Ep. 82: "Yelling at Trees"
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hello hey John I Merlin hello
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ya got what I need but you say he's just
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a friend
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ya bizz Markie yes
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Biz Markie say I was just listening to
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some fizz Marquis yeah yesterday i was
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listening to the bottle service in today
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I'm listening to biz markie and just
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trying to I'm trying to go back and
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start over again returning to the
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classics I'm gonna take a different Road
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this time
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yeah i'm gonna take the high road
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starting afresh
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yeah I start off brush tabula rasa haha
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Byul Arase who
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word up John blank slate have you been
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getting exposed to new music oh well you
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know i was just at Seattle's bumbershoot
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festival and got exposed to a lot of new
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things I got exposed to some music like
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the Breeders superchunk community the
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zombies what that Kepler cutie
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whoa whoa all the big axe the Esau you
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saw sergeant and the other guy sergeant
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and what's-his-name allergen and and big
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voice that can still sing like how can
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II he sings it's amazing he's like an
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he's a little man and he's blue he's
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blowing doors out with this but this
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incredible voice my first song first
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chorus and you're like how do you get
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how would you get there even at the end
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of your set how would you be so so
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warmed up that you could hit that note
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he's right there his solo records really
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good now I'm sorry that i'm totally
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spacing out his name is Colin Colin
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blundstone once down
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yeah they have a really good song that I
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think they might even record after
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odyssey an Oracle i think it's called
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remember the Swan em and then
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and then it's just uh just soaring yeah
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that record is that's a melancholy
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record it is there's a lot of sadness
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being a zombie
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mmm they're so so strong about world war
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one on there
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well you know what there's a song about
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world war one on the second key to help
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them to they don't want to talk about it
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was a controversial because they like
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the wrong side it's just that a lot of
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that most keen fans you know that they
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want the they want the songs to be about
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love automatically what would you seem
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less keen songs are about I would say
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most keen songs are about longing for
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friendship oh it's like a bunny kind of
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thing longing for friendship
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it's proto brownie they McKeon was there
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before the bronies but yeah it's about
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longing for friendship just like
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everything
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yeah it's like everything i remember i
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remember you know back when I didn't
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want to be touched
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I didn't realize that there is never it
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had been realized that i did that what I
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really was doing was yearning to be
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touched you you just wanted to hold
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hands and talk yeah you know like to put
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your head on my shoulder cut my hair is
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I don't think that's what everybody
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wants nice hair
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ya see saw the zombies you saw the beers
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i asked the beaters a couple times they
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did back in the day they put on a pretty
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good show i like better nirvana song
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yeah you know they still put on a good
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show and I have to say I was it i'm i'm
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standing in the crowd the young lady I
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was with the concert turned to me and
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said judge that do the Breeders matter
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to you where the Breeders part of your
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thing today are they like part of your
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pantheon by my side and i slumped my
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shoulders and I said yes the Breeders
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matter to me what part of that was hard
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for you it's hard i don't know i
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remember at the time the Breeders it
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just felt like it felt like it was that
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that moment in time where it's like we
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don't even know what a player
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instruments my sister doesn't even she
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never even picked up a guitar before and
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and now she's you know coming up with
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these cool guitar parts and we're a band
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and we don't even care do to do and I
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was like fuck all of that
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yeah but in fact they made really good
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of to me you know like that music
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reaches me it's very cool everything
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about them is cool but but like I feel
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like it's legitimately cool it's not
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trying to is it is and I think just one
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of those instances where the albini
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production was such a perfect match
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yeah I mean that man knows how to make a
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base yes he can make up is I mean two
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midgets base is like a force of nature
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really way he makes it sound in the way
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he does drums i heard am I got a copy of
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the cassette of demos mostly stuff that
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was on pod and some stuff that would be
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on last splash in early versions and
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it's not a great it was I think we're
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like you put this on and if you were
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some dumbass record executive in the
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early nineties who would you know who
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would have signed up in a pound of bacon
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like cotton candy got plans why ya gotta
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promote the hell out of this
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poke poke poke I'll tell you how to make
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I'm gonna be you just bake this right
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talks up pop
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well I have to say though you know how I
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feel about distortion and I've been
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reflecting back on my life as a musician
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and i feel like i have not I have not
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given distort I'm not allowed myself to
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have distortion this is the problem and
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I'm sorry I lost you you have a meeting
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overdrive or confusion
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mm-hmm do I see no i mean so what you
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don't you get a pass or a rat or
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something's both things i have a million
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overdrive pedals i have a I actually
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have a there's an extension of my house
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just built out of the boxes the
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overdrive pedals came on and we call it
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the boss we but i but but you know in
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the nineties right i had a mite my
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amplifier was a carven 120 watt head on
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top of a 4-12 cabinet that was so great
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about 600 yes that was it was one of
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those elements heavily they was so heavy
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and it was and it had a parametric EQ on
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the front and it was you know but for
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all back in the day you know we guitar
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dudes would sit and like really micro
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adjust all the different frequencies at
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this you know this is for playing club
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shows where there are 60 80 people
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hundred and fifty people and you know I
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had that and then the other guitarist in
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the band also had a 4-12 cabinet and a
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hundred whitehead
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we're just ripping people's faces off
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and every band did it and tons and tons
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of distortion it was you know we're rock
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and roll but my indie rock career there
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are no there but hardly any recordings
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of that whole decade and my indie rock
