00:00:06 ◼ ► I John hi Merlin how's it going again [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/6">TS</a>]
00:00:12 ◼ ► where you who i just did the thing that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/12">TS</a>]
00:00:22 ◼ ► I do which is no I have a thing to do [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/22">TS</a>]
00:00:24 ◼ ► who and I stayed in bed until absolutely [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/24">TS</a>]
00:00:29 ◼ ► the last minute and then I got on a bed [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/29">TS</a>]
00:00:33 ◼ ► it's also good because people it makes [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/33">TS</a>]
00:00:34 ◼ ► it harder for people to track your [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/34">TS</a>]
00:00:35 ◼ ► movements that's true that's true unless [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/35">TS</a>]
00:00:39 ◼ ► you're tracking my movements by looking [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/39">TS</a>]
00:00:40 ◼ ► in my bedroom window even still if you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/40">TS</a>]
00:00:42 ◼ ► i'm guessing you probably throw away the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/42">TS</a>]
00:00:47 ◼ ► that's right whoo that's right and I ran [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/47">TS</a>]
00:00:49 ◼ ► past the thermostat on my way and I went [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/49">TS</a>]
00:00:52 ◼ ► to you and I turned up the thermostat so [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/52">TS</a>]
00:00:55 ◼ ► that by the end of this podcast that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/55">TS</a>]
00:01:00 ◼ ► question about it lifehacks you hack [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/60">TS</a>]
00:01:03 ◼ ► hack your sleep you've had your waking [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/63">TS</a>]
00:01:05 ◼ ► you've had your stats as we say what I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/65">TS</a>]
00:01:08 ◼ ► haven't hacked is preserving batteries [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/68">TS</a>]
00:01:11 ◼ ► in little blues driver that's sitting on [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/71">TS</a>]
00:01:13 ◼ ► the floor then i just noticed has been [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/73">TS</a>]
00:01:15 ◼ ► plugged in all night i sent the heavy [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/75">TS</a>]
00:01:17 ◼ ► guy with the harmonicas batteries did a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/77">TS</a>]
00:01:20 ◼ ► blues driver yeah it's uh yeah that's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/80">TS</a>]
00:01:27 ◼ ► no ma'am where I I went to I went to one [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/87">TS</a>]
00:01:33 ◼ ► of his concerts because i knew a guy who [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/93">TS</a>]
00:01:35 ◼ ► was his keyboard tech and after them [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/95">TS</a>]
00:01:40 ◼ ► after the show we went on to the blues [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/100">TS</a>]
00:01:43 ◼ ► driver tour bus and it was I think there [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/103">TS</a>]
00:01:49 ◼ ► were 22 buses maybe 14 mr. blues driver [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/109">TS</a>]
00:01:54 ◼ ► there's a there's a separate popper [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/114">TS</a>]
00:01:56 ◼ ► mobile there's a popper but i don't know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/116">TS</a>]
00:01:58 ◼ ► i'm not sure i forget i forget i didn't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/118">TS</a>]
00:02:01 ◼ ► actually meet him but I met his whole [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/121">TS</a>]
00:02:03 ◼ ► band and crew and on the bus they had [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/123">TS</a>]
00:02:10 ◼ ► Tupperware containers with like 20 [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/130">TS</a>]
00:02:13 ◼ ► different kinds of pot Wow and they were [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/133">TS</a>]
00:02:17 ◼ ► headed to Canada the next day and the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/137">TS</a>]
00:02:20 ◼ ► tour manager was saying you know it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/140">TS</a>]
00:02:24 ◼ ► matter-of-factly was talking about the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/144">TS</a>]
00:02:27 ◼ ► fact that they needed to stop & Belling [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/147">TS</a>]
00:02:28 ◼ ► him and rent a hotel room for all the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/148">TS</a>]
00:02:31 ◼ ► pot and guns and they're just going [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/151">TS</a>]
00:02:35 ◼ ► they're going to leave the Pottinger [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/155">TS</a>]
00:02:36 ◼ ► hotel go to Canada and then come back [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/156">TS</a>]
00:02:39 ◼ ► the next day and get the pot of guns you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/159">TS</a>]
00:02:42 ◼ ► really need a manager you can think that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/162">TS</a>]
00:02:44 ◼ ► stuff through for you because you're [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/164">TS</a>]
00:02:46 ◼ ► smoking so much pot yeah you're gonna [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/166">TS</a>]
00:02:48 ◼ ► want to hit that border be like oh shit [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/168">TS</a>]
00:02:50 ◼ ► and pot and guns shotguns so and that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/170">TS</a>]
00:02:54 ◼ ► was you know that was a long time ago [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/174">TS</a>]
00:02:56 ◼ ► that was 10 or 15 years guys I think I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/176">TS</a>]
00:02:59 ◼ ► think in fairness the the Blues driver [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/179">TS</a>]
00:03:03 ◼ ► kai has lost a disturbing amount of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/183">TS</a>]
00:03:07 ◼ ► well he got the stomach stapling I think [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/187">TS</a>]
00:03:11 ◼ ► does but I've been no I i think i think [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/191">TS</a>]
00:03:15 ◼ ► your such as if it's a form of body [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/195">TS</a>]
00:03:17 ◼ ► hacking I guess it does but I I think he [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/197">TS</a>]
00:03:20 ◼ ► gained the weight back to then these [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/200">TS</a>]
00:03:23 ◼ ► about his up-and-down fluctuates a lot [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/203">TS</a>]
00:03:26 ◼ ► it does not hurt yeah you know it's a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/206">TS</a>]
00:03:29 ◼ ► sometimes it just seems like you're [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/209">TS</a>]
00:03:30 ◼ ► destined to have a certain you know he [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/210">TS</a>]
00:03:33 ◼ ► got the beard Shape face i think some [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/213">TS</a>]
00:03:35 ◼ ► people are destined to have like a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/215">TS</a>]
00:03:36 ◼ ► certain body shape you know yes I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/216">TS</a>]
00:03:39 ◼ ► believe that that is that's medically [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/219">TS</a>]
00:03:40 ◼ ► documented but I've met people who are [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/220">TS</a>]
00:03:42 ◼ ► like big body people they work out [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/222">TS</a>]
00:03:45 ◼ ► constantly they lose like every ounce of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/225">TS</a>]
00:03:50 ◼ ► body fat they've got on them and then [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/230">TS</a>]
00:03:52 ◼ ► they just they just look like a like a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/232">TS</a>]
00:03:57 ◼ ► let's waste you know what I mean like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/237">TS</a>]
00:03:58 ◼ ► with somebody they just don't look right [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/238">TS</a>]
00:04:00 ◼ ► this it doesn't you don't mean it looks [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/240">TS</a>]
00:04:02 ◼ ► like that's healthy in some ways right [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/242">TS</a>]
00:04:04 ◼ ► and i don't know i don't know one way or [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/244">TS</a>]
00:04:05 ◼ ► another but pear-shaped person should [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/245">TS</a>]
00:04:07 ◼ ► remain pear-shaped and not not tried to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/247">TS</a>]
00:04:10 ◼ ► become a peanut-shaped person with the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/250">TS</a>]
00:04:16 ◼ ► yes God has made us in all the many [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/256">TS</a>]
00:04:19 ◼ ► splendors ways and we should celebrate [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/259">TS</a>]
00:04:21 ◼ ► every every one of our differences I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/261">TS</a>]
00:04:27 ◼ ► celebrate Merlin not cause to not just [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/267">TS</a>]
00:04:31 ◼ ► yes yeah one planet do you think mr. [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/271">TS</a>]
00:04:34 ◼ ► peanut even explore any other lines of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/274">TS</a>]
00:04:36 ◼ ► work before he came like became like a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/276">TS</a>]
00:04:38 ◼ ► professional professional cannibal you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/278">TS</a>]
00:04:41 ◼ ► know I have to think that mr. peanut was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/281">TS</a>]
00:04:46 ◼ ► otherwise how would he dress that way [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/286">TS</a>]
00:04:47 ◼ ► and be so cocky he seems pretty fancy [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/287">TS</a>]
00:04:49 ◼ ► now and then you know that actually mr. [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/289">TS</a>]
00:04:51 ◼ ► peanut probably rose up that probably [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/291">TS</a>]
00:04:54 ◼ ► came to prominence during the the era of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/294">TS</a>]
00:04:56 ◼ ► the peanut haha there was a you know in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/296">TS</a>]
00:05:00 ◼ ► American history and era where the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/300">TS</a>]
00:05:02 ◼ ► peanut was really the ascendant legume [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/302">TS</a>]
00:05:05 ◼ ► still to the end of his days he spent [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/305">TS</a>]
00:05:12 ◼ ► Washington Carver be around the next [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/312">TS</a>]
00:05:14 ◼ ► corner we make me into something a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/314">TS</a>]
00:05:19 ◼ ► yeah i mean Jimmy Carter was a peanut [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/319">TS</a>]
00:05:24 ◼ ► engineer alright of course on submarines [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/324">TS</a>]
00:05:27 ◼ ► that's right i think he was a submarine [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/327">TS</a>]
00:05:28 ◼ ► I think he was actually like an engineer [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/328">TS</a>]
00:05:30 ◼ ► wasn't on submarines and a peanut farmer [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/330">TS</a>]
00:05:33 ◼ ► em you know a man of many talents and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/333">TS</a>]
00:05:38 ◼ ► also of a man of it of a lost era o a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/338">TS</a>]
00:05:42 ◼ ► gentleman a gentleman that's right [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/342">TS</a>]
00:05:44 ◼ ► cavalier you know I am I don't start [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/344">TS</a>]
00:05:47 ◼ ► whole thing first of all I have to say [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/347">TS</a>]
00:05:49 ◼ ► I'm i realized about 10 minutes ago that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/349">TS</a>]
00:05:51 ◼ ► I my daughter has given me a slow-motion [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/351">TS</a>]
00:05:53 ◼ ► cold oh it's finally just officially [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/353">TS</a>]
00:05:56 ◼ ► became a cold like two minutes ago war [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/356">TS</a>]
00:05:58 ◼ ► boom warm mouth tastes funny i'm sorry i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/358">TS</a>]
00:06:02 ◼ ► don't like that phrase family farm [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/362">TS</a>]
00:06:05 ◼ ► tickets i think it's a red herring [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/365">TS</a>]
00:06:08 ◼ ► mm that's what if your family is really [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/368">TS</a>]
00:06:12 ◼ ► oh I see what you mean you know what I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/372">TS</a>]
00:06:14 ◼ ► mean yeah doesn't see when you say [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/374">TS</a>]
00:06:15 ◼ ► family farm you think of something from [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/375">TS</a>]
00:06:19 ◼ ► is the dustbowl photographer guy you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/379">TS</a>]
00:06:22 ◼ ► know you think of like a family farm you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/382">TS</a>]
00:06:25 ◼ ► think of like non pas cattle out there [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/385">TS</a>]
00:06:26 ◼ ► and they're in there 10 rib shack right [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/386">TS</a>]
00:06:29 ◼ ► you know the water with a bar Drake [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/389">TS</a>]
00:06:31 ◼ ► right wind blowing you have 40 acres and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/391">TS</a>]
00:06:34 ◼ ► yeah exactly are you hearing the term [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/394">TS</a>]
00:06:38 ◼ ► family farm used in a disingenuous way [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/398">TS</a>]
00:06:43 ◼ ► masquerading as family farmers I yeah [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/403">TS</a>]
00:06:47 ◼ ► yeah yeah well I mean you know I don't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/407">TS</a>]
00:06:50 ◼ ► follow the stuff closely but I think [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/410">TS</a>]
00:06:51 ◼ ► it's one of those I thought terminating [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/411">TS</a>]
00:06:54 ◼ ► clichés aswell says you know it's one [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/414">TS</a>]
00:06:56 ◼ ► of those when you say family farm but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/416">TS</a>]
