Roderick on the Line

◼   ► Roderick on the line is unabashedly [TS]

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◼   ► i'm ron has a gun mmm do good you caught [TS]

◼   ► me in the middle of a peanut butter [TS]

◼   ► sandwich did I caught you [TS]

◼   ► yeah i mean i was sitting here expecting [TS]

◼   ► your call but I thought in the meantime [TS]

◼   ► I would have a peanut butter sandwich [TS]

◼   ► food [TS]

◼   ► kind of but you get for something like [TS]

◼   ► that all people are sandwich button they [TS]

◼   ► were one of those elephants expands my [TS]

◼   ► research [TS]

◼   ► oh you you know music is still to get [TS]

◼   ► thai pretty sweet [TS]

◼   ► okay um you know years of making music [TS]

◼   ► records I've learned that I think they [TS]

◼   ► call the call music music records i [TS]

◼   ► learned to think of vocals as a kind of [TS]

◼   ► like a digital graph you know what I [TS]

◼   ► mean like you you see the you see the [TS]

◼   ► the the visual of a of the waveform of a [TS]

◼   ► radical instrument and so my first my [TS]

◼   ► first thought is is there is there a [TS]

◼   ► filter we could put on that would just [TS]

◼   ► take out all the smacking and the food [TS]

◼   ► sounds that's not so really it's a very [TS]

◼   ► very good question is certainly [TS]

◼   ► something that I thought about you know [TS]

◼   ► as you know as somebody who's made lots [TS]

◼   ► of music records you know that there are [TS]

◼   ► various sorts of things I believe they [TS]

◼   ► call the filters with letters that will [TS]

◼   ► filter is I think the music filters the [TS]

◼   ► colors filters that intelligently go out [TS]

◼   ► and find certain kinds of things you [TS]

◼   ► know you pick if you get the home you [TS]

◼   ► can pick one area getting rid of home [TS]

◼   ► safe take out this this is a list of [TS]

◼   ► music frequency you get rid of hiss hiss [TS]

◼   ► exactly what can you get rid of the [TS]

◼   ► peanut butter and the streetcar meet up [TS]

◼   ► in the streetcar or the great Aesop's [TS]

◼   ► fables now won one of the things I need [TS]

◼   ► to say right before we start our is that [TS]

◼   ► a yeah last night i was eating I i was [TS]

◼   ► eating some food [TS]

◼   ► and-and-and might die broke my tooth off [TS]

◼   ► like I wasn't gonna I was gonna I was [TS]

◼   ► gonna write it off the peanut butter and [TS]

◼   ► then I was gonna ask if you had your we [TS]

◼   ► had your your the Dodgers all done right [TS]

◼   ► you said you're done with that [TS]

◼   ► yeah but now I know I'm missing my tooth [TS]

◼   ► again that one tooth the one tooth the [TS]

◼   ► big one no no no the one my achilles [TS]

◼   ► tooth [TS]

◼   ► I'm so sorry John is that must feel [TS]

◼   ► weird to have that back but my back I [TS]

◼   ► mean not not their backpack being up [TS]

◼   ► there it's a it's not that weird that [TS]

◼   ► he's running my tongue over all the time [TS]

◼   ► yeah i'm doing that but I did that I did [TS]

◼   ► that when I had a fake tooth in there [TS]

◼   ► anyway I'm noticing i'm noticing i don't [TS]

◼   ► have the plosives power that I normally [TS]

◼   ► have 1i when I say words that start with [TS]

◼   ► l like fake tooth you hear hear the it's [TS]

◼   ► like a lost I lost some of my father [TS]

◼   ► power right answer for you but we should [TS]

◼   ► we should do maybe we should try to [TS]

◼   ► avoid words start with that letter M or [TS]

◼   ► you know what you're John water your [TS]

◼   ► fucking John roddick you should drive [TS]

◼   ► that train right into the right into the [TS]

◼   ► tunnel we just really hit the ass hard [TS]

◼   ► right yeah you know what your own God of [TS]

◼   ► trying to use as many f words we can now [TS]

◼   ► I I think I i think i've asked you about [TS]

◼   ► this but it's worth sharing with our [TS]

◼   ► audience and curious now for those who [TS]

◼   ► don't know John John you have that [TS]

◼   ► memory serves it's like a whole like [TS]

◼   ► diagonal it looks like somebody cut a [TS]

◼   ► peanut-butter-and-jelly sandwich in half [TS]

◼   ► diagonally accepted your tooth right [TS]

◼   ► you've got a whole that kind of half a [TS]

◼   ► tooth missing right [TS]

◼   ► no no I have an entire tooth missing in [TS]

◼   ► fact missing all the way oh that's right [TS]

◼   ► yeah it look at hobo costume it's it's [TS]

◼   ► like it's the bits may be the best hobo [TS]

◼   ► costume the world has ever known in fact [TS]

◼   ► I've definitely thought about going down [TS]

◼   ► to hollywood in this state and little [TS]

◼   ► bit on the nose but hey listen you need [TS]

◼   ► do you need to cast someone who looks [TS]

◼   ► like he's not thriving right now haha [TS]

◼   ► I am that actor yeah I really that's so [TS]

◼   ► easy for me it's kind of a running joke [TS]

◼   ► with a lot of my friends that I you know [TS]

◼   ► look homeless [TS]

◼   ► which is you know like i have a home and [TS]

◼   ► I was seriously just come back to this I [TS]

◼   ► want us to have a starting a lot more [TS]

◼   ► nuanced letting that term is abused em [TS]

◼   ► and yeah yeah well i think you're right [TS]

◼   ► i think know it's a huge a friend's I [TS]

◼   ► like to come on right that I'm gonna [TS]

◼   ► capture that here that were going to [TS]

◼   ► come back to hobos bombs all those let's [TS]

◼   ► let's shoot for nuance I'm gonna but [TS]

◼   ► while you're writing a nice that the [TS]

◼   ► same can go right ahead was hurt doesn't [TS]

◼   ► hurt does it hurt is exposed nerve or [TS]

◼   ► don't hurt no there's no truth there now [TS]

◼   ► to think so just nerve yeah nothing [TS]

◼   ► their mother hobos bombs homeless and [TS]

◼   ► Street rats ok I'm now about typical [TS]

◼   ► street rat is they're gonna leave one of [TS]

◼   ► their ideas you sure this is a good time [TS]

◼   ► while you were talking you were you [TS]

◼   ► running a card so I thought maybe I'd [TS]

◼   ► have a I another bite of the sandwich [TS]

◼   ► oh man are you gonna hear it this week [TS]

◼   ► now you lost that is quite a while ago [TS]

◼   ► you know they call it a crown is that [TS]

◼   ► what they call it to put in there what [TS]

◼   ► they call the thing they put our bridge [TS]

◼   ► what do you have [TS]

◼   ► what is it you haven't lost a tooth am I [TS]

◼   ► not [TS]

◼   ► am I not told you this whole just bring [TS]

◼   ► story is the story that I think it is [TS]

◼   ► that I've been wanting to hear for a [TS]

◼   ► long time [TS]

◼   ► good it could be yeah well I'd like to [TS]

◼   ► hear that screaming write that down and [TS]

◼   ► write down that one story my question to [TS]

◼   ► you is this and and I i don't know i'm [TS]

◼   ► sure most of our listeners at this point [TS]

◼   ► like me like I like myself most opposed [TS]

◼   ► to our most listeners to like you more [TS]

◼   ► thank you very much thank you i don't i [TS]

◼   ► want you to know that and I want you to [TS]

◼   ► do either way of quantifying that [TS]

◼   ► something is that just a gut feeling I [TS]

◼   ► feel like the number of tweets that I [TS]

◼   ► read that say i love merlin man who is a [TS]

◼   ► good indicator of how many people out [TS]

◼   ► there in the world love merlin I think [TS]

◼   ► we're on a different twitter haha shit [TS]

◼   ► we should double check i think a lot of [TS]

◼   ► your fans send me their appreciative [TS]

◼   ► tweets that is so nice [TS]

◼   ► only got like we don't want to blow [TS]

◼   ► Merlin's mind we have no we don't wanna [TS]

◼   ► bug and we know he's busy but [TS]

◼   ► once again why don't we send John [TS]

◼   ► Roderick some nice Merlin beamed a [TS]

◼   ► bittersweet for you John [TS]

◼   ► on the one hand yeah you know we're pals [TS]

◼   ► i like to think and you look out for me [TS]

◼   ► and my welfare you're happy to see me [TS]

◼   ► doing well and are probably a little bit [TS]

◼   ► sad when I'm sad but there must be a [TS]

◼   ► little bit galling because you probably [TS]

◼   ► know it's you know you should be having [TS]

◼   ► to carry my mail so no I might my [TS]

◼   ► theoretical fan mail you got you you [TS]

◼   ► should be the one receiving compliments [TS]

◼   ► you doing is helping people it doesn't [TS]

◼   ► it doesn't bother me at all in fact that [TS]

◼   ► calling at all in fact i enjoyed because [TS]

◼   ► I I'm my inboxes is so crowded with fan [TS]

◼   ► mail directed to me that's a good point [TS]

◼   ► it's nice to see fanmail directed to [TS]

◼   ► someone else every once in a while just [TS]

◼   ► to just to realize that there are other [TS]

◼   ► people in the world [TS]

◼   ► easy you've taken a variable broadview [TS]

◼   ► to this and i just i'm very grateful for [TS]

◼   ► that so here's the thing i like me and [TS]

◼   ► people who love me I think the world has [TS]

◼   ► finally I i'm gonna guess you never [TS]

◼   ► expected this i'm going to guess that [TS]

◼   ► you never expected how many people that [TS]

◼   ► should have known about your band along [TS]

◼   ► winners a long time ago [TS]

◼   ► it's turns out surprising to learn how [TS]

◼   ► many people had not heard of the band or [TS]

◼   ► had not associated you with the band or [TS]

◼   ► that one song they heard in that one [TS]

◼   ► place and I don't know if you see this [TS]

◼   ► on the Twitter that i get i see a lot of [TS]