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career was you know it coincided with
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the whole quiet is the new loud
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apocalypse and the whole distortion is
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bad fast tempos or bad we're just going
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to our music is just gonna going to bore
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people into a state where all they want
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to do is buy the t-shirt just gently
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stroked me ukulele case yeah just I mean
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longing for Israelis it was just like
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we're going to pet your vagina hair
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until you see you sleep sleep sleep and
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so you know so the first few long
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winters records were made in the in this
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area and at that point I had I had lost
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my confidence in rock and roll a little
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bit my personal confidence in it and i
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didn't know i didn't understand what was
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happening and and I was being shepherded
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through these recordings and and I was
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on a label that was very a that you know
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also believed that hard rock and heavy
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rock and kind of run its course this is
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a new generation and so the so the long
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winters records are are softer than i
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would have had them if if if I medicine
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cabinet pirate medicine cabinet pirate
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was up absolute fist fight to get it
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there was one mix of medicine cabinet
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pirate that was presented to me in the
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business is like late in the game like
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we are mixing the record and a mix of
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medicine cabinet pirate came over the
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bow that had no guitars on
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is this mr. wala it was chris wallace
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was like I just don't understand the
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guitars on this record I don't quite
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understand the guitar sounds and I
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really this is what i'm hearing and it
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sounded like a Bjork mix it was like
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bass and drum machine and just got the
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dr j keyboard right yeah right just the
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just the outside elements and not the
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guitar not the guitar oh my god that was
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science so pretentious is so funny
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because with the guitars are our face
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searing and it's one of the most I mean
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car parts is is in its wake a mid-tempo
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manicure kind of song beautiful my
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favorite one song but medicine at pirate
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is much more like this role in some ways
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anything
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well and medicine counterpart is how it
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says is close to sounding like the music
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i made before the long winters as
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anything on on those records but anyway
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so I've been thinking you know so the
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last couple of years i have not been
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recording new music for public
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consumption but i have been working on
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music at home making tons and tons of
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music actually and it all is
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characterized by this breeders like
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distortion wash it's not something we
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describe some stuff using and selling
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NBD a little bit my bloody valentine
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hugely influential it not not not
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directly but like spiritually like that
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that feeling you have when you put on
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the headphones for potentially driving
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in fog late at night when everybody else
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in the cars asleep and you have been
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eating mushrooms all day that feeling
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that you are falling into the sky is
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something that I'm always trying to
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capture and that's anyway that's what
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i've been making and so listening to the
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breeders and going to that show for
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years I was just like I don't want to be
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influenced by the Breeders that's not
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the story that i want you know the story
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that i want to be telling is that I'm
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influenced by Judas Priest but in fact
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i'm more influenced by the Breeders than
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then I then I've never been comfortable
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admitting until now
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and it's been it's because of that like
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because she's singing so down she solo
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her you know her energy is just solo
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vibe and cool and the music is just
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washing over you and it's like yeah
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that's kind of what I'm into
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no you know it's it's great it's great
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it's like Jeff Buckley it's great music
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to have sex two girls that have tribal
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tattoos especially she's dead
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oh I'm not a bad way alright okay good
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dead in a good way but yeah I'm trying
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to steal this makes me sad because I
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mean that the point the Breeders thing
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is is a is getting your dander up a
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little bit but says you're getting
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closer to well yeah because a lot of
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thing you'd like to do you know you know
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what it's like to be 25 Merlin you've
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five or six that I really felt already
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had 24 21 23 years old I already felt
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like I was too old for punk music that
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was for kids
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I felt like I was too old for pop music
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was already so dumb by 1991 that I was
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like I i made the mistake of thinking I
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I was in the time that I was and it was
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only later that I reflected back and you
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know because i never saw Nirvana Nirvana
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was playing shows all around me and I
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was like nirvana is a bunch of kids
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music bunch of dumb you know some
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druggies and it was only later that that
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I that I allowed myself to be a fan of
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Nirvana after you know he didn't really
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after and after he got two days before
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Kurt Cobain kill himself if you had
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asked me if I like Nirvana i would have
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said man
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yeah i guess if you like that simple
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kids music and two weeks after Kurt
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Cobain died I thought that the bed the
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world had ended so the breakers are
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diabetic I this is the problem with the
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breakers for me to at the time I was
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like I i will always have a soft spot
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for smells like teen spirit but the
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computer is a much better record really
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i bet it's a insecticide is the one for
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me and left me with that and says decide
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is the B is that like singles b-sides I
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think the age is showing on never mind a
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little bit and production wise but it is
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incensed decide was the stuff that it
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was released after nevermind but it was
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all recorded before
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ok and in some cases recorded even
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before the more beachy it's it's super
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bleachy but even some of its even pre
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bleach and and so what it is it's like I
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could you remember that late eighties
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obviously does he remember but the
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ladies up here there was not a
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tremendous distinction between hippie
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psychedelic a metal and punk was also
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what's frustrating about the fucking
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grunge thing is like I mean had how do
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you take a combination of the raincoats
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influence and the Black Sabbath
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influence and kind of act like that's
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the same thing right and there's some of
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the some of the stuff on incest aside is
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nirvana like tripping out kinda like
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true trippy trip trip is I mean it's
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still all Paul Nirvana it's grungy but
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it's like they're they haven't been
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quite figured out short fast or even
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loud soft it's just like where I walk