00:06:58 ◼ ► you cannot not to say anything because [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/418">TS</a>]
00:06:59 ◼ ► it sounds like you're going after the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/419">TS</a>]
00:07:01 ◼ ► guy with the with the overalls right and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/421">TS</a>]
00:07:04 ◼ ► you can you can be a you can own your [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/424">TS</a>]
00:07:06 ◼ ► family can own a lot of very very large [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/426">TS</a>]
00:07:10 ◼ ► stinky ballooning yucky farms listen [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/430">TS</a>]
00:07:13 ◼ ► this is the thing about a thing about [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/433">TS</a>]
00:07:16 ◼ ► sort of a central ohio western Ohio and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/436">TS</a>]
00:07:20 ◼ ► it's also the thing about central [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/440">TS</a>]
00:07:22 ◼ ► Germany and Bavaria like they're in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/442">TS</a>]
00:07:25 ◼ ► those places the farmers are the richest [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/445">TS</a>]
00:07:28 ◼ ► people in the community beyond the most [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/448">TS</a>]
00:07:32 ◼ ► land right well beyond the most land but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/452">TS</a>]
00:07:34 ◼ ► also it's very fertile land and and over [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/454">TS</a>]
00:07:36 ◼ ► the course of of hundreds of years they [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/456">TS</a>]
00:07:39 ◼ ► they built up those properties so they [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/459">TS</a>]
00:07:42 ◼ ► have these beautiful barnes and you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/462">TS</a>]
00:07:44 ◼ ► like multiple big houses but but also [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/464">TS</a>]
00:07:48 ◼ ► like the crops that they're growing our [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/468">TS</a>]
00:07:51 ◼ ► are expensive and amid the farmers are [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/471">TS</a>]
00:07:54 ◼ ► the prosperous conservative burgers of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/474">TS</a>]
00:07:58 ◼ ► the of the community and growing up I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/478">TS</a>]
00:08:01 ◼ ► guess in the eighties I had this same [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/481">TS</a>]
00:08:03 ◼ ► idea that the that farmers were like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/483">TS</a>]
00:08:08 ◼ ► hard-working hardscrabble people to be a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/488">TS</a>]
00:08:14 ◼ ► not certainly didn't pity a farmer but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/494">TS</a>]
00:08:17 ◼ ► you you know you felt a lot of common [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/497">TS</a>]
00:08:20 ◼ ► cause and American empathy with a farmer [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/500">TS</a>]
00:08:23 ◼ ► they were the salt of the earth etc [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/503">TS</a>]
00:08:25 ◼ ► and you go to these places where the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/505">TS</a>]
00:08:29 ◼ ► where the farming is good and you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/509">TS</a>]
00:08:32 ◼ ► realize like Oh farmers are farmers can [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/512">TS</a>]
00:08:35 ◼ ► be the real Cadillac drivin like kind of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/515">TS</a>]
00:08:41 ◼ ► fat cats of a particular place and in in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/521">TS</a>]
00:08:48 ◼ ► both of those communities that part of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/528">TS</a>]
00:08:50 ◼ ► ohio in that part of Germany the ones [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/530">TS</a>]
00:08:52 ◼ ► that I that I know the farmers are the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/532">TS</a>]
00:08:55 ◼ ► political obstacle to you know to change [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/535">TS</a>]
00:09:00 ◼ ► and the farmers are the social obstacle [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/540">TS</a>]
00:09:04 ◼ ► conservative and and not at all like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/544">TS</a>]
00:09:10 ◼ ► John Cougar second on a chili dog [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/550">TS</a>]
00:09:13 ◼ ► somewhere they are you know they're [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/553">TS</a>]
00:09:17 ◼ ► they're wearing three-piece suits white [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/557">TS</a>]
00:09:19 ◼ ► living three-piece suits even yeah well [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/559">TS</a>]
00:09:22 ◼ ► I want to stimulate out there's anything [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/562">TS</a>]
00:09:23 ◼ ► wrong with being successful and having [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/563">TS</a>]
00:09:26 ◼ ► oh my god no no no oh we should all be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/566">TS</a>]
00:09:29 ◼ ► billionaires and just like mr. peanut [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/569">TS</a>]
00:09:31 ◼ ► there's nothing wrong with that it's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/571">TS</a>]
00:09:32 ◼ ► it's something about that word family [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/572">TS</a>]
00:09:34 ◼ ► where it's becoming the last maybe 20 or [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/574">TS</a>]
00:09:36 ◼ ► so years 25 years also since definitely [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/576">TS</a>]
00:09:39 ◼ ► since sometime post Moral Majority maybe [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/579">TS</a>]
00:09:43 ◼ ► but definitely work it's because I think [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/583">TS</a>]
00:09:46 ◼ ► something may be about the george HW [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/586">TS</a>]
00:09:49 ◼ ► bush era it may be in my head that's for [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/589">TS</a>]
00:09:51 ◼ ► family started become this heavily [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/591">TS</a>]
00:09:53 ◼ ► charged word you know about family [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/593">TS</a>]
00:09:56 ◼ ► values whether something is family [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/596">TS</a>]
00:09:59 ◼ ► friendly family and businesses likes a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/599">TS</a>]
00:10:02 ◼ ► walmart family family farms like the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/602">TS</a>]
00:10:06 ◼ ► ones that own giant you know parcels of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/606">TS</a>]
00:10:08 ◼ ► our great United States it's nothing [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/608">TS</a>]
00:10:10 ◼ ► nothing against that it's just that it's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/610">TS</a>]
00:10:12 ◼ ► a family is one of those cop out words [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/612">TS</a>]
00:10:15 ◼ ► were like once you say it it ends the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/615">TS</a>]
00:10:17 ◼ ► conversation because now you're talking [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/617">TS</a>]
00:10:19 ◼ ► well and it's it's the I think it's the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/619">TS</a>]
00:10:21 ◼ ► the corollary to the way that urban [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/621">TS</a>]
00:10:25 ◼ ► became synonymous with black it becomes [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/625">TS</a>]
00:10:30 ◼ ► euphemistic family is a euphemism for [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/630">TS</a>]
00:10:38 ◼ ► nuclear family for what sergeant Edward [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/638">TS</a>]
00:10:41 ◼ ► it's a code word right yeah that's a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/641">TS</a>]
00:10:42 ◼ ► good point because this is the whole [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/642">TS</a>]
00:10:44 ◼ ► this is the whole argument now like a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/644">TS</a>]
00:10:46 ◼ ► gays are trying to extend the franchise [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/646">TS</a>]
00:10:50 ◼ ► of family and so I mean everybody on the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/650">TS</a>]
00:10:53 ◼ ► left is trying to say we are also a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/653">TS</a>]
00:10:55 ◼ ► family we have a polyamorous family we [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/655">TS</a>]
00:10:57 ◼ ► are a family of Zoroastrianism we all we [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/657">TS</a>]
00:11:02 ◼ ► all want to be included in this kind of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/662">TS</a>]
00:11:04 ◼ ► family definition and all the rights [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/664">TS</a>]
00:11:08 ◼ ► that go with that and all the pushback [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/668">TS</a>]
00:11:11 ◼ ► from that makes you recognize that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/671">TS</a>]
00:11:13 ◼ ► Oh what family the reason we see family [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/673">TS</a>]
00:11:16 ◼ ► all the time is it is a code for it's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/676">TS</a>]
00:11:20 ◼ ► one of those codes you know what people [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/680">TS</a>]
00:11:22 ◼ ► who are part of the evangelical world [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/682">TS</a>]
00:11:24 ◼ ► they talk about like code words that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/684">TS</a>]
00:11:26 ◼ ► other evangelicals recognize but the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/686">TS</a>]
00:11:27 ◼ ► rest of us maybe won't who and family is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/687">TS</a>]
00:11:31 ◼ ► it's not one of those but it's like a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/691">TS</a>]
00:11:36 ◼ ► political code word for like white [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/696">TS</a>]
00:11:39 ◼ ► yeah and and it has the to me in the way [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/699">TS</a>]
00:11:43 ◼ ► it's been used over the last 25 years it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/703">TS</a>]
00:11:45 ◼ ► also has the implication of important [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/705">TS</a>]
00:11:47 ◼ ► distinctions that we don't even need to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/707">TS</a>]
00:11:49 ◼ ► talk about anymore even like black [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/709">TS</a>]
00:11:57 ◼ ► mexican be have like four or five [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/717">TS</a>]
00:11:58 ◼ ► families living in one house right and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/718">TS</a>]
00:12:02 ◼ ► god-knows-what what they're getting up [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/722">TS</a>]
00:12:03 ◼ ► to their ya sa family is like yeah right [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/723">TS</a>]
00:12:06 ◼ ► mom it's like mom dad grandma grandpa [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/726">TS</a>]
00:12:08 ◼ ► and then other grandma and grandpa who [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/728">TS</a>]
00:12:11 ◼ ► who live in florida right i had that my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/731">TS</a>]
00:12:18 ◼ ► god cracker wait a minute you know I as [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/738">TS</a>]
00:12:24 ◼ ► well as the whole time I never knew [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/744">TS</a>]
00:12:26 ◼ ► either of my grandfather's and I only [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/746">TS</a>]
00:12:31 ◼ ► met one of my grandmother's but she died [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/751">TS</a>]
00:12:37 ◼ ► grandparents is that your your mom's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/757">TS</a>]
00:12:40 ◼ ► mother of my mom's mom died in the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/760">TS</a>]
00:12:45 ◼ ► not in her thirties in the nineteen [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/765">TS</a>]
00:12:47 ◼ ► thirties and my dad's dad died in the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/767">TS</a>]
00:12:51 ◼ ► fifties and my dad my mom's dad I guess [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/771">TS</a>]
00:12:57 ◼ ► I did meet when I was an infant but he [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/777">TS</a>]
00:13:00 ◼ ► died in the eighties and then my dad's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/780">TS</a>]
00:13:02 ◼ ► mom died in like 1971's did 70 maybe so [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/782">TS</a>]
00:13:06 ◼ ► yeah didn't know any of them and I'm not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/786">TS</a>]
00:13:11 ◼ ► the worst stores right now you're doing [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/791">TS</a>]
00:13:14 ◼ ► yeah sure people love me I i have [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/794">TS</a>]
00:13:16 ◼ ► friends he passed on this doubt family [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/796">TS</a>]
00:13:19 ◼ ► values to to your family yeah my family [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/799">TS</a>]
00:13:22 ◼ ► values which are thank you for visiting [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/802">TS</a>]
00:13:25 ◼ ► don't let the doorknob hit you on the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/805">TS</a>]
00:13:28 ◼ ► way out to done here but you know people [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/808">TS</a>]
00:13:35 ◼ ► people did not used to live as long yeah [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/815">TS</a>]
00:13:36 ◼ ► i think we used to ride a lot harder [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/816">TS</a>]
00:13:38 ◼ ► i'll say that you look at pictures of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/818">TS</a>]
00:13:42 ◼ ► whatever and you know it's amazing how [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/822">TS</a>]
00:13:44 ◼ ► people in the early thirties looked the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/824">TS</a>]
00:13:47 ◼ ► part was the way they dress and carry [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/827">TS</a>]
00:13:48 ◼ ► themselves but Emma I've said this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/828">TS</a>]
00:13:51 ◼ ► graduated from high school and 1954 and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/831">TS</a>]
00:13:54 ◼ ► a fairly diverse urban high school but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/834">TS</a>]
00:13:58 ◼ ► at I mean everybody in there looks 50 [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/838">TS</a>]
00:14:00 ◼ ► yeah right well they're all trying to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/840">TS</a>]