◼   ► people definitely means interacting with [TS]

◼   ► people is that is it a lot of people now [TS]

◼   ► are like they go out there like oh gosh [TS]

◼   ► John has been helping me and terrifying [TS]

◼   ► me with his train and now i just went on [TS]

◼   ► itunes and I bought every long winters [TS]

◼   ► album and I can't stop listening to them [TS]

◼   ► so yeah that's lovely [TS]

◼   ► it is lovely it is lovely and now that [TS]

◼   ► we're done congratulate yourselves my [TS]

◼   ► point being I think the people who are [TS]

◼   ► new to the John Roderick scene they may [TS]

◼   ► not realize that for a surprisingly long [TS]

◼   ► time I you look horrifying not know in a [TS]

◼   ► good way like you had the one that [TS]

◼   ► picture of you and my daughter that I [TS]

◼   ► treasurer of the several that i have is [TS]

◼   ► you really looking like it's something [TS]

◼   ► like Memphis Yeti em you gotta get [TS]

◼   ► creepy Elvis glasses you have like when [TS]

◼   ► I say dishwater blonde I mean maybe like [TS]

◼   ► hydrogen peroxide and literal dishwater [TS]

◼   ► to your shoulders is memory serves creek [TS]

◼   ► and just be clear you got super creepy [TS]

◼   ► smoky glasses molestie and then you're [TS]

◼   ► missing a tooth [TS]

◼   ► yeah and you know here's the thing you [TS]

◼   ► rock that look not for a week or a month [TS]

◼   ► you didn't you didn't go buy some kind [TS]

◼   ► of pie [TS]

◼   ► get the fucking walgreens you write a [TS]

◼   ► fucking giant ass you you were Santa [TS]

◼   ► with a missing tooth memory serves [TS]

◼   ► yeah for several years because I felt I [TS]

◼   ► felt like here's the thing [TS]

◼   ► who there are a lot of there are a lot [TS]

◼   ► of cosmetic improvements that one can [TS]

◼   ► make to one cell to mask the the inner [TS]

◼   ► critic esker that the inner inner [TS]

◼   ► testiness and in my case I i arrived at [TS]

◼   ► a point where there just was there was [TS]

◼   ► not enough spackle on the earth to [TS]

◼   ► smooth out the cracks in me and I just [TS]

◼   ► thought i would let it roll [TS]

◼   ► I just like that you know for many many [TS]

◼   ► years during the grunge years when I was [TS]

◼   ► when I was a terrible person and and on [TS]

◼   ► drugs and doing a doing it but like 11 [TS]

◼   ► mm charitable no no I was never on [TS]

◼   ► charitable but but i but i don't but i [TS]

◼   ► just was not I was not a living the life [TS]

◼   ► that you could they that that you could [TS]

◼   ► see you could she could show to st. [TS]

◼   ► Peter let's say I was not I was not [TS]

◼   ► living a lie i was living a life that [TS]

◼   ► will be able to get forward to that guy [TS]

◼   ► open up the book and put your glasses [TS]

◼   ► can make said here we go let's take a [TS]

◼   ► look at this [TS]

◼   ► I was going to I was going to be I was [TS]

◼   ► gonna bash wall i was gonna be touching [TS]

◼   ► my toes together and staring at the [TS]

◼   ► floor is not only that you're gonna [TS]

◼   ► definitely going to help it was going to [TS]

◼   ► take a really fucking long time you sit [TS]

◼   ► there and listen to that they were going [TS]

◼   ► to talk about a lot of stuff and I was [TS]

◼   ► going to go [TS]

◼   ► oh yeah that got about the yeah yeah [TS]

◼   ► yeahs no no I mean yes but come on give [TS]

◼   ► it a nine ease the guy some slack but [TS]

◼   ► during that entire time i looked like a [TS]

◼   ► cop you know like I was as I was a [TS]

◼   ► straight looking as a guy could be i had [TS]

◼   ► short hair i was i was fresh-faced I had [TS]

◼   ► you know I blue eyes that they looked [TS]

◼   ► innocent i mean i would go to i would go [TS]

◼   ► to situations all the time where I would [TS]

◼   ► walk in the door and some guide dressed [TS]

◼   ► all in black sitting behind a table [TS]

◼   ► covered with drugs would stand up and [TS]

◼   ► yell at the guy who brought me what you [TS]

◼   ► your copier man and then have to stand [TS]

◼   ► there in the doorway while you know [TS]

◼   ► while everybody jumped out the windows [TS]

◼   ► and my friend was like no no man i know [TS]

◼   ► i'm i know he's cool he's cool [TS]

◼   ► I was like I was the I was the [TS]

◼   ► undercover cop that everybody can i call [TS]

◼   ► you mean he's still very filling in as [TS]

◼   ► your job gotten hotter than fresh [TS]

◼   ► pumpkin chili tired of kissing the wrong [TS]

◼   ► bird mired down by your managers fear of [TS]

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◼   ► diarrhea medicine it might be digitalis [TS]

◼   ► but you never know it might be a penny [TS]

◼   ► never know so many many years later when [TS]

◼   ► all of that behavior came home to roost [TS]

◼   ► which is to say that the that but the [TS]

◼   ► decisions I made during my youth when i [TS]

◼   ► felt that i was going to live forever [TS]

◼   ► and that nothing could ever hurt me all [TS]

◼   ► those things were saving up their [TS]

◼   ► consequences for right about the time I [TS]

◼   ► turned 40 and basically the day I turned [TS]

◼   ► 40 everything that was in me that was [TS]

◼   ► held together with with bailing wire and [TS]

◼   ► toothpaste it all broke it ones [TS]

◼   ► my tooth fell out and you know my knees [TS]

◼   ► gave out and my it was it was it was it [TS]

◼   ► was a catastrophe and now I'm living now [TS]

◼   ► I'm living in the post consequences [TS]

◼   ► world where I realized that everything [TS]

◼   ► you do in your youth just lights the [TS]

◼   ► fuse all the all the all the scars they [TS]

◼   ► just they just wait kind of dormant [TS]

◼   ► until they're there they're just comes [TS]

◼   ► that one moment where all your [TS]

◼   ► connective tissue stops working in here [TS]

◼   ► and you're just a spear of pile of bones [TS]

◼   ► just 34 years ago [TS]

◼   ► yeah yeah so so I i knocked out my front [TS]

◼   ► tooth half a dozen times but it finally [TS]

◼   ► had no there there there was it finally [TS]

◼   ► was so corrupted so it had been broken [TS]

◼   ► so many times that there was nothing [TS]

◼   ► left to cap and they had to just extract [TS]

◼   ► this this little bit of a route that was [TS]

◼   ► left and most people you see who are [TS]

◼   ► missing a tooth they there [TS]

◼   ► I tooth is gone because they were using [TS]

◼   ► it to they were using their tooth to [TS]

◼   ► check the veracity of a gold coin or [TS]

◼   ► something but you don't see a lot of [TS]

◼   ► people whose main front though the [TS]

◼   ► largest toothed in their in their face [TS]

◼   ► the most visible one their main front [TS]

◼   ► tooth is missing that is not a that's [TS]

◼   ► not a charming missing tooth that's much [TS]

◼   ► more of a like that you've been drinking [TS]

◼   ► hairspray kind of missing tooth [TS]

◼   ► Oh up so everybody ok it's a it's a poor [TS]

◼   ► judgment space [TS]

◼   ► yeah that's right that's what that's [TS]

◼   ► what's so interesting and you think for [TS]

◼   ► one fucking second you're getting away [TS]

◼   ► from this unit because this is really [TS]

◼   ► super interesting but it's this is going [TS]

◼   ► to sound strange but it's almost [TS]

◼   ► shockingly medieval in a way a feeling [TS]

◼   ► of going like oh my gosh there's all [TS]

◼   ► this shit inside of me and all of this [TS]

◼   ► fake connective tissue holding me [TS]

◼   ► together and believing brother I [TS]

◼   ► understand your arm [TS]

◼   ► there's all this inside of me but I can [TS]

◼   ► shave and i can put on a tie or i can do [TS]

◼   ► whatever i can become the shockingly [TS]

◼   ► normal-looking person is quivering and [TS]

◼   ► God yeah but then you lose your fucking [TS]

◼   ► front tooth and get us a medieval it's [TS]

◼   ► you know there's almost this idea of you [TS]

◼   ► know you think about a time even when [TS]

◼   ► the sixteen hundreds where you would try [TS]

◼   ► and make a lady flow to see if she was a [TS]

◼   ► witch or whatever their thirties there's [TS]

◼   ► this weird Theodoric of York feeling [TS]

◼   ► about like there was a time when you [TS]

◼   ► really thought that you could look at [TS]

◼   ► somebody and tell a lot about their [TS]

◼   ► morality you know juror phrenology I [TS]

◼   ► mean for knowledge Asher like they did [TS]

◼   ► it with a they got the plague and they [TS]

◼   ► didn't let if somebody was running their [TS]

◼   ► hands over my head trying to discern my [TS]

◼   ► character her it would be like running I [TS]

◼   ► mean running your hands through my hair [TS]

◼   ► is like running your hands over a model [TS]

◼   ► train set [TS]

◼   ► I mean there are so many crisscrossing [TS]

◼   ► scars up on my scalp and and various [TS]

◼   ► like you know place where I come from [TS]

◼   ► traumatic injury [TS]

◼   ► yeah no shit yeah let's talk about the [TS]

◼   ► time I got I got jumped by three guys [TS]

◼   ► with ax handles still think you that [TS]

◼   ► sounds like an Alaska story [TS]

◼   ► no no that happened in seattle now way [TS]

◼   ► but you know so when I shave my head but [TS]

◼   ► I look like you know I like george the [TS]

◼   ► animal' steele you got that whole puppy [TS]

◼   ► typography thing going on [TS]

◼   ► I do and you know other browsers used to [TS]

◼   ► cut themselves that's why there's this [TS]

◼   ► card they cut themselves the tiny bit of [TS]

◼   ► razor blade to get on that plane going [TS]

