</a>]
00:20:04 ◼ ► very fine mesh and of course index cards [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1204">TS</a>]
00:20:07 ◼ ► haha yeah well I've got an old toilet [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1207">TS</a>]
00:20:12 ◼ ► um yes anyway IBS is a bummer because [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1212">TS</a>]
00:20:14 ◼ ► you get this weird comment isn't like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1214">TS</a>]
00:20:16 ◼ ► you know I BS you get sometimes you get [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1216">TS</a>]
00:20:18 ◼ ► diarrhea and sometimes but a lot of the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1218">TS</a>]
00:20:20 ◼ ► times you're constipated the most of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1220">TS</a>]
00:20:21 ◼ ► your kind of impact that Beth Orton that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1221">TS</a>]
00:20:23 ◼ ► singer that Beth Orton lady had it and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1223">TS</a>]
00:20:26 ◼ ► that's one of those that were you go in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1226">TS</a>]
00:20:27 ◼ ► like with a migraine I don't think [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1227">TS</a>]
00:20:29 ◼ ► unless you do one of those made-up [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1229">TS</a>]
00:20:30 ◼ ► phony-baloney fmri kind of things I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1230">TS</a>]
00:20:33 ◼ ► don't think you can go and say oh yeah [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1233">TS</a>]
00:20:34 ◼ ► you have migraines I think it's all [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1234">TS</a>]
00:20:35 ◼ ► based on symptoms aren't that many you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1235">TS</a>]
00:20:38 ◼ ► get signs and symptoms symptoms are what [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1238">TS</a>]
00:20:41 ◼ ► he's got a bad and I think he's good and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1241">TS</a>]
00:20:44 ◼ ► like drugged up on stuff that he doesn't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1244">TS</a>]
00:20:46 ◼ ► like taking to keep them even manageable [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1246">TS</a>]
00:20:48 ◼ ► manageable my mom get some however often [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1248">TS</a>]
00:20:53 ◼ ► well that's the thing that has like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1253">TS</a>]
00:20:54 ◼ ► forever but there are crippling she has [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1254">TS</a>]
00:20:58 ◼ ► oh your mom and the pain where when she [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1258">TS</a>]
00:21:01 ◼ ► says like there's a headache coming and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1261">TS</a>]
00:21:06 ◼ ► I need to close the blinds and go [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1266">TS</a>]
00:21:09 ◼ ► it was so over Gibson it's so it's so [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1269">TS</a>]
00:21:16 ◼ ► unaffected by pain in most situations [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1276">TS</a>]
00:21:18 ◼ ► but it's like oh no what is this madness [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1278">TS</a>]
00:21:23 ◼ ► like I was wondering about that when you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1283">TS</a>]
00:21:25 ◼ ► said that she got them because you said [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1285">TS</a>]
00:21:27 ◼ ► you how God gives you the beard that you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1287">TS</a>]
00:21:29 ◼ ► I wonder you know the pain is one of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1289">TS</a>]
00:21:31 ◼ ► those things that's so hard to quantify [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1291">TS</a>]
00:21:32 ◼ ► because it is you know you're the only [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1292">TS</a>]
00:21:35 ◼ ► one who's feeling the pain and certainly [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1295">TS</a>]
00:21:38 ◼ ► based on history they can say that if [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1298">TS</a>]
00:21:39 ◼ ► you've got a gunshot wound to the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1299">TS</a>]
00:21:42 ◼ ► abdomen there's a pretty good chance [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1302">TS</a>]
00:21:43 ◼ ► you're going to call that a seven eight [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1303">TS</a>]
00:21:45 ◼ ► nine or maybe ten you have that so [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1305">TS</a>]
00:21:47 ◼ ► that's one of the that's traditionally [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1307">TS</a>]
00:21:48 ◼ ► one of the pain that sort of stainless [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1308">TS</a>]
00:21:50 ◼ ► that's pancreatic cancer shot will [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1310">TS</a>]
00:21:52 ◼ ► consider to the gunshot to the to the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1312">TS</a>]
00:21:55 ◼ ► yeah right that's pretty bad news that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1315">TS</a>]
00:21:57 ◼ ► but with your mom see that's the thing [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1317">TS</a>]
00:21:59 ◼ ► when you say that God gives people in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1319">TS</a>]
00:22:01 ◼ ► I wonder if like you get the migraine [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1321">TS</a>]
00:22:03 ◼ ► that I mean I bet your migraine sucks [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1323">TS</a>]
00:22:07 ◼ ► for everybody but there's not that many [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1327">TS</a>]
00:22:09 ◼ ► people that get a migraine that just go [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1329">TS</a>]
00:22:12 ◼ ► yeah you know me brush it off yeah yeah [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1332">TS</a>]
00:22:13 ◼ ► and yet she sees the she starts seeing [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1333">TS</a>]
00:22:16 ◼ ► halos of light and yet last year classic [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1336">TS</a>]
00:22:18 ◼ ► yeah she's like I'm out of here and it's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1338">TS</a>]
00:22:20 ◼ ► you know it doesn't even hurt yet she's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1340">TS</a>]
00:22:22 ◼ ► just like delirious and I throw up and I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1342">TS</a>]
00:22:25 ◼ ► want to die i have never had a migraine [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1345">TS</a>]
00:22:27 ◼ ► and I'm pretty fortunate and you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1347">TS</a>]
00:22:30 ◼ ► for a lot of people are the triggers [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1350">TS</a>]
00:22:31 ◼ ► right you can have like you know like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1351">TS</a>]
00:22:33 ◼ ► red wine or chocolate or there's I guess [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1353">TS</a>]
00:22:36 ◼ ► all kinds of things and if you're very [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1356">TS</a>]
00:22:37 ◼ ► sensitive don't listen to this because [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1357">TS</a>]
00:22:38 ◼ ► even listening this could probably give [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1358">TS</a>]
00:22:40 ◼ ► him a migraine but all those things they [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1360">TS</a>]
00:22:41 ◼ ► also because you feel like your monkey [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1361">TS</a>]
00:22:42 ◼ ► balls right like all the sudden you got [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1362">TS</a>]
00:22:44 ◼ ► this thing nobody can see but you don't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1364">TS</a>]
00:22:46 ◼ ► let me say one more thing about the ad [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1366">TS</a>]
00:22:47 ◼ ► because you know if you got two little [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1367">TS</a>]
00:22:49 ◼ ► kids let's see how to play date another [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1369">TS</a>]
00:22:51 ◼ ► kid comes over and you know the classic [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1371">TS</a>]
00:22:52 ◼ ► you must face in your own home actually [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1372">TS</a>]
00:22:54 ◼ ► love to hear how your mom handle this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1374">TS</a>]
00:22:56 ◼ ► there's one large piece of cake left and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1376">TS</a>]
00:22:59 ◼ ► there's two kids so what do you do [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1379">TS</a>]
00:23:02 ◼ ► my mom throws the kick in the yard [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1382">TS</a>]
00:23:03 ◼ ► that's a light cake that's not your cake [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1383">TS</a>]
00:23:07 ◼ ► but mom says no gig for anybody just [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1387">TS</a>]
00:23:10 ◼ ► keeps it on the counter and some [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1390">TS</a>]
00:23:12 ◼ ► Tupperware and it's just there and then [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1392">TS</a>]
00:23:14 ◼ ► you finally you ask out the window is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1394">TS</a>]
00:23:17 ◼ ► that my mom used to buy grape juice for [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1397">TS</a>]
00:23:20 ◼ ► my sister it was a special treat that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1400">TS</a>]
00:23:22 ◼ ► she would give my sister a glass of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1402">TS</a>]
00:23:25 ◼ ► Susan expensive she was insane about [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1405">TS</a>]
00:23:27 ◼ ► grape juice and it was very expensive in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1407">TS</a>]
00:23:29 ◼ ► the seventies you know when we were our [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1409">TS</a>]
00:23:31 ◼ ► weekly food budget well love the juices [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1411">TS</a>]
00:23:33 ◼ ► they were it was one of the more costly [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1413">TS</a>]
00:23:34 ◼ ► yeah and we had like four dollars and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1414">TS</a>]
00:23:36 ◼ ► thirty-five cents to feed the three of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1416">TS</a>]
00:23:37 ◼ ► us for a week she would buy grape juice [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1417">TS</a>]
00:23:41 ◼ ► and she would have portion it out in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1421">TS</a>]
00:23:42 ◼ ► glasses to Susan I didn't really care [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1422">TS</a>]
00:23:44 ◼ ► about grape juice but the scriptures was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1424">TS</a>]
00:23:47 ◼ ► for Susan and she gave it to Susan so [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1427">TS</a>]
00:23:49 ◼ ► sparingly that the that the bottle of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1429">TS</a>]
00:23:52 ◼ ► grape juice like routinely turn to wine [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1432">TS</a>]
00:23:55 ◼ ► attractive turns cooking vinegar in the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1435">TS</a>]
00:23:59 ◼ ► fridge before Susan was able to all its [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1439">TS</a>]
00:24:03 ◼ ► no yeah and then sat in there every time [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1443">TS</a>]
00:24:04 ◼ ► you open the fridge like there's the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1444">TS</a>]
00:24:05 ◼ ► grape juice but a more conventional [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1445">TS</a>]
00:24:08 ◼ ► a large slice of cake and two kids at [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1448">TS</a>]
00:24:11 ◼ ► the classic way to do this prisoner's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1451">TS</a>]
00:24:12 ◼ ► dilemma kind of thing right or 10 game [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1452">TS</a>]
00:24:14 ◼ ► theory I guess one of you one of you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1454">TS</a>]
00:24:17 ◼ ► cuts and the other chooses and the other [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1457">TS</a>]
00:24:19 ◼ ► chooses and that ensures that one person [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1459">TS</a>]
00:24:22 ◼ ► is going to make the most even cut [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1462">TS</a>]
00:24:23 ◼ ► possible right and i think that is an [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1463">TS</a>]
00:24:26 ◼ ► interesting principle in in many things [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1466">TS</a>]
00:24:28 ◼ ► that place that another example place [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1468">TS</a>]
00:24:29 ◼ ► that I used to work we had we did [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1469">TS</a>]
00:24:32 ◼ ► environmental consulting but one thing [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1472">TS</a>]
00:24:34 ◼ ► that gave us credibility was that we did [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1474">TS</a>]
00:24:36 ◼ ► environmental assessment but not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1476">TS</a>]
00:24:38 ◼ ► environmental remediation really why [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1478">TS</a>]
00:24:40 ◼ ► would you go out and hire the same [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1480">TS</a>]
00:24:42 ◼ ► person to tell you what your problem is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1482">TS</a>]
00:24:44 ◼ ► and then how much it would cost for them [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1484">TS</a>]
00:24:46 ◼ ► oh you just described the entire Chinese [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1486">TS</a>]
00:24:48 ◼ ► economy and your father in the mechanic [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1488">TS</a>]
00:24:54 ◼ ► analogous to certain elegance to it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1494">TS</a>]
00:24:56 ◼ ► half of the graft in America but this is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1496">TS</a>]
00:24:58 ◼ ► again this is a problem with public [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1498">TS</a>]
00:24:59 ◼ ► schools now and I've had several a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1499">TS</a>]
00:25:01 ◼ ► handful of friends with kids in schools [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1501">TS</a>]
00:25:02 ◼ ► and it's it's just very getting a class [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1502">TS</a>]
00:25:05 ◼ ► with 50 kids wear your kid cannot take [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1505">TS</a>]
00:25:08 ◼ ► up more than two percent of the time [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1508">TS</a>]
00:25:11 ◼ ► that would be if you're if you've got a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1511">TS</a>]
00:25:13 ◼ ► kid who for whatever reason takes up [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1513">TS</a>]
00:25:16 ◼ ► four percent or eight percent of the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1516">TS</a>]
00:25:18 ◼ ► time you pull them aside you bring the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1518">TS</a>]
00:25:20 ◼ ► parent in and you say this is your [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1520">TS</a>]
00:25:22 ◼ ► this is not our problem our problem is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1522">TS</a>]
00:25:24 ◼ ► we have no money and a class full of 50 [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1524">TS</a>]
00:25:26 ◼ ► kids right so you need to figure out how [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1526">TS</a>]
00:25:29 ◼ ► this kid goes back to two percent or [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1529">TS</a>]
00:25:31 ◼ ► less i wish they had used that metric [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1531">TS</a>]
00:25:33 ◼ ► when I was a kid because I wanted to be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1533">TS</a>]
00:25:35 ◼ ► taking a 0% of the teachers time just [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1535">TS</a>]
00:25:38 ◼ ► being left alone to sit at my desk and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1538">TS</a>]
00:25:40 ◼ ► draw army men room or look at lookin at [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1540">TS</a>]
00:25:45 ◼ ► encyclopedia or stare at a spot on the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1545">TS</a>]
00:25:46 ◼ ► wall kind of inciting gauge me I you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1546">TS</a>]
00:25:49 ◼ ► keep calling on me I like just be if I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1549">TS</a>]
00:25:53 ◼ ► could just go to that shelf with the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1553">TS</a>]
00:25:55 ◼ ► with the world books and just sit there [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1555">TS</a>]
00:25:56 ◼ ► I would've done it all day long yeah I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1556">TS</a>]
00:25:59 ◼ ► will listen I'll listen in on your class [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1559">TS</a>]
00:26:01 ◼ ► on your silly ass class who I'll be over [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1561">TS</a>]
00:26:04 ◼ ► here with these books and if I if [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1564">TS</a>]
00:26:07 ◼ ► addressing something I don't already [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1567">TS</a>]
00:26:08 ◼ ► know I look it up in these books how's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1568">TS</a>]
00:26:11 ◼ ► here's the thing if for example I can't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1571">TS</a>]
00:26:14 ◼ ► find H through I because someone has not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1574">TS</a>]
00:26:18 ◼ ► i will raise my hand and ask where the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1578">TS</a>]
00:26:20 ◼ ► location of h3o is and apart from that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1580">TS</a>]
00:26:22 ◼ ► we don't really need to talk here [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1582">TS</a>]
00:26:24 ◼ ► yeah exactly but you know this has [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1584">TS</a>]
00:26:26 ◼ ► become a cliché but i think it's true [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1586">TS</a>]
00:26:28 ◼ ► at least in one instance i know of it's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1588">TS</a>]
00:26:30 ◼ ► very true what they said look to get [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1590">TS</a>]
00:26:31 ◼ ► your kid back to the end percent that he [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1591">TS</a>]
00:26:34 ◼ ► or she needs to be you need to take care [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1594">TS</a>]
00:26:36 ◼ ► of this so essentially they're saying so [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1596">TS</a>]
00:26:37 ◼ ► that's why they're dopin kids at home [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1597">TS</a>]
00:26:39 ◼ ► well i mean i think that is look at this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1599">TS</a>]
00:26:42 ◼ ► way a lot of lot of households if you've [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1602">TS</a>]
00:26:44 ◼ ► got two parents in the household which [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1604">TS</a>]
00:26:46 ◼ ► is increasingly not so common you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1606">TS</a>]
00:26:47 ◼ ► like everybody's working everybody's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1607">TS</a>]
00:26:49 ◼ ► busy everybody there's not that much you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1609">TS</a>]
00:26:51 ◼ ► can do not that flexibility much [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1611">TS</a>]
00:26:53 ◼ ► flexibility for anybody and so I mean I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1613">TS</a>]
00:26:56 ◼ ► think that the response of the idea i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1616">TS</a>]
00:26:57 ◼ ► cannot prove this yet because luckily [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1617">TS</a>]
00:27:00 ◼ ► it's not a public school yet but you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1620">TS</a>]
00:27:02 ◼ ► know that apparently happens when you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1622">TS</a>]
00:27:05 ◼ ► especially when you get to 5th 6th 7th [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1625">TS</a>]
00:27:07 ◼ ► 8th grade they're going to say look [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1627">TS</a>]
00:27:08 ◼ ► here's your options focalin or adderall [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1628">TS</a>]
00:27:10 ◼ ► are there any questions well you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1630">TS</a>]
00:27:12 ◼ ► and that's why we need to you need to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1632">TS</a>]
00:27:15 ◼ ► institute that third option which is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1635">TS</a>]
00:27:16 ◼ ► building trail over like you give you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1636">TS</a>]
00:27:20 ◼ ► give your kids some of this this like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1640">TS</a>]
00:27:23 ◼ ► personality doling medic medication or [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1643">TS</a>]
00:27:25 ◼ ► get them out in the bright sunshine [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1645">TS</a>]
00:27:27 ◼ ► where Medicare where Mount see every day [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1647">TS</a>]
00:27:31 ◼ ► I see it every day with our kid that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1651">TS</a>]
00:27:34 ◼ ► yeah uh I mean that the things that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1654">TS</a>]
00:27:37 ◼ ► thing about this undiagnosable on [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1657">TS</a>]
00:27:39 ◼ ► seeable malady who epidemic that's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1659">TS</a>]
00:27:43 ◼ ► happening i think in America like for me [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1663">TS</a>]
00:27:46 ◼ ► it comes home to roost because I suffer [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1666">TS</a>]
00:27:49 ◼ ► from depression who I'm I'm outing [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1669">TS</a>]
00:27:52 ◼ ► myself if it wasn't already abundantly [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1672">TS</a>]
00:27:55 ◼ ► clear and it is very hard for me to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1675">TS</a>]
00:27:59 ◼ ► accept that for myself like it is very [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1679">TS</a>]
00:28:03 ◼ ► hard for me to acknowledge it as not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1683">TS</a>]
00:28:06 ◼ ► being a personality flaw you know and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1686">TS</a>]
00:28:10 ◼ ► yeah so I look at you know I look at the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1690">TS</a>]
00:28:12 ◼ ► course of of a typical day or a look at [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1692">TS</a>]
00:28:14 ◼ ► the arc of nine months of my life and I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1694">TS</a>]
00:28:17 ◼ ► the only thing that can account for the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1697">TS</a>]
00:28:20 ◼ ► way that for the choices I've been [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1700">TS</a>]
00:28:22 ◼ ► making is that I'm suffering from [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1702">TS</a>]
00:28:24 ◼ ► depression i'm clearly suffering and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1704">TS</a>]
00:28:25 ◼ ► everywhere I go every time I talk to a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1705">TS</a>]