00:14:03 ◼ ► look 50 you as my mom used to say [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/843">TS</a>]
00:14:05 ◼ ► because she graduated in my mom's 20 in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/845">TS</a>]
00:14:08 ◼ ► 1954 and 1954 arguably is the birth of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/848">TS</a>]
00:14:14 ◼ ► rock and roll right 5455 ya little early [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/854">TS</a>]
00:14:19 ◼ ► but that's the I think that's the proto [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/859">TS</a>]
00:14:21 ◼ ► definitely pro rock'n'roll yeah let's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/861">TS</a>]
00:14:23 ◼ ► say 56 is the birth of rock and roll [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/863">TS</a>]
00:14:25 ◼ ► so my mom's 2290 at the birth of rock [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/865">TS</a>]
00:14:29 ◼ ► and roll now right now if you were 22 [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/869">TS</a>]
00:14:34 ◼ ► years old at the birth of a new kind of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/874">TS</a>]
00:14:37 ◼ ► music former new art form you would be a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/877">TS</a>]
00:14:40 ◼ ► soldier of that form right i mean the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/880">TS</a>]
00:14:43 ◼ ► the kids that were 22 when indie rock [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/883">TS</a>]
00:14:46 ◼ ► was ascendant are like my lifelong fans [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/886">TS</a>]
00:14:58 ◼ ► children and she was already listening [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/898">TS</a>]
00:15:00 ◼ ► to jazz music and being sophisticated [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/900">TS</a>]
00:15:03 ◼ ► and drinking a little you know drinks [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/903">TS</a>]
00:15:07 ◼ ► out of cocktail glasses and like you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/907">TS</a>]
00:15:10 ◼ ► know what would you give up any of that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/910">TS</a>]
00:15:11 ◼ ► hard-earned adulthood to each finally [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/911">TS</a>]
00:15:15 ◼ ► yeah you had arrived at your majority [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/915">TS</a>]
00:15:17 ◼ ► and you weren't going to go back to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/917">TS</a>]
00:15:19 ◼ ► hanging out with bobby soxer right [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/919">TS</a>]
00:15:21 ◼ ► that's so different from now we're [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/921">TS</a>]
00:15:24 ◼ ► I mean honestly I feel like you and I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/924">TS</a>]
00:15:26 ◼ ► are both living a kind of prolonged [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/926">TS</a>]
00:15:28 ◼ ► childhood and everybody i know is yeah [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/928">TS</a>]
00:15:31 ◼ ► there's nothing on the radio this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/931">TS</a>]
00:15:32 ◼ ► morning about i always forget every if [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/932">TS</a>]
00:15:35 ◼ ► every March noise pop comes around you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/935">TS</a>]
00:15:38 ◼ ► and I mean there are few years not that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/938">TS</a>]
00:15:40 ◼ ► long ago where I mean couple years we've [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/940">TS</a>]
00:15:42 ◼ ► bought season that season passes but you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/942">TS</a>]
00:15:43 ◼ ► know all I'll show passes and stuff like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/943">TS</a>]
00:15:46 ◼ ► that and you know that we're in our [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/946">TS</a>]
00:15:48 ◼ ► forties doing that you know and kind of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/948">TS</a>]
00:15:52 ◼ ► hard to imagine your mom doing that in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/952">TS</a>]
00:15:55 ◼ ► like night like going to like an all-day [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/955">TS</a>]
00:16:01 ◼ ► yeah although now she loves you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/961">TS</a>]
00:16:05 ◼ ► she's come full circle of course loves [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/965">TS</a>]
00:16:07 ◼ ► rock news she doesn't want to be in the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/967">TS</a>]
00:16:08 ◼ ► business but that set but that sense of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/968">TS</a>]
00:16:10 ◼ ► like you look at the old you look at the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/970">TS</a>]
00:16:12 ◼ ► old high-school yearbook photos and you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/972">TS</a>]
00:16:14 ◼ ► feel like half those people are 40 [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/974">TS</a>]
00:16:16 ◼ ► already part of that is yeah right that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/976">TS</a>]
00:16:20 ◼ ► they only live to be 50 yeah and so they [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/980">TS</a>]
00:16:24 ◼ ► they were in middle age at 25 but I you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/984">TS</a>]
00:16:28 ◼ ► know and some of that maybe is that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/988">TS</a>]
00:16:30 ◼ ► we're not so gaunt anymore because we [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/990">TS</a>]
00:16:32 ◼ ► have that layer of sugar fat that makes [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/992">TS</a>]
00:16:36 ◼ ► well thank God for those energy drinks [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/996">TS</a>]
00:16:38 ◼ ► but i can finally getting some things [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/998">TS</a>]
00:16:40 ◼ ► accomplished everyone has the energy a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1000">TS</a>]
00:16:42 ◼ ► rockstar need i say more but I I keep [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1002">TS</a>]
00:16:47 ◼ ► like looking at Jennifer Aniston she is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1007">TS</a>]
00:16:49 ◼ ► my lodestone is that was that right she [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1009">TS</a>]
00:16:53 ◼ ► is my want to check your spelling on [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1013">TS</a>]
00:16:57 ◼ ► castor she is my what is it lonestar no [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1017">TS</a>]
00:17:00 ◼ ► I I don't know what I'm trying to say [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1020">TS</a>]
00:17:02 ◼ ► but Jennifer Aniston is about my age and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1022">TS</a>]
00:17:08 ◼ ► she was somebody that I I always [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1028">TS</a>]
00:17:13 ◼ ► understood it was she certainly was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1033">TS</a>]
00:17:16 ◼ ► considered a sex symbol in a very [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1036">TS</a>]
00:17:18 ◼ ► attractive girl in the in the culture [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1038">TS</a>]
00:17:20 ◼ ► when I was in my young twenties who and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1040">TS</a>]
00:17:24 ◼ ► I came out of nowhere she came out of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1044">TS</a>]
00:17:26 ◼ ► nowhere she didn't like three different [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1046">TS</a>]
00:17:27 ◼ ► pilots for shows before friends but none [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1047">TS</a>]
00:17:30 ◼ ► of us had ever seen no no and she was a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1050">TS</a>]
00:17:32 ◼ ► little bit you know she had a little bit [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1052">TS</a>]
00:17:34 ◼ ► chubby cheek chubby face like a chipmunk [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1054">TS</a>]
00:17:36 ◼ ► cheeks and she had that iconic hair she [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1056">TS</a>]
00:17:39 ◼ ► looks a little bit like jennifer grey [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1059">TS</a>]
00:17:41 ◼ ► she looked a little bit like Jennifer [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1061">TS</a>]
00:17:43 ◼ ► great thank you for connecting the dots [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1063">TS</a>]
00:17:45 ◼ ► who it's not i had that digs I had that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1065">TS</a>]
00:17:49 ◼ ► a that feeling where I was like I should [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1069">TS</a>]
00:17:53 ◼ ► be more attracted to her than I am [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1073">TS</a>]
00:17:57 ◼ ► you know that feeling when you're like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1077">TS</a>]
00:17:59 ◼ ► everything lines up with this girl [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1079">TS</a>]
00:18:01 ◼ ► yeah this should be should be my type [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1081">TS</a>]
00:18:03 ◼ ► yeah I like her face I like her I like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1083">TS</a>]
00:18:07 ◼ ► I even liked her silly hair like this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1087">TS</a>]
00:18:10 ◼ ► girl should be a should really get me [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1090">TS</a>]
00:18:14 ◼ ► should really get me going for some [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1094">TS</a>]
00:18:17 ◼ ► reason she doesn't she doesn't she [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1097">TS</a>]
00:18:19 ◼ ► doesn't completely and i remember [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1099">TS</a>]
00:18:23 ◼ ► somebody's house than friends would be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1103">TS</a>]
00:18:24 ◼ ► on that's a code for I didn't watch [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1104">TS</a>]
00:18:27 ◼ ► friends because I didn't have a TV [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1107">TS</a>]
00:18:29 ◼ ► because I don't read comic books at but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1109">TS</a>]
00:18:34 ◼ ► i would be over at somebody's house and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1114">TS</a>]
00:18:35 ◼ ► friends would come on and I would watch [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1115">TS</a>]
00:18:37 ◼ ► friends and i would i would be like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1117">TS</a>]
00:18:39 ◼ ► really zoomed in on Jennifer Aniston [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1119">TS</a>]
00:18:44 ◼ ► understand this I wanted to find some [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1124">TS</a>]
00:18:47 ◼ ► reason some clear moment where I was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1127">TS</a>]
00:18:50 ◼ ► like either yes i am now I'm totally [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1130">TS</a>]
00:18:52 ◼ ► into her or you know what no she doesn't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1132">TS</a>]
00:18:56 ◼ ► do it for me and I could never find the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1136">TS</a>]
00:18:58 ◼ ► breaking point and part of it was that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1138">TS</a>]
00:19:01 ◼ ► because the fashion of the nineties they [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1141">TS</a>]
00:19:05 ◼ ► always dressed her in clothes that were [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1145">TS</a>]
00:19:07 ◼ ► just baggy enough they could quite [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1147">TS</a>]
00:19:11 ◼ ► get a picture of the silhouette you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1151">TS</a>]
00:19:14 ◼ ► like what's under there I know she's a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1154">TS</a>]
00:19:18 ◼ ► young gal she's cute gal what's under [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1158">TS</a>]
00:19:21 ◼ ► all that all those baggy sweatshirts got [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1161">TS</a>]
00:19:25 ◼ ► some length of bone musical and I could [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1165">TS</a>]
00:19:29 ◼ ► never quite I couldn't get a picture [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1169">TS</a>]
00:19:31 ◼ ► under the under the silhouette you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1171">TS</a>]
00:19:33 ◼ ► like Courtney Cox you look at in here [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1173">TS</a>]
00:19:35 ◼ ► like she's a skinny girl she's a skinny [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1175">TS</a>]
00:19:37 ◼ ► girl with big boobs and I it and I the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1177">TS</a>]
00:19:40 ◼ ► past experiences has taught me that he [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1180">TS</a>]
00:19:43 ◼ ► got to be careful with the skinny girl [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1183">TS</a>]
00:19:44 ◼ ► with big boobs you just can't trust them [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1184">TS</a>]
00:19:46 ◼ ► but Jennifer and the jet maybe she's a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1186">TS</a>]
00:19:54 ◼ ► intellectually vexing to you maybe she's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1194">TS</a>]
00:19:56 ◼ ► a little bit thicker you know what I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1196">TS</a>]
00:19:58 ◼ ► mean maybe she's a maybe she's a small [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1198">TS</a>]
00:20:00 ◼ ► busted girl that's a little bit thicker [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1200">TS</a>]
00:20:01 ◼ ► like that that's a girl you can trust [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1201">TS</a>]
00:20:03 ◼ ► called a pear-shaped and he said she's a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1203">TS</a>]
00:20:06 ◼ ► petite she might she might be out [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1206">TS</a>]
00:20:09 ◼ ► somewhere in that you know she might be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1209">TS</a>]
00:20:10 ◼ ► a size two mining interests he says the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1210">TS</a>]
00:20:13 ◼ ► shutter Frances clothes for vexing you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1213">TS</a>]
00:20:15 ◼ ► faxing and so as time has gone on and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1215">TS</a>]
00:20:18 ◼ ► jennifer aniston has evolved but dare I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1218">TS</a>]
00:20:21 ◼ ► say it alongside me really simultaneous [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1221">TS</a>]
00:20:25 ◼ ► to who Jennifer Aniston's been growing [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1225">TS</a>]
00:20:27 ◼ ► up I've been growing upward we've been [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1227">TS</a>]
00:20:29 ◼ ► growing up together and I'm always [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1229">TS</a>]
00:20:33 ◼ ► looking out of my side mirror at [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1233">TS</a>]