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and it's I don't know this is a hard
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girl as a stoner it is a lot of it
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before Dave Grohl so yeah so it's a
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little so it's a little less like a
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packer to contain and I'm much more like
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wow I i was like no they would like to
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publicly analyze you
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oh yes only take a minute um I know too
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much should i also should i say ah well
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be nice if you can maybe just reclined a
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little bit okay ready
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ok let's make you feel it's interesting
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to me based on many many many hundreds
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of conversations we've had that we I
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think we both have a background in a
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certain kind of really visceral like
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crunchy music you know playing the
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tennis racket kind of music I mean the
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stuff that I mean I I know for myself
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and i think based on what you said I
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mean the thing that got you excited
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about making the leap from being a music
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consumer to be a music producer was
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partly that something welling up inside
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of you started with this appreciation
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for these awarding and visceral like
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very like physical like you could feel
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it down down down down down or you know
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or you know whatever you know that kind
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of stuff that the first time that you
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students and saw away at a guitar until
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you have forgotten everything when you
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just there's you know eyes closed sweat
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pouring down just and you're just
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hammering on this guitar i think i could
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play sweet leaf at rehearsal for hours
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it's just so fun that little like done
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and it's just so fun to play and a
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feeling you get here the analysis is
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that you're a thinker you think a lot
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and it's the interesting thing to me is
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that you seem to be a war with yourself
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about this one side of you that
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absolutely knows what you like
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like you're not even likewhat influence
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you want to point it seemed like you you
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have a pretty good feeling for like
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whether it's something that's like in
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your pantheon or something you can take
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your leave or something that should be
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you know killed with fire but you think
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a lot and I think that's very
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interesting and I would have things that
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they can get in the way of which would
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you like to make yes it does it does and
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and I've been I've been reflecting ever
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since design about that I've been
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thinking about it a lot ever ever said
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so-so were coming up
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well actually no we're over it it's been
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a month now that i have adopted this new
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way of eating no sugar and it's it's
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it's extraordinary say it's still you
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still feel a difference
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absolutely i mean I because because in
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the course of the month now I've had a
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couple of opportunities to like okay I'm
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not you know I'm not living in a
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dictatorship here i'm gonna have a piece
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of pie on Saturday because what the hell
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and I had I've been good
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well and it was it was much more like
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I'm in this for the long haul
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it's not like I'm never gonna have a
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piece of pie again I have to figure out
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how to have one and then go back to
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eating right but that's the that's the
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problem
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it is the problem you know like if I
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friend from like an unopened bottle of
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bourbon sure or or like if I could have
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a cigarette and then on Monday go back
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to not having cigarettes it would be a
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problem i would still be having
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cigarettes sometimes but you know I i
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was i I am NOT able to do that i
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interrupting a month one month
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well so so I I so I've had the occasion
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to have a slice of pie and not only did
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i did i like a leap off into this sugar
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like super buzzed but my nose started
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running my sinuses got climb you want
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with it whether that within 45 minutes
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whoa and I have stealing and I'm like
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and then and then I'm plummeting off the
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off the edge and then it's three o'clock
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in the morning and i'm wide awake
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drumming my fingers on the bed and I'm
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like whoa that was close one piece of
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pie and admittedly three chocolate chip
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cookies and Palmer but what zoom and
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then and then just it wasn't just like
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buzz and crash it was just it was back
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to bonkers but anyway so here I am a
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month into this my energy is is for the
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most part like stabilized and calm and
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I'm really able to recognize I look
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around my life and I recognize i am
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presently at 44 years old almost 45
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presently in some indefinable feud with
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24 people 24 people like a name and now
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that you have the clarity of mind you
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could actually write them all down and
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keep them straight organized
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yeah that's right then I'm not talking
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about all the people that you know there
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is not a my bloody valentine fog of
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embassies you've got a clear idea of
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exactly who you're not square with right
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absolutely there there are people on the
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list that I'm not
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look into in five years there are people
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on the list I haven't spoken to six
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months there are people on the list that
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are just recently added to the list
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there are people that have been on the
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list for 18 years but I could I can tell
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you you know like and those are those
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are not the people that I see around
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town that I'm like that I hate that guy
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I don't even know his name I just don't
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like him updates for 24 people i can
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name and I'm realizing like him like him
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I think myself into I on a daily basis I
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think myself into Buchenwald like I am
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in time in 24 different Buchenwald of
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the minds need for other parts that
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don't know I and i have to say like it
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now I've got a little bit of clarity
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I've got a little bit of calm and I'm
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realizing oh my god i'm just at the
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beginning of trying to get my life back
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I don't even know how I don't even know
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how to go around
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I you know I i bet at least 20 of those
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people I can't possibly apologize to
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because i don't remember what the
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problem was and so so that's just it's
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really challenging like a you know like
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I feel like calling people up and say
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hey there sorry about that you know and
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and this is the thing people are never
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thinking about you as much as you are
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you as much as you think they're
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thinking about you so probably 15 of
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those people be like what
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Oh are we having a fight and have to
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remember who you are in your fucking
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yeah I just thought you stopped calling
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me because we didn't get along or
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because you you know because you were
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bored of me or something you know and
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and i'm sitting over here like no I'm
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not bored of you i'm still super pissed