00:28:27 ◼ ► doctor and I say hear my problems doctor [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1707">TS</a>]
00:28:29 ◼ ► and I run down my problems they're like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1709">TS</a>]
00:28:31 ◼ ► well you have severe depression I go [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1711">TS</a>]
00:28:32 ◼ ► yeah I know but come on help me out here [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1712">TS</a>]
00:28:38 ◼ ► yeah you gotta get something is there [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1718">TS</a>]
00:28:39 ◼ ► something physically difficult that I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1719">TS</a>]
00:28:41 ◼ ► can do or something that I could resist [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1721">TS</a>]
00:28:43 ◼ ► doing for a few months that might [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1723">TS</a>]
00:28:45 ◼ ► improve its but yeah I pretty good at [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1725">TS</a>]
00:28:47 ◼ ► this is the matter i mean anybody could [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1727">TS</a>]
00:28:49 ◼ ► tell that give me something to work with [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1729">TS</a>]
00:28:51 ◼ ► here and you know and I was like for a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1731">TS</a>]
00:28:57 ◼ ► listen I'm a drug addict but uh but I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1737">TS</a>]
00:29:00 ◼ ► mean adderalls not a drug it's a it's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1740">TS</a>]
00:29:03 ◼ ► like an attention focused sir and people [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1743">TS</a>]
00:29:05 ◼ ► were writing me i said this on the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1745">TS</a>]
00:29:07 ◼ ► internet a couple of times people riding [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1747">TS</a>]
00:29:08 ◼ ► me like dat all the drug is totally [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1748">TS</a>]
00:29:11 ◼ ► don't kid yourself i miss it i miss it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1751">TS</a>]
00:29:14 ◼ ► yeah but I can feel the difference oh [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1754">TS</a>]
00:29:16 ◼ ► how I don't know how have you in how [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1756">TS</a>]
00:29:19 ◼ ► long you've been arrow like okay talk [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1759">TS</a>]
00:29:22 ◼ ► about time I don't even ok talking about [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1762">TS</a>]
00:29:27 ◼ ► I mean you mentioned on twitter like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1767">TS</a>]
00:29:30 ◼ ► depression is that i think when i was a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1770">TS</a>]
00:29:33 ◼ ► kid when I was a lot like early teens [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1773">TS</a>]
00:29:40 ◼ ► being diagnosed with depression i didn't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1780">TS</a>]
00:29:45 ◼ ► feel like it had any stigma at all [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1785">TS</a>]
00:29:47 ◼ ► I felt like there it was it was a fairly [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1787">TS</a>]
00:29:49 ◼ ► glamorous diagnosis because depression [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1789">TS</a>]
00:29:52 ◼ ► was a it seemed exotic it seemed like a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1792">TS</a>]
00:29:56 ◼ ► German disease it seems like something [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1796">TS</a>]
00:30:00 ◼ ► that if you had depression you would [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1800">TS</a>]
00:30:02 ◼ ► ultimately you would ultimately be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1802">TS</a>]
00:30:04 ◼ ► wearing a black suit lounging on a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1804">TS</a>]
00:30:07 ◼ ► Shay's and someone would be painting you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1807">TS</a>]
00:30:10 ◼ ► and oils it's certainly an interesting [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1810">TS</a>]
00:30:15 ◼ ► particularly as a ten-year-old to be to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1815">TS</a>]
00:30:18 ◼ ► have somebody say like well it seems [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1818">TS</a>]
00:30:20 ◼ ► like you have depression I was like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1820">TS</a>]
00:30:23 ◼ ► that's a very adult sounding thing to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1823">TS</a>]
00:30:26 ◼ ► have and it feels very like it feels a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1826">TS</a>]
00:30:29 ◼ ► but it feels very Continental but I'll [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1829">TS</a>]
00:30:32 ◼ ► accept that so I never felt that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1832">TS</a>]
00:30:38 ◼ ► it was only later when people started [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1838">TS</a>]
00:30:43 ◼ ► pressed and being a and talking about [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1843">TS</a>]
00:30:46 ◼ ► the stigma that they felt it was only [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1846">TS</a>]
00:30:49 ◼ ► later that I it even occurred to me that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1849">TS</a>]
00:30:51 ◼ ► there was stigma around it because [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1851">TS</a>]
00:30:52 ◼ ► depression seemed i guess to me like the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1852">TS</a>]
00:30:55 ◼ ► only reasonable response to an insane [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1855">TS</a>]
00:30:58 ◼ ► world why would you feel a stigma right [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1858">TS</a>]
00:31:00 ◼ ► but but uh and so so my whatever [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1860">TS</a>]
00:31:05 ◼ ► reticence I had to talk about it was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1865">TS</a>]
00:31:07 ◼ ► entirely a reticence based on I did I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1867">TS</a>]
00:31:10 ◼ ► just don't like to reveal things about [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1870">TS</a>]
00:31:12 ◼ ► myself to strangers right you know like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1872">TS</a>]
00:31:15 ◼ ► a I said I don't mention my daughter's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1875">TS</a>]
00:31:17 ◼ ► name or whatever the same thing like I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1877">TS</a>]
00:31:20 ◼ ► don't talk about my problems because [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1880">TS</a>]
00:31:21 ◼ ► because ultimately if you say something [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1881">TS</a>]
00:31:23 ◼ ► on the internet you get a bunch of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1883">TS</a>]
00:31:24 ◼ ► Concerned a well-liked dm's from your [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1884">TS</a>]
00:31:29 ◼ ► friends going is everything ok are you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1889">TS</a>]
00:31:32 ◼ ► it's like yeah I mentioned depressed i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1892">TS</a>]
00:31:34 ◼ ► mentioned the depression that I have [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1894">TS</a>]
00:31:38 ◼ ► it's not like it's not like I'm peaking [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1898">TS</a>]
00:31:39 ◼ ► I'm not standing on a bridge who um but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1899">TS</a>]
00:31:43 ◼ ► but as time goes on i guess i guess what [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1903">TS</a>]
00:31:46 ◼ ► i'm talking about more is that I can I I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1906">TS</a>]
00:31:49 ◼ ► always thought as you got older that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1909">TS</a>]
00:31:51 ◼ ► that depression was a thing that you had [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1911">TS</a>]
00:31:54 ◼ ► when you were in your teens or early [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1914">TS</a>]
00:31:55 ◼ ► twenties and when you were very wit your [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1915">TS</a>]
00:31:58 ◼ ► peak dramatic years when you're feeling [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1918">TS</a>]
00:32:00 ◼ ► very dramatic and it continued into my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1920">TS</a>]
00:32:02 ◼ ► thirties because every aspect of my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1922">TS</a>]
00:32:05 ◼ ► youth continued into my thirties I was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1925">TS</a>]
00:32:07 ◼ ► still a teenager at 37 years old but now [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1927">TS</a>]
00:32:11 ◼ ► that I'm in my forties and it is not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1931">TS</a>]
00:32:13 ◼ ► waning if anything it is waxing it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1933">TS</a>]
00:32:18 ◼ ► started to be a thing like okay you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1938">TS</a>]
00:32:19 ◼ ► what I'm going to just start talking [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1939">TS</a>]
00:32:21 ◼ ► about this more because um because it's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1941">TS</a>]
00:32:25 ◼ ► act it's actually a feature on my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1945">TS</a>]
00:32:27 ◼ ► landscape it's a thing that every [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1947">TS</a>]
00:32:29 ◼ ► morning I wake up and and even if there [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1949">TS</a>]
00:32:32 ◼ ► are no owls in my room there is always [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1952">TS</a>]
00:32:34 ◼ ► this like this bugbear and I go uh you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1954">TS</a>]
00:32:40 ◼ ► again and you know a lot of the stuff [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1960">TS</a>]
00:32:43 ◼ ► that you and I talked about orbits [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1963">TS</a>]
00:32:45 ◼ ► around this this issue that you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1965">TS</a>]
00:32:49 ◼ ► that feeling of dissatisfaction in the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1969">TS</a>]
00:32:52 ◼ ► feeling of everything that you've [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1972">TS</a>]
00:32:56 ◼ ► yes uh huh you know that there's no [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1976">TS</a>]
00:32:59 ◼ ► there's no reasonable way I could think [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1979">TS</a>]
00:33:05 ◼ ► that and that's what that that's because [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1985">TS</a>]
00:33:10 ◼ ► completely unreasonable and and the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1990">TS</a>]
00:33:13 ◼ ► misunderstand it and and really really [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1993">TS</a>]
00:33:16 ◼ ► eat the booger on how I dealt with [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1996">TS</a>]
00:33:18 ◼ ► somebody important in my life had [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/1998">TS</a>]
00:33:20 ◼ ► depression and i know it was that I was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2000">TS</a>]
00:33:22 ◼ ► of the ok that's long enough it's time [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2002">TS</a>]
00:33:25 ◼ ► to buck up school right and and you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2005">TS</a>]
00:33:27 ◼ ► I think you tell me if this is correct [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2007">TS</a>]
00:33:30 ◼ ► in your experience but my understanding [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2010">TS</a>]
00:33:31 ◼ ► is that the most insidious thing about [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2011">TS</a>]
00:33:34 ◼ ► depression is not the true that a sad [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2014">TS</a>]
00:33:36 ◼ ► it's not that you really really sad [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2016">TS</a>]
00:33:38 ◼ ► it's not even that you sometimes think [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2018">TS</a>]
00:33:39 ◼ ► about harming yourself like that's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2019">TS</a>]
00:33:41 ◼ ► actually stuff that a lot of people feel [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2021">TS</a>]
00:33:42 ◼ ► like a fair amount of the time it's just [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2022">TS</a>]
00:33:45 ◼ ► that no matter no matter what day it is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2025">TS</a>]
00:33:48 ◼ ► it it feels completely impossible to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2028">TS</a>]
00:33:51 ◼ ► imagine a world where it could be better [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2031">TS</a>]
00:33:53 ◼ ► line up for a lot of people them the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2033">TS</a>]
00:33:55 ◼ ► worst part of it and the part that I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2035">TS</a>]
00:33:57 ◼ ► think this set sounds like that's i'm [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2037">TS</a>]
00:33:59 ◼ ► already saying that but I think that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2039">TS</a>]
00:34:01 ◼ ► doesn't really sink in for people who [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2041">TS</a>]
00:34:02 ◼ ► don't have depression is it is fairly [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2042">TS</a>]
00:34:04 ◼ ► constant it does come sometimes get a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2044">TS</a>]
00:34:07 ◼ ► lot worse and the last thing in the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2047">TS</a>]
00:34:09 ◼ ► world you could ever imagine is having a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2049">TS</a>]
00:34:12 ◼ ► it does yeah it doesn't a bait but it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2052">TS</a>]
00:34:14 ◼ ► also attaches itself to your normal [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2054">TS</a>]
00:34:18 ◼ ► sense of reason right it is it doesn't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2058">TS</a>]
00:34:22 ◼ ► it doesn't fly how you see and decide [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2062">TS</a>]
00:34:24 ◼ ► yeah it's not it's not like it's not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2064">TS</a>]
00:34:30 ◼ ► republicanism we're all of a sudden you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2070">TS</a>]
00:34:32 ◼ ► think you're the president is a Muslim [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2072">TS</a>]
00:34:34 ◼ ► and you know it's not like it's not like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2074">TS</a>]
00:34:36 ◼ ► madness it is already went to college in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2076">TS</a>]
00:34:40 ◼ ► a Burger King if it is a thing it is a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2080">TS</a>]
00:34:43 ◼ ► thing where you look at it you make [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2083">TS</a>]
00:34:47 ◼ ► in a way that seems absolutely rational [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2087">TS</a>]
00:34:51 ◼ ► but your conclusion is that you really [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2091">TS</a>]
00:34:56 ◼ ► you really are you are you are you are a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2096">TS</a>]
00:34:59 ◼ ► real turd in this situation you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2099">TS</a>]
00:35:01 ◼ ► when I I'll help start making a pot of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2101">TS</a>]
00:35:03 ◼ ► macaroni and cheese and there will be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2103">TS</a>]
00:35:06 ◼ ► three or four opportunities in the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2106">TS</a>]
00:35:08 ◼ ► course of waiting for the water to boil [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2108">TS</a>]
00:35:09 ◼ ► and adding the powdered cheese packet [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2109">TS</a>]
00:35:12 ◼ ► and eating the macaroni and cheese where [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2112">TS</a>]
00:35:14 ◼ ► I feel like this macaroni and cheese is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2114">TS</a>]
00:35:17 ◼ ► a is a metaphor for how I'm not thriving [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2117">TS</a>]
00:35:21 ◼ ► and so the macaroni and cheese tastes [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2121">TS</a>]
00:35:31 ◼ ► you know like it it robs you of the the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2131">TS</a>]
00:35:34 ◼ ► potential to enjoy even the simple [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2134">TS</a>]
00:35:36 ◼ ► things because you are finding your [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2136">TS</a>]
00:35:39 ◼ ► finding like all the all the evidence [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2139">TS</a>]
00:35:43 ◼ ► you need in the simple things that you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2143">TS</a>]
00:35:50 ◼ ► it's the things around you that stepped [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2150">TS</a>]
00:35:52 ◼ ► on an intellectual level you may not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2152">TS</a>]
00:35:55 ◼ ► think have anything to do with that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2155">TS</a>]
00:35:57 ◼ ► start to become emblematic of like what [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2157">TS</a>]
00:36:00 ◼ ► that person is or failure or everything [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2160">TS</a>]
00:36:02 ◼ ► becomes evidence evidence residence of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2162">TS</a>]
00:36:05 ◼ ► yeah and you're and you're Europe you're [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2165">TS</a>]
00:36:08 ◼ ► using your ear capacity to you know that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2168">TS</a>]
00:36:13 ◼ ► the it is a capacity that I prize in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2173">TS</a>]
00:36:15 ◼ ► myself to look at the evidence to walk [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2175">TS</a>]
00:36:18 ◼ ► out the door and look at the evidence [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2178">TS</a>]
00:36:20 ◼ ► and and make decisions you know like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2180">TS</a>]
00:36:24 ◼ ► based on what I see and what I know you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2184">TS</a>]
00:36:28 ◼ ► know and that's it that is this prized [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2188">TS</a>]
00:36:30 ◼ ► faculty that i use everywhere I go like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2190">TS</a>]
00:36:32 ◼ ► haha i see how this is gonna go this guy [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2192">TS</a>]
00:36:36 ◼ ► milkshake in haha he did I saw it but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2196">TS</a>]
00:36:40 ◼ ► you but when you turn that faculty on [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2200">TS</a>]
00:36:43 ◼ ► yourself and all the evidence points to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2203">TS</a>]
00:36:51 ◼ ► that's when you know that that that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2211">TS</a>]
00:36:54 ◼ ► faculty is is normally the thing I lean [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2214">TS</a>]
00:36:56 ◼ ► on so when it returns this evidence to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2216">TS</a>]
00:37:01 ◼ ► me that i am you know that that that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2221">TS</a>]
00:37:04 ◼ ► everything I've ever made that belongs [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2224">TS</a>]
00:37:07 ◼ ► on the dustbin it's very hard for me to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2227">TS</a>]
00:37:09 ◼ ► go well in that instance you're the in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2229">TS</a>]
00:37:14 ◼ ► that instance your your your faculty for [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2234">TS</a>]
00:37:16 ◼ ► seeing is is flawed or broken because I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2236">TS</a>]
00:37:21 ◼ ► use it all the time I trust my faculty [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2241">TS</a>]
00:37:23 ◼ ► for seeing so and and that is so super [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2243">TS</a>]
00:37:28 ◼ ► complicated because I'm just I'm [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2248">TS</a>]
00:37:29 ◼ ► processing what you're saying yeah here [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2249">TS</a>]
00:37:31 ◼ ► but at some mean you you're a very [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2251">TS</a>]
00:37:34 ◼ ► rational guy in a lot of ways you're [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2254">TS</a>]
00:37:37 ◼ ► certainly monkey balls in many ways but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2257">TS</a>]
00:37:39 ◼ ► now you're a guy who really thrives on [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2259">TS</a>]
00:37:41 ◼ ► saying now like what is the thing that's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2261">TS</a>]
00:37:43 ◼ ► really hear what is the essential nature [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2263">TS</a>]
00:37:45 ◼ ► of this conversation that we're having [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2265">TS</a>]
00:37:47 ◼ ► what is the essential nature of this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2267">TS</a>]
00:37:50 ◼ ► deal that you're trying to offer me and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2270">TS</a>]
00:37:51 ◼ ► keep changing the topic about it seems [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2271">TS</a>]
00:37:53 ◼ ► to me that like you have the scars to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2273">TS</a>]
00:37:58 ◼ ► surrounded by things that dulled the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2278">TS</a>]
00:38:01 ◼ ► influence of the outside world to where [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2281">TS</a>]
00:38:03 ◼ ► you now seriously seemed to really [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2283">TS</a>]
00:38:07 ◼ ► experience of what the fuck is really [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2287">TS</a>]
00:38:10 ◼ ► happening and that you if there's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2290">TS</a>]
00:38:12 ◼ ► anything you trust about yourself [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2292">TS</a>]
00:38:14 ◼ ► it is your ability to know that you're [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2294">TS</a>]
00:38:16 ◼ ► always being as honest as a human can be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2296">TS</a>]
00:38:18 ◼ ► about what the fuck is really happening [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2298">TS</a>]
00:38:20 ◼ ► yeah and and when you turn around the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2300">TS</a>]
00:38:23 ◼ ► past that's become something and you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2303">TS</a>]
00:38:24 ◼ ► certainly have every reason to be proud [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2304">TS</a>]
00:38:25 ◼ ► of that because you went through a lot [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2305">TS</a>]
00:38:27 ◼ ► of shit to get to where that's your mo [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2307">TS</a>]
00:38:30 ◼ ► well the and the problem so the problem [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2310">TS</a>]
00:38:34 ◼ ► is that when somebody says to me if you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2314">TS</a>]
00:38:37 ◼ ► take this if you take this serotonin [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2317">TS</a>]
00:38:41 ◼ ► reuptake inhibitor who it's going to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2321">TS</a>]
00:38:44 ◼ ► make you not feel that way anymore i go [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2324">TS</a>]