00:20:37 ◼ ► Jennifer Aniston saying is she to issue [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1237">TS</a>]
00:20:41 ◼ ► do it for me yet like it's still the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1241">TS</a>]
00:20:43 ◼ ► ball still up in the air now she's 35 [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1243">TS</a>]
00:20:45 ◼ ► i'm 35 are you and you know and over [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1245">TS</a>]
00:20:49 ◼ ► time you know you see enough a celebrity [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1249">TS</a>]
00:20:52 ◼ ► beach photos over in a bathing suit that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1252">TS</a>]
00:20:54 ◼ ► you no longer have to guess and now [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1254">TS</a>]
00:20:57 ◼ ► Jennifer Aniston is 45 years old she's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1257">TS</a>]
00:21:00 ◼ ► still a very attractive woman and i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1260">TS</a>]
00:21:03 ◼ ► still cannot decide oh my gosh weather [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1263">TS</a>]
00:21:06 ◼ ► weather and and it may very well be one [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1266">TS</a>]
00:21:08 ◼ ► of those things were interviewed and if [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1268">TS</a>]
00:21:10 ◼ ► you're in the room with somebody and you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1270">TS</a>]
00:21:12 ◼ ► realize they just don't photograph to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1272">TS</a>]
00:21:14 ◼ ► your liking or just might be that we [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1274">TS</a>]
00:21:17 ◼ ► just having a chemical thing that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1277">TS</a>]
00:21:20 ◼ ► that prevents us from ever being [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1280">TS</a>]
00:21:21 ◼ ► together oh but you still can't tell i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1281">TS</a>]
00:21:25 ◼ ► don't know for sister kylie still gotta [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1285">TS</a>]
00:21:27 ◼ ► sneak a peek in the mirror i was asked [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1287">TS</a>]
00:21:30 ◼ ► at one point to audition for a film that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1290">TS</a>]
00:21:32 ◼ ► she was making in Vancouver where it was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1292">TS</a>]
00:21:36 ◼ ► like some indie rock movie or there were [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1296">TS</a>]
00:21:38 ◼ ► any rock bands as part of the plot and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1298">TS</a>]
00:21:41 ◼ ► maybe her romantic lead was an indie [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1301">TS</a>]
00:21:45 ◼ ► rock musician and I take a little bit of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1305">TS</a>]
00:21:51 ◼ ► who's gonna fall in love with one of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1311">TS</a>]
00:21:52 ◼ ► those but I I seriously considered [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1312">TS</a>]
00:21:55 ◼ ► auditioning for the film but at that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1315">TS</a>]
00:21:57 ◼ ► point in time i was missing one of my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1317">TS</a>]
00:21:59 ◼ ► teeth and I felt like I just don't see [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1319">TS</a>]
00:22:03 ◼ ► myself getting cast not only as the lead [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1323">TS</a>]
00:22:05 ◼ ► but it is that is self-awareness John [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1325">TS</a>]
00:22:11 ◼ ► you realize sure you could have a career [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1331">TS</a>]
00:22:13 ◼ ► as a character actor but maybe it's not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1333">TS</a>]
00:22:17 ◼ ► yeah well and also one at when I when I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1337">TS</a>]
00:22:20 ◼ ► went through that process I started [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1340">TS</a>]
00:22:22 ◼ ► thinking about other films and you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1342">TS</a>]
00:22:25 ◼ ► really don't see a lot of guys missing a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1345">TS</a>]
00:22:27 ◼ ► tooth in any rolled even as like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1347">TS</a>]
00:22:30 ◼ ► henchmen and four NN of the henchman is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1350">TS</a>]
00:22:35 ◼ ► it's usually a side tooth that's a side [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1355">TS</a>]
00:22:38 ◼ ► to so when he smiles he kind of pulls [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1358">TS</a>]
00:22:39 ◼ ► one side of his mouth back in you're [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1359">TS</a>]
00:22:41 ◼ ► like oh he's even missing one of his [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1361">TS</a>]
00:22:43 ◼ ► I think you only see that with makeup in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1363">TS</a>]
00:22:47 ◼ ► oh yeah maybe I think he ha had a high [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1367">TS</a>]
00:22:50 ◼ ► tolerance for two spaces two spaces but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1370">TS</a>]
00:22:52 ◼ ► I was missing one of my front teeth is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1372">TS</a>]
00:22:55 ◼ ► very prominent and I was missing it for [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1375">TS</a>]
00:22:57 ◼ ► a couple of years and i think at the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1377">TS</a>]
00:23:05 ◼ ► maybe I didn't register you know how [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1385">TS</a>]
00:23:09 ◼ ► profoundly that was sending a message to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1389">TS</a>]
00:23:11 ◼ ► casting agents who that I wasn't quite [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1391">TS</a>]
00:23:16 ◼ ► maybe you know just the right role never [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1396">TS</a>]
00:23:20 ◼ ► never came along em right well yeah [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1400">TS</a>]
00:23:23 ◼ ► that's the point where it started to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1403">TS</a>]
00:23:25 ◼ ► become clear that that was just a thing [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1405">TS</a>]
00:23:26 ◼ ► that you're going to do for a while it's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1406">TS</a>]
00:23:29 ◼ ► yeah well i think i think it was that I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1409">TS</a>]
00:23:32 ◼ ► objected to you know the the the Cabal [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1412">TS</a>]
00:23:38 ◼ ► of dentists God and the way that they [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1418">TS</a>]
00:23:41 ◼ ► run our run our culture just Hollywood [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1421">TS</a>]
00:23:45 ◼ ► in the bank's they just assumed the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1425">TS</a>]
00:23:57 ◼ ► the dentists just assume that I was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1437">TS</a>]
00:24:00 ◼ ► gonna wear some kind of flipper to that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1440">TS</a>]
00:24:04 ◼ ► would get that was basically like a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1444">TS</a>]
00:24:06 ◼ ► peanut butter trap like it was a it was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1446">TS</a>]
00:24:10 ◼ ► a whole mental apparatus that was going [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1450">TS</a>]
00:24:13 ◼ ► to just sit there and collect peanut [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1453">TS</a>]
00:24:14 ◼ ► butter all day and I was like I'm not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1454">TS</a>]
00:24:16 ◼ ► gonna wear that that's a torture device [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1456">TS</a>]
00:24:18 ◼ ► they're like well your other options [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1458">TS</a>]
00:24:20 ◼ ► walk around without a tooth so yeah you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1460">TS</a>]
00:24:22 ◼ ► are going to wear it was like so fast oh [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1462">TS</a>]
00:24:25 ◼ ► really well watch me now they are so [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1465">TS</a>]
00:24:28 ◼ ► smug John they've got it all figured out [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1468">TS</a>]
00:24:31 ◼ ► yep they got they got a solution and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1471">TS</a>]
00:24:33 ◼ ► here's what it costs you know that I'm [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1473">TS</a>]
00:24:34 ◼ ► so mad at god damn dentists are so [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1474">TS</a>]
00:24:36 ◼ ► frustrating to me they're really [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1476">TS</a>]
00:24:38 ◼ ► frustrating to me i don't know why i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1478">TS</a>]
00:24:39 ◼ ► can't just go in there and get my teeth [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1479">TS</a>]
00:24:42 ◼ ► well you know I think what it is is they [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1482">TS</a>]
00:24:44 ◼ ► have done miraculous work when you think [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1484">TS</a>]
00:24:45 ◼ ► about people when you think about people [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1485">TS</a>]
00:24:47 ◼ ► in the past people that we were just [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1487">TS</a>]
00:24:48 ◼ ► talking about who looked prematurely old [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1488">TS</a>]
00:24:50 ◼ ► a lot of them were suffering tooth pain [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1490">TS</a>]
00:24:54 ◼ ► and a lot of them died early because [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1494">TS</a>]
00:24:58 ◼ ► yeah and now three basically the reason [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1498">TS</a>]
00:25:02 ◼ ► we all live to be a hundred years old is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1502">TS</a>]
00:25:04 ◼ ► that we have dentists they are our life [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1504">TS</a>]
00:25:07 ◼ ► givers we just want a little malcolm [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1507">TS</a>]
00:25:09 ◼ ► gladwell me there yet up as a knock-on [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1509">TS</a>]
00:25:12 ◼ ► effect of the dentistry profession being [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1512">TS</a>]
00:25:14 ◼ ► widespread heavily insured or is it just [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1514">TS</a>]
00:25:17 ◼ ► well know that they haven't they have [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1517">TS</a>]
00:25:19 ◼ ► improved their technology so that we [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1519">TS</a>]
00:25:21 ◼ ► know lot so that we are not walking [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1521">TS</a>]
00:25:25 ◼ ► low-grade infection in our mouths or a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1525">TS</a>]
00:25:29 ◼ ► which tied around her head yeah right [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1529">TS</a>]
00:25:31 ◼ ► Morgan who we no longer have to sit [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1531">TS</a>]
00:25:34 ◼ ► bracing ourselves on the public stocks [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1534">TS</a>]
00:25:36 ◼ ► in the center in the town square while [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1536">TS</a>]
00:25:38 ◼ ► someone attaches oh god a tooth 2002 a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1538">TS</a>]
00:25:42 ◼ ► team of horses but so so yeah we do owe [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1542">TS</a>]
00:25:48 ◼ ► them our lives but it has spread in them [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1548">TS</a>]
00:25:54 ◼ ► indispensable and I suppose they are but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1554">TS</a>]
00:25:58 ◼ ► now I see immediate that take above [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1558">TS</a>]
00:26:01 ◼ ► optometrist nothing against optometrist [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1561">TS</a>]
00:26:03 ◼ ► I got a terrible lecture the last time i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1563">TS</a>]
00:26:05 ◼ ► went in from a young dental hygienist [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1565">TS</a>]
00:26:08 ◼ ► where I I honestly I i got snippy with [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1568">TS</a>]
00:26:13 ◼ ► her i said i know how to brush my teeth [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1573">TS</a>]
00:26:17 ◼ ► you don't have to show me what she was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1577">TS</a>]
00:26:19 ◼ ► gearing up she was getting her to get [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1579">TS</a>]
00:26:21 ◼ ► underlying demoed getting her little [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1581">TS</a>]
00:26:24 ◼ ► carpenter a demo toothbrush and a fan of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1584">TS</a>]
00:26:26 ◼ ► fake mouth of teeth and she was like let [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1586">TS</a>]
00:26:28 ◼ ► me show you how to brush brush your [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1588">TS</a>]
00:26:30 ◼ ► teeth and I was like are you fucking [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1590">TS</a>]
00:26:32 ◼ ► I'm 45 years old I know how to brush my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1592">TS</a>]
00:26:35 ◼ ► teeth get out of here and you know and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1595">TS</a>]
00:26:38 ◼ ► she was like oh well you know she [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1598">TS</a>]
00:26:40 ◼ ► reacted a little bit like a stewardess [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1600">TS</a>]
00:26:42 ◼ ► oh I'm sorry sir well I'm just trying to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1602">TS</a>]
00:26:48 ◼ ► take your fucking life uh-huh ask you I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1608">TS</a>]
00:26:51 ◼ ► could ask you one thing it's not too [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1611">TS</a>]
00:26:54 ◼ ► not at all um how is or was the juice [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1614">TS</a>]
00:27:01 ◼ ► well did you you're on day three of that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1621">TS</a>]
00:27:03 ◼ ► last time we visited yeah yeah I uh I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1623">TS</a>]
00:27:06 ◼ ► well let's say ninety percent completed [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1626">TS</a>]
00:27:10 ◼ ► the juice fast 93% because in the an [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1630">TS</a>]
00:27:13 ◼ ► afternoon of the third day of the juice [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1633">TS</a>]