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at you about something so anyway like
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this thinking oh my god thinking is such
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a albatross it is it i feel like if I
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feel like thinking past a certain point
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is a disability like a Jedi like a
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genuine disability and where's my god IM
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parade yeah well let's say it's a
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handicap is where's where it's a
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handicap it's it's a handy capable like
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charlie brown cloud yeah yeah I I mean
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it's been cloudy
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well I mean just to put a little bit of
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syrup on this Bank
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I guess I always thought that as I got
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older people would make more sense to me
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and I'm embarrassed to say this because
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I'm certain it has either everything to
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do with what I didn't understand my
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entire life for everything to do with
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the fact that I'm a sociopath but like
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people make less sense to me
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just about every week or so I honestly
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feel like on the one hand i'm incredibly
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I'm growing like really soft inside and
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sympathetic to how fucked up everybody
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can be either not know or not have
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access to changing it but i also just
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don't understand why people do what they
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do it's just it's so perplexing to me
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and you know sometimes the more i feel
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that the less i talk about it but I
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there's so much stuff that almost
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everybody I I know guys that I just
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frankly do not understand and i keep it
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to myself because I don't argue about it
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that's part of my affliction like I I
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honestly I honestly thought that as i
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get older i become more sage and more
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wise and be able to have you know a
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certain amount of remove from these
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things could be going oh well obviously
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you know I've worked with people enough
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now that everything that makes sense and
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so now I know how to manipulate people
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because I'm really good at that and and
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i I just I feel like I'm around aliens
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more and more
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yeah and I mean I don't know if you get
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that but I mean that's a clarity thing
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for me I i think in in fact i was in a
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fog for a different kind of fog maybe
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not sugar fog but for a long time was
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thinking that I understood what the fuck
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was going on and and now i know that i
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don't and i know that i am I reflection
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my handicap my handi-capable as I
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honestly don't understand about 80% of
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what everybody does people who are
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exactly like the idea understand what
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they do neither and and I mean I love
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Demetrius is this another is related
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because i think this bumbershoot there
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the bumbershoot is a time one
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people come from all around lots of
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people people I've known for years
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people that I have known professionally
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old friends new friends
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it's a big gathering of people and I'm
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there with with all the people and
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socializing and and fun and times and if
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there was one problem which was that I
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was headed backstage to the big
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backstage party show
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and this is you know a big festival so
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they hire they hire a lot of convicts
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they hire a lot of people who who ate a
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lot of lead paint chips when they were
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apparently the ultimate lined the
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aldehyde group of people that live
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downwind from the smelter and those
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people are charged so so there are
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people who are the least informed the
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least capable up people they don't hire
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them to personally major status they
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hire them to make a zero or one decision
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that's probably a zero that's right
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they're given that they are given a
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mandate which is which is which is
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basically like a bit in the movie Tron
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like are you on or off
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yes yes no yes no and so I'm in this
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large group of people and includes some
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very famous rock stars
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we're all moving along toward a doorway
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that is the doorway between the dummies
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the 50,000 dummies who are out looking
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or dipping corn dogs in powdered sugar
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or whatever it is that people hear
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things like this and then on the other
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side of this door it is this rarefied
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backstage world where you just you look
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around it's like everybody back here is
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wearing a gold cape and everybody back
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here has an MTV Music Video Award and
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we're just going to sit back here and
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put our pinky fingers up each other's
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bucks and this is why we do it just like
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fish bag valve all it is we're just
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going to sit back here and people are
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going to tell you that they love your
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album but they've never listened to
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before and people are going to introduce
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you two pretty girls that don't have any
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reason to be back there but they're
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pretty let's get the whole it's the
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whole thing and this this dummy this guy
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this guy who you know who is still at 55
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years old studying for his GED is
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looking at everybody's pass and earlier
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in the day
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I in my pursuit of special privilege
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head had jumped over a barrier because I
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did not want to wait for another one of
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these guys another one of these Dwayne
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the rock Johnson's to take the time to
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look through my bag or whatever and so I
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like i skirted this guy and I did not
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get a little red stamp on my all-access
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pass well there's another level above
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all access oh this is the thing there's
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all access it mostly when accidents all
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all access with a little red stamp on it
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then there's all access with a little
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red stamp and a gold star on the back
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and then there's all access with a red
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stamp and two gold stars aren't you are
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literally making this up
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not at all and then there's one there's
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all access with a red stamp three gold
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stars on the back and one black line
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across the left bottom corner and I
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don't have the red stamp and so 20
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people are formed who are going through
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this door and this little Nimrod uh who
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basically is is one of the he's
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basically one of the puppets in a in
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Blade Runner the one with the little
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captain's hat on the long nose again
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home again jiggity he says well oh hey
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buddy you don't have the red stamp and
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I'm like listen doesn't matter i'm going
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through this door and he's like I have
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been charged with one task in my entire
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life my wife does not respect me my
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children don't love me
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my parents are dead i will you shall not
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pass and I'm standing there and and you
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know and this is the thing about walking
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away that nobody's gonna help you out
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this year
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rock rock musicians right yeah it is
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just like they turn around and if they
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had looked back and I and somebody had
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doused me with oil that was literally