◼   ► to get the facebook on your life you do [TS]

◼   ► not if you cut your eyebrow just a [TS]

◼   ► little bit you know any head when you [TS]

◼   ► bleed a live normally doing this with [TS]

◼   ► residents believe you but the parties [TS]

◼   ► but you gotta have a distraction before [TS]

◼   ► you get to the pickles want to talk [TS]

◼   ► about how much was bleeding you do out [TS]

◼   ► of a head wind up your guy so you shaved [TS]

◼   ► your head [TS]

◼   ► no I don't shave my head I don't think [TS]

◼   ► about the accident ah okay so the axe [TS]

◼   ► but the accident you were jumped in when [TS]

◼   ► I hear the word jump [TS]

◼   ► I think of you were surprisingly [TS]

◼   ► attacked by three guys at one time and [TS]

◼   ► it's completely unfair fight [TS]

◼   ► yeah that's that's kind of a description [TS]

◼   ► of what happened I was I was I was [TS]

◼   ► heavily intoxicated and but I was [TS]

◼   ► intoxicated on a cocktail of intoxicants [TS]

◼   ► that made me [TS]

◼   ► very lucid while also being very [TS]

◼   ► intoxicated yet at that bar and and I [TS]

◼   ► was on the street and these guys these [TS]

◼   ► guys were I i think this was during the [TS]

◼   ► era of gay bashing [TS]

◼   ► uh-huh but this was a this was a thing [TS]

◼   ► that that people from the sticks would [TS]

◼   ► come into town and gay bash and so I [TS]

◼   ► don't know why these guys were so [TS]

◼   ► heavily armed but I was in all honesty I [TS]

◼   ► was standing on the street with a [TS]

◼   ► lighter lighting posters on a phone pole [TS]

◼   ► on fire and watching the posters bird [TS]

◼   ► and I wasn't are you enjoying a [TS]

◼   ► hallucinogen out you know that I'll get [TS]

◼   ► you I'll get to the bucket to that size [TS]

◼   ► but first first post attorney so i'm [TS]

◼   ► watching I'm just standing on this on [TS]

◼   ► this on the street watching a bit [TS]

◼   ► lighting posters on this phone poll on [TS]

◼   ► fire and and a couple of cops pull up [TS]

◼   ► and they say hey knock that off and and [TS]

◼   ► I was like oh yeah man hey hey [TS]

◼   ► why why why do pigs have to like step on [TS]

◼   ► my scene or whatever it is the least [TS]

◼   ► however we talked back then and the cops [TS]

◼   ► are like listen if you don't knock it [TS]

◼   ► off and then was it was a busy friday [TS]

◼   ► night they're like we got shit to do [TS]

◼   ► that you your your small potatoes but if [TS]

◼   ► you don't knock it off we're going to [TS]

◼   ► get out of the car and we're gonna we're [TS]

◼   ► gonna like I put handcuffs on you and I [TS]

◼   ► was like those sorry sorry I'm burning [TS]

◼   ► your phone pole cop and so I I've [TS]

◼   ► momentarily stopped in the cops drove [TS]

◼   ► away and then I immediately liked [TS]

◼   ► started doing this again i don't know [TS]

◼   ► why i was i was i was 22 years old [TS]

◼   ► there's no excuse for standing on the [TS]

◼   ► street corner this is the kind of petty [TS]

◼   ► a delinquency that a thirteen-year-old [TS]

◼   ► should have grown out of but here i am [TS]

◼   ► and i'm i'm on a variety of intoxicants [TS]

◼   ► and I'm I'm lighting [TS]

◼   ► the phone poll on fire because it was [TS]

◼   ► fascinating to me [TS]

◼   ► suffice to say so anyway I stand out [TS]

◼   ► there i am doing it a little bit longer [TS]

◼   ► and all of a sudden there's these three [TS]

◼   ► guys and they have their bats and [TS]

◼   ► they're like what are you doing man and [TS]

◼   ► I turn around I engage them in [TS]

◼   ► conversation like I'm just like in this [TS]

◼   ► phone poll on fire and they're like will [TS]

◼   ► fucking knock it off and that was a [TS]

◼   ► challenge that I felt I really needed [TS]

◼   ► just really needed to stand my ground [TS]

◼   ► because this was important work I was [TS]

◼   ► doing and who are these three guys to [TS]

◼   ► tell me to knock anything off so I was [TS]

◼   ► like you know why don't you knock off [TS]

◼   ► telling people what to do and I i [TS]

◼   ► noticed that they have bats I mean I am [TS]

◼   ► I'm acutely aware but I all but I also [TS]

◼   ► feel like I'm in command of the [TS]

◼   ► situation and they kind of circle around [TS]

◼   ► me you know in a triangular-shaped [TS]

◼   ► grouping and i'm in the center of it and [TS]

◼   ► I'm i feel like i have this matter quite [TS]

◼   ► in hand and I start to lecture them on [TS]

◼   ► how cities work and how phone poles are [TS]

◼   ► coated with creosote and so are [TS]

◼   ► inherently not flammable and at a [TS]

◼   ► certain point they are no longer [TS]

◼   ► interested and one of the guys that it [TS]

◼   ► has circled around while you're there [TS]

◼   ► just arguing argumentative Lee arguing [TS]

◼   ► with me because they already know what [TS]

◼   ► they're going to do and this was before [TS]

◼   ► I you this was before I had learned to [TS]

◼   ► protect my six and somebody gotta get [TS]

◼   ► around behind me and just took a massive [TS]

◼   ► swing like he was swinging for the [TS]

◼   ► outfield and hit me on the back of the [TS]

◼   ► head with a but the what turned out [TS]

◼   ► later be accidental [TS]

◼   ► God and then once i was down all three [TS]

◼   ► of them just stood over me and just just [TS]

◼   ► pounded on me like they were tenderizing [TS]

◼   ► them side of beef and at this point i [TS]

◼   ► was aware that i was in trouble so I was [TS]

◼   ► yelling and I was crawling to try and [TS]

◼   ► get under a car and they were just going [TS]

◼   ► to town on me and they broke both my [TS]

◼   ► hands [TS]

◼   ► Wow and they I mean often cop from top [TS]

◼   ► to bottom I was just I was just a black [TS]

◼   ► black and blue but but mostly black [TS]

◼   ► I crawled under this car and some girl [TS]

◼   ► up the street started screaming and [TS]

◼   ► eventually somebody nearby scream loud [TS]

◼   ► enough that these guys can it took one [TS]

◼   ► last walk each and ran off into the dark [TS]

◼   ► and so then the cops came back the cops [TS]

◼   ► who had yelled at me 10 minutes before i [TS]

◼   ► came back and the aid car came and I was [TS]

◼   ► kid I was laying there convinced that i [TS]

◼   ► was holding the holding the back of my [TS]

◼   ► skull on I haven't got my hands up and I [TS]

◼   ► was like you know I can't move my hands [TS]

◼   ► and the aid car guys were like you know [TS]

◼   ► you got a movie and we got to see what [TS]

◼   ► was going on I was like no I can't [TS]

◼   ► because if I do the back my it's going [TS]

◼   ► to fall off and make it card guys you [TS]

◼   ► know they were all shining lights in my [TS]

◼   ► face and they were like are you on any [TS]

◼   ► kind of drugs i was like no I just had a [TS]

◼   ► beer and you know they're looking at my [TS]

◼   ► pupils they're like mmm [TS]

◼   ► now we need to you need to tell us like [TS]

◼   ► what you're what drugs you're on and I'm [TS]

◼   ► like no I just have just had a beer but [TS]

◼   ► I can't move my hand because my my my [TS]

◼   ► head is is going to you know fall off or [TS]

◼   ► fall apart so they take me to the [TS]

◼   ► hospital and the doctor in the emergency [TS]

◼   ► room again kinda says listen we need to [TS]

◼   ► know what your on your ear obviously [TS]

◼   ► like on some drugs and we need to know [TS]

◼   ► what they are because we can't treat you [TS]

◼   ► you can't give you more drugs unless we [TS]

◼   ► know what drugs you're on we can't treat [TS]

◼   ► you unless we know what's going on and I [TS]

◼   ► had it in my head that if you told the [TS]

◼   ► doctor that you had taken some drugs [TS]

◼   ► that that would somehow I still like [TS]

◼   ► still added in my mind that my permanent [TS]

◼   ► record was something i need to be [TS]

◼   ► worried about you know like that i was [TS]

◼   ► going to that this was going to go down [TS]

◼   ► on my permanent record and I wasn't [TS]

◼   ► going to get into graduate schools i [TS]

◼   ► don't know what i thought my permanent [TS]

◼   ► record was but I had I had grown up [TS]

◼   ► being told that your transcript was this [TS]

◼   ► thing you need to worry about so much [TS]

◼   ► and I didn't want to tell some doctor in [TS]

◼   ► the emergency room [TS]

◼   ► what drugs that was on because he was [TS]

◼   ► going to write it down on a piece of [TS]

◼   ► paper and then it was then the then I [TS]

◼   ► love the CIA was never going to let me [TS]

◼   ► be the president of the united states [TS]

◼   ► and so I kept insisting that no I'd only [TS]

◼   ► had a couple of beers and so the doctor [TS]

◼   ► goes okay you know what kid that's fine [TS]

◼   ► and he turns to the nurse next to him [TS]

◼   ► and he said don't get many anesthesia [TS]

◼   ► and so they proceeded to sew up my head [TS]

◼   ► and my hands which were you know they [TS]

◼   ► were they were broken but they were also [TS]

◼   ► like I i think i showed you a scar on my [TS]

◼   ► finger one time where one of that one of [TS]

◼   ► the bats hit my finger as it was trying [TS]

◼   ► to protect my head and the finger meats [TS]

◼   ► like squirted out the other side so they [TS]

◼   ► had to push all that finger me back [TS]

◼   ► inside and sew it up and they they just [TS]

◼   ► did it they did it all without even [TS]

◼   ► giving me a topical anesthesia so I was [TS]

◼   ► thinking they're being sewed like a like [TS]