00:27:15 ◼ ► fast i realized that a juice fast is a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1635">TS</a>]
00:27:18 ◼ ► it's a it's terrible idea and it does [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1638">TS</a>]
00:27:22 ◼ ► not it does not suit me at all like I've [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1642">TS</a>]
00:27:25 ◼ ► spent the last six months weaning myself [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1645">TS</a>]
00:27:27 ◼ ► off of sugar and then i gave I went on [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1647">TS</a>]
00:27:31 ◼ ► some crackpot scheme where for three [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1651">TS</a>]
00:27:35 ◼ ► days I just drank sugar water like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1655">TS</a>]
00:27:39 ◼ ► because that's what you said is even [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1659">TS</a>]
00:27:42 ◼ ► kale juice is just the sugar out of kale [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1662">TS</a>]
00:27:45 ◼ ► this and and so by the by the end of the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1665">TS</a>]
00:27:49 ◼ ► third day I mean I was on this i was in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1669">TS</a>]
00:27:52 ◼ ► this terrible cycle of like I would [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1672">TS</a>]
00:27:54 ◼ ► drink a glass of juice i would feel [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1674">TS</a>]
00:27:55 ◼ ► great for 20 minutes and then I would [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1675">TS</a>]
00:27:57 ◼ ► almost completely shut down I was like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1677">TS</a>]
00:28:00 ◼ ► the Scarecrow in The Wizard of Oz like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1680">TS</a>]
00:28:03 ◼ ► my limbs would go limp my head would [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1683">TS</a>]
00:28:05 ◼ ► would drop to my chest and I would like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1685">TS</a>]
00:28:08 ◼ ► service drag myself over to the couch [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1688">TS</a>]
00:28:12 ◼ ► where I would lay in a kind of half [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1692">TS</a>]
00:28:14 ◼ ► comatose state until it was time to get [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1694">TS</a>]
00:28:18 ◼ ► up and make another juice and then I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1698">TS</a>]
00:28:20 ◼ ► would feel for it for 30 minutes and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1700">TS</a>]
00:28:22 ◼ ► then it was just like the the sugar went [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1702">TS</a>]
00:28:25 ◼ ► right through me and it just felt like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1705">TS</a>]
00:28:28 ◼ ► who and so by the end of that third day [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1708">TS</a>]
00:28:30 ◼ ► I was like what am i doing to myself [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1710">TS</a>]
00:28:32 ◼ ► like I'm only I'm only I'm only trying [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1712">TS</a>]
00:28:36 ◼ ► to see this through to notch three day [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1716">TS</a>]
00:28:40 ◼ ► juice fast off of my belt somehow like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1720">TS</a>]
00:28:43 ◼ ► the world status bucket list uniform he [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1723">TS</a>]
00:28:49 ◼ ► yep Judy Garland the gravesite check i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1729">TS</a>]
00:28:53 ◼ ► think the artist's way morning pages and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1733">TS</a>]
00:28:58 ◼ ► and so I was just like I i protest this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1738">TS</a>]
00:29:04 ◼ ► juice fast now like I was really into a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1744">TS</a>]
00:29:06 ◼ ► day one I was I was pretty solid in it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1746">TS</a>]
00:29:09 ◼ ► all three day to even day three I was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1749">TS</a>]
00:29:13 ◼ ► this is just gonna this is the thing and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1753">TS</a>]
00:29:15 ◼ ► it was not hunger it wasn't it wasn't a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1755">TS</a>]
00:29:21 ◼ ► recognition that I was that by day three [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1761">TS</a>]
00:29:24 ◼ ► I was just poisoning myself every time I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1764">TS</a>]
00:29:30 ◼ ► who and so I just said this is terrible [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1770">TS</a>]
00:29:34 ◼ ► and and and and what had some food and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1774">TS</a>]
00:29:37 ◼ ► felt immediately better i have i have ID [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1777">TS</a>]
00:29:43 ◼ ► I did quit drinking caffeine and now I'm [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1783">TS</a>]
00:29:46 ◼ ► completely off caffeine and it took me [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1786">TS</a>]
00:29:52 ◼ ► five days for the pain to go out of my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1792">TS</a>]
00:29:55 ◼ ► joints so as i get older it is just it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1795">TS</a>]
00:29:59 ◼ ► you know like I'm not a complete case [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1799">TS</a>]
00:30:03 ◼ ► study but anecdotally it is taking [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1803">TS</a>]
00:30:06 ◼ ► longer to wean myself off of caffeine [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1806">TS</a>]
00:30:13 ◼ ► yeah it used to be three days in and out [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1813">TS</a>]
00:30:15 ◼ ► but you missed it so you honestly I mean [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1815">TS</a>]
00:30:17 ◼ ► not exaggerating you have been drinking [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1817">TS</a>]
00:30:19 ◼ ► a fair amount of coffee each day like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1819">TS</a>]
00:30:22 ◼ ► yeah I mean you know the finger that not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1822">TS</a>]
00:30:25 ◼ ► drinking alcohol and then eliminating [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1825">TS</a>]
00:30:27 ◼ ► juice and soda pop from my diet the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1827">TS</a>]
00:30:32 ◼ ► number of interesting drinks i can have [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1832">TS</a>]
00:30:34 ◼ ► yeah is really low and and I can drink [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1834">TS</a>]
00:30:39 ◼ ► afternoon but come on I would become a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1839">TS</a>]
00:30:44 ◼ ► well I don't and also in my nature I am [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1844">TS</a>]
00:30:48 ◼ ► a substance abuser like I want to abuse [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1848">TS</a>]
00:30:52 ◼ ► substances it isn't a thing like I don't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1852">TS</a>]
00:30:55 ◼ ► have a spiritual beef with it who I want [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1855">TS</a>]
00:30:58 ◼ ► to do it and if you give me a substance [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1858">TS</a>]
00:31:01 ◼ ► to abuse I will and I in college I was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1861">TS</a>]
00:31:03 ◼ ► it was mountain dew I would drink 64 [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1863">TS</a>]
00:31:05 ◼ ► ounces of mountain dew every afternoon [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1865">TS</a>]
00:31:07 ◼ ► Wow and I felt amazing mountain dew is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1867">TS</a>]
00:31:11 ◼ ► delicious but a scarecrow for you you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1871">TS</a>]
00:31:15 ◼ ► that's right how's the Cowardly hypno [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1875">TS</a>]
00:31:18 ◼ ► attention to the quick running around [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1878">TS</a>]
00:31:21 ◼ ► the living written but but uh but you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1881">TS</a>]
00:31:25 ◼ ► can't be a forty-five-year-old and drink [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1885">TS</a>]
00:31:27 ◼ ► 64 ounces amount to a day and so what I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1887">TS</a>]
00:31:30 ◼ ► did have was coffee my good old friend [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1890">TS</a>]
00:31:34 ◼ ► coffee rely old reliable and so it it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1894">TS</a>]
00:31:37 ◼ ► wasn't just that I drank like three [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1897">TS</a>]
00:31:39 ◼ ► large cups of coffee in the morning it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1899">TS</a>]
00:31:41 ◼ ► was that I then I went out to lunch and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1901">TS</a>]
00:31:42 ◼ ► I had a couple of cups of coffee with [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1902">TS</a>]
00:31:45 ◼ ► the with whoever I was having lunch with [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1905">TS</a>]
00:31:47 ◼ ► and then at dinner I would get a cup a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1907">TS</a>]
00:31:51 ◼ ► cup of coffee and so throughout the day [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1911">TS</a>]
00:31:58 ◼ ► sometimes more and it was just my my my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1918">TS</a>]
00:32:02 ◼ ► only friend my reliable little because I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1922">TS</a>]
00:32:06 ◼ ► quit smoking cigarettes too so it huh [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1926">TS</a>]
00:32:08 ◼ ► I don't have that Lake little friend and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1928">TS</a>]
00:32:12 ◼ ► you know as a as a substance explorer to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1932">TS</a>]
00:32:19 ◼ ► have a little friends to have a little [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1939">TS</a>]
00:32:21 ◼ ► crunch somebody that's always there for [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1941">TS</a>]
00:32:25 ◼ ► you when you start to when your mind [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1945">TS</a>]
00:32:27 ◼ ► starts to get away when you use your [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1947">TS</a>]
00:32:29 ◼ ► fingers start to move fidget fidget [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1949">TS</a>]
00:32:31 ◼ ► fidget where's my little friend I need a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1951">TS</a>]
00:32:34 ◼ ► little bit and I was realizing this the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1954">TS</a>]
00:32:38 ◼ ► other day I was talking to Crystal lieu [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1958">TS</a>]
00:32:39 ◼ ► of the presidents of the USA and he he [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1959">TS</a>]
00:32:44 ◼ ► was not a not chastising me but he was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1964">TS</a>]
00:32:48 ◼ ► admonishing us that we that we that we [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1968">TS</a>]
00:32:50 ◼ ► hardly ever really talk about the the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1970">TS</a>]
00:32:53 ◼ ► spiritual realm talking about the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1973">TS</a>]
00:32:56 ◼ ► well no not not not at all that chris is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1976">TS</a>]
00:32:59 ◼ ► that you and he never talked about it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1979">TS</a>]
00:33:01 ◼ ► don't know that you and I know okay and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1981">TS</a>]
00:33:02 ◼ ► religious listener of the program and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1982">TS</a>]
00:33:04 ◼ ► that we never talk we are not you and I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1984">TS</a>]
00:33:07 ◼ ► are not Buddhists per se like we don't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1987">TS</a>]
00:33:11 ◼ ► and I and I and I reflected on what he [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1991">TS</a>]
00:33:14 ◼ ► said and thought about like i am not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1994">TS</a>]
00:33:16 ◼ ► generally trying to transcend my ego [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1996">TS</a>]
00:33:19 ◼ ► that is not well that's that's not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/1999">TS</a>]
00:33:23 ◼ ► really on the first page that is not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2003">TS</a>]
00:33:25 ◼ ► what you think that's a little bit of a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2005">TS</a>]
00:33:27 ◼ ► boost in a barrel but that's not like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2007">TS</a>]
00:33:33 ◼ ► I know but you know i was introduced to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2013">TS</a>]
00:33:34 ◼ ► these concepts many years ago and I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2014">TS</a>]
00:33:37 ◼ ► always imagined of myself that I would [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2017">TS</a>]
00:33:40 ◼ ► be pursuing a spiritual life you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2020">TS</a>]
00:33:42 ◼ ► i'm not against rock music I'm I've got [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2022">TS</a>]
00:33:45 ◼ ► a great deal of the rock music wanted [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2025">TS</a>]
00:33:47 ◼ ► first manifested itself from are you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2027">TS</a>]
00:33:53 ◼ ► Mark Twain after John Robert one minute [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2033">TS</a>]
00:33:57 ◼ ► downright planning to you I'm I'm not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2037">TS</a>]
00:34:01 ◼ ► unfamiliar with with Buddhism it's a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2041">TS</a>]
00:34:10 ◼ ► well-informed Merlin Mann as out [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2050">TS</a>]
00:34:15 ◼ ► Holbrook man is Albert colebrook is John [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2055">TS</a>]
00:34:19 ◼ ► Roderick in any case um uh but you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2059">TS</a>]
00:34:24 ◼ ► I thought I I always thought that i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2064">TS</a>]
00:34:26 ◼ ► would i would add some point in my life [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2066">TS</a>]
00:34:28 ◼ ► pursue a spiritual path that what you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2068">TS</a>]
00:34:32 ◼ ► know that was Siddhartha like where I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2072">TS</a>]
00:34:35 ◼ ► would go sit in on a bridge and study [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2075">TS</a>]
00:34:38 ◼ ► the river and you know and just then it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2078">TS</a>]
00:34:44 ◼ ► then it would be a better year would [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2084">TS</a>]