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building a ghetto brick wall or holding
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a highway flare in their hands
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I never liked will one man vouched for
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this person they would be like steel
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anybody and and I would be immolated so
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I'm sitting there and I'm like I know
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not to appeal to the to the to the kids
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for flowing through the door because
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like it's already on cool don't make it
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more uncool by calling attention to
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yourself
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so now I thought that reads as list at
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us yeah you don't want to sit there be
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like hey you guys would you call the
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Tudor manager you know like the doors
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already shutting so now I'm standing
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here talking to this kind of like listen
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I know that you have this one thing
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they're supposed to do they have to in
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this moment just think for yourself and
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realize that I am NOT i'm standing here
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with an all-access pass and I did not
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get the stamp for whatever reason but
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you should know by my main by my manner
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by the energy that i have the energy of
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a star that you need to let me through
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this door right now otherwise it's going
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to get terrible here
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the atmosphere in your little corner of
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this stadium is going to get really bad
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for a little bit and she says you got to
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have the red stand how the atmosphere go
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the atmosphere got really bad right
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there and know what was your he kept he
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kept you know he kept like explaining
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about how he had been told about the red
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stamp at one point I put my finger to
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his lips and I said that's enough
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Oh shine like I was it got bad there
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because I understand that he'd been told
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you get real focused in a moment like
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that I understand what he had been told
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and I said that to him I understand what
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you've been told but this is a moment
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this is the moment where like if your
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life can change if you do not recognize
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the King when he is wearing street
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clothes like there is no forgiveness
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and so that's set off a chain of events
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where I was can I'll i needed to
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confront I was this was the universe at
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this point it's not really so much about
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getting in the door anymore now that's a
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different level right now what I don't
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want to see this fucking show anymore
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accelerator a turbo at this point i do
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not want to stand next to Bob Mould and
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talk about the news of the day and talk
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about bear week at provincetown I am I
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on clearly different level now I'm
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flying I'm flying I'm sr-71 now looking
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down and in a way my the worm turn like
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my incredible day went to blackness
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because of nobody's fault like this this
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guys doing whatever doing his job
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just just escorting people into the
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ovens and I didn't get the stamp because
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of some hubris on my part earlier in the
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day like this is the this is the gods on
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Mount Olympus saying let us let us let
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us guide the path of this arrow right
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into the heel of Achilles and I'm and
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I'm standing there just just bathed in
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my fury at after all these years not
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having the right
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laminate and and I'm just like what what
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what is next what is next for me I
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cannot be more wrong here
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you know I can my anger I mean did you
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realize that at some point during the
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evening
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yeah Wow like monospaced that's pretty
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fast my anger here is the wrong anger
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directed at all the wrong things but it
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is so real so profound my feeling that
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there should be he that there are
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Sneetches with stars on their bellies
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there are Sneetches with no stars on
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their bellies and then there is me the
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you speak for the butter I speak for all
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the motherfuckers and that is wrong
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that's incorrect that is not a correct
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assessment of the situation and and
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there are there are so many ways to
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handle these you know like to navigate
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the world where you do not you know
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where where where you just you just wait
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in line long enough and you can you
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realize when you get there like oh
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there's a red stamp that I'm gonna need
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later or whatever or the guy says the
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guy says I'm not allowed to let you
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through the door and you go okay i'm
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going home or or or I don't know what
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you do or I honestly this is the problem
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i honestly don't know what you do
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because all I know how to do in that
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moment is to be sting or stewart
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copeland worse you know like the guy
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who's just like throwing his drumsticks
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at some shred Rukh who's employed by a
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subsidiary of Halliburton so who
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suffice to say no no Bob Mould well no I
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eventually somebody but we cannot say
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but eventually some other employee of
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the super stadium
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well I'm standing there I'm just
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towering over this guy and I'm like
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listen there's a lot of there's a lot of
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there's a lot of bad things that are
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going to happen to you on Christmas Eve
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this year
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this Christmas matter to you is
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Christmas of thing in your house
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mark mark this day wet because there are
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there only a hundred fifteen more
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anxiety days that you didn't storm
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straight to a higher authority did you
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plot phone and call people my phone was
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dead but because it's okay i see this is
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this this
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no no fake because this guy the thing is
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that a certain point these guys turned
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to stone
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there's nothing there is he does not
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have the components hiring at Yale
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obviously but but not only that but he
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does not have the capacity to think on
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his feet and once it gets hostile well
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there's a classic thing and we're going
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to companies that means an old thing
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that people said for a long time but you
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tell a lot about somebody in their
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position
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how much power they have because do they
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do they have the power to say no or how
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much power and about which things do
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they have the power to say yes because
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true power is the ability to say yes
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it's not the power saying now I mean
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having said that you know this guy's
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whole job is about saying no the whole
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reason he's hired it is like I say he's
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not there like parts out whether you
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should be you know behind the pipe and
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drape he's there to basically be this
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valve where nobody gets through except
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for this extremely small number of
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people in a single metric for his entire
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job is whether he got every single one
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of those right yeah basically he is a he
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is a laser pointer made out of meat
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yeah he does he's just it's just rare
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honor off but you know in five minutes