◼   ► a like a rag doll like three different [TS]

◼   ► people running thread through me a time [TS]

◼   ► and then they rolled me out on a [TS]

◼   ► blood-soaked gurney into the hallway of [TS]

◼   ► Harborview emergency room was its harbor [TS]

◼   ► view is like the the one level for [TS]

◼   ► trauma center in the northwest but it's [TS]

◼   ► also one of [TS]

◼   ► hospitals where you will roll down to a [TS]

◼   ► halt and they'll be just kind of one [TS]

◼   ► lightbulb flickering above you like [TS]

◼   ► flickering and sometimes it goes out and [TS]

◼   ► then the power comes back on and the and [TS]

◼   ► the hallways are just on friday and [TS]

◼   ► saturday night [TS]

◼   ► they're just full of people like [TS]

◼   ► motorcycle wreck gunshot wound [TS]

◼   ► motorcycle wreck gunshot wound and so [TS]

◼   ► they roll me out into this hallway and [TS]

◼   ► they just let me sit there as the as the [TS]

◼   ► blood on my gurney coagulates while [TS]

◼   ► while people who are really in trouble [TS]

◼   ► are wheeled past me screaming and I was [TS]

◼   ► on hallucinogens among other things and [TS]

◼   ► so it wasn't your trippin while they [TS]

◼   ► were selling up your head without [TS]

◼   ► anesthesia [TS]

◼   ► yeah there was a really it was a hell of [TS]

◼   ► a night [TS]

◼   ► um I really like it [TS]

◼   ► I learned a lot that night about about [TS]

◼   ► everything about everything [TS]

◼   ► certainly about mortality ok but a but [TS]

◼   ► yeah so that was that that was [TS]

◼   ► definitely that was definitely when I [TS]

◼   ► started checking my six if you notice i [TS]

◼   ► mean checking your sixes like it's [TS]

◼   ► fighter pilot terminology that means [TS]

◼   ► look behind you like a twelve o'clock is [TS]

◼   ► straight ahead and sixes visit hundred [TS]

◼   ► eighty degrees behind you right [TS]

◼   ► check your six so yeah my check my six [TS]

◼   ► now and so should you [TS]

◼   ► Merlin was thinking about it and [TS]

◼   ► thinking about my sex right now it [TS]

◼   ► should yeah right about that I tried to [TS]

◼   ► think too much about my sex better [TS]

◼   ► that's probably a a terrific reason to [TS]

◼   ► check it yeah well you don't want to you [TS]

◼   ► don't want to get to a to a position [TS]

◼   ► where you're here now forced to check [TS]

◼   ► your six together double-dog CWI's kind [TS]

◼   ► of six the devil dogs are on your six [TS]

◼   ► and until you're checking your sex [TS]

◼   ► because you know that they're okay and [TS]

◼   ► then they are mice they aren't my six [TS]

◼   ► per se it's a notional concept right [TS]

◼   ► there hanging hanging by the six there [TS]

◼   ► on your six yeah yeah [TS]

◼   ► and so when you're when you're looking [TS]

◼   ► over your shoulder I mean that's why [TS]

◼   ► when I sit in a restaurant when I go [TS]

◼   ► into a restaurant I always liked pick my [TS]

◼   ► seat [TS]

◼   ► rather judiciously who did you get the [TS]

◼   ► only time Malcolm X this is the only [TS]

◼   ► city where you can see the door [TS]

◼   ► that's right you want to see where you [TS]

◼   ► can see the door but also sit where like [TS]

◼   ► you're not going to get it nobody's [TS]

◼   ► going to surprise you on your six [TS]

◼   ► uh-huh I mean you're there can be people [TS]

◼   ► behind me I just wanna I just wanna know [TS]

◼   ► who they are just like the bulleted the [TS]

◼   ► booth is nice i like take a bank at [TS]

◼   ► every chair challenge that said that's [TS]

◼   ► that's terrific and i'm not even that's [TS]

◼   ► not even how I lost my to my tooth yeah [TS]

◼   ► but it's still still got a couple more [TS]

◼   ► trips before thanks [TS]

◼   ► settle down until until about what point [TS]

◼   ► where things like that happening about [TS]

◼   ► what era year uh 1994 was the last time [TS]

◼   ► I was going but I was about to say 1994 [TS]

◼   ► was the last time i went to jail but [TS]

◼   ► there were a couple of there were couple [TS]

◼   ► of things that hung out a couple of [TS]

◼   ► couple of bench warrants that were still [TS]

◼   ► periodically active into 1995 so so so I [TS]

◼   ► so I went to jail I went to jail on [TS]

◼   ► things that happened before 1994 a [TS]

◼   ► couple of times when I like because it [TS]

◼   ► took me it took me a year to get it took [TS]

◼   ► me a couple years to get a fully [TS]

◼   ► functioning set of credentials like your [TS]

◼   ► normal ID and stuff that would end to [TS]

◼   ► have all that stuff cleared so that [TS]

◼   ► every time I got stopped by a cop he [TS]

◼   ► didn't go [TS]

◼   ► oh hello and pulled me out of the car [TS]

◼   ► and take me downtown [TS]

◼   ► there was one time they they actually [TS]

◼   ► pulled one of those they pulled one of [TS]

◼   ► those this is the this is the thing that [TS]

◼   ► they're doing in cities now where they [TS]

◼   ► said that he send letters out to [TS]

◼   ► everybody that has an outstanding [TS]

◼   ► warrant [TS]

◼   ► it's like you want a thousand dollars [TS]

◼   ► that that's from the simpsons that's not [TS]

◼   ► real [TS]

◼   ► no really happy and kind of take out [TS]

◼   ► your free ballot this area and then [TS]

◼   ► everybody comes down there like you're [TS]

◼   ► arrested you're arrested your that's did [TS]

◼   ► like it they totally actually totally do [TS]

◼   ► that and may they they got me it was a [TS]

◼   ► legitimate it wasn't a scam it was a [TS]

◼   ► legitimate thing where I went into the [TS]

◼   ► to the comptroller's office trying to [TS]

◼   ► get four hundred dollars that somebody [TS]

◼   ► had one time a guy we were i was driving [TS]

◼   ► a car with a guy one time over in [TS]

◼   ► bellevue and he was an african-american [TS]

◼   ► gentleman and we see and i would have [TS]

◼   ► gone over there to go to the movies [TS]

◼   ► because they had a good movie theater [TS]

◼   ► and we were driving back through you [TS]

◼   ► know at night through bellevue and we [TS]

◼   ► got pulled over and we weren't doing [TS]

◼   ► anything [TS]

◼   ► it was a case where the my friend was [TS]

◼   ► convinced as it was happening that it [TS]

◼   ► was a case of them pulling us over [TS]

◼   ► because he was black and I was white and [TS]

◼   ► we were driving in a car right now I [TS]

◼   ► can't be up there obviously up to no [TS]

◼   ► good [TS]

◼   ► something something isn't right [TS]

◼   ► something's not Dutch with this so the [TS]

◼   ► bellevue cops pulled us over and I was [TS]

◼   ► like what that's crazy and he's like no [TS]

◼   ► I swear that's what's happening right [TS]

◼   ► now like oh my god [TS]

◼   ► and so the cop comes over and he's he's [TS]

◼   ► very condescending to the driver my [TS]

◼   ► friend but everything checks out and [TS]

◼   ► then the cop asks for my ID at which [TS]

◼   ► point he finds that there's a warrant [TS]

◼   ► for my arrest and so he varies very [TS]

◼   ► happy about this because to the [TS]

◼   ► policeman it seems like a very ironic [TS]

◼   ► situation but the white guy is going to [TS]

◼   ► be the one that he's going to have to [TS]

◼   ► arrest and he's he's indicating this to [TS]

◼   ► us like he's he thinks this is hilarious [TS]

◼   ► i look at this is a little bit racist oh [TS]

◼   ► Henry moment yeah exactly like this [TS]

◼   ► that's the one kid that i'm going to [TS]

◼   ► arrest what do you know and you know and [TS]

◼   ► we're both like new [TS]

◼   ► that's that's hilarious the Conte and I [TS]

◼   ► and I'm and and I'm I'm glad that I get [TS]

◼   ► to go to jail tonight to make two you [TS]

◼   ► know to make this a story that you're [TS]

◼   ► going to tell this weekend at the bar [TS]

◼   ► and so I go to jail and my friend his [TS]

◼   ► name was Howard I said to him as they're [TS]

◼   ► putting as the cops put him in his car I [TS]

◼   ► say yeah here's my ATM card [TS]

◼   ► go get the bail money which is four [TS]

◼   ► hundred dollars [TS]

◼   ► and so Howard goes and gets the bail [TS]

◼   ► money but of course Howard and not [TS]

◼   ► having been through this before [TS]

◼   ► bails me out under his name rather than [TS]

◼   ► because it was my money bailing me out [TS]

◼   ► under under my name where or stimulating [TS]

◼   ► the best so he's the one responsible for [TS]

◼   ► the recognizance or the well I mean this [TS]

◼   ► isn't his so bail is a certain amount of [TS]

◼   ► money in as an insurance that you will [TS]

◼   ► show up for court is the idea right [TS]

◼   ► right and no he's not responsible for me [TS]

◼   ► but if but they assume if he put 400 [TS]

◼   ► bucks up it's his money he's going to [TS]

◼   ► make himself responsible in this case it [TS]

◼   ► was my money I showed up for my court [TS]

◼   ► date and so now I wanted my bail [TS]

◼   ► refunded and they said oh that's not [TS]

◼   ► your bail that towered that's Howard's [TS]

◼   ► money and only howard can come get the [TS]

◼   ► money [TS]

◼   ► well suffice to say how it was kind of a [TS]

◼   ► preppy guy and this experience of me [TS]

◼   ► getting arrested in his car kind of [TS]

◼   ► soured hour but not nuts our friendship [TS]

◼   ► but it soured his interest in going with [TS]

◼   ► me to anymore [TS]

◼   ► police stations or city courts or [TS]

◼   ► anything like that and so Howard kept [TS]