00:34:46 ◼ ► pass several quitter public aside to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2086">TS</a>]
00:34:48 ◼ ► Chris blew up Chris there's a really [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2088">TS</a>]
00:34:52 ◼ ► really good reason we don't talk about [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2092">TS</a>]
00:34:54 ◼ ► this on the show up what you're hearing [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2094">TS</a>]
00:34:56 ◼ ► now is the part that you can hear about [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2096">TS</a>]
00:34:59 ◼ ► what what you don't hear is a couple [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2099">TS</a>]
00:35:01 ◼ ► episodes i will be happy to say haha but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2101">TS</a>]
00:35:06 ◼ ► everybody said we'll sit on the marathon [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2106">TS</a>]
00:35:08 ◼ ► he can you learn how you feel about [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2108">TS</a>]
00:35:10 ◼ ► no no no let's let's leave that in the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2110">TS</a>]
00:35:12 ◼ ► little bit of the salt mine in utah dt [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2112">TS</a>]
00:35:16 ◼ ► cartridges are the Roderick on the lines [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2116">TS</a>]
00:35:19 ◼ ► that have never aired are just waiting [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2119">TS</a>]
00:35:21 ◼ ► for the historian trying to lose their [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2121">TS</a>]
00:35:23 ◼ ► ego but I i think that our Dominican [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2123">TS</a>]
00:35:27 ◼ ► friends in the hills of San Francisco is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2127">TS</a>]
00:35:32 ◼ ► up there probably in a in a cold cell a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2132">TS</a>]
00:35:37 ◼ ► half the day trying to a lot of time on [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2137">TS</a>]
00:35:39 ◼ ► his iphone job it does yeah that I don't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2139">TS</a>]
00:35:43 ◼ ► dominicans these days they don't they [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2143">TS</a>]
00:35:46 ◼ ► don't think the bear flagellating [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2146">TS</a>]
00:35:50 ◼ ► yeah I'm or if he's got some kind of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2150">TS</a>]
00:35:52 ◼ ► icky flagellation app in a modulation [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2152">TS</a>]
00:35:56 ◼ ► he swings his iphone / shoulder and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2156">TS</a>]
00:35:59 ◼ ► makes us sound about leveled up to their [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2159">TS</a>]
00:36:04 ◼ ► shirt silver hello boom we have fun and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2164">TS</a>]
00:36:13 ◼ ► yeah it's in a spirit of Eagle asst yeah [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2173">TS</a>]
00:36:17 ◼ ► i wish that we could be less ego full [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2177">TS</a>]
00:36:20 ◼ ► I'm fine to talk about this thing's this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2180">TS</a>]
00:36:22 ◼ ► yeah I decided you know I know I know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2182">TS</a>]
00:36:27 ◼ ► yeah I hi dexterity pretty good charisma [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2187">TS</a>]
00:36:33 ◼ ► mhm i always like that thing where our [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2193">TS</a>]
00:36:36 ◼ ► monks could like fall down a wall was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2196">TS</a>]
00:36:39 ◼ ► like four feet per level something like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2199">TS</a>]
00:36:41 ◼ ► that remember them must have months had [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2201">TS</a>]
00:36:43 ◼ ► a power where they could get the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2203">TS</a>]
00:36:46 ◼ ► quivering palm you remember that I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2206">TS</a>]
00:36:48 ◼ ► remember I remember reading about it in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2208">TS</a>]
00:36:50 ◼ ► the dungeon master can you do i I didn't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2210">TS</a>]
00:36:52 ◼ ► actually play D&D i just read it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2212">TS</a>]
00:36:53 ◼ ► yeah that's the tragedy of that i never [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2213">TS</a>]
00:36:57 ◼ ► played the game enough to get out of the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2217">TS</a>]
00:37:02 ◼ ► just like let's go to war stage who and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2222">TS</a>]
00:37:06 ◼ ► I think that real dnd players spend a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2226">TS</a>]
00:37:08 ◼ ► lot of time like getting water from the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2228">TS</a>]
00:37:10 ◼ ► well like I go to get water from the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2230">TS</a>]
00:37:12 ◼ ► well somebody rolls of a seven sided [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2232">TS</a>]
00:37:17 ◼ ► Oh clothes on the basis of excited [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2237">TS</a>]
00:37:21 ◼ ► states within the well you see a leaf on [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2241">TS</a>]
00:37:30 ◼ ► no I'm the same way I mean for the fun [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2250">TS</a>]
00:37:34 ◼ ► everything whether that's where that's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2254">TS</a>]
00:37:37 ◼ ► beware example but with the rock and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2257">TS</a>]
00:37:38 ◼ ► roll with D&D with history and there's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2258">TS</a>]
00:37:43 ◼ ► all kinds of stuff where I i did I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2263">TS</a>]
00:37:44 ◼ ► haven't participated in it just wanted [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2264">TS</a>]
00:37:48 ◼ ► yeah yeah yeah now I bet out now I was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2268">TS</a>]
00:37:52 ◼ ► discovered that I enters at least the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2272">TS</a>]
00:37:53 ◼ ► D&D stuff and yeah Rocco stuck to their [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2273">TS</a>]
00:37:56 ◼ ► a lot of people who just read about dnd [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2276">TS</a>]
00:37:59 ◼ ► oh yeah well I think this is the same [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2279">TS</a>]
00:38:00 ◼ ► thing with Buddhism we just want to get [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2280">TS</a>]
00:38:03 ◼ ► just get to the part where uh where are [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2283">TS</a>]
00:38:08 ◼ ► oh boy what a Salesman Buddhism has in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2288">TS</a>]
00:38:15 ◼ ► you you just climb up to the top of the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2295">TS</a>]
00:38:18 ◼ ► ladder right and then yeah you got the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2298">TS</a>]
00:38:21 ◼ ► Buddhism ladder yeah you get the top of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2301">TS</a>]
00:38:23 ◼ ► the Buddhism rather than looking down on [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2303">TS</a>]
00:38:24 ◼ ► everybody and now he called a nine-run [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2304">TS</a>]
00:38:26 ◼ ► ladder you've got legal business [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2306">TS</a>]
00:38:29 ◼ ► oh my god down pit from the high ground [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2309">TS</a>]
00:38:31 ◼ ► you got acting all fancy talking about [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2311">TS</a>]
00:38:34 ◼ ► vegetarian food that's number four I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2314">TS</a>]
00:38:35 ◼ ► watching the river and not watching the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2315">TS</a>]
00:38:41 ◼ ► first there is a mountain that there is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2321">TS</a>]
00:38:45 ◼ ► and then there's a mountain mm then [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2325">TS</a>]
00:38:48 ◼ ► paradoxes right seven is paradox is sick [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2328">TS</a>]
00:38:51 ◼ ► there is no number seven number eight [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2331">TS</a>]
00:38:55 ◼ ► you do not talk about Fight Club or nine [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2335">TS</a>]
00:38:57 ◼ ► location location location location [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2337">TS</a>]
00:39:01 ◼ ► that's the tenants of Buddhism number 10 [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2341">TS</a>]
00:39:04 ◼ ► were you just not listening to number [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2344">TS</a>]
00:39:08 ◼ ► yeah i see i don't understand why you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2348">TS</a>]
00:39:13 ◼ ► can't just eat all the vegetables and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2353">TS</a>]
00:39:15 ◼ ► fruits we gonna do some what's the point [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2355">TS</a>]
00:39:17 ◼ ► of juicing that's the thing as you say [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2357">TS</a>]
00:39:19 ◼ ► what I think they're yeah you throw you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2359">TS</a>]
00:39:21 ◼ ► got away from there pretty fast number [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2361">TS</a>]
00:39:23 ◼ ► 11 as he does you as you said before you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2363">TS</a>]
00:39:26 ◼ ► throw a master of spinach into the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2366">TS</a>]
00:39:28 ◼ ► blender and eight and you get a symbol [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2368">TS</a>]
00:39:31 ◼ ► of spinach juice and you say wow all [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2371">TS</a>]
00:39:33 ◼ ► that spinach went into this thimble and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2373">TS</a>]
00:39:36 ◼ ► it's not like that isn't the fucking [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2376">TS</a>]
00:39:37 ◼ ► spinach fiber where all the good stuff [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2377">TS</a>]
00:39:39 ◼ ► isn't believes you're forgetting that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2379">TS</a>]
00:39:42 ◼ ► there's a huge hopper there's basically [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2382">TS</a>]
00:39:43 ◼ ► a dumpster behind this juicer where all [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2383">TS</a>]
00:39:46 ◼ ► the spinach and looks like it's a good [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2386">TS</a>]
00:39:47 ◼ ► Chinese food buffet gets left behind [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2387">TS</a>]
00:39:49 ◼ ► yeah right exactly it's the it's the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2389">TS</a>]
00:39:51 ◼ ► like cooked cooked green matter it's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2391">TS</a>]
00:40:01 ◼ ► yeah i've read comic books and you had a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2401">TS</a>]
00:40:03 ◼ ► boy a but seriously it's just so the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2403">TS</a>]
00:40:07 ◼ ► juice but parties but I mean setting [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2407">TS</a>]
00:40:08 ◼ ► aside that it maybe there's some lady [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2408">TS</a>]
00:40:10 ◼ ► boss thing about probation but it is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2410">TS</a>]
00:40:12 ◼ ► supposed to get a cleanse the idea is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2412">TS</a>]
00:40:13 ◼ ► that you're not adding to the junk [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2413">TS</a>]
00:40:16 ◼ ► you've got in your body and with certain [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2416">TS</a>]
00:40:17 ◼ ► kinds of lenses ad is really taking in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2417">TS</a>]
00:40:20 ◼ ► new stuff that's helping you get rid of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2420">TS</a>]
00:40:22 ◼ ► whatever it's called toxins rather [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2422">TS</a>]
00:40:24 ◼ ► adding new ones is kind of the notion [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2424">TS</a>]
00:40:26 ◼ ► right it gives your body a chance to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2426">TS</a>]
00:40:27 ◼ ► stabilize and kinda like reset the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2427">TS</a>]
00:40:29 ◼ ► faders that kind of idea i guess but i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2429">TS</a>]
00:40:32 ◼ ► feel like i feel like there there there [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2432">TS</a>]
00:40:34 ◼ ► are two there are two cultures at war [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2434">TS</a>]
00:40:37 ◼ ► here and maybe maybe we're back to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2437">TS</a>]
00:40:39 ◼ ► talking about the humors into that let's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2439">TS</a>]
00:40:42 ◼ ► talk about the humors but there are [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2442">TS</a>]
00:40:45 ◼ ► talking about your blood and the and the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2445">TS</a>]
00:40:48 ◼ ► relative like a viscosity of the sugar [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2448">TS</a>]
00:40:52 ◼ ► in it and then there are these other [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2452">TS</a>]
00:40:54 ◼ ► people talking about your gut and like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2454">TS</a>]
00:40:58 ◼ ► oh you need to get all of that hardened [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2458">TS</a>]
00:41:00 ◼ ► fecal matter out of your bowel so you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2460">TS</a>]
00:41:02 ◼ ► need to take all this juice and then [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2462">TS</a>]
00:41:03 ◼ ► it's like well now I'm hypoglycemic but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2463">TS</a>]
00:41:06 ◼ ► a but somehow I've cleaned out my colon [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2466">TS</a>]
00:41:09 ◼ ► like I know I know that there is a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2469">TS</a>]
00:41:10 ◼ ► holistic way to approach living that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2470">TS</a>]
00:41:15 ◼ ► involves the nine steps there's this and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2475">TS</a>]
00:41:18 ◼ ► I think at this point just unless [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2478">TS</a>]
00:41:19 ◼ ► comments that the 13 now it's a 13 [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2479">TS</a>]
00:41:22 ◼ ► they're doing ladder 13 wrong ladder of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2482">TS</a>]