00:38:50 ◼ ► i I'm suspicious because it doesn't feel [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2330">TS</a>]
00:38:54 ◼ ► the depression doesn't feel alien that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2334">TS</a>]
00:38:57 ◼ ► is the that is what is insidious about [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2337">TS</a>]
00:38:59 ◼ ► it it does not feel it certainly [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2339">TS</a>]
00:39:02 ◼ ► feels like a handicap but it doesn't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2342">TS</a>]
00:39:05 ◼ ► feel like a stranger doesn't feel [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2345">TS</a>]
00:39:07 ◼ ► external no i'm not at all you sitting [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2347">TS</a>]
00:39:10 ◼ ► you know because what happens is i look [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2350">TS</a>]
00:39:11 ◼ ► around the room and I go well come on [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2351">TS</a>]
00:39:13 ◼ ► I mean look at that look at that look at [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2353">TS</a>]
00:39:17 ◼ ► commemorates that great show that you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2357">TS</a>]
00:39:22 ◼ ► played like that should be a source of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2362">TS</a>]
00:39:26 ◼ ► like uncomplicated pleasure for you you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2366">TS</a>]
00:39:30 ◼ ► have a you have a beautiful poster that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2370">TS</a>]
00:39:33 ◼ ► commemorates this wonderful show that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2373">TS</a>]
00:39:36 ◼ ► how can you find a downside to that and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2376">TS</a>]
00:39:40 ◼ ► then the voice doesn't even need [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2380">TS</a>]
00:39:43 ◼ ► prompting you know it says well you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2383">TS</a>]
00:39:47 ◼ ► only only someone with a low self-esteem [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2387">TS</a>]
00:39:51 ◼ ► would need a poster to remind him that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2391">TS</a>]
00:39:54 ◼ ► he was that he had good things in his [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2394">TS</a>]
00:39:57 ◼ ► life right now doing it and how did you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2397">TS</a>]
00:40:00 ◼ ► well Thea only a person you know that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2400">TS</a>]
00:40:03 ◼ ► and then look around the room like Oh [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2403">TS</a>]
00:40:04 ◼ ► everything in this room is just some [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2404">TS</a>]
00:40:06 ◼ ► kind of sham a reflective surface [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2406">TS</a>]
00:40:10 ◼ ► broadcasting your own life back to you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2410">TS</a>]
00:40:15 ◼ ► in these discrete chunks to try and make [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2415">TS</a>]
00:40:19 ◼ ► yourself feel better about what a shit [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2419">TS</a>]
00:40:21 ◼ ► job you've done and you know there's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2421">TS</a>]
00:40:24 ◼ ► nothing there is no small thing that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2424">TS</a>]
00:40:27 ◼ ► cannot be robbed of all its joy by this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2427">TS</a>]
00:40:31 ◼ ► friend who sits next to me in the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2431">TS</a>]
00:40:34 ◼ ► cockpit and whispers in my ear and says [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2434">TS</a>]
00:40:37 ◼ ► oh yeah no I mean everything everything [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2437">TS</a>]
00:40:40 ◼ ► that you love is a thing that you love [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2440">TS</a>]
00:40:43 ◼ ► because you are a shame and you just you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2443">TS</a>]
00:40:47 ◼ ► know and and talking about it to people [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2447">TS</a>]
00:40:49 ◼ ► get it you know i remember the the the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2449">TS</a>]
00:40:53 ◼ ► friend that you referenced earlier you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2453">TS</a>]
00:40:55 ◼ ► know a this person that was lovely and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2455">TS</a>]
00:40:58 ◼ ► you loved and she struggled in the same [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2458">TS</a>]
00:41:01 ◼ ► way and you know i have seen that happen [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2461">TS</a>]
00:41:05 ◼ ► with people who struggle with depression [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2465">TS</a>]
00:41:06 ◼ ► is more severe than mine who are no [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2466">TS</a>]
00:41:10 ◼ ► who and you know I feel lucky that my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2470">TS</a>]
00:41:14 ◼ ► that I never the idea of harming myself [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2474">TS</a>]
00:41:16 ◼ ► has never occurred to me because I feel [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2476">TS</a>]
00:41:19 ◼ ► like when it's time for me to go I'm [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2479">TS</a>]
00:41:21 ◼ ► gonna take as many motherfuckers out [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2481">TS</a>]
00:41:24 ◼ ► there's going to be I mean if there [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2484">TS</a>]
00:41:27 ◼ ► isn't a mushroom cloud at least to mark [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2487">TS</a>]
00:41:29 ◼ ► my passage from this world I really will [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2489">TS</a>]
00:41:32 ◼ ► have failed but but at the same time [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2492">TS</a>]
00:41:37 ◼ ► like this living in a kind of low-level [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2497">TS</a>]
00:41:40 ◼ ► gray is just no way to be it's just no [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2500">TS</a>]
00:41:44 ◼ ► way to be and unfortunately i can't get [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2504">TS</a>]
00:41:47 ◼ ► over the hump of thinking that a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2507">TS</a>]
00:41:49 ◼ ► serotonin reuptake inhibitor or cross [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2509">TS</a>]
00:41:52 ◼ ► tops or exercise or more blow jobs or [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2512">TS</a>]
00:41:55 ◼ ► whatever it is that that that I get [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2515">TS</a>]
00:41:57 ◼ ► prescribed by people and I know talking [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2517">TS</a>]
00:42:00 ◼ ► about this i'm going to get a thousand [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2520">TS</a>]
00:42:01 ◼ ► tweets from people who are like all you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2521">TS</a>]
00:42:03 ◼ ► need to do is blah blah and let me just [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2523">TS</a>]
00:42:07 ◼ ► I hate to break the fourth wall but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2527">TS</a>]
00:42:10 ◼ ► thoughtful people for the love of Christ [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2530">TS</a>]
00:42:15 ◼ ► but you know as soon as you start [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2535">TS</a>]
00:42:19 ◼ ► talking about it there are people that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2539">TS</a>]
00:42:21 ◼ ► want to help help cure you and that is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2541">TS</a>]
00:42:24 ◼ ► the problem but the very principle of of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2544">TS</a>]
00:42:27 ◼ ► of trying to seek a cure is like I have [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2547">TS</a>]
00:42:34 ◼ ► a million reasons why that what that is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2554">TS</a>]
00:42:37 ◼ ► going to work in the truth this is very [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2557">TS</a>]
00:42:39 ◼ ► rarely as simple as about about about [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2559">TS</a>]
00:42:40 ◼ ► but about is what somebody reports [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2560">TS</a>]
00:42:45 ◼ ► yeah man and and thank God and God bless [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2565">TS</a>]
00:42:47 ◼ ► them but I hi a lot of my friends who [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2567">TS</a>]
00:42:49 ◼ ► have gotten treatment for depression is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2569">TS</a>]
00:42:51 ◼ ► a pretty fucking rough go and sometimes [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2571">TS</a>]
00:42:54 ◼ ► it got worse and then sometimes they [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2574">TS</a>]
00:42:56 ◼ ► couldn't get a boner and and sometimes [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2576">TS</a>]
00:42:58 ◼ ► it took two years i'm not trying to say [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2578">TS</a>]
00:43:00 ◼ ► don't look for help I'm also saying [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2580">TS</a>]
00:43:02 ◼ ► don't percent it's as simple as drink [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2582">TS</a>]
00:43:04 ◼ ► some green tea and walk in the woods [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2584">TS</a>]
00:43:06 ◼ ► you're saying that i'm looking into a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2586">TS</a>]
00:43:07 ◼ ► into an oboe near future so i can [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2587">TS</a>]
00:43:10 ◼ ► remember that men when the boner will [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2590">TS</a>]
00:43:12 ◼ ► stare back at you from the abyss [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2592">TS</a>]
00:43:15 ◼ ► yeah well you know I I'm a minute I you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2595">TS</a>]
00:43:18 ◼ ► know I I I don't have anything like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2598">TS</a>]
00:43:21 ◼ ► depression as far as i know if i have [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2601">TS</a>]
00:43:24 ◼ ► anything it's my head your new problems [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2604">TS</a>]
00:43:26 ◼ ► I'd be more depressed well you know easy [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2606">TS</a>]
00:43:29 ◼ ► you gotta just be careful about the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2609">TS</a>]
00:43:31 ◼ ► onions and I know how hard that would be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2611">TS</a>]
00:43:32 ◼ ► for you so i think really we have no [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2612">TS</a>]
00:43:34 ◼ ► hand are you having a hundred Henry [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2614">TS</a>]
00:43:35 ◼ ► situation you can have my onions [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2615">TS</a>]
00:43:40 ◼ ► I'll take your my haircut i'll take your [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2620">TS</a>]
00:43:43 ◼ ► lack of occasional lack of mania ok you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2623">TS</a>]
00:43:47 ◼ ► know but but I don't know there's just [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2627">TS</a>]
00:43:48 ◼ ► something that when I learned that that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2628">TS</a>]
00:43:50 ◼ ► really resonated with me because i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2630">TS</a>]
00:43:52 ◼ ► really got it I got it that's the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2632">TS</a>]
00:43:53 ◼ ► capital D part of depression is that it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2633">TS</a>]
00:43:56 ◼ ► doesn't feel like it's a veil that can [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2636">TS</a>]
00:43:57 ◼ ► be lifted and as you say it isn't a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2637">TS</a>]
00:43:59 ◼ ► matter of flicking his bugbear off your [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2639">TS</a>]
00:44:00 ◼ ► shoulder or saying Satan I rebuke thee [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2640">TS</a>]
00:44:03 ◼ ► it's it's a good deal more complicated [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2643">TS</a>]
00:44:06 ◼ ► it's the renowned say to my Michael [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2646">TS</a>]
00:44:14 ◼ ► ritzy the but you know this is another [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2654">TS</a>]
00:44:18 ◼ ► way to put this and I'm not as you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2658">TS</a>]
00:44:19 ◼ ► I'm not a depression psychiatrist but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2659">TS</a>]
00:44:21 ◼ ► but I you know if you saw somebody [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2661">TS</a>]
00:44:23 ◼ ► walking around with bronchitis you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2663">TS</a>]
00:44:28 ◼ ► wouldn't just tell him to back up you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2668">TS</a>]
00:44:30 ◼ ► would have to understand that to get rid [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2670">TS</a>]
00:44:31 ◼ ► of that bronchitis there's certain [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2671">TS</a>]
00:44:33 ◼ ► things to really get rid of bronchitis [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2673">TS</a>]
00:44:34 ◼ ► you gotta take some antibiotics and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2674">TS</a>]
00:44:36 ◼ ► well sir that matter if you saw somebody [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2676">TS</a>]
00:44:38 ◼ ► who is like missing a hand and he said [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2678">TS</a>]
00:44:40 ◼ ► we'll just try harder to get handy but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2680">TS</a>]
00:44:42 ◼ ► here's but here's the trick is that you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2682">TS</a>]
00:44:44 ◼ ► have you have mania i have depression a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2684">TS</a>]
00:44:51 ◼ ► good i got other problems i don't have [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2691">TS</a>]
00:44:53 ◼ ► damaged hmm but these things are also [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2693">TS</a>]
00:44:59 ◼ ► yeah like Kierkegaard had mania and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2699">TS</a>]
00:45:04 ◼ ► depression and his name rings out you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2704">TS</a>]
00:45:09 ◼ ► know for 450 thousand years of human [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2709">TS</a>]
00:45:12 ◼ ► history mania and depression were things [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2712">TS</a>]
00:45:14 ◼ ► that were that were useful talents right [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2714">TS</a>]
00:45:18 ◼ ► now that made that made people become [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2718">TS</a>]
00:45:25 ◼ ► or scientists or or conquerors you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2725">TS</a>]
00:45:29 ◼ ► these are these are not just handicaps [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2729">TS</a>]
00:45:33 ◼ ► they are they're very complex sort of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2733">TS</a>]
00:45:38 ◼ ► some rainbow of qualities and our [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2738">TS</a>]
00:45:44 ◼ ► fixation now and then you know in part [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2744">TS</a>]
00:45:46 ◼ ► of the part of why my depression is is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2746">TS</a>]
00:45:49 ◼ ► that is so hobbling is that i live in a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2749">TS</a>]
00:45:53 ◼ ► world where I have the resources and I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2753">TS</a>]
00:45:56 ◼ ► have the inclination to further isolate [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2756">TS</a>]
00:46:00 ◼ ► myself from people and to live in an [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2760">TS</a>]
00:46:03 ◼ ► ivory tower and at any time prior in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2763">TS</a>]
00:46:08 ◼ ► human history unless I was a very very [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2768">TS</a>]
00:46:10 ◼ ► rich person I wouldn't be able to do [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2770">TS</a>]
00:46:12 ◼ ► that and so I would have been out in the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2772">TS</a>]
00:46:13 ◼ ► streets and my depression would have [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2773">TS</a>]
00:46:14 ◼ ► been mitigated somewhat by just having [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2774">TS</a>]
00:46:16 ◼ ► to go down to the cart to the onion cart [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2776">TS</a>]
00:46:19 ◼ ► and by an onion every day if I wanted an [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2779">TS</a>]
00:46:22 ◼ ► onion and your mania would be a likewise [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2782">TS</a>]
00:46:25 ◼ ► more assimilated into the culture and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2785">TS</a>]
00:46:29 ◼ ► particularly given that the life [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2789">TS</a>]
00:46:31 ◼ ► expectancy of people was 37 years by [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2791">TS</a>]
00:46:35 ◼ ► this point we would already be dead and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2795">TS</a>]
00:46:37 ◼ ► and our problems would you know would be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2797">TS</a>]
00:46:43 ◼ ► whatever whatever our personality was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2803">TS</a>]
00:46:45 ◼ ► they would just remember us in our [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2805">TS</a>]
00:46:46 ◼ ► village and they'd be like yeah he was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2806">TS</a>]
00:46:49 ◼ ► you see that church spire he wants to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2809">TS</a>]
00:46:52 ◼ ► climb to clean up and ranted about [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2812">TS</a>]
00:46:54 ◼ ► that's not real talkative guy read about [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2814">TS</a>]
00:46:57 ◼ ► the president was a Muslim for a couple [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2817">TS</a>]
00:46:59 ◼ ► of days before he got tired and fell [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2819">TS</a>]
00:47:02 ◼ ► into the onion cart so so that that's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2822">TS</a>]
00:47:06 ◼ ► the that's the flip side is is that it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2826">TS</a>]
00:47:09 ◼ ► is in this family of modern diagnosis of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2829">TS</a>]
00:47:13 ◼ ► mental pathology some of which I mean I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2833">TS</a>]
00:47:18 ◼ ► don't see what the upside to chronic [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2838">TS</a>]
00:47:21 ◼ ► fatigue syndrome is except that except [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2841">TS</a>]
00:47:25 ◼ ► that it used to be called a what clergy [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2845">TS</a>]
00:47:29 ◼ ► or I mean it was a alright it was a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2849">TS</a>]
00:47:32 ◼ ► thing that that very aristocratic women [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2852">TS</a>]
00:47:38 ◼ ► where they had to lay on a on a Sunday [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2858">TS</a>]
00:47:40 ◼ ► fans on their fainting couch there [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2860">TS</a>]
00:47:42 ◼ ► fainting couch with their with their you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2862">TS</a>]
00:47:45 ◼ ► know their ether soaked opera glasses [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2865">TS</a>]
00:47:48 ◼ ► yeah they're either soap opera glasses [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2868">TS</a>]
00:47:52 ◼ ► and finally I can see clearly so looking [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2872">TS</a>]
00:47:55 ◼ ► back through history like all of these [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2875">TS</a>]
00:47:57 ◼ ► if these modern diagnosis have analogs [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2877">TS</a>]
00:48:00 ◼ ► in the past a lot of them were either [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2880">TS</a>]
00:48:03 ◼ ► considered talents including bordering [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2883">TS</a>]
00:48:06 ◼ ► on like mystical talents or they were [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2886">TS</a>]
00:48:11 ◼ ► you know they were integrated into our [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2891">TS</a>]
00:48:13 ◼ ► culture as a like out she is she's too [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2893">TS</a>]
00:48:16 ◼ ► delicate for she's too delicate for [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2896">TS</a>]
00:48:19 ◼ ► modern life and we need to bring her [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2899">TS</a>]
00:48:21 ◼ ► like lukewarm tea and now we are you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2901">TS</a>]
00:48:24 ◼ ► know we're shooting her shooting the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2904">TS</a>]
00:48:26 ◼ ► same person full of hormones or I don't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2906">TS</a>]
00:48:30 ◼ ► know or and Federman's most of the time [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2910">TS</a>]
00:48:33 ◼ ► who so so I'm really you know I it all [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2913">TS</a>]
00:48:39 ◼ ► psychopharmacology that that very much [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2919">TS</a>]
00:48:46 ◼ ► like the internet I feel like still is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2926">TS</a>]
00:48:48 ◼ ► in the bicycle engine stage of of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2928">TS</a>]
00:48:53 ◼ ► aviation where the wings are made of of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2933">TS</a>]
00:48:56 ◼ ► a tissue paper and somebody has a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2936">TS</a>]
00:48:59 ◼ ► one-and-a-half horsepower single single [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2939">TS</a>]
00:49:03 ◼ ► piston engine and they're flying we [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2943">TS</a>]
00:49:06 ◼ ► could fly right can affect the brain now [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2946">TS</a>]
00:49:09 ◼ ► let's do it so it's all still like it's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2949">TS</a>]
00:49:13 ◼ ► amazing how much stuff in medicine in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2953">TS</a>]
00:49:16 ◼ ► general and in psychopharmacology in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2956">TS</a>]
00:49:17 ◼ ► particular is is still just just a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2957">TS</a>]
00:49:21 ◼ ► little bit northeast of medieval um I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2961">TS</a>]
00:49:24 ◼ ► mean how in some ways like pain medicine [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2964">TS</a>]
00:49:26 ◼ ► is so simple the way the pain medicine [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2966">TS</a>]
00:49:28 ◼ ► works is is just ridiculously simple [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2968">TS</a>]
00:49:31 ◼ ► sophisticated blocking the receptors but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2971">TS</a>]
00:49:34 ◼ ► it doesn't go to the to the broken hand [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2974">TS</a>]