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later some uh some woman who also worked
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for a subsidiary of Halliburton comes
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through the door looks at me and goes oh
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I recognize you from earlier and I was
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like is that so and she turns to the guy
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and she's like oh I know this guy and
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then I'm like I with one hand I am
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giving this woman a sweet caress down
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the down the side of her shoulder with
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the other hand i'm giving the other guy
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the double nickels on the dime like fuck
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middle finger right in his little his
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little long nose face and it was just
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like it was just the sort it was sort of
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a synchronized swimming move like
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petting the one lady fucked off right in
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the other guy's face and then i'm down
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the stairs and Janice of a cost steel
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later but so it is so it all ends up but
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the problem is then I you know then the
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rest of the night through my friends Big
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Show and through all the socializing I
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am chewing the data I'm crunching the
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numbers in my head gets so easy it is so
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difficult to shake that off its here and
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I'm adrenaline adrenaline is so high but
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the numbers I'm you know I'm reviewing
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the math and the numbers are telling me
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over and over
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you are the problem here you are the
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agent of you are the bad actor in this
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scenario because you're basically just
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yelling at trees like you are you are
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yelling out the car window
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uh draw all alone driving in the dark
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and there's no and what do you what do
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you hope to achieve like what what what
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is wrong with you
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ultimately so what you are interested in
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retrospect what do you if you could camp
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monday morning quarterback it if you
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could tuesday evening quarterback it
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what maybe not specifically where did
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you go wrong like if you could redo some
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of that knowing what you know what would
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you have done differently like where
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would it was the earliest thing you
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would have changed if you get groundhog
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day that you know the projo waiting in
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line for your stamp know what am i some
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fucking monkey sign so some dog waiting
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for a snack but waiting for the chuck
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wagon to come out from under the same
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essential complicated first drive across
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the kitchen floor in the cupboard know
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what I want my little car you turn the
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key and going to circle the fuck up
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no the problem was that I somewhere
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along the line here have lost confidence
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in myself to the point that i was i was
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sincerely concerned with being in this
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group of of famous people being being
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one of them being the social speaking of
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being part of the social center of a
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group of artists that I admired or that
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I understood that I was meant to admire
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and that this is where I meant to where
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I think I should belong where I meant to
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belong in this group and that has
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nothing to do with me
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I do not I do not care ultimately like
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the the experience of being down in that
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room in the sin the mutual admiration
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society the experience of being
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backstage is entirely a status and
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belonging issue like I could have just
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walked around the corner from where I
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was standing
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and have gone into the stadium and watch
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the rock concert like the rock concert
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was not I don't want to defend or try to
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say anything but do you know what I
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dunno about you is that well yeah I mean
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but that socializing if you want to call
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it that is kind of part of your work
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that's what you doing the reason I
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mention that is I've been to lots of
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places with you where you know I people
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open open their arms and their red red
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the ropes to you it's very is it's it's
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not unusual for you to be the guy who
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goes backstage things because that's
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just the thing that you do and you don't
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go back to America douche but I mean I
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get that's just the thing that happens
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but that but that reaction that reaction
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was a reaction the reaction i had was
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coming from a place of entitlement
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yeah just on the fun it's like it you
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know it's it does it does but that's the
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thing that but but that that that
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automaton in a uniform was not the
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problem i cannot be mad at the system
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I can't be mad at the guy 15 guys up who
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decided to hire a bunch of dummies to
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work security because everybody's doing
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their job like Who am I mad at it's like
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being mad at the city it's like it's
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like being a member of the tea party and
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you're mad at the government like what
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is the fucking government yelling it
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Yeah right there is no the government
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there's nobody in charge
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everybody's doing their everybody's just
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doing their little corner of those of
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their work and the guy the guy that's up
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the chain far enough to make a decision
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he doesn't care he doesn't care whether
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I get it or not and I can't be mad at
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him for it
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he's got bigger fish to fry he's trying
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to keep the power on in the building so
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all of it was all of it was back to
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entitlement now if I was if i had come
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to that door with the like remembering
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that I am just invited everywhere i'm
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lucky to be anywhere we're all just
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lucky to be anywhere and this guy's like
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you don't have the red stamp what I
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should have said was already get the red
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stamp and he'd say oh you get you had to
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get it on the you have to get it on the
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it's like oh well can you get on your
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walkie-talkie and ask like when the next
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ship to the moon is and he probably
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would have got on his walkie-talkie in
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said something and somebody would have
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been there with a red stampin in a
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minute and a half but but that's not the
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direction I went because that would that
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would have been inconceivable to me in
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fact it only occurs to me now that
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that's what I should have done
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oh yeah oh we need red stamp oh how do I
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do that how do i fill this out how do i
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do the dance right uh but but my sense
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of entitlement is so strong and at the
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end at this point in my life belonging
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to that group matters so much to me
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because i'm not making new music and I'm
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insecure about myself so all of a sudden
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you know as Bob Mould walks down the
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hall and and looks back over his
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shoulder and goes who's that guy can and
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the door shuts and I'm arguing I'm
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arguing with the chest piece over
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whether or not i have a script for an
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infection in wreck when you put it in
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those terms it is pretty brutal you know
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what I mean like and she's like he's a
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little clay figurine that somebody made
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to put into the grave with the with that
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the Chinese horse general that he did