00:41:25 ◼ ► Buddhism the 13 throne is get it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2485">TS</a>]
00:41:30 ◼ ► yeah you just reach the Tory bitch nice [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2490">TS</a>]
00:41:33 ◼ ► make it centori times tonight is special [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2493">TS</a>]
00:41:39 ◼ ► now the 12 but yeah the 12th is colon [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2499">TS</a>]
00:41:42 ◼ ► yeah and the 13th wrong isbell oh but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2502">TS</a>]
00:41:46 ◼ ► like I don't want to sacrifice the the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2506">TS</a>]
00:41:48 ◼ ► hard-won gains I've made in my blood to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2508">TS</a>]
00:41:52 ◼ ► a to check to flushing have heavily [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2512">TS</a>]
00:41:55 ◼ ► impacted little friends that you have as [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2515">TS</a>]
00:41:57 ◼ ► such this user you have old friends down [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2517">TS</a>]
00:42:00 ◼ ► there you don't want to make them leave [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2520">TS</a>]
00:42:01 ◼ ► yeah and that then and ultimately like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2521">TS</a>]
00:42:03 ◼ ► for me because the substance abuse a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2523">TS</a>]
00:42:07 ◼ ► gene in me it just sits there and throbs [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2527">TS</a>]
00:42:11 ◼ ► all the time like is there something [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2531">TS</a>]
00:42:13 ◼ ► that you can do I mean I honestly I feel [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2533">TS</a>]
00:42:15 ◼ ► like for a long time magazine's were all [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2535">TS</a>]
00:42:19 ◼ ► the magazines that sounds real stupid [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2539">TS</a>]
00:42:22 ◼ ► but it's true you guess I can I've [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2542">TS</a>]
00:42:24 ◼ ► accidentally become a magazine person [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2544">TS</a>]
00:42:26 ◼ ► sometimes I know I was definitely with [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2546">TS</a>]
00:42:27 ◼ ► comics for awhile musicians call an [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2547">TS</a>]
00:42:30 ◼ ► inch-and-a-half comics a weekend just [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2550">TS</a>]
00:42:32 ◼ ► yeah and there and they they scratch [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2552">TS</a>]
00:42:35 ◼ ► that say Mitch was just like what do i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2555">TS</a>]
00:42:37 ◼ ► do what do i do oh I've got this i've [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2557">TS</a>]
00:42:39 ◼ ► got a magazine i'm going to sit and read [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2559">TS</a>]
00:42:40 ◼ ► this magazine and and it got so that i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2560">TS</a>]
00:42:43 ◼ ► was reading magazine six hours a day and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2563">TS</a>]
00:42:45 ◼ ► the magazines you know they give you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2565">TS</a>]
00:42:47 ◼ ► this people they'll owe you and now I'm [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2567">TS</a>]
00:42:49 ◼ ► picturing a little a little that little [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2569">TS</a>]
00:42:54 ◼ ► it looks like you want to sign forty [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2574">TS</a>]
00:42:56 ◼ ► dollars and it was an afternoon would [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2576">TS</a>]
00:42:59 ◼ ► you like to read the Atlantic cow and so [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2579">TS</a>]
00:43:01 ◼ ► you feel like oh yes i would like to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2581">TS</a>]
00:43:03 ◼ ► read all the hallways and actually if [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2583">TS</a>]
00:43:05 ◼ ► you're getting might be back in the day [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2585">TS</a>]
00:43:07 ◼ ► right we're getting the Atlantic get [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2587">TS</a>]
00:43:09 ◼ ► Harper's because that's that's brain [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2589">TS</a>]
00:43:10 ◼ ► food right a brain food and you come out [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2590">TS</a>]
00:43:12 ◼ ► of there all informed and stuff but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2592">TS</a>]
00:43:14 ◼ ► you're just informed it you're informed [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2594">TS</a>]
00:43:18 ◼ ► that a superficial level about stuff [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2598">TS</a>]
00:43:23 ◼ ► non-essential and and and ran really [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2603">TS</a>]
00:43:27 ◼ ► like life is passing you by like that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2607">TS</a>]
00:43:29 ◼ ► was six hours that you didn't go [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2609">TS</a>]
00:43:30 ◼ ► rollerblading or whatever one of this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2610">TS</a>]
00:43:33 ◼ ► you know i mean that's 14k right if [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2613">TS</a>]
00:43:38 ◼ ► there's the there's the normal 14 hours [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2618">TS</a>]
00:43:40 ◼ ► that you weren't rollerblading and then [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2620">TS</a>]
00:43:41 ◼ ► another 60 you're not rollerbladed you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2621">TS</a>]
00:43:43 ◼ ► know what's funny though not in this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2623">TS</a>]
00:43:45 ◼ ► rambling I'm sorry I'm sick of my brains [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2625">TS</a>]
00:43:47 ◼ ► not working well but in all this stuff [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2627">TS</a>]
00:43:48 ◼ ► that there are a couple threads through [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2628">TS</a>]
00:43:50 ◼ ► all the stuff we're talking about [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2630">TS</a>]
00:43:50 ◼ ► perhaps not accidentally and it's about [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2630">TS</a>]
00:43:53 ◼ ► how our bodies will is a lot our body [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2633">TS</a>]
00:43:56 ◼ ► and our our our mind or soul like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2636">TS</a>]
00:43:58 ◼ ► whatever whatever part of it part of it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2638">TS</a>]
00:44:00 ◼ ► part of us that makes us is such a black [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2640">TS</a>]
00:44:04 ◼ ► it really is because you know we know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2644">TS</a>]
00:44:06 ◼ ► that there are certain kinds of stuff [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2646">TS</a>]
00:44:08 ◼ ► that we put into our black box that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2648">TS</a>]
00:44:10 ◼ ► makes us feel good at the time makes us [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2650">TS</a>]
00:44:11 ◼ ► feel terrible later there's other kinds [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2651">TS</a>]
00:44:13 ◼ ► of stuff as you learned over the years [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2653">TS</a>]
00:44:15 ◼ ► that you put into your body and you're [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2655">TS</a>]
00:44:17 ◼ ► not sure how it makes you feel but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2657">TS</a>]
00:44:18 ◼ ► you're pretty sure it's not making you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2658">TS</a>]
00:44:19 ◼ ► feel better and then talk about a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2659">TS</a>]
00:44:21 ◼ ► function machine like a you know I guess [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2661">TS</a>]
00:44:25 ◼ ► is like a Schrodinger catbox kind of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2665">TS</a>]
00:44:27 ◼ ► thing but something where there's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2667">TS</a>]
00:44:28 ◼ ► there's a process that happens inside in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2668">TS</a>]
00:44:30 ◼ ► any black box you know theory or factory [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2670">TS</a>]
00:44:32 ◼ ► talking about there's something goes in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2672">TS</a>]
00:44:33 ◼ ► we know that when something comes out [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2673">TS</a>]
00:44:36 ◼ ► over here but we have no way of even [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2676">TS</a>]
00:44:38 ◼ ► knowing what happens inside of the box [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2678">TS</a>]
00:44:40 ◼ ► but we know something happens right so I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2680">TS</a>]
00:44:42 ◼ ► don't know if you didn't interesting [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2682">TS</a>]
00:44:43 ◼ ► because sometimes i think one appeal of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2683">TS</a>]
00:44:47 ◼ ► something like messing your juice fast [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2687">TS</a>]
00:44:49 ◼ ► one appeal of whether that's the crazy [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2689">TS</a>]
00:44:52 ◼ ► diet or the forgive my saying cult-like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2692">TS</a>]
00:44:55 ◼ ► religions or the get-rich-quick scheme [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2695">TS</a>]
00:44:58 ◼ ► or any of those kinds of things is that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2698">TS</a>]
00:45:00 ◼ ► they make it seem like the blacks black [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2700">TS</a>]
00:45:03 ◼ ► can be understood and that you if [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2703">TS</a>]
00:45:08 ◼ ► there's the usual should be away at a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2708">TS</a>]
00:45:10 ◼ ► steady stream of this going in will [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2710">TS</a>]
00:45:12 ◼ ► cause I reliable confident stream of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2712">TS</a>]
00:45:16 ◼ ► this coming out and that's I mean that I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2716">TS</a>]
00:45:18 ◼ ► mean that exactly as abstract as I'm [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2718">TS</a>]
00:45:19 ◼ ► putting it yes if you simplify your life [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2719">TS</a>]
00:45:21 ◼ ► he stopped sinning you pray more you do [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2721">TS</a>]
00:45:24 ◼ ► good work you tithe you can pretty much [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2724">TS</a>]
00:45:26 ◼ ► expect that whatever's going on that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2726">TS</a>]
00:45:28 ◼ ► black box there's going to be a good [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2728">TS</a>]
00:45:30 ◼ ► life that comes out on the other side [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2730">TS</a>]
00:45:31 ◼ ► even if it's not in this world would be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2731">TS</a>]
00:45:33 ◼ ► one if you simplify your diet enough you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2733">TS</a>]
00:45:36 ◼ ► could even all that shit you eat and all [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2736">TS</a>]
00:45:37 ◼ ► those cheeseburgers and multitudes and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2737">TS</a>]
00:45:40 ◼ ► get down to something as simple as the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2740">TS</a>]
00:45:41 ◼ ► juice of natural organic plants you can [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2741">TS</a>]
00:45:44 ◼ ► expect that your health will improve [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2744">TS</a>]
00:45:45 ◼ ► whatever is going on in that black box [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2745">TS</a>]
00:45:47 ◼ ► there's gonna be stuff that you don't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2747">TS</a>]
00:45:49 ◼ ► need to know don't worry about that but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2749">TS</a>]
00:45:50 ◼ ► will come out of that is that you will [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2750">TS</a>]
00:45:52 ◼ ► your body will operate better right [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2752">TS</a>]
00:45:54 ◼ ► there's something really appealing about [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2754">TS</a>]
00:45:55 ◼ ► a way to like try and I mean this is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2755">TS</a>]
00:45:58 ◼ ► just so obvious but i think it's it's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2758">TS</a>]
00:46:01 ◼ ► when we stop understanding i will never [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2761">TS</a>]
00:46:04 ◼ ► really understand the black box but when [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2764">TS</a>]
00:46:05 ◼ ► it's hard to go like I'm I'm sick of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2765">TS</a>]
00:46:07 ◼ ► feeling like shit like i'm so tired of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2767">TS</a>]
00:46:10 ◼ ► being tired all the time i'm tired of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2770">TS</a>]
00:46:11 ◼ ► being the Scarecrow i'm tired of juicing [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2771">TS</a>]
00:46:14 ◼ ► things i'm tired of reading the Bible [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2774">TS</a>]
00:46:15 ◼ ► whatever that is i don't know i think [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2775">TS</a>]
00:46:16 ◼ ► that's the eternal class whether you're [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2776">TS</a>]
00:46:18 ◼ ► a substance abuser at any level or not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2778">TS</a>]
00:46:20 ◼ ► is like trying to trying to reach that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2780">TS</a>]
00:46:23 ◼ ► equilibrium to where you stop notice it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2783">TS</a>]
00:46:25 ◼ ► being bad eventually noticed getting [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2785">TS</a>]
00:46:27 ◼ ► better and eventually God willing you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2787">TS</a>]
00:46:29 ◼ ► stop noticing anything happening at all [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2789">TS</a>]
00:46:32 ◼ ► yeah I i have been reflecting a lot on [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2792">TS</a>]
00:46:37 ◼ ► the attitudes that I carried with me for [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2797">TS</a>]
00:46:41 ◼ ► many years that I see in people all [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2801">TS</a>]
00:46:45 ◼ ► around me that are that are in some ways [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2805">TS</a>]