00:49:36 ◼ ► it goes to the brain right and like with [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2976">TS</a>]
00:49:38 ◼ ► my shrink you know and you know i always [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2978">TS</a>]
00:49:40 ◼ ► i hate to misquote because it's very [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2980">TS</a>]
00:49:41 ◼ ► exacting man but he can sit there and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2981">TS</a>]
00:49:45 ◼ ► represented the two sides of this you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2985">TS</a>]
00:49:47 ◼ ► know and these drugs work together does [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2987">TS</a>]
00:49:49 ◼ ► this and that and it's all completely [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2989">TS</a>]
00:49:51 ◼ ► really understand is that if my brain is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2991">TS</a>]
00:49:53 ◼ ► not making enough of this juice that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2993">TS</a>]
00:49:57 ◼ ► distracted right but some people use [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2997">TS</a>]
00:49:59 ◼ ► some people get so much of that Jews [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/2999">TS</a>]
00:50:02 ◼ ► yeah i just described everybody i went [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3002">TS</a>]
00:50:04 ◼ ► to high school with so much is too much [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3004">TS</a>]
00:50:06 ◼ ► of the one kind of jitter juice not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3006">TS</a>]
00:50:09 ◼ ► enough of the other kind of tooth on one [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3009">TS</a>]
00:50:11 ◼ ► end it all presupposes that there is a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3011">TS</a>]
00:50:15 ◼ ► that there is a correct degree of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3015">TS</a>]
00:50:20 ◼ ► humaneness you know that there is a that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3020">TS</a>]
00:50:22 ◼ ► there is an ideal amount an ideal [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3022">TS</a>]
00:50:25 ◼ ► balance to to any mind that translates [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3025">TS</a>]
00:50:31 ◼ ► across all mines so what we are seeking [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3031">TS</a>]
00:50:34 ◼ ► is this this balance this broken this is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3034">TS</a>]
00:50:38 ◼ ► healing of brokenness where I mean I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3038">TS</a>]
00:50:41 ◼ ► honestly cannot in some ways separate my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3041">TS</a>]
00:50:44 ◼ ► depression from my personality and two [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3044">TS</a>]
00:50:48 ◼ ► and this is the this is the problem with [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3048">TS</a>]
00:50:51 ◼ ► schizophrenics whoo-hoo take medicine [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3051">TS</a>]
00:50:54 ◼ ► and they're like that i don't feel fun [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3054">TS</a>]
00:50:56 ◼ ► I mean admittedly i was living under the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3056">TS</a>]
00:51:00 ◼ ► embarcadero but god I was seeing some [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3060">TS</a>]
00:51:04 ◼ ► colors right and I don't want to take [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3064">TS</a>]
00:51:06 ◼ ► this medicine because it makes me feel [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3066">TS</a>]
00:51:07 ◼ ► dull and you know and they they give up [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3067">TS</a>]
00:51:10 ◼ ► their job and apartment and wife and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3070">TS</a>]
00:51:12 ◼ ► they go back to living under the bridge [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3072">TS</a>]
00:51:13 ◼ ► because because there they feel like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3073">TS</a>]
00:51:17 ◼ ► they're like their mind isn't theirs and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3077">TS</a>]
00:51:20 ◼ ► and for me like I'm not sure what amount [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3080">TS</a>]
00:51:25 ◼ ► of healing i'm seeking and guess because [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3085">TS</a>]
00:51:28 ◼ ► I mean you know what have you ever [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3088">TS</a>]
00:51:29 ◼ ► wanted to be clinical normal in the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3089">TS</a>]
00:51:31 ◼ ► uh well I mean that in the regard never [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3091">TS</a>]
00:51:35 ◼ ► seen it was an option right is it is one [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3095">TS</a>]
00:51:38 ◼ ► of the many articles I didn't finish [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3098">TS</a>]
00:51:42 ◼ ► diagnosis of autism in different [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3102">TS</a>]
00:51:44 ◼ ► societies and how it's it's such a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3104">TS</a>]
00:51:46 ◼ ► tricky thing because there are and again [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3106">TS</a>]
00:51:48 ◼ ► I haven't finished this article yet but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3108">TS</a>]
00:51:49 ◼ ► but it did grab me because part of the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3109">TS</a>]
00:51:51 ◼ ► notion is that it you know a lot of what [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3111">TS</a>]
00:51:54 ◼ ► we consider autism today you know these [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3114">TS</a>]
00:51:59 ◼ ► tests like do you make eye contact with [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3119">TS</a>]
00:52:01 ◼ ► people can you follow this conversation [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3121">TS</a>]
00:52:02 ◼ ► and you know there are a lot of cultures [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3122">TS</a>]
00:52:05 ◼ ► disrespectful for somebody feel like a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3125">TS</a>]
00:52:06 ◼ ► kid to look at elder in the eye while [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3126">TS</a>]
00:52:09 ◼ ► they're talking to them you might look [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3129">TS</a>]
00:52:10 ◼ ► at their face but you wouldn't look them [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3130">TS</a>]
00:52:12 ◼ ► interesting there's you know I mean this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3132">TS</a>]
00:52:13 ◼ ► Anu could do that any variety of decades [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3133">TS</a>]
00:52:16 ◼ ► it is that's probably this is a long [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3136">TS</a>]
00:52:17 ◼ ► walk off a short pier but you know it's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3137">TS</a>]
00:52:20 ◼ ► that I mean I think the thing that's how [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3140">TS</a>]
00:52:23 ◼ ► this doesn't sound too homespun but i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3143">TS</a>]
00:52:25 ◼ ► think it's just natural to want to not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3145">TS</a>]
00:52:27 ◼ ► feel like you're on the edge you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3147">TS</a>]
00:52:29 ◼ ► it's it isn't isn't even to say that you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3149">TS</a>]
00:52:32 ◼ ► know anybody necessarily crazy like oh I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3152">TS</a>]
00:52:33 ◼ ► want to be like other people or I want [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3153">TS</a>]
00:52:36 ◼ ► you just want to not feel like fucked up [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3156">TS</a>]
00:52:37 ◼ ► it's just not fun to wake up every day [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3157">TS</a>]
00:52:39 ◼ ► and feel off balance before you even get [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3159">TS</a>]
00:52:42 ◼ ► it's really depressing yeah it is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3162">TS</a>]
00:52:44 ◼ ► depressing although that was exactly the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3164">TS</a>]
00:52:47 ◼ ► feeling i stalked from the ages of 16 to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3167">TS</a>]
00:52:50 ◼ ► 30 like I wanted to feel on the edge all [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3170">TS</a>]
00:53:00 ◼ ► uh-huh um and I look at other I look at [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3180">TS</a>]
00:53:03 ◼ ► cool arm who are engaging life in a very [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3183">TS</a>]
00:53:09 ◼ ► different way than i did want you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3189">TS</a>]
00:53:11 ◼ ► when I was that age I oh I did this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3191">TS</a>]
00:53:14 ◼ ► video shoot down in in la month or two [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3194">TS</a>]
00:53:21 ◼ ► ago and one of the camera operators on [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3201">TS</a>]
00:53:23 ◼ ► the shoot was like 21 and very competent [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3203">TS</a>]
00:53:29 ◼ ► camera operator and I got chatting with [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3209">TS</a>]
00:53:33 ◼ ► him and said you know how did you get [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3213">TS</a>]
00:53:35 ◼ ► here and he's like well you know when i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3215">TS</a>]
00:53:36 ◼ ► graduated from high school I really [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3216">TS</a>]
00:53:38 ◼ ► wanted to make movies so they were [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3218">TS</a>]
00:53:43 ◼ ► filming an episode of portlandia in my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3223">TS</a>]
00:53:46 ◼ ► town I was 16 and I just went over and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3226">TS</a>]
00:53:50 ◼ ► hung around until they gave me a job to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3230">TS</a>]
00:53:55 ◼ ► running to get coffee and then pretty [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3235">TS</a>]
00:53:57 ◼ ► soon I was assisting the cameraperson [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3237">TS</a>]
00:53:59 ◼ ► and then i was when i was running one of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3239">TS</a>]
00:54:02 ◼ ► the cameras and you know now I live in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3242">TS</a>]
00:54:04 ◼ ► Hollywood and i'm 21 and I haven't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3244">TS</a>]
00:54:07 ◼ ► unbelievable i get that person it's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3247">TS</a>]
00:54:09 ◼ ► unbelievable but of course there are so [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3249">TS</a>]
00:54:12 ◼ ► many examples of people that at 16 17 [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3252">TS</a>]
00:54:15 ◼ ► years old they're like I want to be a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3255">TS</a>]
00:54:17 ◼ ► rock star i want to be in hollywood or I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3257">TS</a>]
00:54:19 ◼ ► want to be a writer i wanted i want to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3259">TS</a>]
00:54:21 ◼ ► be in politics or or whatever and they [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3261">TS</a>]
00:54:26 ◼ ► had no doubt about that choice they just [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3266">TS</a>]
00:54:31 ◼ ► went and did it and and then at a young [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3271">TS</a>]
00:54:36 ◼ ► age they're very accomplished and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3276">TS</a>]
00:54:37 ◼ ► they're on a path then they don't seem [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3277">TS</a>]
00:54:40 ◼ ► and they don't they're not sitting there [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3280">TS</a>]
00:54:42 ◼ ► saying but what if i should have been [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3282">TS</a>]
00:54:44 ◼ ► what if i should have gone to medical [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3284">TS</a>]
00:54:45 ◼ ► school what if i should have been an [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3285">TS</a>]
00:54:47 ◼ ► astronaut you know they're like I'm [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3287">TS</a>]
00:54:49 ◼ ► doing what I love to do and this is what [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3289">TS</a>]
00:54:50 ◼ ► i wanted to do in here I go off i go at [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3290">TS</a>]
00:54:53 ◼ ► and I i can't help but contrast myself [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3293">TS</a>]
00:54:56 ◼ ► against them when I was that age 21 [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3296">TS</a>]
00:54:59 ◼ ► years old I was you know sitting [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3299">TS</a>]
00:55:03 ◼ ► somewhere it on a barstool imagining [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3303">TS</a>]
00:55:07 ◼ ► that I could and should be doing [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3307">TS</a>]
00:55:11 ◼ ► everything and didn't know where to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3311">TS</a>]
00:55:16 ◼ ► begin doing everything wasn't exactly [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3316">TS</a>]
00:55:18 ◼ ► sure like how you got a degree in doing [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3318">TS</a>]
00:55:21 ◼ ► everything and was I mean not just not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3321">TS</a>]
00:55:28 ◼ ► just was inconceivable that I would go [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3328">TS</a>]
00:55:30 ◼ ► down to a film shoot and stand around [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3330">TS</a>]
00:55:33 ◼ ► saying hey can I can I lend a hand until [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3333">TS</a>]
00:55:37 ◼ ► until somebody was like yeah hey kid [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3337">TS</a>]
00:55:39 ◼ ► come over here and hold this you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3339">TS</a>]
00:55:41 ◼ ► not only was it inconceivable that that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3341">TS</a>]
00:55:43 ◼ ► would happen but but to my mind at the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3343">TS</a>]
00:55:51 ◼ ► they're just running coffee for some guy [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3351">TS</a>]
00:55:52 ◼ ► like and a half second of proposed you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3352">TS</a>]
00:55:56 ◼ ► might go wait a minute i'm supposed to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3356">TS</a>]
00:55:57 ◼ ► be a senator and I run night in the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3357">TS</a>]
00:55:59 ◼ ► senator line right so those you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3359">TS</a>]
00:56:04 ◼ ► those people are are certainly a model [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3364">TS</a>]
00:56:08 ◼ ► but if i compare myself to somebody like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3368">TS</a>]
00:56:12 ◼ ► I cannot I cannot win you know I cannot [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3372">TS</a>]
00:56:15 ◼ ► think like that is normal and i am and i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3375">TS</a>]
00:56:19 ◼ ► need to fix what's broken about me to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3379">TS</a>]
00:56:21 ◼ ► get closer to that because I'm because I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3381">TS</a>]
00:56:25 ◼ ► don't resemble it in the least bit and I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3385">TS</a>]
00:56:27 ◼ ► admire those kids i love to sit in and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3387">TS</a>]
00:56:30 ◼ ► talk to them in conversation but i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3390">TS</a>]
00:56:32 ◼ ► cannot buy it but comparing my own [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3392">TS</a>]
00:56:35 ◼ ► attributes to theirs would be like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3395">TS</a>]
00:56:37 ◼ ► comparing my looks to there's there's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3397">TS</a>]
00:56:41 ◼ ► just nothing I can do to be to be that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3401">TS</a>]
00:56:49 ◼ ► single-minded and and to be that sort of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3409">TS</a>]
00:56:52 ◼ ► up on a course and happy with the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3412">TS</a>]
00:56:56 ◼ ► I don't know I i don't know why i do not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3416">TS</a>]
00:57:01 ◼ ► know it if you assume that there's a a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3421">TS</a>]
00:57:04 ◼ ► bell curve of humanity and we are we are [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3424">TS</a>]
00:57:07 ◼ ► apportioned different traits because [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3427">TS</a>]
00:57:09 ◼ ► there is a clockmaker who has put this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3429">TS</a>]
00:57:13 ◼ ► universe into motion in order to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3433">TS</a>]
00:57:18 ◼ ► accomplish some inscrutable goal I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3438">TS</a>]
00:57:21 ◼ ► cannot imagine why you would load up a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3441">TS</a>]
00:57:25 ◼ ► human person with my attributes and set [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3445">TS</a>]
00:57:28 ◼ ► them loose on this world i do not know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3448">TS</a>]
00:57:30 ◼ ► what I am contributing or why you would [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3450">TS</a>]
00:57:35 ◼ ► what why you would even put so many sort [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3455">TS</a>]
00:57:39 ◼ ► of self-contradictory qualities in one [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3459">TS</a>]
00:57:44 ◼ ► organism and basically set it loose upon [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3464">TS</a>]
00:57:48 ◼ ► itself like here you go here you go [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3468">TS</a>]
00:57:51 ◼ ► animal go get them at the animal [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3471">TS</a>]
00:57:54 ◼ ► immediately starts punching itself and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3474">TS</a>]
00:57:57 ◼ ► saying you don't even know how to punch [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3477">TS</a>]
00:57:59 ◼ ► come out a punch-up like why would you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3479">TS</a>]
00:58:03 ◼ ► do that to a thing right but there you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3483">TS</a>]
00:58:06 ◼ ► it's what it's one of B it's one of the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3486">TS</a>]
00:58:09 ◼ ► things i would point to to say perhaps [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3489">TS</a>]
00:58:11 ◼ ► intelligent design is not actually help [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3491">TS</a>]
00:58:13 ◼ ► of the universe is working the kind of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3493">TS</a>]
00:58:15 ◼ ► design but I mean to have to have that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3495">TS</a>]
00:58:17 ◼ ► constantly even when it's not that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3497">TS</a>]
00:58:18 ◼ ► traumatic for a fact did the the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3498">TS</a>]
00:58:21 ◼ ► constant leveling of that message in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3501">TS</a>]
00:58:23 ◼ ► your head can't help but become a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3503">TS</a>]
00:58:25 ◼ ► distraction from taking a step in any [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3505">TS</a>]
00:58:28 ◼ ► direction you yeah self-doubt must must [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3508">TS</a>]
00:58:31 ◼ ► you know something i must always be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3511">TS</a>]
00:58:33 ◼ ► looming and it raises the question take [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3513">TS</a>]
00:58:37 ◼ ► yeah you know and that's the that's the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3517">TS</a>]
00:58:39 ◼ ► that's that's the insidious part i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3519">TS</a>]
00:58:45 ◼ ► admire people who build houses for poor [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3525">TS</a>]
00:58:52 ◼ ► people you know like Habitat for [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3532">TS</a>]
00:58:53 ◼ ► Humanity I admire doctors without [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3533">TS</a>]
00:58:56 ◼ ► borders but i do not feel the pull to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3536">TS</a>]
00:59:02 ◼ ► help people in that way and there's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3542">TS</a>]
00:59:06 ◼ ► another thing that's like you think [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3546">TS</a>]
00:59:08 ◼ ► about what you're saying like with the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3548">TS</a>]
00:59:09 ◼ ► kid doing that in that gig in something [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3549">TS</a>]
00:59:12 ◼ ► i mentioned last week about if you want [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3552">TS</a>]
00:59:16 ◼ ► to i do the right thing rather trying to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3556">TS</a>]
00:59:18 ◼ ► tell them do the right thing work demand [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3558">TS</a>]
00:59:20 ◼ ► and it's useful to create the conditions [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3560">TS</a>]
00:59:23 ◼ ► for the right thing happening and that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3563">TS</a>]
00:59:25 ◼ ► is something if you said that to me if [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3565">TS</a>]
00:59:29 ◼ ► 30 years ago I don't think i would have [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3569">TS</a>]
00:59:31 ◼ ► I would I would have understood you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3571">TS</a>]
00:59:33 ◼ ► grammatically like what it meant but I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3573">TS</a>]
00:59:35 ◼ ► wouldn't really gotten what that meant [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3575">TS</a>]
00:59:36 ◼ ► and that's the difference between that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3576">TS</a>]
00:59:39 ◼ ► kid who's not 21 and doing that for a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3579">TS</a>]
00:59:41 ◼ ► living vs all any range of people who [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3581">TS</a>]
00:59:45 ◼ ► doc I end up there yeah and and at the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3585">TS</a>]
00:59:48 ◼ ► risk of sounding really subtle I think [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3588">TS</a>]
00:59:50 ◼ ► this is actually super duper important [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3590">TS</a>]
00:59:51 ◼ ► because I mean we all know and this does [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3591">TS</a>]
00:59:54 ◼ ► shading some stuff I said in the past [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3594">TS</a>]
00:59:55 ◼ ► about acting like you're an artist and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3595">TS</a>]
00:59:57 ◼ ► buying a beret and you know doing all [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3597">TS</a>]
01:00:00 ◼ ► affectations that you seeing other [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3600">TS</a>]
01:00:01 ◼ ► people do to essentially traced the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3601">TS</a>]