◼   ► dodging my phone call and you know and [TS]

◼   ► like oh yeah totally i'll help you that [TS]

◼   ► many would then add many disappear and I [TS]

◼   ► wouldn't hear from howard for a long [TS]

◼   ► time the missiles at a time when $400 [TS]

◼   ► met quite a bit meant a lot to me anyway [TS]

◼   ► I went down to the court one time to [TS]

◼   ► explain to them at great length that was [TS]

◼   ► my money not Howard's they were they [TS]

◼   ► were not interested in my story and also [TS]

◼   ► while i was there they discovered [TS]

◼   ► another war by God but the woman behind [TS]

◼   ► the counter who discovered this did not [TS]

◼   ► she was not empowered to arrest me she [TS]

◼   ► can't hit a button in some martial comes [TS]

◼   ► out or something so what she did she [TS]

◼   ► said oh here's what you need to do you [TS]

◼   ► need to go across the street [TS]

◼   ► two and Tamia card with an address on it [TS]

◼   ► she said you need to go across the [TS]

◼   ► street to this place and they'll refund [TS]

◼   ► your money and i was like wow awesome i [TS]

◼   ► like it finally worked i i i finally I [TS]

◼   ► finally met someone at the at the police [TS]

◼   ► department who understands and who cares [TS]

◼   ► about me and I was gonna fill out a [TS]

◼   ► comment card on that now I thanked her [TS]

◼   ► profusely I was like ma'am thank you for [TS]

◼   ► resolving this issue [TS]

◼   ► this has been an albatross has been [TS]

◼   ► hanging over my head for for many months [TS]

◼   ► i really appreciate your help and she [TS]

◼   ► was like my pleasure and I will i took [TS]

◼   ► the card I walked out of the door the [TS]

◼   ► courthouse i walked up the street two [TS]

◼   ► blocks across the street to a storefront [TS]

◼   ► that was like kind of a had frosted [TS]

◼   ► glass windows and I was like go [TS]

◼   ► this must be the city accountants office [TS]

◼   ► or something and I walked in the door [TS]

◼   ► and it's like the set of barney miller [TS]

◼   ► know there are there is a room with [TS]

◼   ► desks and a bunch of guys with pistols [TS]

◼   ► and and like shoulder holsters with [TS]

◼   ► their jackets off sitting on the desks [TS]

◼   ► drinking coffee smoking cigarettes and [TS]

◼   ► chatting with the extension casting it [TS]

◼   ► really was and I walked in the door and [TS]

◼   ► I was like oh and may have everybody in [TS]

◼   ► the room turns and looks at me and goes [TS]

◼   ► hey come on in buddy how's it going to [TS]

◼   ► see you like this is not the first time [TS]

◼   ► that somebody's somebody was a young man [TS]

◼   ► has wandered in [TS]

◼   ► obviously not knowing what he's there [TS]

◼   ► and this is this has happened before [TS]

◼   ► Janice's done this before [TS]

◼   ► yeah every single person that walks in [TS]

◼   ► that door is a is about to be arrested [TS]

◼   ► and they didn't know it [TS]

◼   ► this is the this is the gag and I'm sure [TS]

◼   ► these guys all the time have to have to [TS]

◼   ► sprint down the street after somebody [TS]

◼   ► returns around the doorway and runs and [TS]

◼   ► then I said then they sit down in a [TS]

◼   ► chair I'm like oh man god what a writ [TS]

◼   ► water rep and they're like good to see [TS]

◼   ► you hey we got a computer printout here [TS]

◼   ► that says bloody bloody blah so anyway [TS]

◼   ► that's it was a it was a real was a real [TS]

◼   ► prank you ever get your money back [TS]

◼   ► never did [TS]

◼   ► it's one of those things where I Howard [TS]

◼   ► is going to get a letter someday the 15 [TS]

◼   ► years from now that says we have [TS]

◼   ► undiscovered moneys for you and he's [TS]

◼   ► gonna be like what could this possibly [TS]

◼   ► be and he's not gonna remember and I [TS]

◼   ► have not spoken to her in years that [TS]

◼   ► four hundred dollars just that's i have [TS]

◼   ► just decided that that is four hundred [TS]

◼   ► dollars i'm never i'm not going to [TS]

◼   ► pursue I just wanted to go out into the [TS]

◼   ► world and pay for some pay retribution [TS]

◼   ► in some way for some crime I committed [TS]

◼   ► against the city the people of the city [TS]

◼   ► yeah like Ben Franklin says you know [TS]

◼   ► it's a child every day if it that you [TS]

◼   ► don't know what it's for they will I'm [TS]

◼   ► sure you can find a good use for this [TS]

◼   ► country you could recreate so this this [TS]

◼   ► phone call if nothing else it's to pay [TS]

◼   ► for all the parking meters that I didn't [TS]

◼   ► put quarters in when I just ran into a [TS]

◼   ► drugstore whatever he's down he's got [TS]

◼   ► some interesting threads to this um I [TS]

◼   ► hope it's interesting i think it's super [TS]

◼   ► interesting people are gonna be [TS]

◼   ► terrified by this but the you know that [TS]

◼   ► thing of you you talking about your [TS]

◼   ► morning on your permanent record which I [TS]

◼   ► by on one level but there's also just a [TS]

◼   ► sense of like you know not the invasion [TS]

◼   ► is the wrong word but there's the sense [TS]

◼   ► of like I'm running and I'm still [TS]

◼   ► running and like well of course I'm not [TS]

◼   ► gonna tell them i'm trippin like I'm not [TS]

◼   ► fucking stupid i may be high but I'm not [TS]

◼   ► high you know about that but the [TS]

◼   ► permanent record thing has had a had a [TS]

◼   ► more profound effect on me then then [TS]

◼   ► that might be obvious really close to [TS]

◼   ► say though is like a cubic we do the [TS]

◼   ► same thing as the four hundred dollars [TS]

◼   ► there's times when a roll of quarters [TS]

◼   ► makes all the difference i mean big time [TS]

◼   ► you know i mean its end and so I mean [TS]

◼   ► but there's this this ongoing threat of [TS]

◼   ► like again you're your body's like all [TS]

◼   ► mostly held together you're walking [TS]

◼   ► around you're kind of keeping it [TS]

◼   ► together on some level you're not like [TS]

◼   ► you know change in a dungeon somewhere [TS]

◼   ► but like yeah you're out and about but [TS]

◼   ► at the same time like you're on the edge [TS]

◼   ► and you're going to be always looking [TS]

◼   ► for that tiny little adjustment he keeps [TS]

◼   ► you free and moving and you know drunk [TS]

◼   ► or whatever right over the thing that's [TS]

◼   ► going to the other way and that's [TS]

◼   ► absolutely true but because i have it [TS]

◼   ► was a habit [TS]

◼   ► there was a simultaneous narrative going [TS]

◼   ► on in my head [TS]

◼   ► the whole life that was instilled by my [TS]

◼   ► my my my father primarily because my dad [TS]

◼   ► was a politician my uncle was a [TS]

◼   ► politician my great-uncle was a [TS]

◼   ► politician my great uncle who raised my [TS]

◼   ► dad they were all politicians and their [TS]

◼   ► ambition for me was to also be a [TS]

◼   ► politician and two and i think to be [TS]

◼   ► finally up like a politician on a [TS]

◼   ► national scale like these guys were all [TS]

◼   ► local politicians in the northwest and [TS]

◼   ► they were in the back rooms smoking [TS]

◼   ► cigars and handshakes and making the [TS]

◼   ► making the port run and you know in [TS]

◼   ► trading suits and tires with each other [TS]

◼   ► but they have had ambition for me that I [TS]

◼   ► would go on to national office and that [TS]

◼   ► that would somehow validate our [TS]

◼   ► political dynasty [TS]

◼   ► oh you're like the not jack not Ted here [TS]

◼   ► like the the good candidate you're like [TS]

◼   ► the community that Joe just he died in [TS]

◼   ► the war I got a job in the world Joe is [TS]

◼   ► like the chosen one he was the one that [TS]

◼   ► that I was gonna be big [TS]

◼   ► he was anointed and Joe died in a [TS]

◼   ► suicide mission [TS]

◼   ► you told me about this what they fucked [TS]

◼   ► him over with his aircraft right now I [TS]

◼   ► don't think they fucking motor was [TS]

◼   ► getting into it was one of those like we [TS]

◼   ► don't know what happened but he was in a [TS]

◼   ► he was in a bar right loaded with [TS]

◼   ► explosives that his job was to fly it [TS]

◼   ► over and and like bail out of it and [TS]

◼   ► after he pointed it at 0 and a 1 a damn [TS]

◼   ► i don't i don't remember what it what is [TS]

◼   ► what this bucket i think was a damn he [TS]

◼   ► was using this in Europe it was in [TS]

◼   ► Europe [TS]

◼   ► yeah he was flying a bomber loaded with [TS]

◼   ► explosives and he armed the bombs he [TS]

◼   ► armed explosives after he was over the [TS]

◼   ► English Channel and either set either [TS]

◼   ► slipped on a banana peel and pushed the [TS]

◼   ► wrong button or somebody in one of the I [TS]

◼   ► think he was here there was a chase [TS]

◼   ► plane that was supposed to after he Bob [TS]

◼   ► after he dived out the chase point was [TS]

◼   ► supposed to follow the bomber down and I [TS]

◼   ► whatever maybe there's a short in the [TS]

◼   ► electrical system but the thing blew up [TS]

◼   ► into a million billion trillion pieces [TS]

◼   ► in the middle [TS]

◼   ► what a failure on so many levels yeah [TS]

◼   ► you said you touch my chicken shit thing [TS]

◼   ► to do but then it's also i mean i don't [TS]

◼   ► know who might say I'm not in the [TS]

◼   ► service but like then it's also like [TS]

◼   ► that what a waste of a dude and like [TS]

◼   ► what a what a what a waste of a plane to [TS]

◼   ► all those bombs [TS]

◼   ► yeah i mean you can put those bombs to [TS]