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his job but he did his job and when he
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went home and the problem is i made him
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feel like shit I don't berlin i don't
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know if you can convey to our audience
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what it is like to be in a small room
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with me when I am what I am
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like it's so fun to be in any room with
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you like really honestly almost all the
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time except sometimes yeah i mean things
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happen and and then it's not Christmas
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anymore
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no the vibration comes off of me and it
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is it you feel it in your just another
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cold cold day in this second and say she
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died it's you know he went home here you
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get very young to use an overused word
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you get intense i get intense
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yes I mean it isn't fair to say yeah and
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so this guy at the end of watch was not
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mean he goes home he opens a keystone
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light he turns on Madagascar 2
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because it's his favorite movie he loves
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alex any sitting watching the mid-water
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watching madagascar but still in some
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part of himself is still sad or mad or
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or like it didn't go well he was doing
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his job and he feels like satisfied but
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he also is like I did I diminished him
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and that and why is that it was not for
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my I didn't do it i don't i don't feel
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better for having done it I did it
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because I was in this ego posture of of
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of of like what what what you know you
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know what I mean and it's just like I I
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totally did and III mean three seconds
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away from saying do you know who i am
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i'm saying is that is google me it's in
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the state and its it's one of my deep
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deep shame spots is when i do that and I
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don't know quite what it is I'm what
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again i want to say the part of it is
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getting older it's becoming more
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difficult for me to write off the things
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like what you're describing as somebody
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else's fault or it's getting harder for
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me to find a good reason for why behave
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badly when there's this feeling inside
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of me there's telling me intensely over
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and over again perhaps over a period of
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days you know you really fucked that up
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yeah and it's it's it's it's becoming
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harder for me to just let that off and
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BB a funny guy about it and I realize
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how harmful that can be and and and then
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I to be honest I realize how much I
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don't know if this is useful at all but
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I realize how toxic to my system it is
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to put the amount of energy needed into
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thinking about that in a way where it's
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not my fault
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it takes a tremendous amount of effort
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and energy to hold that misconception in
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a way that i can live with
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uh-huh because I know I mean I'm not
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that stupid i can look at the facts i
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can do the playback i can remember
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specific things i said i can remember
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like looking like some kind of
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supporting cast member in like a mafia
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movie even thinking that look cool and
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going that is that who you want to be
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like is that there's like five things
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about what I did there
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and this is not your parlance but mine
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it starts in that situation you describe
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the fire with if that were me in your
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position and very much could be it would
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be because my emotions went somewhere I
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didn't realize it
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I didn't catch it and the more my
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emotions got velcro into that situation
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the less chance I had of coming out of
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it looking like anything but like a
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complete dick because i was being a
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complete dick and to me that emotion
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thing is huge because like you just
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described now with now with however me
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for three four five seven days away from
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that you go oh we know what if I'd ask
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that guy you know the thing is it
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something oldest car in the world is
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that something is a favor if you that
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guy is in a position to get Milwaukee
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and and talk to moonbase alpha and find
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out if there's some way for you to get
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the stamp
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that's right and then you know he could
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he's probably empowered to do you a
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quiet favor that doesn't break the rule
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but he's he's absolutely not empowered
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because you know how it is like he just
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you just escalated with him
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the one thing that he is uniquely
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trained to deal with having been
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escalated
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yeah I turned to my car hit the
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precipitate turned to a crystal as soon
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as I applied sheet it's like it is it's
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a little bit like a cop or if you just
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seemed like a normal citizen you know if
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you seem like you've got a little bit of
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a buzz you might be able to work your
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way out of it but if you start not you
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but and probably hit some point but if
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you start screaming about how you know
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the district attorney you know you know
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you know Harvey Dent and you start
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yelling like that that is when the cop
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is going to flip in like the advisor is
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going to come down on the armor and
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that's it it now that we're in a
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different place though the funny thing
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is that i think it is rooted like the
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insecurity in me is rooted in a feeling
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that I that that there is this that
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there's little sline this this place
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always ahead of me always out of my
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where once i have accomplished enough
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once i am well known enough or acclaimed
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enough that i will be on the other side
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of this line
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and there will either be a helper there
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or things will be taken care of in
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advance or I will be recognized
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I will arrive and i will not have this
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problem but there are 32 to two things
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that I know about that one is well in
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this particular instance i'm standing
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out in front of this door arguing with
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this guy about my pass and standing four
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feet away are three former saturday
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night live cast members and two members
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of The Upright Citizens Brigade original
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cast all of whom also do not have the
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right pass and none of whom are and
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they're just standing there waiting for
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the next thing to happen like they also
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want to be through the door but they
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know their passes are wrong so they are
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and they're it's not like they're
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calling anybody there just waiting for
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somebody to go there waiting for the
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next thing to happen and they're they're
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talking to each other and their kind of
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watching me and in this moment i'm
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looking at them and say well yeah okay
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those people are like TV famous but this
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is my town and this is my god damn
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backstage door you know like i did not
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even recognize I I the fact that there
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were people from Saturday Night Live
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standing there also who could not get in
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the door meant nothing to me
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um and the reality is alec baldwin does