01:00:04 ◼ ► shadows of someone else and imagine that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3604">TS</a>]
01:00:07 ◼ ► that's even close to that what that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3607">TS</a>]
01:00:09 ◼ ► human being is who they are but that's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3609">TS</a>]
01:00:12 ◼ ► what's that's a start and now that i'm [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3612">TS</a>]
01:00:13 ◼ ► at the age that I am and know what I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3613">TS</a>]
01:00:15 ◼ ► know that's what blows me away about [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3615">TS</a>]
01:00:16 ◼ ► that guy is anybody could go hey I want [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3616">TS</a>]
01:00:18 ◼ ► to make I won't have videos be on MTV [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3618">TS</a>]
01:00:20 ◼ ► right back in my day or like I i have [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3620">TS</a>]
01:00:23 ◼ ► this gut sense that i would be a great [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3623">TS</a>]
01:00:25 ◼ ► prog rock drummer and haha on the most [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3625">TS</a>]
01:00:28 ◼ ► fundamental level you go with you ever [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3628">TS</a>]
01:00:30 ◼ ► played drums and you're like no no but i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3630">TS</a>]
01:00:32 ◼ ► know i'd be really good at it and it's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3632">TS</a>]
01:00:34 ◼ ► like well the first test would be to go [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3634">TS</a>]
01:00:36 ◼ ► out and see whether you like playing [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3636">TS</a>]
01:00:38 ◼ ► do you have access to drums is that what [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3638">TS</a>]
01:00:39 ◼ ► you would want to do and you certainly [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3639">TS</a>]
01:00:41 ◼ ► can see where I'm going with this but if [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3641">TS</a>]
01:00:42 ◼ ► we're going a little bit okay well what [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3642">TS</a>]
01:00:45 ◼ ► if actually you don't really like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3645">TS</a>]
01:00:48 ◼ ► what if you try playing drums for a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3648">TS</a>]
01:00:50 ◼ ► while and you realize you don't like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3650">TS</a>]
01:00:53 ◼ ► what if you don't like being around [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3653">TS</a>]
01:00:54 ◼ ► people in the music industry but these [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3654">TS</a>]
01:00:56 ◼ ► are all the kinds of things that will [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3656">TS</a>]
01:00:58 ◼ ► never occur to you if you don't try to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3658">TS</a>]
01:00:59 ◼ ► play drums yeah and get it but there's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3659">TS</a>]
01:01:02 ◼ ► another kind of the if there's anything [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3662">TS</a>]
01:01:04 ◼ ► that i am I in my head I wish I could [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3664">TS</a>]
01:01:05 ◼ ► change about myself from the past that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3665">TS</a>]
01:01:07 ◼ ► it's not notice it's too late now [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3667">TS</a>]
01:01:08 ◼ ► because it is still useful to me is that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3668">TS</a>]
01:01:10 ◼ ► idea of like rather than trying to see a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3670">TS</a>]
01:01:13 ◼ ► result of something and emulate that I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3673">TS</a>]
01:01:15 ◼ ► really admire the people who instantly [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3675">TS</a>]
01:01:17 ◼ ► understand a process over the product [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3677">TS</a>]
01:01:21 ◼ ► there's something about in that case [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3681">TS</a>]
01:01:23 ◼ ► maybe just got lucky but he understood [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3683">TS</a>]
01:01:24 ◼ ► there was a big difference between [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3684">TS</a>]
01:01:26 ◼ ► arguing with his friends starbucks about [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3686">TS</a>]
01:01:27 ◼ ► who'd be a better director versus just [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3687">TS</a>]
01:01:30 ◼ ► yeah it's starting to do something now [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3690">TS</a>]
01:01:32 ◼ ► maybe you get lucky maybe some other [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3692">TS</a>]
01:01:33 ◼ ► things he tried it didn't work out but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3693">TS</a>]
01:01:35 ◼ ► that's that's like another that's like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3695">TS</a>]
01:01:38 ◼ ► concerned to be 21 years old or even [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3698">TS</a>]
01:01:40 ◼ ► that is 19 years old and show up [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3700">TS</a>]
01:01:42 ◼ ► somewhere and not seem like a total [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3702">TS</a>]
01:01:44 ◼ ► thing is you can be able to figure out [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3704">TS</a>]
01:01:46 ◼ ► what this job needs well on this and I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3706">TS</a>]
01:01:48 ◼ ► think you can I got myself to it a big [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3708">TS</a>]
01:01:51 ◼ ► part of it is he was able to show up at [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3711">TS</a>]
01:01:53 ◼ ► that at that video shoot at age 16 17 [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3713">TS</a>]
01:01:57 ◼ ► and not seem like a total dingus who and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3717">TS</a>]
01:01:59 ◼ ► that is the thing perhaps that is a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3719">TS</a>]
01:02:01 ◼ ► talent perhaps I lacked whereas i would [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3721">TS</a>]
01:02:03 ◼ ► go in wearing choppers carrying a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3723">TS</a>]
01:02:05 ◼ ► folding chair without riding crop me [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3725">TS</a>]
01:02:08 ◼ ► one of the girls on the back door where [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3728">TS</a>]
01:02:12 ◼ ► do i set this chair because I got to say [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3732">TS</a>]
01:02:15 ◼ ► all along the way to change the topic [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3735">TS</a>]
01:02:16 ◼ ► but like all along the way the things [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3736">TS</a>]
01:02:18 ◼ ► I've tried to nominally succeed at that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3738">TS</a>]
01:02:20 ◼ ► I didn't even fucking understand you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3740">TS</a>]
01:02:23 ◼ ► I've always been put off by how this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3743">TS</a>]
01:02:26 ◼ ► wasn't how I thought it was going to be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3746">TS</a>]
01:02:27 ◼ ► so yeah I was honestly it was organized [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3747">TS</a>]
01:02:31 ◼ ► music things because I was never a good [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3751">TS</a>]
01:02:33 ◼ ► it helps to be a good team player before [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3753">TS</a>]
01:02:34 ◼ ► you do anything on a team or it helps to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3754">TS</a>]
01:02:37 ◼ ► be open to the fact that you'll have to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3757">TS</a>]
01:02:38 ◼ ► be part of that team for example so you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3758">TS</a>]
01:02:43 ◼ ► yeah yeah and excited to set aside [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3763">TS</a>]
01:02:44 ◼ ► whatever your notion of how this should [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3764">TS</a>]
01:02:46 ◼ ► go is if you're not constantly raising [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3766">TS</a>]
01:02:48 ◼ ► your hand sanctioned we be seeing Roger [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3768">TS</a>]
01:02:49 ◼ ► welcome now you know where the whatever [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3769">TS</a>]
01:02:52 ◼ ► your idea is from things you've seen in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3772">TS</a>]
01:02:53 ◼ ► movies and play over in your head again [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3773">TS</a>]
01:02:55 ◼ ► and again when i look at the the kids [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3775">TS</a>]
01:02:58 ◼ ► that I started out with in high school [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3778">TS</a>]
01:03:01 ◼ ► and college the vast majority of them [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3781">TS</a>]
01:03:04 ◼ ► knew what they wanted to I think we [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3784">TS</a>]
01:03:09 ◼ ► would have said knew what they wanted to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3789">TS</a>]
01:03:10 ◼ ► be rather than knew what they wanted to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3790">TS</a>]
01:03:12 ◼ ► do you know they knew what they wanted [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3792">TS</a>]
01:03:14 ◼ ► to be at 15 years old a whole big group [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3794">TS</a>]
01:03:19 ◼ ► of my friends in high school decided [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3799">TS</a>]
01:03:22 ◼ ► they were going to medical school and I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3802">TS</a>]
01:03:23 ◼ ► think it's largely because there was one [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3803">TS</a>]
01:03:26 ◼ ► good biology teacher at East High School [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3806">TS</a>]
01:03:28 ◼ ► in Anchorage that I did not have I did [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3808">TS</a>]
01:03:31 ◼ ► not take his class but he was an [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3811">TS</a>]
01:03:33 ◼ ► inspiring teacher such that a freshman [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3813">TS</a>]
01:03:39 ◼ ► I'm sure there were a couple of these [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3819">TS</a>]
01:03:40 ◼ ► people who are like I think I want to be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3820">TS</a>]
01:03:42 ◼ ► a doctor but by junior year a whole lot [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3822">TS</a>]
01:03:46 ◼ ► of kids had decided to go to medical [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3826">TS</a>]
01:03:47 ◼ ► school and when I think about those kids [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3827">TS</a>]
01:03:50 ◼ ► now they are my age you know a lot of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3830">TS</a>]
01:03:54 ◼ ► them now 45 years old and they are [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3834">TS</a>]
01:03:56 ◼ ► doctors have been doctored basically [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3836">TS</a>]
01:04:00 ◼ ► since they were 15 years old you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3840">TS</a>]
01:04:02 ◼ ► they've been on that path i remember i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3842">TS</a>]
01:04:06 ◼ ► was living in a fraternity house at [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3846">TS</a>]
01:04:08 ◼ ► Cornell for a summer and one of the guys [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3848">TS</a>]
01:04:12 ◼ ► who was living in the fraternity with me [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3852">TS</a>]
01:04:17 ◼ ► he was going to join the Navy to be a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3857">TS</a>]
01:04:20 ◼ ► fighter pilot and at the time i guess i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3860">TS</a>]
01:04:25 ◼ ► was 20 21 something like that he was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3865">TS</a>]
01:04:28 ◼ ► that age and he was graduating that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3868">TS</a>]
01:04:31 ◼ ► summer from cornell and on his way to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3871">TS</a>]
01:04:33 ◼ ► flight training school for the Navy had [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3873">TS</a>]
01:04:38 ◼ ► and he enlisted in the navy already well [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3878">TS</a>]
01:04:40 ◼ ► when I think about that guy which I do [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3880">TS</a>]
01:04:42 ◼ ► periodically if he succeeded in getting [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3882">TS</a>]
01:04:47 ◼ ► his wings he was a fighter pilot in the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3887">TS</a>]
01:04:52 ◼ ► Navy for 20 he's now entering his 23rd [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3892">TS</a>]
01:04:58 ◼ ► year as a Navy pilot and he he knew to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3898">TS</a>]
01:05:04 ◼ ► make that decision or he made that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3904">TS</a>]
01:05:06 ◼ ► decision and stuck with it I'm you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3906">TS</a>]
01:05:08 ◼ ► I i extrapolate but i assume that this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3908">TS</a>]
01:05:10 ◼ ► guy is now a full captain in the Navy [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3910">TS</a>]
01:05:15 ◼ ► and retired from flying jets and either [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3915">TS</a>]
01:05:19 ◼ ► retired from the navy or is like running [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3919">TS</a>]
01:05:24 ◼ ► and I contrast those life choices those [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3924">TS</a>]
01:05:28 ◼ ► life marks against my own which has [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3928">TS</a>]
01:05:33 ◼ ► mostly consisted of filling up paper [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3933">TS</a>]
01:05:36 ◼ ► bags with stuff from thrift stores and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3936">TS</a>]
01:05:40 ◼ ► then arranging it is also unglamorous [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3940">TS</a>]
01:05:42 ◼ ► are ending in piles thunderclaps [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3942">TS</a>]
01:05:45 ◼ ► periodically you know losing the thread [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3945">TS</a>]
01:05:48 ◼ ► of what which pile of which pile of hats [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3948">TS</a>]
01:05:52 ◼ ► belongs at what bag and then it's 25 [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3952">TS</a>]
01:05:55 ◼ ► years later and you don't like cold and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3955">TS</a>]
01:06:01 ◼ ► i'm thinking more like gold what and i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3961">TS</a>]
01:06:05 ◼ ► go i do have an awful lot of cool hats [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3965">TS</a>]
01:06:07 ◼ ► you know that is something nobody can [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3967">TS</a>]
01:06:10 ◼ ► take away from me but i'm not even going [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3970">TS</a>]
01:06:13 ◼ ► to try to buck you up because i know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3973">TS</a>]
01:06:14 ◼ ► there's no point to it but so many [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3974">TS</a>]
01:06:18 ◼ ► isn't that sad we have no doubt that I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3978">TS</a>]
01:06:21 ◼ ► yeah real 1i yeah when I take off all [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3981">TS</a>]
01:06:23 ◼ ► the all the course it's just I don't I i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3983">TS</a>]
01:06:38 ◼ ► oh my god oh yeah I i do not like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/3998">TS</a>]
01:06:45 ◼ ► comparing myself to other people [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4005">TS</a>]
01:06:47 ◼ ► it's terrible it's terrible and I just [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4007">TS</a>]
01:06:49 ◼ ► don't find it useful I mean I still get [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4009">TS</a>]
01:06:51 ◼ ► they still kind of do it maybe I'm just [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4011">TS</a>]
01:06:52 ◼ ► scared to do it but it's just so you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4012">TS</a>]
01:06:56 ◼ ► feel so unproductive to me and does it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4016">TS</a>]
01:06:58 ◼ ► doesn't is not even makes me feel bad or [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4018">TS</a>]
01:07:00 ◼ ► good it just you know it's just it's I i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4020">TS</a>]
01:07:06 ◼ ► don't know i don't know what i would do [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4026">TS</a>]
01:07:10 ◼ ► identifying the Delta between these two [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4030">TS</a>]
01:07:11 ◼ ► things will help me to what better would [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4031">TS</a>]
01:07:14 ◼ ► you what differently now I know where we [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4034">TS</a>]
01:07:15 ◼ ► have slightly different minds about [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4035">TS</a>]
01:07:16 ◼ ► these things probably but like for me I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4036">TS</a>]
01:07:18 ◼ ► just like why would I dalene only put it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4038">TS</a>]
01:07:20 ◼ ► this way when i watch other people doing [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4040">TS</a>]
01:07:22 ◼ ► that like all the time i just it just [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4042">TS</a>]
01:07:24 ◼ ► makes me like almost seed wondering what [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4044">TS</a>]
01:07:27 ◼ ► are you doing like tell me how this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4047">TS</a>]
01:07:30 ◼ ► how would you spend less time comparing [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4050">TS</a>]
01:07:31 ◼ ► yourself to other people unlike more [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4051">TS</a>]
01:07:34 ◼ ► yeah it's very unattractive it there's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4054">TS</a>]
01:07:36 ◼ ► nothing about you I don't feel like you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4056">TS</a>]
01:07:38 ◼ ► really do that you really do that i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4058">TS</a>]
01:07:40 ◼ ► don't i don't get it isn't it is more it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4060">TS</a>]
01:07:43 ◼ ► is more on an emblem of the darkness [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4063">TS</a>]
01:07:46 ◼ ► that settles on me who um you know when [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4066">TS</a>]
01:07:49 ◼ ► i first read the book no country for old [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4069">TS</a>]
01:07:51 ◼ ► men i was in some ways furious because i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4071">TS</a>]
01:07:58 ◼ ► have been daydreaming about stumbling on [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4078">TS</a>]
01:08:01 ◼ ► a drug deal gone wrong and and sifted [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4081">TS</a>]
01:08:07 ◼ ► you know like walking through what has [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4087">TS</a>]
01:08:09 ◼ ► clearly been a a a showdown shootout and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4089">TS</a>]
01:08:13 ◼ ► finding like a truck full of drugs and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4093">TS</a>]
01:08:16 ◼ ► money that was at the center of this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4096">TS</a>]
01:08:18 ◼ ► pitched battle and then like kick [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4098">TS</a>]
01:08:24 ◼ ► pushing the body that is in the driver's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4104">TS</a>]
01:08:27 ◼ ► seat off into the dirt in your mind [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4107">TS</a>]
01:08:29 ◼ ► you've already done this a hundred times [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4109">TS</a>]
01:08:30 ◼ ► I had I had I had done it a hundred [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4110">TS</a>]
01:08:32 ◼ ► times before i read this book and was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4112">TS</a>]
01:08:34 ◼ ► like someone stole my plot but but i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4114">TS</a>]
01:08:40 ◼ ► have apply your plot for easy money [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4120">TS</a>]
01:08:43 ◼ ► falling in love with soul my easy-money [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4123">TS</a>]
01:08:46 ◼ ► plot like i'm kinda I'm not a guy that's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4126">TS</a>]
01:08:50 ◼ ► gonna do direct marketing but I am [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4130">TS</a>]
01:08:52 ◼ ► definitely a guy that if he sees brake [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4132">TS</a>]
01:08:57 ◼ ► uh-huh and hears gunshots he is headed [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4137">TS</a>]
01:09:00 ◼ ► that way i'm headed that way through the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4140">TS</a>]
01:09:03 ◼ ► woods notnot away because this is a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4143">TS</a>]
01:09:05 ◼ ► scenario that has always do you know it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4145">TS</a>]
01:09:08 ◼ ► starts you know you know that the signal [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4148">TS</a>]
01:09:10 ◼ ► that something we just went down [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4150">TS</a>]
01:09:11 ◼ ► yeah somebody tried to somebody tried to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4151">TS</a>]
01:09:13 ◼ ► like sneak around the back and and get [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4153">TS</a>]
01:09:15 ◼ ► the drop on them but they actually had [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4155">TS</a>]
01:09:17 ◼ ► the money there was like a they had the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4157">TS</a>]
01:09:19 ◼ ► money it wasn't going to be a ripoff but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4159">TS</a>]
01:09:21 ◼ ► then uh overzealous you know young [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4161">TS</a>]
01:09:24 ◼ ► lieutenant decided he was going to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4164">TS</a>]
01:09:26 ◼ ► circle around behind and then somebody [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4166">TS</a>]
01:09:28 ◼ ► you know shoots him and then he shoots [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4168">TS</a>]
01:09:31 ◼ ► back and then all by schutz everybody [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4171">TS</a>]
01:09:33 ◼ ► and then everybody's dead and here's the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4173">TS</a>]
01:09:36 ◼ ► and the cars are all still idling is it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4176">TS</a>]
01:09:38 ◼ ► probably in a gym bag the money full of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4178">TS</a>]
01:09:40 ◼ ► money and drugs well you know depending [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4180">TS</a>]
01:09:42 ◼ ► on how what how far I want to go with [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4182">TS</a>]
01:09:44 ◼ ► this fantasy it's a suburban full of gym [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4184">TS</a>]