◼   ► good use i mean that is that is in on [TS]

◼   ► civilians it is a strategic target to [TS]

◼   ► hit a damn i guess [TS]

◼   ► oh yeah big deal it's a getting a damn [TS]

◼   ► is a big deal and war because it's all [TS]

◼   ► it's all that electricity electricity [TS]

◼   ► and plans you know but Anna and and if [TS]

◼   ► he's in the dad will send a big tidal [TS]

◼   ► wave down the valley that can and [TS]

◼   ► particularly if you believe the plot of [TS]

◼   ► force 10 from navarone that's what [TS]

◼   ► Harrison Ford right yeah let's get any [TS]

◼   ► the water from the dam can knock out the [TS]

◼   ► bridge where the Germans are coming [TS]

◼   ► across to attack the partisan see now [TS]

◼   ► that you get a twofer a twofer [TS]

◼   ► okay so you were Joe you're going to be [TS]

◼   ► talking there's different just senior [TS]

◼   ► and you told me you were going to be [TS]

◼   ► judging i was gonna be Joe Jr and so [TS]

◼   ► anyway even at the even at the point [TS]

◼   ► when I was living very much in a kind of [TS]

◼   ► hand to mouth or like hand to drugs to [TS]

◼   ► mouth way there was always a narrative [TS]

◼   ► in the back of my head that I needed to [TS]

◼   ► protect my reputation because i needed [TS]

◼   ► to be able to because when they [TS]

◼   ► investigated me for top secret clearance [TS]

◼   ► right I needed to be able to pass up [TS]

◼   ► because i was one day going to be a [TS]

◼   ► united states senator and these two and [TS]

◼   ► these two totally incompatible [TS]

◼   ► narratives the one where I was like a [TS]

◼   ► scrounging in the carpet for invisible [TS]

◼   ► crack rocks that i might have that [TS]

◼   ► matter dropped and ended up you know [TS]

◼   ► smoking somebody's dog dander because i [TS]

◼   ► was sure that it was some kind of drugs [TS]

◼   ► that had fallen in the carpet that [TS]

◼   ► narrative simultaneous with this but I [TS]

◼   ► can't let anybody know because i'm going [TS]

◼   ► to be a united states senator one day it [TS]

◼   ► there there's a there's still a version [TS]

◼   ► of it in me now and I and I know [TS]

◼   ► I think about this sometimes that I'm on [TS]

◼   ► record now and the problem would not be [TS]

◼   ► that I'm now on record admitting to [TS]

◼   ► having done a a a cornucopia of drugs [TS]

◼   ► literally a horn of plenty of drugs [TS]

◼   ► thanksgiving decoration full of drugs [TS]

◼   ► some of which people have never even [TS]

◼   ► heard of full of games and many pumpkins [TS]

◼   ► and handbags and I just week and you [TS]

◼   ► know I did I did every kind of squeak [TS]

◼   ► squeak [TS]

◼   ► well now i'm looking up later fuck yeah [TS]

◼   ► I told you but anyway it's not it's not [TS]

◼   ► as the Cornucopia itself is not the [TS]

◼   ► problem in the admission of cornucopia [TS]

◼   ► well but even if but but that isn't even [TS]

◼   ► the primary problem the primary problem [TS]

◼   ► for me being elected to the United [TS]

◼   ► States Senate is that i have yet but I [TS]

◼   ► have gone on record a thousand times [TS]

◼   ► saying a seattle is a dumpy little [TS]

◼   ► shithole and and you have people who [TS]

◼   ► believe in God are dumbasses and you [TS]

◼   ► know that everybody that doesn't know [TS]

◼   ► how to drive in snow should be taking a [TS]

◼   ► late line up against a wall and shot etc [TS]

◼   ► etc so that it's storming the embassy if [TS]

◼   ► there are numerous there are numerous [TS]

◼   ► numerous closets with numerous bones [TS]

◼   ► yeah if there is an opposition [TS]

◼   ► researcher was was given the task of [TS]

◼   ► educating not leave any I'm just imagine [TS]

◼   ► the process of vetting you like whether [TS]

◼   ► the guys in the back room with the [TS]

◼   ► cigars i got like as John Martin [TS]

◼   ► Roderick I think it'd be a fella that's [TS]

◼   ► right and just runs the basic checks [TS]

◼   ► Ollie said fucking cornucopia an [TS]

◼   ► opposition researcher would be rolling [TS]

◼   ► on the floor laughing within 30 seconds [TS]

◼   ► of trying to dig up some dirt on me [TS]

◼   ► because how am I going to run for how I [TS]

◼   ► can run for office in seattle out having [TS]

◼   ► said all the things that I've said we're [TS]

◼   ► just pointing out all the ways that you [TS]

◼   ► can help it you know it's like my mom [TS]

◼   ► would say when I got a c-minus he knows [TS]

◼   ► room for opportunity to improve well and [TS]

◼   ► it's what i would do at what what I've [TS]

◼   ► always imagined is what Bill Clinton [TS]

◼   ► should have done when they asked him [TS]

◼   ► whether or not he'd slept with Monica [TS]

◼   ► Lewinsky who [TS]

◼   ► you know I i never understood why he [TS]

◼   ► didn't look at wedding face down the [TS]

◼   ► cameras and say that's not a none of [TS]

◼   ► anybody's business next question instead [TS]

◼   ► instead of instead of falling back on [TS]

◼   ► parsing words it's very hemming and [TS]

◼   ► hawing and saying like well you know [TS]

◼   ► about Peppa to depict I like that [TS]

◼   ► they're there is there will come a time [TS]

◼   ► and we've already seen it was wet with [TS]

◼   ► the Barack Obama's admission not only [TS]

◼   ► having smoked marijuana but have done [TS]

◼   ► cocaine and he you know he admitted to [TS]

◼   ► it in his book and then he said I had [TS]

◼   ► it's a it's not a pertinent question is [TS]

◼   ► that it doesn't bear on my ability to [TS]

◼   ► govern next question right and if Bill [TS]

◼   ► Clinton had just said that's not [TS]

◼   ► anybody's business and if they had [TS]

◼   ► continued to throw questions at him she [TS]

◼   ► said alright the press conference is [TS]

◼   ► over i'll be back when you can figure [TS]

◼   ► out i'll be back when you the press [TS]

◼   ► corps have grown up enough you can [TS]

◼   ► figure out some reasonable questions to [TS]

◼   ► ask the President of the United States [TS]

◼   ► goodbye right and if he doesn't come [TS]

◼   ► back when you're ready to ask a grown-up [TS]

◼   ► question about running the world [TS]

◼   ► yeah because what would it would end up [TS]

◼   ► being Clinton's undoing was not that he [TS]

◼   ► slept with Monica Lewinsky that he lied [TS]

◼   ► about it and so there will come a time [TS]

◼   ► well so he lied about it in an age where [TS]

◼   ► is the line about it was not something [TS]

◼   ► that he could count on everybody to help [TS]

◼   ► him paper over we were was ok for us to [TS]

◼   ► not make a big deal of how much help [TS]

◼   ► Britain Got walking up to the lectern [TS]

◼   ► and we had our reasons right there was [TS]

◼   ► there was just a kind of decorum at the [TS]

◼   ► time where you know Kennedy got so much [TS]

◼   ► more tail than Clinton do you think I [TS]

◼   ► mean community had a lot of lot of [TS]

◼   ► intercourse but the problem with Kennedy [TS]

◼   ► wasn't that he wasn't just that he had [TS]

◼   ► intercourse with her that he had that he [TS]

◼   ► made congress with a lot of young ladies [TS]

◼   ► but Kennedy was completely doped up 24 [TS]

◼   ► hours a day because of the was Addison's [TS]

◼   ► disease [TS]

◼   ► yeah i mean he was in he was in [TS]

◼   ► excruciating pain right barely he could [TS]

◼   ► barely walk and dr. feelgood was [TS]

◼   ► shooting a cocktail event Federman's [TS]

◼   ► asset that's the other cover-up thing [TS]

◼   ► that's so interesting the joe i think [TS]

◼   ► didn't have to have a big role in that [TS]

◼   ► of like nobody ever finds out that like [TS]

◼   ► every every place the president ever [TS]

◼   ► goes is is full of all kinds of drugs [TS]

◼   ► for helping him get by but then all [TS]

◼   ► kinds of stuff in case he just goes tits [TS]

◼   ► up and if that's a serious security risk [TS]

◼   ► during like the cuban missile crisis [TS]

◼   ► like this would have been nice to know [TS]

◼   ► yeah well i know i mean if you if you [TS]

◼   ► think about now like john-john Kennedy [TS]

◼   ► would not only would he never be elected [TS]

◼   ► president States but john kennedy from a [TS]

◼   ► very young age would have been treated [TS]

◼   ► as a special little flower who needs it [TS]

◼   ► needs a little cup with his medication [TS]

◼   ► in it every day at lunch and every day [TS]

◼   ► you know like John Kennedy way like i [TS]

◼   ► said he'd be seen as kind of a fag [TS]

◼   ► because your books and read books and [TS]

◼   ► stuff is maybe I think about who john [TS]

◼   ► kennedy was he is entirely the product [TS]

◼   ► of a being bullied by his father and his [TS]

◼   ► older brothers and of course we've made [TS]

◼   ► that illegal now you can't bully a kid [TS]

◼   ► and and also he was frail and teased and [TS]

◼   ► so he you know he fought and fought and [TS]

◼   ► fought against being frail and and sick [TS]

◼   ► and bullied and he became president the [TS]

◼   ► united states but that we've made all [TS]

◼   ► those things illegal now so well he got [TS]

◼   ► only a lot of help from Kennedy would be [TS]

◼   ► a lot of Health getting into office [TS]

◼   ► right now he'd be somewhere [TS]

◼   ► riding on his blog about his struggles [TS]

◼   ► with the you know he put his struggles [TS]

◼   ► to get get the right ad cocktail [TS]

◼   ► yeah and treasurer and yeah but I get a [TS]

◼   ► lot of people there's a lot of there's a [TS]