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this shit all the time
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Alec Baldwin who by all metrics has
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arrived is recognizable does have the
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money like it
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famous people all the time behave this
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way Mel Gibson and even celery entitled
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kind of don't you know who i am it's
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tough and Trump right when somebody asks
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them to put their ipad away on a phone
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or one some you know like when somebody
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says sir I think you've had an
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of red wine on this flight and they
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start throwing yogurt around the plane
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or the think there's some some friction
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introduced that they think that they
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feel is the not applicable to them it's
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like right at all more like friction for
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the rabble and I think what it would
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what that is evidence of is that
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somewhere inside Alec Baldwin there is
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this insecurity this feeling that he
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doesn't belong and that it is that it
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comes out in these miss this exact same
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expression which is just like what how
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dare you
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well it's i mean i-i I try to keep the
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show sophisticated but it's a it's you
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can't sit our lunch table that's what it
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is is that sets that feeling I mean I
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tell me I'm wrong but like that's
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exactly to me that's what the feeling is
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if i were to sit down and go through
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some Freudian analysis that's what it
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would end up at it would anything about
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some feeling of either like the sense of
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abandonment or when your little or a
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sense that that you know you thought
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that you thought that you were in but
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you weren't really in and then the pig's
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blood gets dumped on your head and and
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and so it with the clarity of a of not
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being on a not being on a a pasta roller
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coaster and I'm starting to kiss i'm
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starting to examine myself where I it in
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the sense that I the fog of war is
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starting to lift a little bit and I am I
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still feel just as a sailed i still feel
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that I still feel like westmoreland but
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I'm starting to also see that I am I am
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I mean I've always known that I was
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ridiculous but i'm starting to see how
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simple the ridiculousness is and that
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and that ultimately it's like am out an
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awful what an awful feeling but I mean
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it's a focal length problem where you're
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like oh my god that is the most
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incredible diorama train set I've ever
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seen and then it's like oh no it's a bet
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i'm sorry that's a nap
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billions is a picture out my hotel
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window of a street you're like oh fuck
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it's just but but actually like that
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since anybody's village
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yeah check that mean that's a relief in
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some ways because because reality is
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restored a little bit like a second ago
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you were amazed but you were amazed and
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and also it was a little scary that that
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someone would have that there are people
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out there so crazy and talented to have
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made a diorama of your city that looks
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so good and then you're like oh it's
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just a trick and I'm starting to
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starting to peel peel away some of the
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mind tricks I've been playing on myself
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and like but I but honestly I don't know
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what to do i am at war with so many of
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my friends and and honestly when I have
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to say when you and I started doing this
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podcast I was like oh my god I am so
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looking forward to this but it's
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probably gonna last a month because
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Merlin and i are going to get into a
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oh and then what will you know it wasn't
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it's not the craziest i-35 ever know but
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like that but you and I are both
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mercurial this was it this was an inner
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material here mercurial
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well this is the thing where we were
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going to surrounding town what the fuck
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you talking about
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I know and one of the you know and i
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think it's to our credit that we you
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know we have never let money intrude on
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the castle of st. John if we if we
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didn't do this we were yelling at chess
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pieces all the it's actually true but
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like so many of my of my close friends
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right now I'm like uh I he's against me
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and say why is he against you
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well because you didn't answer my texts
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well what did your text say well it said
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fuck off
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why would he answer it oh well he shows
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he should know what that means he should
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know that fuck off means high utilize
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your left but nature is coming
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no crazy crazy crazy crazy
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oh man this is so much as just get real
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man yeah so i think that you know i'm
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going to spend on the hob goodness it's
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basically the healing power of bacon
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I feel like I feel like a like I should
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go stand on the sidewalk in front of dan
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Benjamin's house in a white robe I think
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that would I think that would really
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freak him out
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chant his name i think it would be quick
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not doing they're saying dan and you
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said something in a video while you set
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it on stage while you're being videotape
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somebody asked you about a great line
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for picking up nerdy girls or something
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and he said something along the lines of
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I i haven't I i haven't i still havent
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assume my ultimate form right now is
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that from the Chicken McNugget video
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everybody got that no that's a that's a
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pokemon right
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have you seen that you can begin video
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no um can I spoil it for a little bit
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yeah like a security tape video is this
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got to be fake but i think my appeal a
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woman close to a woman goes to the
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drive-thru window at mcdonalds and it
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begins with her screaming at it at the
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person i think this is jermaine
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screaming at the person inside the
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sliding window about why the fuck they
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don't have chicken mcnuggets it he said
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they go ma'am is 1030am we don't have
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chicken mcnuggets right now and she she
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disagrees and says that they do have
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chicken mcnuggets she gets out she
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starts hitting the person she gets out
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of her car starts hitting the person
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screaming obscenities and saying all
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kinds of like crazy like lord of the
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rings shit are you know what she's
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talking about what she says don't make
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me assume my ultimate form
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uh-oh and then she breaks the window and
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you know hilarity ensues
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yeah yeah well that's it that's the same
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reference pokemon well or if not pokemon
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minutes like goku oh yeah that's where
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for lots of guys come on Lady a separate
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soccer now separate cause when you stick
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your sword in and twist it around like i
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said i don't think you have hentai haha
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weights i think that that's that when
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you type a schoolgirl no hentai is when
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a chicken chicken with the next next
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