01:09:47 ◼ ► because they're buying their buying the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4187">TS</a>]
01:09:49 ◼ ► like a metric ton of squeak and history [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4189">TS</a>]
01:09:53 ◼ ► is week is like a slight minting [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4193">TS</a>]
01:09:57 ◼ ► but anyway it caused me after no country [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4197">TS</a>]
01:10:02 ◼ ► for old men came out it caused me to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4202">TS</a>]
01:10:03 ◼ ► turn that light back on myself and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4203">TS</a>]
01:10:05 ◼ ► reflect on why i have spent so many [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4205">TS</a>]
01:10:09 ◼ ► hours of my life playing out this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4209">TS</a>]
01:10:12 ◼ ► scenario and what that what that easy [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4212">TS</a>]
01:10:18 ◼ ► I mean I think everybody maybe not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4218">TS</a>]
01:10:20 ◼ ► everybody but i think that carrying [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4220">TS</a>]
01:10:22 ◼ ► around an easy money fantasy is is a big [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4222">TS</a>]
01:10:25 ◼ ► part of of being a human being or being [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4225">TS</a>]
01:10:28 ◼ ► an American and having it happen or [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4228">TS</a>]
01:10:31 ◼ ► being finally able to do a specific [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4231">TS</a>]
01:10:34 ◼ ► well that I could finally buy a carousel [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4234">TS</a>]
01:10:37 ◼ ► yeah i can find out like I'm going to be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4237">TS</a>]
01:10:39 ◼ ► relieved of all of my money tension and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4239">TS</a>]
01:10:43 ◼ ► Happiness will will a light on my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4243">TS</a>]
01:10:46 ◼ ► shoulder like a bluebird of happiness [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4246">TS</a>]
01:10:48 ◼ ► who and as I've as I've played out this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4248">TS</a>]
01:10:53 ◼ ► the scenario like okay now you've got [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4253">TS</a>]
01:10:55 ◼ ► now you have us this untraceable duffel [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4255">TS</a>]
01:11:02 ◼ ► opportunity and what are you gonna do [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4262">TS</a>]
01:11:06 ◼ ► and the reality is everything that I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4266">TS</a>]
01:11:08 ◼ ► would choose to do in that moment that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4268">TS</a>]
01:11:11 ◼ ► would be that I have that having run the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4271">TS</a>]
01:11:14 ◼ ► scenario would be something I would [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4274">TS</a>]
01:11:15 ◼ ► actually choose to do is something i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4275">TS</a>]
01:11:17 ◼ ► could just choose to do right now you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4277">TS</a>]
01:11:20 ◼ ► know if I had if I had 10 million [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4280">TS</a>]
01:11:22 ◼ ► dollars what i do i moved to new york [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4282">TS</a>]
01:11:23 ◼ ► will just go move to New York if you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4283">TS</a>]
01:11:26 ◼ ► oh well i moved to new york and i live [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4286">TS</a>]
01:11:28 ◼ ► in a really nice apartment well go move [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4288">TS</a>]
01:11:30 ◼ ► to New York and within a year or two [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4290">TS</a>]
01:11:31 ◼ ► you'll probably have a pretty nice [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4291">TS</a>]
01:11:32 ◼ ► apartment because that's how it goes [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4292">TS</a>]
01:11:33 ◼ ► like the the idea that there are still [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4293">TS</a>]
01:11:38 ◼ ► things in my life I'm waiting to pull [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4298">TS</a>]
01:11:39 ◼ ► the trigger on and the only reason i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4299">TS</a>]
01:11:43 ◼ ► can't do it is that I have not found a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4303">TS</a>]
01:11:44 ◼ ► duffel bag of of drug money at a crime [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4304">TS</a>]
01:11:47 ◼ ► scene is this like it's it's any an [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4307">TS</a>]
01:11:52 ◼ ► incredible three-way mirror on myself [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4312">TS</a>]
01:11:55 ◼ ► because all the other things that I you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4315">TS</a>]
01:12:00 ◼ ► choices i would make like i'll move to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4320">TS</a>]
01:12:03 ◼ ► well you would be lonely and cold if you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4323">TS</a>]
01:12:08 ◼ ► did that because you don't have anything [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4328">TS</a>]
01:12:10 ◼ ► you know like you're the friends that I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4330">TS</a>]
01:12:12 ◼ ► have an England would come visit my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4332">TS</a>]
01:12:14 ◼ ► castle a couple of times you know that I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4334">TS</a>]
01:12:18 ◼ ► i'm not going to move to some little bit [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4338">TS</a>]
01:12:19 ◼ ► like a friend of yours down a bunch of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4339">TS</a>]
01:12:21 ◼ ► money and moved into a castle when you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4341">TS</a>]
01:12:25 ◼ ► yeah i would use a castle asshole second [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4345">TS</a>]
01:12:28 ◼ ► that's your that's what you did you move [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4348">TS</a>]
01:12:29 ◼ ► into a castle that's not gonna let you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4349">TS</a>]
01:12:31 ◼ ► run out and go oh my gosh let me go [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4351">TS</a>]
01:12:33 ◼ ► celebrate his good fortune in his new [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4353">TS</a>]
01:12:35 ◼ ► castle in which he lives alone right [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4355">TS</a>]
01:12:37 ◼ ► and nor would I move to Florida or [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4357">TS</a>]
01:12:40 ◼ ► Southern California good because i have [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4360">TS</a>]
01:12:42 ◼ ► been many times to Florida and Southern [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4362">TS</a>]
01:12:44 ◼ ► California and I don't even want to be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4364">TS</a>]
01:12:45 ◼ ► there that long at just passing through [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4365">TS</a>]
01:12:48 ◼ ► this is that quotidian like middle-class [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4368">TS</a>]
01:12:51 ◼ ► bullshit dream of right retirement why [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4371">TS</a>]
01:12:54 ◼ ► not it doesn't have to be with me know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4374">TS</a>]
01:12:55 ◼ ► if you mind your whole life and you can [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4375">TS</a>]
01:12:58 ◼ ► god I hope you get to retire soon but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4378">TS</a>]
01:13:00 ◼ ► it's just this whole idea of this that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4380">TS</a>]
01:13:02 ◼ ► the big the big journey being to get to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4382">TS</a>]
01:13:04 ◼ ► this place for you don't have to do [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4384">TS</a>]
01:13:06 ◼ ► yeah that's so depressing and what I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4386">TS</a>]
01:13:08 ◼ ► really want to do in life is write a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4388">TS</a>]
01:13:10 ◼ ► book i want to have an article that I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4390">TS</a>]
01:13:13 ◼ ► right be in The New Yorker I want to be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4393">TS</a>]
01:13:17 ◼ ► consulted for your expertise as a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4397">TS</a>]
01:13:20 ◼ ► retired uh that's right i want to be on [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4400">TS</a>]
01:13:22 ◼ ► the board of directors and several [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4402">TS</a>]
01:13:23 ◼ ► fortune 500 companies so much more that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4403">TS</a>]
01:13:26 ◼ ► is so much more in your grasp then you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4406">TS</a>]
01:13:28 ◼ ► realize what everyone else on the board [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4408">TS</a>]
01:13:30 ◼ ► Quivers and terror as soon as I clear my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4410">TS</a>]
01:13:33 ◼ ► throat and sit forward in my chair like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4413">TS</a>]
01:13:35 ◼ ► all these other guys are like oh shit oh [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4415">TS</a>]
01:13:37 ◼ ► shit don't let it be me this time don't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4417">TS</a>]
01:13:39 ◼ ► let it be me like I want these things [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4419">TS</a>]
01:13:41 ◼ ► and these are not things that that any [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4421">TS</a>]
01:13:44 ◼ ► pile of bags of money are going to are [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4424">TS</a>]
01:13:48 ◼ ► going to get for me and if I had if I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4428">TS</a>]
01:13:52 ◼ ► I i would still be dissatisfied I would [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4432">TS</a>]
01:13:55 ◼ ► still want to write a book i would still [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4435">TS</a>]
01:13:58 ◼ ► want to be published in The New Yorker [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4438">TS</a>]
01:14:04 ◼ ► and yet this fantasy is is still a great [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4444">TS</a>]
01:14:08 ◼ ► comfort to me you know when i'm sitting [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4448">TS</a>]
01:14:12 ◼ ► I no longer am commanding a space battle [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4452">TS</a>]
01:14:15 ◼ ► group like I did for so many years in my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4455">TS</a>]
01:14:18 ◼ ► childhood because i've i've decided that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4458">TS</a>]
01:14:22 ◼ ► hmm to be to be a Admiral even with [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4462">TS</a>]
01:14:26 ◼ ► their the pace of technology is now [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4466">TS</a>]
01:14:27 ◼ ► increasing the lack of pace of lack of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4467">TS</a>]
01:14:29 ◼ ► technology what we should be we're not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4469">TS</a>]
01:14:32 ◼ ► where we should be and stuff let's be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4472">TS</a>]
01:14:33 ◼ ► honest if right now I was watching sea [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4473">TS</a>]
01:14:36 ◼ ► beans glitter off the shoulder of Orion [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4476">TS</a>]
01:14:38 ◼ ► ravu and was but the odds space battle [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4478">TS</a>]
01:14:43 ◼ ► ships on fire outside the 10 Hauser [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4483">TS</a>]
01:14:44 ◼ ► game-high he dies right at three says [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4484">TS</a>]
01:14:48 ◼ ► that i would i would have a little bit [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4488">TS</a>]
01:14:51 ◼ ► more hope for that possibility but what [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4491">TS</a>]
01:14:53 ◼ ► it seems like right now is that if I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4493">TS</a>]
01:14:55 ◼ ► really pursued that I would just be one [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4495">TS</a>]
01:14:58 ◼ ► multiplayer video games computer and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4498">TS</a>]
01:15:00 ◼ ► convincing myself that I was especially [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4500">TS</a>]
01:15:02 ◼ ► got better than your operating at a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4502">TS</a>]
01:15:04 ◼ ► higher level so but but now you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4504">TS</a>]
01:15:08 ◼ ► what I'm what I'm laying in repose and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4508">TS</a>]
01:15:12 ◼ ► I confess more often than not i'm [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4512">TS</a>]
01:15:16 ◼ ► playing out some scenario great truck [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4516">TS</a>]
01:15:19 ◼ ► full of money goes off a cliff and i'm [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4519">TS</a>]
01:15:20 ◼ ► the only one to see it happen and that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4520">TS</a>]
01:15:26 ◼ ► embarrassing not even about me I never [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4526">TS</a>]
01:15:27 ◼ ► admitted it to anybody until now but i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4527">TS</a>]
01:15:29 ◼ ► was already embarrassed by it i was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4529">TS</a>]
01:15:31 ◼ ► pretty embarrassed just because the 13 [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4531">TS</a>]
01:15:34 ◼ ► that looks at the other thing it's like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4534">TS</a>]
01:15:35 ◼ ► it seriously it's pretty mundane it's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4535">TS</a>]
01:15:38 ◼ ► like having your ultimate sexual fantasy [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4538">TS</a>]
01:15:41 ◼ ► it is exactly back like no no I want to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4541">TS</a>]
01:15:44 ◼ ► know like what is the most outlandish [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4544">TS</a>]
01:15:45 ◼ ► thing even hundred like kissing purpose [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4545">TS</a>]
01:15:48 ◼ ► just boobs because I think I've got a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4548">TS</a>]
01:15:50 ◼ ► lot a million dollars in a bag is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4550">TS</a>]
01:15:54 ◼ ► actually learn that small potatoes you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4554">TS</a>]
01:15:56 ◼ ► had not because I'm not grasp right a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4556">TS</a>]
01:15:58 ◼ ► million dollars in a bag if I was like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4558">TS</a>]
01:16:00 ◼ ► if I if I said on the podcast today you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4560">TS</a>]
01:16:02 ◼ ► know what I want a million dollars in a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4562">TS</a>]
01:16:04 ◼ ► yeah how long do you think it would take [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4564">TS</a>]
01:16:06 ◼ ► me to get a million dollars in a bag [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4566">TS</a>]
01:16:08 ◼ ► like if you tried or people just like I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4568">TS</a>]
01:16:10 ◼ ► was like single-mindedly I'm going to do [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4570">TS</a>]
01:16:13 ◼ ► whatever tasting months 18 months that's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4573">TS</a>]
01:16:15 ◼ ► right that's about what i think and if [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4575">TS</a>]
01:16:18 ◼ ► true you haven't really thought it out a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4578">TS</a>]
01:16:19 ◼ ► lot of you it is money money is and it's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4579">TS</a>]
01:16:23 ◼ ► not that it's easy to get money it's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4583">TS</a>]
01:16:24 ◼ ► just a very few of us are prepared for [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4584">TS</a>]
01:16:26 ◼ ► what else comes along with getting money [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4586">TS</a>]
01:16:28 ◼ ► and what you give up to get money which [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4588">TS</a>]
01:16:30 ◼ ► sounds really cliché because you don't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4590">TS</a>]
01:16:31 ◼ ► have the money but once you get the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4591">TS</a>]
01:16:32 ◼ ► money you realize that it's not simply [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4592">TS</a>]
01:16:34 ◼ ► just a rich person problem it's that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4594">TS</a>]
01:16:36 ◼ ► there are there are like everything is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4596">TS</a>]
01:16:38 ◼ ► fucking complicated it's just what are [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4598">TS</a>]
01:16:40 ◼ ► you going to give up to do and i'm not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4600">TS</a>]
01:16:41 ◼ ► even i'm not even doing the Kobayashi [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4601">TS</a>]
01:16:43 ◼ ► Maru here I'm not even saying that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4603">TS</a>]
01:16:44 ◼ ► you've got to golike cheat to do it I'm [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4604">TS</a>]
01:16:46 ◼ ► not even saying you've got to go cause [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4606">TS</a>]
01:16:49 ◼ ► I think ultimately I would probably have [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4609">TS</a>]
01:16:51 ◼ ► I would actually pull the Kaiser so say [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4611">TS</a>]
01:16:53 ◼ ► but yes I would you know I have seen the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4613">TS</a>]
01:16:55 ◼ ► end of Tommy Hinds I this is one of the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4615">TS</a>]
01:16:58 ◼ ► many many many reasons that I find I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4618">TS</a>]
01:17:01 ◼ ► really really am trying to use this word [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4621">TS</a>]
01:17:04 ◼ ► less because it's not a good word [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4624">TS</a>]
01:17:06 ◼ ► I hate lotteries I hate lottery tickets [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4626">TS</a>]
01:17:08 ◼ ► i hate scratch-off ticket I certainly [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4628">TS</a>]
01:17:10 ◼ ► hit the lines they create the word that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4630">TS</a>]
01:17:12 ◼ ► you don't want to use hate I trying to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4632">TS</a>]
01:17:14 ◼ ► use the word hate yeah right Brad to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4634">TS</a>]
01:17:16 ◼ ► despise is a cop out that I use a lot [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4636">TS</a>]
01:17:18 ◼ ► but I'm trying to avoid saying that for [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4638">TS</a>]
01:17:19 ◼ ► everything because i have I don't hate [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4639">TS</a>]
01:17:23 ◼ ► I poop on my poop on lottery tickets [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4643">TS</a>]
01:17:25 ◼ ► because for the for the obvious reasons [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4645">TS</a>]
01:17:27 ◼ ► that meaning any liberal would have is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4647">TS</a>]
01:17:29 ◼ ► that its work for attacks on our bad [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4649">TS</a>]
01:17:31 ◼ ► about it but it's also it's it makes it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4651">TS</a>]
01:17:34 ◼ ► hard for me to get my tequila and my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4654">TS</a>]
01:17:36 ◼ ► daughter's milk and we both need those [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4656">TS</a>]
01:17:39 ◼ ► right dude we do get your tequila and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4659">TS</a>]
01:17:41 ◼ ► your daughter's milk at the same place [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4661">TS</a>]
01:17:42 ◼ ► it's not going to Kayla and it's not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4662">TS</a>]
01:17:44 ◼ ► super fresh milk up i'm not gonna lie to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4664">TS</a>]
01:17:46 ◼ ► you but this concept that if you if you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4666">TS</a>]
01:17:50 ◼ ► yeah well it's the one not if there's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4670">TS</a>]
01:17:52 ◼ ► the one the only one that only want to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4672">TS</a>]
01:17:53 ◼ ► finish here and this is the problem with [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4673">TS</a>]
01:17:55 ◼ ► the lottery is in some way the same [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4675">TS</a>]
01:17:56 ◼ ► problem with the John the John truck [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4676">TS</a>]
01:17:58 ◼ ► full of drug money fantasy which is I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4678">TS</a>]
01:18:00 ◼ ► think those people who go in there and I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4680">TS</a>]
01:18:02 ◼ ► watched I waited in line behind a guy [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4682">TS</a>]
01:18:04 ◼ ► the other day who paid for lottery [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4684">TS</a>]
01:18:07 ◼ ► tickets with a hundred-dollar bill he [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4687">TS</a>]
01:18:09 ◼ ► bought and got it look at dollar he [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4689">TS</a>]
01:18:10 ◼ ► bought a hundred dollars worth of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4690">TS</a>]
01:18:12 ◼ ► lottery tickets the guy in front of me [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4692">TS</a>]
01:18:13 ◼ ► and I don't know enough about the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4693">TS</a>]
01:18:15 ◼ ► lottery system to know whether that's a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4695">TS</a>]
01:18:17 ◼ ► great better not but I don't think you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4697">TS</a>]
01:18:21 ◼ ► need to win a lot to keep doing the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4701">TS</a>]
01:18:23 ◼ ► I think you like any gambling you need [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4703">TS</a>]
01:18:25 ◼ ► to just win just enough to show that the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4705">TS</a>]
01:18:27 ◼ ► systems not totally wrecked and to get [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4707">TS</a>]
01:18:31 ◼ ► just but it's the the lottery at the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4711">TS</a>]
01:18:34 ◼ ► most basic level this is a very subtle [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4714">TS</a>]
01:18:36 ◼ ► Oscar Wilde soul of man under socialism [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4716">TS</a>]
01:18:39 ◼ ► kind of point probably but it's the in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4719">TS</a>]
01:18:41 ◼ ► Smalling of the human soul that the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4721">TS</a>]