◼   ► lot of people in their fifties in the [TS]

◼   ► South right now riding around on boats [TS]

◼   ► it there Sheriff grandfather's got spot [TS]

◼   ► with Joe Kennedy's money [TS]

◼   ► oh don't worry it's gonna be fine you're [TS]

◼   ► fine you're gonna get you're gonna carry [TS]

◼   ► you but no problem [TS]

◼   ► they're all nickname Gator it said the [TS]

◼   ► other Gator here's the problem it's 47 [TS]

◼   ► minutes and 56 seconds too late to make [TS]

◼   ► this funny show but like this is the [TS]

◼   ► thing and this is why i think the Senate [TS]

◼   ► might be a waste of your time but it's [TS]

◼   ► certainly we should be in Special Forces [TS]

◼   ► it certainly is you being elected I [TS]

◼   ► think it's probably just a bad idea for [TS]

◼   ► a variety of reasons logo i think that i [TS]

◼   ► think would be a tremendous idea the [TS]

◼   ► problem is that what that you got to get [TS]

◼   ► elected you should order the line is you [TS]

◼   ► got to have stupid people like you [TS]

◼   ► yeah but stupid people [TS]

◼   ► always like me are you kidding me right [TS]

◼   ► stupid people think i'm aware you feel [TS]

◼   ► like you really get on with stupid [TS]

◼   ► people i mean i can get on with all [TS]

◼   ► kinds of people that could you adjust [TS]

◼   ► these no you don't you don't adopt a [TS]

◼   ► patois but you feel like you adjust are [TS]

◼   ► you able to convincingly uh what's [TS]

◼   ► squelch down your belt and strong when [TS]

◼   ► you need to [TS]

◼   ► I i think it has to do with [TS]

◼   ► understanding for spending a lot of time [TS]

◼   ► trying to understand someone who does [TS]

◼   ► not want to make a mental effort but [TS]

◼   ► prefers to make an emotional effort to [TS]

◼   ► but prefers to interact with the world [TS]

◼   ► strictly on our kind of like immediate [TS]

◼   ► emotional basis her and not sit and [TS]

◼   ► think about even the basic building [TS]

◼   ► blocks of a what their experiences but [TS]

◼   ► just react to it emotionally and [TS]

◼   ► immediately and I've tried to explain my [TS]

◼   ► thinking again was in while in [TS]

◼   ► simplified version taking taking many [TS]

◼   ► things at face value without considering [TS]

◼   ► in my case one of my obsessions is what [TS]

◼   ► is whether it's a compliment or an [TS]

◼   ► insult or to be honest guys with ax [TS]

◼   ► handles like what's really going on [TS]

◼   ► there like that what is being said and [TS]

◼   ► what's being not said when the whole [TS]

◼   ► time you're telling a story and all I [TS]

◼   ► could see was scared guys like they're [TS]

◼   ► not real tough guys like real tough guys [TS]

◼   ► wouldn't need three of them in ax [TS]

◼   ► handles like they were scared and they [TS]

◼   ► kept hitting you after they couldn't [TS]

◼   ► stop because now they're adrenalin was [TS]

◼   ► high and they realize they could do it [TS]

◼   ► yeah you know and that's Matt and they [TS]

◼   ► weren't listening to me as I was [TS]

◼   ► patiently explaining to them all the [TS]

◼   ► reasons why me [TS]

◼   ► lighting this poster on fire a wasn't [TS]

◼   ► their business and be wasn't really a [TS]

◼   ► bigger reason that you guys can have [TS]

◼   ► just found something to do together as a [TS]

◼   ► project right now i mean i think that [TS]

◼   ► the Venn diagram for that you certainly [TS]

◼   ► had time to dry but I mean like that [TS]

◼   ► with there's a lot more to it and that's [TS]

◼   ► all that's one of the four of us take [TS]

◼   ► these bats and this lighter who and go [TS]

◼   ► like make a make a fire someone soup [TS]

◼   ► right i have some fun [TS]

◼   ► it's like if you get but the dumb people [TS]

◼   ► think they don't like Saddam I mean you [TS]

◼   ► know that stupidly abled are na ah i [TS]

◼   ► think it's it's not i feels to me like [TS]

◼   ► from a remove [TS]

◼   ► it feels like even with my friends who [TS]

◼   ► are really really smart and are so into [TS]

◼   ► the politics you know they are they're [TS]

◼   ► so smart people let me just stipulate [TS]

◼   ► but along the line especially in [TS]

◼   ► politics there's just so much branding [TS]

◼   ► and looking for somebody that says [TS]

◼   ► something you can agree with without [TS]

◼   ► doing any of your due diligence on how [TS]

◼   ► that you know comports with what they've [TS]

◼   ► done in their life you know what I mean [TS]

◼   ► and like you're not out there going like [TS]

◼   ► well here's a chart showing like what i [TS]

◼   ► should say this week you would be [TS]

◼   ► somebody you could go out there and say [TS]

◼   ► like believe me I understand being [TS]

◼   ► fucked up [TS]

◼   ► I've been pretty fucked out now that [TS]

◼   ► that but also immediate all politics is [TS]

◼   ► local as the is the phrase and one of [TS]

◼   ► the things that I learned growing up in [TS]

◼   ► surrounded by people in politics was [TS]

◼   ► that but the e you get so you get so [TS]

◼   ► much of of what is what ultimately is [TS]

◼   ► national politics but ultimately is all [TS]

◼   ► this like what are we going to do with [TS]

◼   ► our bodies what are we going to do with [TS]

◼   ► this what are we gonna do with that that [TS]

◼   ► these different versions of a of what we [TS]

◼   ► imagine his government and it all comes [TS]

◼   ► down to ultimately different ideas of [TS]

◼   ► public land use policy you know it all [TS]

◼   ► comes down to zoning in a way and zoning [TS]

◼   ► is a way that you can really get inside [TS]

◼   ► your neighbors heads and zoning is a way [TS]

◼   ► that you can start to understand why [TS]

◼   ► stupid people are so mad all the time [TS]

◼   ► because when you're trying to govern a [TS]

◼   ► city you're looking at zoning and you're [TS]

◼   ► saying this is going to be our business [TS]

◼   ► district this area over here is the [TS]

◼   ► these are going to be farms and if a guy [TS]

◼   ► wants to build a skyscraper out here on [TS]

◼   ► a farm [TS]

◼   ► we're not going to let him do it because [TS]

◼   ► we don't have the infrastructure there [TS]

◼   ► that's not where you get to build [TS]

◼   ► skyscrapers so we're workin finding the [TS]

◼   ► skyscrapers to downtown [TS]

◼   ► well so the guy that owns the farm says [TS]

◼   ► who the hell are those guys downtown to [TS]

◼   ► tell me I can't build a skyscraper here [TS]

◼   ► because not so much about skyscrapers as [TS]

◼   ► that this larger states rights it should [TS]

◼   ► become the state's rights not expressly [TS]

◼   ► know what I mean that's exactly states [TS]

◼   ► like note in the states rights and [TS]

◼   ► decoded sense of I'm the south and [TS]

◼   ► nobody's gonna fucking tell me [TS]

◼   ► to do right and that happens everywhere [TS]

◼   ► you go and watching it here in seattle [TS]

◼   ► where for a long time there was no there [TS]

◼   ► was no zoning and people were just going [TS]

◼   ► out and they were buying 500 acres of [TS]

◼   ► farmland right on the edge of town and [TS]

◼   ► they were building a cookie cutter [TS]

◼   ► development as fast as they could nail [TS]

◼   ► it on her until there were no farms left [TS]

◼   ► and so the city so everybody's [TS]

◼   ► complaining to the city why are you [TS]

◼   ► letting them do this with your they're [TS]

◼   ► ruining the city and so the city says [TS]

◼   ► okay I you can't do that anymore [TS]

◼   ► you can't be can't we're going to [TS]

◼   ► preserve that farmland and we're going [TS]

◼   ► to concentrate development downtown [TS]

◼   ► well I'm instantly every farmer within [TS]

◼   ► 400 miles of seattle was infuriated not [TS]

◼   ► but not because most of them ever [TS]

◼   ► intended to build a subdivision on their [TS]

◼   ► farm but because the city had just taken [TS]

◼   ► away that possibility but it said you [TS]

◼   ► know it's like passing a law that says [TS]

◼   ► it's illegal it's still legal for you to [TS]

◼   ► win a lottery up to a hundred and [TS]

◼   ► seventeen dollars but you're not allowed [TS]

◼   ► to win a lottery over 15 million dollars [TS]

◼   ► right [TS]

◼   ► think about that for a second right you [TS]

◼   ► go to somebody you know what here's the [TS]

◼   ► thing you can keep playing for somebody [TS]

◼   ► said to me [TS]

◼   ► whoa whoa nobody's gonna take my way my [TS]

◼   ► right to win a hundred and seven in [TS]

◼   ► there are millions and millions of [TS]

◼   ► millions of dollars even there's no [TS]

◼   ► fucking way in the entire world that [TS]

◼   ► they're ever gonna win the lottery the [TS]

◼   ► fact that you've taken away their right [TS]

◼   ► to do that every component to be small [TS]

◼   ► potatoes is is philosophically at odds [TS]

◼   ► with those folks now [TS]

◼   ► well not just that but but you're at [TS]

◼   ► you're going to if you want to each one [TS]

◼   ► of these farmers and set down in the [TS]

◼   ► living room you said listen do you want [TS]

◼   ► to see a world where there are no more [TS]

◼   ► farms they would say of course not right [TS]

◼   ► it's like selling somebody a vacuum [TS]

◼   ► cleaner you just get them to say yes [TS]

◼   ► five times and somewhere around the 7th [TS]

◼   ► or 8th time they will buy a fucking [TS]

◼   ► vacuum cleaner is what they've gotten so [TS]

◼   ► used to saying yes would you say that [TS]

◼   ► the life of your children is more [TS]

◼   ► important than the fat cats on Wall [TS]

◼   ► Street [TS]

◼   ► oh my god yes what the fuck is an [TS]