01:18:43 ◼ ► lottery causes because you're getting [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4723">TS</a>]
01:18:45 ◼ ► into such a stupid habit that every time [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4725">TS</a>]
01:18:49 ◼ ► you do it you make that habit stronger [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4729">TS</a>]
01:18:50 ◼ ► you go when you do it over and over and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4730">TS</a>]
01:18:53 ◼ ► have you done the fucking most basic [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4733">TS</a>]
01:18:56 ◼ ► monochrome of research to find out [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4736">TS</a>]
01:18:57 ◼ ► whether people who win the lottery are [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4737">TS</a>]
01:18:59 ◼ ► happy right well can't even win the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4739">TS</a>]
01:19:03 ◼ ► no I don't mean that you only get a free [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4743">TS</a>]
01:19:05 ◼ ► scratcher you get that with every [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4745">TS</a>]
01:19:07 ◼ ► hundred million dollars you win 300 [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4747">TS</a>]
01:19:09 ◼ ► million dollars go out and find out [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4749">TS</a>]
01:19:11 ◼ ► whether those people are happy because [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4751">TS</a>]
01:19:13 ◼ ► you know what they're not fucking James [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4753">TS</a>]
01:19:14 ◼ ► Bond they're not Tony Stark their people [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4754">TS</a>]
01:19:20 ◼ ► yeah and they are new problems they [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4760">TS</a>]
01:19:22 ◼ ► never knew existed because they don't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4762">TS</a>]
01:19:24 ◼ ► have the training to have 300 million [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4764">TS</a>]
01:19:26 ◼ ► dollars they take their country kitchen [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4766">TS</a>]
01:19:28 ◼ ► aesthetic and then everyone have [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4768">TS</a>]
01:19:30 ◼ ► document basket now if applied to a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4770">TS</a>]
01:19:33 ◼ ► 40,000 square foot home and I dogs in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4773">TS</a>]
01:19:36 ◼ ► baskets everywhere they gonna get a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4776">TS</a>]
01:19:38 ◼ ► 42-foot duck itself slightest here's the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4778">TS</a>]
01:19:41 ◼ ► thing that by the world's largest duck [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4781">TS</a>]
01:19:43 ◼ ► and it makes them neatly you know you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4783">TS</a>]
01:19:45 ◼ ► know what now I need the world's largest [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4785">TS</a>]
01:19:47 ◼ ► basket the fucking basket was supposed [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4787">TS</a>]
01:19:50 ◼ ► it's not here this is the thing that you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4790">TS</a>]
01:19:52 ◼ ► can and a.m and I've run this on my I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4792">TS</a>]
01:19:55 ◼ ► run this in this scenario everyone this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4795">TS</a>]
01:19:57 ◼ ► scenario run this you know this admin on [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4797">TS</a>]
01:20:00 ◼ ► my own mind which is let's say you won [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4800">TS</a>]
01:20:05 ◼ ► yeah now what would you do and the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4805">TS</a>]
01:20:07 ◼ ► reality is if you don't immediately [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4807">TS</a>]
01:20:10 ◼ ► I mean first of all you get halfway to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4810">TS</a>]
01:20:11 ◼ ► taxes but if you don't immediately give [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4811">TS</a>]
01:20:14 ◼ ► another habit the the next half away [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4814">TS</a>]
01:20:17 ◼ ► just like the first thing you do your [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4817">TS</a>]
01:20:21 ◼ ► you're on the road to madness like a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4821">TS</a>]
01:20:23 ◼ ► hundred and fifty million dollars if you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4823">TS</a>]
01:20:26 ◼ ► have that it can start from zero I mean [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4826">TS</a>]
01:20:30 ◼ ► I i have i have a just going to be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4830">TS</a>]
01:20:32 ◼ ► eating large amounts of the same shitty [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4832">TS</a>]
01:20:35 ◼ ► takeout food you're going to be tipping [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4835">TS</a>]
01:20:36 ◼ ► more for the same fucking pole dancer [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4836">TS</a>]
01:20:38 ◼ ► nothing is going to change yeah i have [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4838">TS</a>]
01:20:40 ◼ ► an incredibly active imagination and I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4840">TS</a>]
01:20:43 ◼ ► of what i would spend that money on and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4843">TS</a>]
01:20:46 ◼ ► and you don't have the training that's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4846">TS</a>]
01:20:48 ◼ ► what I'm trying to say is like you don't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4848">TS</a>]
01:20:49 ◼ ► just show up on day one it's like those [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4849">TS</a>]
01:20:51 ◼ ► people who are like oh you know I've [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4851">TS</a>]
01:20:52 ◼ ► never been in a fight but i'm pretty [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4852">TS</a>]
01:20:54 ◼ ► sure I'd be good as a fighter like I've [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4854">TS</a>]
01:20:56 ◼ ► never I've never run more than half a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4856">TS</a>]
01:20:58 ◼ ► block to catch a bus without feeling [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4858">TS</a>]
01:20:59 ◼ ► like I'm having a heart attack but i'm [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4859">TS</a>]
01:21:00 ◼ ► pretty sure i could run a marathon [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4860">TS</a>]
01:21:01 ◼ ► you're doing the existential your whole [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4861">TS</a>]
01:21:04 ◼ ► life is completely i'm not trying to say [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4864">TS</a>]
01:21:06 ◼ ► don't make money but i am saying that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4866">TS</a>]
01:21:07 ◼ ► like just imagining like you give away [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4867">TS</a>]
01:21:10 ◼ ► so much in your life by fantasizing [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4870">TS</a>]
01:21:12 ◼ ► about something that would actually not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4872">TS</a>]
01:21:13 ◼ ► be that great for you if I so different [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4873">TS</a>]
01:21:15 ◼ ► i wish i had all the weed in the world [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4875">TS</a>]
01:21:17 ◼ ► if I well why don't we might be so [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4877">TS</a>]
01:21:21 ◼ ► I what I would do is I would lord it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4881">TS</a>]
01:21:23 ◼ ► over all the fucking stoners is a hard [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4883">TS</a>]
01:21:26 ◼ ► as they can do fancy dances with subs [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4886">TS</a>]
01:21:29 ◼ ► hmm we're gonna get it i'll require a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4889">TS</a>]
01:21:31 ◼ ► fancy dance for that you get it for me [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4891">TS</a>]
01:21:32 ◼ ► and you know what I don't want to give [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4892">TS</a>]
01:21:34 ◼ ► you anyways today sometime tomorrow [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4894">TS</a>]
01:21:37 ◼ ► given its like with your sister just got [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4897">TS</a>]
01:21:39 ◼ ► one to get the lid is going tiny little [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4899">TS</a>]
01:21:41 ◼ ► bit that this is the thing about we'd [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4901">TS</a>]
01:21:43 ◼ ► like you know maybe they become obsessed [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4903">TS</a>]
01:21:45 ◼ ► and you're like you come back tomorrow [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4905">TS</a>]
01:21:47 ◼ ► I don't have any weed today because I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4907">TS</a>]
01:21:51 ◼ ► oh yeah anyway that's what you think is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4911">TS</a>]
01:21:53 ◼ ► the first thing I would do a 550 million [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4913">TS</a>]
01:21:55 ◼ ► dollars of course is by both of my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4915">TS</a>]
01:21:57 ◼ ► neighbors houses and tear them down [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4917">TS</a>]
01:21:59 ◼ ► it wasn't there when I would tell the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4919">TS</a>]
01:22:01 ◼ ► parts i think i'd walk over there and be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4921">TS</a>]
01:22:04 ◼ ► like what the difference is how much [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4924">TS</a>]
01:22:06 ◼ ► warning okay here's the thing though [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4926">TS</a>]
01:22:09 ◼ ► what you really want is to not have [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4929">TS</a>]
01:22:11 ◼ ► those houses there and for them to be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4931">TS</a>]
01:22:12 ◼ ► gone right now the question is how much [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4932">TS</a>]
01:22:15 ◼ ► warning do you have to give that's a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4935">TS</a>]
01:22:17 ◼ ► because if you could literally have it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4937">TS</a>]
01:22:18 ◼ ► level to like while you're away yeah [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4938">TS</a>]
01:22:20 ◼ ► yeah everybody keep everybody off [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4940">TS</a>]
01:22:23 ◼ ► it's like that grade that great old this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4943">TS</a>]
01:22:25 ◼ ► may be completely apocryphal but the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4945">TS</a>]
01:22:27 ◼ ► great craigslist gag where the guy i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4947">TS</a>]
01:22:30 ◼ ► guess it was a it was a millionaires [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4950">TS</a>]
01:22:32 ◼ ► club situation where a bunch of laborers [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4952">TS</a>]
01:22:34 ◼ ► or outside of a a little laborers are [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4954">TS</a>]
01:22:37 ◼ ► outside of Labor hall and guys come up [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4957">TS</a>]
01:22:39 ◼ ► in a truck and say you you and you get [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4959">TS</a>]
01:22:41 ◼ ► in the truck and he he's he's like you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4961">TS</a>]
01:22:44 ◼ ► know this guy pulls up in a truck any [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4964">TS</a>]
01:22:46 ◼ ► pics 15 guys off the street and he says [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4966">TS</a>]
01:22:47 ◼ ► I'm gonna pay off you know 40 bucks an [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4967">TS</a>]
01:22:49 ◼ ► hour to do some demo work for me drives [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4969">TS</a>]
01:22:52 ◼ ► over there's a house and he's like the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4972">TS</a>]
01:22:54 ◼ ► only tear this house down yes and these [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4974">TS</a>]
01:22:56 ◼ ► 40 guys all go and they tear the house [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4976">TS</a>]
01:22:58 ◼ ► to the ground and then the guy never [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4978">TS</a>]
01:22:59 ◼ ► comes back and it turns out it was his [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4979">TS</a>]
01:23:01 ◼ ► ex-wife's out right right right that's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4981">TS</a>]
01:23:03 ◼ ► probably that's probably snopes but that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4983">TS</a>]
01:23:06 ◼ ► it's a super google video yeah but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4986">TS</a>]
01:23:08 ◼ ► that'd be a great feeling to walk up to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4988">TS</a>]
01:23:09 ◼ ► your next-door neighbor knocked on the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4989">TS</a>]
01:23:10 ◼ ► door and same your house is worth 300 [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4990">TS</a>]
01:23:14 ◼ ► I'm gonna throw in an extra 50 if you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4994">TS</a>]
01:23:16 ◼ ► can be outputted after know and this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4996">TS</a>]
01:23:18 ◼ ► will you pick what they like and the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4998">TS</a>]
01:23:19 ◼ ► magic christian right I'm like what can [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/4999">TS</a>]
01:23:21 ◼ ► you get people to do for money but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5001">TS</a>]
01:23:23 ◼ ► here's the thing the security guard [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5003">TS</a>]
01:23:24 ◼ ► addresses you know despair certainly are [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5004">TS</a>]
01:23:27 ◼ ► probably better than just about anybody [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5007">TS</a>]
01:23:29 ◼ ► i think we had this discussion right out [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5009">TS</a>]
01:23:30 ◼ ► yeah I easy he knows whereof he speaks [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5010">TS</a>]
01:23:32 ◼ ► and it's a great thing for people to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5012">TS</a>]
01:23:34 ◼ ► read and but I think it's one thing to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5014">TS</a>]
01:23:38 ◼ ► have freedom and it's another thing to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5018">TS</a>]
01:23:40 ◼ ► have impunity and I think people think [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5020">TS</a>]
01:23:42 ◼ ► small and i think if i had a hundred [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5022">TS</a>]
01:23:44 ◼ ► fifty million dollars and finally be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5024">TS</a>]
01:23:47 ◼ ► I wouldn't have to do these things that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5027">TS</a>]
01:23:49 ◼ ► other people make me do that how I am [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5029">TS</a>]
01:23:51 ◼ ► but impunity would be so fucking awesome [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5031">TS</a>]
01:23:53 ◼ ► it would be so nice if you were truly [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5033">TS</a>]
01:23:56 ◼ ► the kind of damage person who craves [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5036">TS</a>]
01:23:58 ◼ ► that large amount of money without [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5038">TS</a>]
01:23:59 ◼ ► yeah you know like if you were just [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5039">TS</a>]
01:24:01 ◼ ► going to I'm going to build the world's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5041">TS</a>]
01:24:02 ◼ ► biggest bong i would say more power to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5042">TS</a>]
01:24:04 ◼ ► why don't you get us find out exactly [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5044">TS</a>]
01:24:06 ◼ ► what that would cost and then maybe [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5046">TS</a>]
01:24:07 ◼ ► going to a Kickstarter or something [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5047">TS</a>]
01:24:09 ◼ ► but but if you really did want to become [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5049">TS</a>]
01:24:13 ◼ ► I that is what i can really admire is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5053">TS</a>]
01:24:17 ◼ ► no I i just i don't i started I want [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5057">TS</a>]
01:24:19 ◼ ► this house is gone i just i want to be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5059">TS</a>]
01:24:21 ◼ ► able to do that and not in trouble for [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5061">TS</a>]
01:24:23 ◼ ► yeah i mean that as somebody who already [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5063">TS</a>]
01:24:25 ◼ ► feels like you mostly operates without [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5065">TS</a>]
01:24:30 ◼ ► impunity who with impunity getting [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5070">TS</a>]
01:24:34 ◼ ► information you need a permission slip [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5074">TS</a>]
01:24:35 ◼ ► without with impunity without with him [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5075">TS</a>]
01:24:37 ◼ ► without what you work with Kennedy you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5077">TS</a>]
01:24:40 ◼ ► yeah you operate the opportunity i do i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5080">TS</a>]
01:24:44 ◼ ► no I I feel like for the most part the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5084">TS</a>]
01:24:49 ◼ ► the reshaping influences on me are you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5089">TS</a>]
01:24:54 ◼ ► know the opinions of my close friends [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5094">TS</a>]
01:24:56 ◼ ► but i have it i would take 50 grand like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5096">TS</a>]
01:24:59 ◼ ► you exactly i mean i could tear the hash [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5099">TS</a>]
01:25:02 ◼ ► take a chair down every house in this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5102">TS</a>]
01:25:04 ◼ ► neighborhood except that you know that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5104">TS</a>]
01:25:07 ◼ ► like some of my friends would be like me [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5107">TS</a>]
01:25:09 ◼ ► that was again now that John's an [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5109">TS</a>]
01:25:12 ◼ ► asshole before he just seems a little [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5112">TS</a>]
01:25:13 ◼ ► bit like a curiosity right yeah and you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5113">TS</a>]
01:25:17 ◼ ► can't buy your friends love you can't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5117">TS</a>]
01:25:19 ◼ ► buy fear you have to instill fear [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5119">TS</a>]
01:25:21 ◼ ► there's no scratch off ticket for fear [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5121">TS</a>]
01:25:24 ◼ ► if I had some if I had a lot more money [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5124">TS</a>]
01:25:26 ◼ ► i think i would be able I would be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5126">TS</a>]
01:25:28 ◼ ► around I would be buying so you know i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5128">TS</a>]
01:25:31 ◼ ► following builders and the dream makers [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5131">TS</a>]
01:25:33 ◼ ► and the rainbow sniffers you are [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5133">TS</a>]
01:25:34 ◼ ► literally practice pressing this in your [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5134">TS</a>]
01:25:36 ◼ ► head every day you know exactly what you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5136">TS</a>]
01:25:38 ◼ ► do you forget plans I don't say you've [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5138">TS</a>]
01:25:40 ◼ ► probably got plans and tubes right now [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5140">TS</a>]
01:25:41 ◼ ► that you can roll out but my first plan [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5141">TS</a>]
01:25:44 ◼ ► is to build a giant trebuchet and then [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5144">TS</a>]
01:25:47 ◼ ► just Huck like big sort of 50 gallon [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5147">TS</a>]
01:25:51 ◼ ► cans of Quaker Oats just hug him all [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5151">TS</a>]
01:25:55 ◼ ► over the city just see what what to see [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5155">TS</a>]
01:25:57 ◼ ► how far they can gallery oh yeah just [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5157">TS</a>]
01:25:59 ◼ ► think nobody's going to expect because [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5159">TS</a>]
01:26:00 ◼ ► it's beautiful stuff and despise you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5160">TS</a>]
01:26:03 ◼ ► look up in the sky you see that finger [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5163">TS</a>]
01:26:04 ◼ ► pointer over there so many levels no no [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5164">TS</a>]
01:26:06 ◼ ► it's not even think all they see is a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5166">TS</a>]
01:26:07 ◼ ► 55-gallon drum in there to get oil well [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5167">TS</a>]
01:26:10 ◼ ► but but if it looks like because the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5170">TS</a>]
01:26:14 ◼ ► oh it's a big picture draw the Quaker on [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5174">TS</a>]
01:26:16 ◼ ► it oh you have you you would make fact [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5176">TS</a>]
01:26:20 ◼ ► uh-huh a little little Janice that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5180">TS</a>]
01:26:23 ◼ ► changes everything except out of a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5183">TS</a>]
01:26:25 ◼ ► 50-gallon drum so so this perspective of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5185">TS</a>]
01:26:28 ◼ ► that flying through the sky you have no [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5188">TS</a>]
01:26:29 ◼ ► sense of how big it was to be like what [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5189">TS</a>]
01:26:32 ◼ ► does that flying Quaker Oats thing and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5192">TS</a>]
01:26:33 ◼ ► then as it got closer to show it just [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5193">TS</a>]
01:26:36 ◼ ► ik and your mind would be your mind [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5196">TS</a>]
01:26:38 ◼ ► would think is this thing 50 stories [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5198">TS</a>]
01:26:41 ◼ ► tall like you have no sense of how big [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5201">TS</a>]
01:26:43 ◼ ► it was until it landed and and there [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5203">TS</a>]
01:26:46 ◼ ► were notes every Pringles can a giant [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5206">TS</a>]
01:26:49 ◼ ► fewer if you had a trebuchet that was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5209">TS</a>]
01:26:51 ◼ ► throwing giant wrinkles cans and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5211">TS</a>]
01:26:53 ◼ ► everybody knows what it looks like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5213">TS</a>]
01:26:56 ◼ ► yeah it's got a very familiar form [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5216">TS</a>]
01:26:58 ◼ ► factor its flying through the sky and it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5218">TS</a>]
01:27:02 ◼ ► you have no you have note you have no [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5222">TS</a>]
01:27:04 ◼ ► idea how what's happening how big was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5224">TS</a>]
01:27:07 ◼ ► just that's warming up you just at that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5227">TS</a>]
01:27:08 ◼ ► point you had some trouble she's not you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5228">TS</a>]
01:27:10 ◼ ► have do you have a sense of it you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5230">TS</a>]
01:27:11 ◼ ► shouldn't say I could I think for I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5231">TS</a>]
01:27:13 ◼ ► think for six thousand dollars i could [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5233">TS</a>]
01:27:17 ◼ ► okay i'm gonna put that down 600,000 I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5237">TS</a>]
01:27:19 ◼ ► think you could get and if i could say [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5239">TS</a>]
01:27:21 ◼ ► a trebuchet in a back up trash and that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5241">TS</a>]
01:27:23 ◼ ► and that includes finds they can look [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5243">TS</a>]
01:27:26 ◼ ► even the zoning for a minute 37 for [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5246">TS</a>]
01:27:28 ◼ ► trying to shake if I'm if I'm fucking [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5248">TS</a>]
01:27:30 ◼ ► giant Quaker Oats cans all over the city [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5250">TS</a>]
01:27:32 ◼ ► i'm gonna face fuck haha good thing [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5252">TS</a>]
01:27:37 ◼ ► yeah that's there's get there going to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5257">TS</a>]
01:27:38 ◼ ► be complaints uh-huh but that's factored [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5258">TS</a>]
01:27:41 ◼ ► into the price how crooked is king [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5261">TS</a>]
01:27:43 ◼ ► county and in seattle KKR you with that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5263">TS</a>]
01:27:45 ◼ ► would there be a way that you can start [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5265">TS</a>]
01:27:46 ◼ ► crossing some palms in advance you do it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5266">TS</a>]
01:27:48 ◼ ► before or after the trebuchet derived it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5268">TS</a>]
01:27:49 ◼ ► isn't a sense of it being crooked it is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5269">TS</a>]
01:27:51 ◼ ► a sense of I am very wired it was you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5271">TS</a>]
01:27:55 ◼ ► showing up at meetings and they say [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5275">TS</a>]
01:27:56 ◼ ► there's that guy i know all the power [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5276">TS</a>]
01:27:58 ◼ ► brokers who and so that you may be those [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5278">TS</a>]
01:28:00 ◼ ► relationships that is there a Laura [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5280">TS</a>]
01:28:02 ◼ ► Roderick bloodline that runs into the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5282">TS</a>]
01:28:04 ◼ ► headquarters of power still uh actually [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5284">TS</a>]
01:28:07 ◼ ► most of the most other most of those [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5287">TS</a>]
01:28:10 ◼ ► guys most of the people that know the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5290">TS</a>]
01:28:14 ◼ ► there are a couple of guys like the my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5294">TS</a>]
01:28:16 ◼ ► TV is a sort of powerful politician [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5296">TS</a>]
01:28:22 ◼ ► local Paul and memory is the Sun SEO you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5302">TS</a>]
01:28:26 ◼ ► got Sally right Samantha lot of there [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5306">TS</a>]
01:28:31 ◼ ► are a lot of sons of guys who were you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5311">TS</a>]
01:28:33 ◼ ► know level command partners from my dad [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5313">TS</a>]
01:28:36 ◼ ► but but I have made my own relationships [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5316">TS</a>]
01:28:38 ◼ ► with the local the the new younger [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5318">TS</a>]
01:28:41 ◼ ► generation of politicians here and this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5321">TS</a>]
01:28:44 ◼ ► is like the bike mayor that's the bike [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5324">TS</a>]
01:28:46 ◼ ► mayor and it's the it's the rock and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5326">TS</a>]
01:28:48 ◼ ► roll a county executive event you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5328">TS</a>]
01:28:53 ◼ ► the roccat rock'n'roll county executive [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5333">TS</a>]
01:28:57 ◼ ► and now that the guy but the Democratic [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5337">TS</a>]
01:28:59 ◼ ► candidate for governor has has expressed [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5339">TS</a>]
01:29:03 ◼ ► area expressed interest in in liaison [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5343">TS</a>]
01:29:07 ◼ ► with him haha so if i get a guy in the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5347">TS</a>]
01:29:11 ◼ ► governor's chair then I feel like this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5351">TS</a>]
01:29:15 ◼ ► you know you're gonna be fine this is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5355">TS</a>]
01:29:18 ◼ ► this happened nothing I don't think [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5358">TS</a>]
01:29:20 ◼ ► about head-butter but there's been a lot [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5360">TS</a>]
01:29:21 ◼ ► of times where you could get some [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5361">TS</a>]
01:29:23 ◼ ► materials or materials you say you could [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5363">TS</a>]
01:29:25 ◼ ► get some stuff that looks like it would [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5365">TS</a>]
01:29:26 ◼ ► be useful for something that wouldn't be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5366">TS</a>]
01:29:28 ◼ ► a trebuchet many Springs you need a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5368">TS</a>]
01:29:31 ◼ ► large cup you need some kind of I don't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5371">TS</a>]
01:29:35 ◼ ► yeah okay but Cena logs you could be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5375">TS</a>]
01:29:37 ◼ ► making again you could be making nature [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5377">TS</a>]
01:29:39 ◼ ► trails a lawyer would be a perfect way [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5379">TS</a>]
01:29:41 ◼ ► to make a nature trail sure I need one [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5381">TS</a>]
01:29:43 ◼ ► truck load of logs who so check out of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5383">TS</a>]
01:29:47 ◼ ► logs kinds of logs that logs right [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5387">TS</a>]
01:29:51 ◼ ► ok in fact I think you could build a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5391">TS</a>]
01:29:52 ◼ ► trebuchet entirely of logs you would [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5392">TS</a>]
01:29:54 ◼ ► mean any other parts i can just fuck [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5394">TS</a>]
01:29:56 ◼ ► this whole thing up for you John I think [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5396">TS</a>]
01:29:57 ◼ ► I don't know she did for the rest of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5397">TS</a>]
01:30:00 ◼ ► it sounds to me like this is something [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5400">TS</a>]
01:30:01 ◼ ► you could make today for about forty [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5401">TS</a>]
01:30:04 ◼ ► well I would be a smart be like a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5404">TS</a>]
01:30:05 ◼ ► preliminary one a smaller prototype [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5405">TS</a>]
01:30:08 ◼ ► yeah maybe don't take out that bodega [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5408">TS</a>]
01:30:09 ◼ ► with some oats that was that was one of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5409">TS</a>]
01:30:11 ◼ ► my early internet punk-rock names [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5411">TS</a>]
01:30:13 ◼ ► trebuchet actually met a girl who knew [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5413">TS</a>]
01:30:18 ◼ ► me as trebuchet your kingly actually [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5418">TS</a>]
01:30:20 ◼ ► that wasn't leading striking out a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5420">TS</a>]
01:30:22 ◼ ► folder when you were there that was my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5422">TS</a>]
01:30:23 ◼ ► friendster profile trailer Shane no one [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5423">TS</a>]
01:30:26 ◼ ► ever got it but there was a girl who [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5426">TS</a>]
01:30:28 ◼ ► knew me as trade boucher on friendster [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5428">TS</a>]
01:30:32 ◼ ► who came to a long winter show and she [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5432">TS</a>]
01:30:36 ◼ ► had no sense that I was trading che came [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5436">TS</a>]
01:30:39 ◼ ► to the show randomly and came up to me [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5439">TS</a>]
01:30:42 ◼ ► at the merch table and I recognized her [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5442">TS</a>]
01:30:44 ◼ ► from friendster well as someone that I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5444">TS</a>]
01:30:47 ◼ ► had communicated with many times as [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5447">TS</a>]
01:30:49 ◼ ► trade boucher and she was like that was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5449">TS</a>]
01:30:51 ◼ ► a great show my god amazing wow the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5451">TS</a>]
01:30:54 ◼ ► Buddha can i buy your merchant I was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5454">TS</a>]
01:30:56 ◼ ► like sitting there thinking should I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5456">TS</a>]
01:30:58 ◼ ► tell her I'm trip check your fellatio [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5458">TS</a>]
01:31:00 ◼ ► ontology 69 and her name was something [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5460">TS</a>]
01:31:04 ◼ ► like Sam can go over i don't remember [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5464">TS</a>]
01:31:06 ◼ ► his ex cutter ex got x.x eyeliner and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5466">TS</a>]
01:31:14 ◼ ► the and i never i didn't cop to it I was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5474">TS</a>]
01:31:17 ◼ ► just like solar merge i took my picture [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5477">TS</a>]
01:31:19 ◼ ► with their I had five der and off she [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5479">TS</a>]
01:31:22 ◼ ► went into the night and I was like I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5482">TS</a>]
01:31:26 ◼ ► well that's that would be unprofessional [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5486">TS</a>]
01:31:28 ◼ ► right if I mean the whole point of good [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5488">TS</a>]
01:31:30 ◼ ► designer standard don't don't don't say [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5490">TS</a>]
01:31:31 ◼ ► if you know but it's my understanding [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5491">TS</a>]
01:31:32 ◼ ► that you want to keep your secret a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5492">TS</a>]
01:31:35 ◼ ► secret long after it doesn't even need [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5495">TS</a>]
01:31:37 ◼ ► to be a secret like we don't want to let [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5497">TS</a>]
01:31:38 ◼ ► you know we don't need to tell you how [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5498">TS</a>]
01:31:40 ◼ ► we're not going to get any of that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5500">TS</a>]
01:31:42 ◼ ► exactly means that true didn't they're [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5502">TS</a>]
01:31:44 ◼ ► all kinds of things from world war two [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5504">TS</a>]
01:31:45 ◼ ► that given because of the cold war we [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5505">TS</a>]
01:31:49 ◼ ► just didn't want anybody know how he we [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5509">TS</a>]
01:31:50 ◼ ► kept our secret secret for a long time [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5510">TS</a>]
01:31:53 ◼ ► yeah well I'm some of that stuff i think [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5513">TS</a>]
01:31:55 ◼ ► is still secret not because the thing [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5515">TS</a>]
01:31:57 ◼ ► itself but because the methodology and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5517">TS</a>]
01:32:00 ◼ ► who would have known who would have been [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5520">TS</a>]
01:32:02 ◼ ► yeah right and and also use some [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5522">TS</a>]
01:32:04 ◼ ► triangulating triangulate all kinds of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5524">TS</a>]
01:32:06 ◼ ► things once you have a little bit of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5526">TS</a>]
01:32:07 ◼ ► information some of those methodologies [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5527">TS</a>]
01:32:08 ◼ ► are still in play the whole concept that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5528">TS</a>]
01:32:12 ◼ ► there are two concepts about espionage [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5532">TS</a>]
01:32:15 ◼ ► in world war two one is that no Nazi spy [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5535">TS</a>]
01:32:22 ◼ ► undiscovered buddy was actually happy [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5542">TS</a>]
01:32:26 ◼ ► now pulled up the carpet on every single [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5546">TS</a>]
01:32:28 ◼ ► Nazi spy in England that is that's one [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5548">TS</a>]
01:32:32 ◼ ► of the world war two and and i know that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5552">TS</a>]
01:32:33 ◼ ► because the Germans kept such good [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5553">TS</a>]
01:32:36 ◼ ► well yeah and that that the Germans had [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5556">TS</a>]
01:32:38 ◼ ► almost no espionage successful as they [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5558">TS</a>]
01:32:41 ◼ ► turned every agent so the Germans were [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5561">TS</a>]
01:32:44 ◼ ► like they weren't getting any good [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5564">TS</a>]
01:32:46 ◼ ► espionage they were getting all plants [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5566">TS</a>]
01:32:52 ◼ ► double-double agent double operative we [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5572">TS</a>]
01:32:54 ◼ ► call that will compromise which term for [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5574">TS</a>]
01:32:56 ◼ ► that double triple secret probation who [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5576">TS</a>]
01:32:58 ◼ ► can and the other myth is that that the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5578">TS</a>]
01:33:02 ◼ ► UK a and as I don't know if that's a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5582">TS</a>]
01:33:05 ◼ ► myth nobody knows if there were Nazi [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5585">TS</a>]
01:33:08 ◼ ► spies who who actually were providing [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5588">TS</a>]
01:33:11 ◼ ► good intelligence that were that went [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5591">TS</a>]
01:33:12 ◼ ► undiscovered nobody knows the other I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5592">TS</a>]
01:33:15 ◼ ► mean somebody probably knows but we [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5595">TS</a>]
01:33:17 ◼ ► don't as a as a people know that the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5597">TS</a>]
01:33:20 ◼ ► other myth is that the British were [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5600">TS</a>]
01:33:23 ◼ ► putting all these guys in trench coats [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5603">TS</a>]
01:33:25 ◼ ► with briefcases and poison-tipped [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5605">TS</a>]
01:33:27 ◼ ► umbrellas parachuting them behind enemy [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5607">TS</a>]
01:33:30 ◼ ► lines in Germany and they were provided [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5610">TS</a>]
01:33:35 ◼ ► intelligence and the reason that we [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5615">TS</a>]
01:33:40 ◼ ► the the germans captured some of these [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5620">TS</a>]
01:33:42 ◼ ► guys with with umbrellas and entrench [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5622">TS</a>]
01:33:45 ◼ ► codes and they thought well if we're [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5625">TS</a>]
01:33:46 ◼ ► capturing you know if we captured fifty [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5626">TS</a>]
01:33:48 ◼ ► these guys that must mean 500 got [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5628">TS</a>]
01:33:50 ◼ ► through but i don't think that that is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5630">TS</a>]
01:33:54 ◼ ► the Germans might have captured every [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5634">TS</a>]
01:33:56 ◼ ► single spy it just served in the British [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5636">TS</a>]
01:33:59 ◼ ► to perpetuate this idea that they're [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5639">TS</a>]
01:34:02 ◼ ► spies were getting through a lot of the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5642">TS</a>]
01:34:04 ◼ ► British intelligence just came from [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5644">TS</a>]
01:34:05 ◼ ► turncoat Nazis but it served them to to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5645">TS</a>]
01:34:10 ◼ ► perpetuate this idea that they know they [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5650">TS</a>]
01:34:12 ◼ ► have spies everywhere so I think some of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5652">TS</a>]
01:34:14 ◼ ► those and some of those there's still [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5654">TS</a>]
01:34:16 ◼ ► fueling some of those meals because you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5656">TS</a>]
01:34:19 ◼ ► never know when the secret might be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5659">TS</a>]
01:34:20 ◼ ► useful again exactly if you've got if [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5660">TS</a>]
01:34:23 ◼ ► you've got like yeah where the card is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5663">TS</a>]
01:34:25 ◼ ► not a drop it drop what you call we call [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5665">TS</a>]
01:34:26 ◼ ► the place where you stick something in a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5666">TS</a>]
01:34:27 ◼ ► hole and then Draco dead you have a dead [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5667">TS</a>]
01:34:29 ◼ ► drop and you know as far as you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5669">TS</a>]
01:34:32 ◼ ► like why would you tell everybody all [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5672">TS</a>]
01:34:33 ◼ ► here's where all are dead drops were [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5673">TS</a>]
01:34:36 ◼ ► right because you don't want to tell [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5676">TS</a>]
01:34:39 ◼ ► yeah don't tell them I do that every [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5679">TS</a>]
01:34:40 ◼ ► game i have safe houses all over this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5680">TS</a>]
01:34:44 ◼ ► country i'm never going to tell anybody [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5684">TS</a>]
01:34:45 ◼ ► but you should you said too much already [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5685">TS</a>]
01:34:47 ◼ ► so he's the practice of capital exist [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5687">TS</a>]
01:34:51 ◼ ► now Constantine rock-and-roll County [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5691">TS</a>]
01:34:54 ◼ ► deputy eat does he does he does he play [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5694">TS</a>]
01:34:56 ◼ ► guitar like a lazy lee atwater type [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5696">TS</a>]
01:34:58 ◼ ► situation do here I like absolutely [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5698">TS</a>]
01:35:00 ◼ ► loves he loves rock music us shows he's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5700">TS</a>]
01:35:04 ◼ ► a hip guy because you're familiar with [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5704">TS</a>]
01:35:06 ◼ ► oh he's a he's a he's a bro fruit and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5706">TS</a>]
01:35:09 ◼ ► you know powerful local politician give [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5709">TS</a>]
01:35:12 ◼ ► me the man in the corner it seems like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5712">TS</a>]
01:35:13 ◼ ► somebody if you run into trouble with [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5713">TS</a>]
01:35:15 ◼ ► accounting guy is going to be nice to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5715">TS</a>]
01:35:17 ◼ ► have your going to want people working [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5717">TS</a>]
01:35:18 ◼ ► all different angles right well that's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5718">TS</a>]
01:35:20 ◼ ► the thing i'm gonna i'm gonna call him [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5720">TS</a>]
01:35:21 ◼ ► i'm going to say listen I misread the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5721">TS</a>]
01:35:23 ◼ ► zoning I thought that this i thought my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5723">TS</a>]
01:35:26 ◼ ► my neighborhood was zoned for Trisha's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5726">TS</a>]
01:35:28 ◼ ► you're like an old woman telling a copy [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5728">TS</a>]
01:35:30 ◼ ► didn't see the Sun and puts and cousin [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5730">TS</a>]
01:35:32 ◼ ► i-i-i thought I understood if it's very [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5732">TS</a>]
01:35:35 ◼ ► complicated language I just want to be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5735">TS</a>]
01:35:36 ◼ ► real clear with this I was completely [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5736">TS</a>]
01:35:38 ◼ ► aware that I was making a trip in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5738">TS</a>]
01:35:39 ◼ ► shooting 55-gallon drums votes I'm not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5739">TS</a>]
01:35:41 ◼ ► gonna obviously like I can't take it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5741">TS</a>]
01:35:44 ◼ ► look if I turned around and shooting [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5744">TS</a>]
01:35:45 ◼ ► them to the south with that have been [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5745">TS</a>]
01:35:47 ◼ ► I have to tell you I just I didn't know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5747">TS</a>]
01:35:49 ◼ ► up listen listen maybe we can forget [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5749">TS</a>]
01:35:52 ◼ ► about the things that get all about this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOsV2Ew/5752">TS</a>]