◼   ► infraction and then people use that same [TS]

◼   ► sentence to sell both political views [TS]

◼   ► absolutely absolutely but but if you go [TS]

◼   ► to if you go to America and you say we [TS]

◼   ► do you want to see the death of the [TS]

◼   ► family farm in your lifetime [TS]

◼   ► they're all going to say no if you say [TS]

◼   ► okay in that case eat [TS]

◼   ► where we have passed a law that you can [TS]

◼   ► no longer develop your property they're [TS]

◼   ► going to say well I want that line drawn [TS]

◼   ► right on the other side of me you know [TS]

◼   ► that restriction placed right on the [TS]

◼   ► other side of my opportunity to develop [TS]

◼   ► my farm and make a hundred million [TS]

◼   ► dollars even if I never do it how many [TS]

◼   ► people would stop to think that if you [TS]

◼   ► really want to keep family farms alive [TS]

◼   ► you probably shouldn't let fucking [TS]

◼   ► skyscrapers people don them right now a [TS]

◼   ► lot of family farm anymore it's like if [TS]

◼   ► you agree if we agree you're gonna have [TS]

◼   ► to make this sacrifice we all make [TS]

◼   ► sacrifices you as a farm owner are going [TS]

◼   ► to have to make this sacrifice and [TS]

◼   ► that's the point at which right [TS]

◼   ► most people don't want to be the one [TS]

◼   ► hand and most people walk away from that [TS]

◼   ► encounter not thinking about the big [TS]

◼   ► picture but saying to themselves and [TS]

◼   ► this is the narrative of the whole of [TS]

◼   ► all conservatism which is why am I the [TS]

◼   ► one that has to make the sacrifice right [TS]

◼   ► if you listen to anyone on the [TS]

◼   ► conservative spectrum talk about being [TS]

◼   ► asked to make sacrifices they all they [TS]

◼   ► all speak about it in language as though [TS]

◼   ► they are the only one who ever had to [TS]

◼   ► make a sacrifice and so so that's the [TS]

◼   ► difference between you know that that is [TS]

◼   ► where local politics expands to national [TS]

◼   ► politics and that is a that is a world [TS]

◼   ► I've spent my whole life trying to [TS]

◼   ► understand so I feel like I could I [TS]

◼   ► could I could easily run for office and [TS]

◼   ► at least make myself understood to those [TS]

◼   ► people because I because I understand i [TS]

◼   ► can put myself any of us can put [TS]

◼   ► ourselves in the shoes of feeling like [TS]

◼   ► that kid on Christmas morning and all of [TS]

◼   ► your brothers and sisters got a present [TS]

◼   ► but the family ran out of money and [TS]

◼   ► you're the one that doesn't get right on [TS]

◼   ► it and let the risk of falling into this [TS]

◼   ► but you know what lake off identifies in [TS]

◼   ► that and I don't think an elephant book [TS]

◼   ► the conservative model of government as [TS]

◼   ► a family or nation as a family you know [TS]

◼   ► that'sthat's paradigm that was very [TS]

◼   ► effective like You Don't Tell I don't [TS]

◼   ► need a permission slip to invade [TS]

◼   ► Afghanistan are necessary iraq so forth [TS]

◼   ► but i mean i think that family thing [TS]

◼   ► think of it this way this is where it [TS]

◼   ► becomes valuable to me is like imagined [TS]

◼   ► like if you are a parent and you had god [TS]

◼   ► forbid you had a bunch of kids under the [TS]

◼   ► age of six like do they get to vote [TS]

◼   ► about whether you're going to have mms [TS]

◼   ► for dinner [TS]

◼   ► like do they get of [TS]

◼   ► but in that we would you say to them is [TS]

◼   ► in the school is just a reminder on how [TS]

◼   ► liberal you are because I know a lot of [TS]

◼   ► money to bring your own bag lot of [TS]

◼   ► hippie a lot of hippie parents around [TS]

◼   ► here in Seattle they're like you want [TS]

◼   ► you to stick of butter / dinner the [TS]

◼   ► rights as long as vegan butter smeared [TS]

◼   ► on a spider sugar the um no but i guess [TS]

◼   ► i'm saying is a sound making them [TS]

◼   ► business terribly mixed metaphor here [TS]

◼   ► but but you know what i want is a [TS]

◼   ► candidate and I've seen if they feel [TS]

◼   ► like sometimes people like barney frank [TS]

◼   ► or like people not just click because [TS]

◼   ► the gate park because the [TS]

◼   ► straight-talking part the occasional [TS]

◼   ► straight-talking part of the politician [TS]

◼   ► we're so what are my values if it is a [TS]

◼   ► value it at least value in the sense if [TS]

◼   ► I know when I'm fucking up at it i think [TS]

◼   ► and i definitely see what other people [TS]

◼   ► are fucking about it is like everything [TS]

◼   ► that you are your green ok your green [TS]

◼   ► for what cost to you know know that [TS]

◼   ► green for like how much money it saves [TS]

◼   ► you right and this is why bit with the [TS]

◼   ► fucking hotels you go in and every [TS]

◼   ► single thing they do to be green save [TS]

◼   ► some money right and it does not save [TS]

◼   ► you anything or well it's absolutely or [TS]

◼   ► more stimulated this point if they [TS]

◼   ► wanted to be green [TS]

◼   ► why don't they spend whatever it takes [TS]

◼   ► to become become completely solar light [TS]

◼   ► or or whatever [TS]

◼   ► why don't you what would it cost not for [TS]

◼   ► you just to get more insulation to save [TS]

◼   ► you money I get it but you don't get to [TS]

◼   ► call yourself green just because you [TS]

◼   ► save money you get to call yourself [TS]

◼   ► green when you give things up [TS]

◼   ► mhm including money including money and [TS]

◼   ► that's the thing is fucking politics [TS]

◼   ► that drives me bananas [TS]

◼   ► there's two things in politics first of [TS]

◼   ► all politics as pro wrestling it is [TS]

◼   ► about as valuable to follow politics as [TS]

◼   ► it is to follow for wrestling if you [TS]

◼   ► enjoy you should do it but if you care [TS]

◼   ► if i can change yourself get out there [TS]

◼   ► be a man about it don't worry about [TS]

◼   ► Twitter you don't time for twitter you [TS]

◼   ► got to change the world gum we go now [TS]

◼   ► here's the second one the second one is [TS]

◼   ► what the fuck that you give up because [TS]

◼   ► your ex so if you really care a lot [TS]

◼   ► about anything I want to know what you [TS]

◼   ► gave up for that not just even money you [TS]

◼   ► know what I mean like I'm not for the [TS]

◼   ► parent park ever comes in case somebody [TS]

◼   ► comes up and goes what about the values [TS]

◼   ► of the green space [TS]

◼   ► of the green space [TS]

◼   ► there what are we going to do for our [TS]

◼   ► children and then the schools and it's [TS]

◼   ► like I want to have politician can fire [TS]

◼   ► straight back at that person and say [TS]

◼   ► that's an excellent question let me ask [TS]

◼   ► you what you're willing to pay for that [TS]

◼   ► right and let me show you here's the way [TS]

◼   ► it works we have this much pie and we [TS]

◼   ► can cut it up in all kinds of ways but [TS]

◼   ► every day I spend every day figuring out [TS]

◼   ► who to disappoint least today right well [TS]

◼   ► helping the most people and just because [TS]

◼   ► you stood up there with your little [TS]

◼   ► funny bag and give me some remarks but [TS]

◼   ► you know I want somebody can fucking [TS]

◼   ► take that person down and say here's why [TS]

◼   ► we do that and then people like I think [TS]

◼   ► you Harvey Milk was kinda like this you [TS]

◼   ► can you get maybe it's all just a punk [TS]

◼   ► bitch nobody straight-talking you can [TS]

◼   ► say here's what that cost child probably [TS]

◼   ► that though is that that that you do get [TS]

◼   ► politicians like that like chris [TS]

◼   ► Christie or even Mitt Romney with his [TS]

◼   ► 47% comments [TS]

◼   ► it's just that well as soon as you start [TS]

◼   ► quote-unquote straight talking with [TS]

◼   ► people you start saying things that you [TS]

◼   ► know that the opposition is like here he [TS]

◼   ► goes [TS]

◼   ► I mean you-you-you see straight that [TS]

◼   ► that the gift is to be able to say those [TS]

◼   ► things in a way that the way where you [TS]

◼   ► don't end up hanging by your own rope [TS]

◼   ► when straight talk straight talk first [TS]

◼   ► of all what pass i'm gonna shut up after [TS]

◼   ► this fucking cares I don't care about [TS]

◼   ► politics by what passes for population [TS]

◼   ► today really bugs me because it is the [TS]

◼   ► kind of populism that basically says if [TS]

◼   ► there's any other single person in the [TS]

◼   ► world that has the tiniest thing that [TS]

◼   ► you don't whether you want it or not [TS]

◼   ► like they're a dick and you're awesome [TS]

◼   ► and you're fucking martyr and that [TS]

◼   ► driving that is not populism that is [TS]

◼   ► just selfish and stupid and Prevention [TS]

◼   ► behavior like everybody's got problems [TS]

◼   ► and if when you grow up you realize that [TS]

◼   ► everybody's got different problems and [TS]

◼   ► you can't always understand other [TS]

◼   ► people's problems but that is exactly [TS]

◼   ► the kind of attitude that opens us up to [TS]

◼   ► these charlatans and so all these people [TS]

◼   ► who can sell us on that emotion without [TS]

◼   ► ever causing us to think a little more [TS]

◼   ► well what do they have to gain by [TS]

◼   ► sending nicely populism that's always [TS]

◼   ► been popular really think so [TS]

◼   ► Andrew Jackson ran a campaign [TS]

◼   ► oh well I'm based on even more somebody [TS]

◼   ► who drops the g's and touch their [TS]

◼   ► suspenders and says oh gosh oh golly [TS]

◼   ► makes it sound like a regular dude and I [TS]

◼   ► get you [TS]

◼   ► yeah yeah I mean populism is by by by [TS]