00:46:48 ◼ ► the the opposite or the response to what [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2808">TS</a>]
00:46:52 ◼ ► you were just saying which is the i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2812">TS</a>]
00:46:55 ◼ ► remember a time when I would say to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2815">TS</a>]
00:46:59 ◼ ► myself what is the point of life if I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2819">TS</a>]
00:47:04 ◼ ► like I don't want to land and I and I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2824">TS</a>]
00:47:07 ◼ ► meant that like I don't want to live in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2827">TS</a>]
00:47:13 ◼ ► restricted from anything I kind of want [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2833">TS</a>]
00:47:17 ◼ ► to live not only like in a in a in a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2837">TS</a>]
00:47:25 ◼ ► experience is truncated but where I am [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2845">TS</a>]
00:47:28 ◼ ► I'm measuring my food or I'm i'm in any [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2848">TS</a>]
00:47:34 ◼ ► way a portioning experience to myself in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2854">TS</a>]
00:47:37 ◼ ► a restricted way and so living fully [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2857">TS</a>]
00:47:42 ◼ ► meant living without limits and I hear [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2862">TS</a>]
00:47:47 ◼ ► that in various forms from people from [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2867">TS</a>]
00:47:50 ◼ ► fully grown people all the time you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2870">TS</a>]
00:47:53 ◼ ► and it and it and it's it's a kind of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2873">TS</a>]
00:47:55 ◼ ► response to any attempts to really [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2875">TS</a>]
00:48:02 ◼ ► yeah to control oneself beforehand right [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2882">TS</a>]
00:48:06 ◼ ► like hearing from people like to like be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2886">TS</a>]
00:48:10 ◼ ► mindful e reject something that you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2890">TS</a>]
00:48:14 ◼ ► well it won't talk about guns it's the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2894">TS</a>]
00:48:17 ◼ ► know it's the logic of like like if I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2897">TS</a>]
00:48:23 ◼ ► well what why would I live you know what [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2903">TS</a>]
00:48:25 ◼ ► if i could meet stake my life would be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2905">TS</a>]
00:48:26 ◼ ► miserable if I couldn't drink alcohol my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2906">TS</a>]
00:48:28 ◼ ► life would be miserable if I couldn't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2908">TS</a>]
00:48:30 ◼ ► eat pizza my life would be miserable [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2910">TS</a>]
00:48:31 ◼ ► like the the presumption that that the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2911">TS</a>]
00:48:36 ◼ ► that these the foodstuffs or experiences [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2916">TS</a>]
00:48:43 ◼ ► or something are the source or are the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2923">TS</a>]
00:48:46 ◼ ► key of life they are the prize they are [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2926">TS</a>]
00:48:48 ◼ ► the reason they are the like without [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2928">TS</a>]
00:48:51 ◼ ► being able to eat steak where is the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2931">TS</a>]
00:48:54 ◼ ► enjoyment in life really is the logic [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2934">TS</a>]
00:48:56 ◼ ► mostly talking about variously various [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2936">TS</a>]
00:49:00 ◼ ► forms of intense sensory input most of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2940">TS</a>]
00:49:03 ◼ ► well and and and i don't like things [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2943">TS</a>]
00:49:05 ◼ ► like if I'd manuf I if I can't go to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2945">TS</a>]
00:49:07 ◼ ► imax movies anymore if I can't eat a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2947">TS</a>]
00:49:09 ◼ ► giant steak if I can't have a cigarette [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2949">TS</a>]
00:49:10 ◼ ► if I can take a shot of whiskey but the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2950">TS</a>]
00:49:13 ◼ ► ultimate one is when you look at a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2953">TS</a>]
00:49:14 ◼ ► priest and say how could you how could [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2954">TS</a>]
00:49:17 ◼ ► you live a celibate life like giving up [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2957">TS</a>]
00:49:23 ◼ ► like what would be the point of this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2963">TS</a>]
00:49:24 ◼ ► what would be the point of why would why [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2964">TS</a>]
00:49:27 ◼ ► would you why would you live like I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2967">TS</a>]
00:49:29 ◼ ► remember thinking that very clearly [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2969">TS</a>]
00:49:32 ◼ ► imagining that the worst thing that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2972">TS</a>]
00:49:33 ◼ ► could happen to you would be that you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2973">TS</a>]
00:49:35 ◼ ► would get injured and stuff away in such [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2975">TS</a>]
00:49:37 ◼ ► a way that you were you deprived is like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2977">TS</a>]
00:49:39 ◼ ► the primary reason it's awesome to be a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2979">TS</a>]
00:49:42 ◼ ► yeah right and the primary like why why [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2982">TS</a>]
00:49:45 ◼ ► interact with other people if you aren't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2985">TS</a>]
00:49:47 ◼ ► you know if you're not trying to have [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2987">TS</a>]
00:49:49 ◼ ► sex with them or their sisters so as you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2989">TS</a>]
00:49:54 ◼ ► get older and in particularly in my own [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2994">TS</a>]
00:49:56 ◼ ► experience like oh the more stuff that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2996">TS</a>]
00:49:59 ◼ ► you the more stuff that you just kind of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/2999">TS</a>]
00:50:01 ◼ ► dispense with like oh yeah I don't like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3001">TS</a>]
00:50:05 ◼ ► I don't need to eat pizza pizza's great [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3005">TS</a>]
00:50:10 ◼ ► i'm not i'm not empty pizza but pizza [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3010">TS</a>]
00:50:14 ◼ ► isn't central to like today being a good [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3014">TS</a>]
00:50:17 ◼ ► day and not being able to have it and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3017">TS</a>]
00:50:21 ◼ ► not being able to have sex you know like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3021">TS</a>]
00:50:22 ◼ ► none of those things are central to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3022">TS</a>]
00:50:25 ◼ ► having an enjoyable ex human experience [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3025">TS</a>]
00:50:29 ◼ ► and and the like a profound human [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3029">TS</a>]
00:50:32 ◼ ► experience and so and I guess it's part [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3032">TS</a>]
00:50:35 ◼ ► part of like when you imagine somebody [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3035">TS</a>]
00:50:37 ◼ ► who is like Stephen Hawking you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3037">TS</a>]
00:50:42 ◼ ► confined to a chair and not even really [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3042">TS</a>]
00:50:44 ◼ ► able to communicate without great effort [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3044">TS</a>]
00:50:46 ◼ ► and yet he still is deriving great [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3046">TS</a>]
00:50:49 ◼ ► pleasure for being alive he you know he [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3049">TS</a>]
00:50:53 ◼ ► wants to be alive he is like living a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3053">TS</a>]
00:50:56 ◼ ► full life and it's all happening in his [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3056">TS</a>]
00:51:00 ◼ ► um and then you then you can trust that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3060">TS</a>]
00:51:05 ◼ ► with with like I get every every one of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3065">TS</a>]
00:51:08 ◼ ► these experiments experiments i take i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3068">TS</a>]
00:51:10 ◼ ► go out in the world I talk to my friends [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3070">TS</a>]
00:51:12 ◼ ► like a lot of pushback particularly from [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3072">TS</a>]
00:51:13 ◼ ► rock-and-roll people was just like you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3073">TS</a>]
00:51:17 ◼ ► cigarette just despite the fact was like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3077">TS</a>]
00:51:22 ◼ ► Jason fit but up haha judge Jason would [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3082">TS</a>]
00:51:29 ◼ ► dip a cigarette liquid cocaine and stick [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3089">TS</a>]
00:51:38 ◼ ► no but trying but but you know but but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3098">TS</a>]
00:51:42 ◼ ► you don't want to be a drag either and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3102">TS</a>]
00:51:44 ◼ ► you don't want to be a you don't want to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3104">TS</a>]
00:51:46 ◼ ► you don't want to follow this path so [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3106">TS</a>]
00:51:49 ◼ ► that you're outside of everything you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3109">TS</a>]
00:51:52 ◼ ► I've never gotten that from you I mean I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3112">TS</a>]
00:51:54 ◼ ► said I feel like I I never what we're [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3114">TS</a>]
00:51:57 ◼ ► talking to do you know you can say can [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3117">TS</a>]
00:52:00 ◼ ► do things that you that you believe [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3120">TS</a>]
00:52:02 ◼ ► about the world including things like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3122">TS</a>]
00:52:03 ◼ ► substances but I've never in any [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3123">TS</a>]
00:52:05 ◼ ► situation ever seen you looking like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3125">TS</a>]
00:52:07 ◼ ► scally even around drunk people I've [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3127">TS</a>]
00:52:09 ◼ ► never I don't think I've ever seen you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3129">TS</a>]
00:52:11 ◼ ► which i think is really amazing like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3131">TS</a>]
00:52:13 ◼ ► when I'm around people who have decided [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3133">TS</a>]
00:52:14 ◼ ► to stop doing substances I still feel [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3134">TS</a>]
00:52:18 ◼ ► lame i feel like i feel not guilty but I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3138">TS</a>]
00:52:22 ◼ ► feel weird about it and I'm unconscious [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3142">TS</a>]
00:52:26 ◼ ► about that around you but in situations [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3146">TS</a>]
00:52:28 ◼ ► where it's way more than me where it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3148">TS</a>]
00:52:29 ◼ ► could be like a whole backstage area [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3149">TS</a>]
00:52:30 ◼ ► with everybody running around or at a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3150">TS</a>]
00:52:32 ◼ ► club right somewhere like work maybe we [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3152">TS</a>]
00:52:35 ◼ ► could do a show and people are having [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3155">TS</a>]
00:52:36 ◼ ► drinks or something i don't see like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3156">TS</a>]
00:52:38 ◼ ► looking at the corner of your eye like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3158">TS</a>]
00:52:39 ◼ ► in a g-way oh no no I don't mean a drag [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3159">TS</a>]
00:52:42 ◼ ► that way I mean a drag the other way [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3162">TS</a>]
00:52:47 ◼ ► like I am so into my trip that I'm just [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3167">TS</a>]
00:52:53 ◼ ► boring to talk to or or interact with [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3173">TS</a>]
00:52:56 ◼ ► not that not that I'm looking at other [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3176">TS</a>]
00:52:58 ◼ ► people and saying like oh man you need [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3178">TS</a>]
00:52:59 ◼ ► to get with the program you need to find [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3179">TS</a>]
00:53:02 ◼ ► that you need to eat just drink press [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3182">TS</a>]
00:53:04 ◼ ► sunflower oil like I've been doing for [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3184">TS</a>]
00:53:06 ◼ ► the last four years but but no just that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3186">TS</a>]
00:53:09 ◼ ► I would be that I would be taken out of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3189">TS</a>]
00:53:12 ◼ ► life to the extent that i know that i am [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3192">TS</a>]
00:53:16 ◼ ► no longer able to participate in the and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3196">TS</a>]
00:53:19 ◼ ► honest truth is like having a eliminated [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3199">TS</a>]
00:53:22 ◼ ► almost all vice with the exception of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3202">TS</a>]
00:53:25 ◼ ► like you know interpersonal devices that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3205">TS</a>]
00:53:29 ◼ ► could be without this interpersonal [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3209">TS</a>]
00:53:31 ◼ ► vices are are all I have now and it's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3211">TS</a>]
00:53:36 ◼ ► but that's why I need your loads but but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3216">TS</a>]
00:53:41 ◼ ► the other you know all the other [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3221">TS</a>]
00:53:43 ◼ ► chemical vices and and and material [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3223">TS</a>]
00:53:46 ◼ ► vices like I've eliminated most of them [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3226">TS</a>]
00:53:50 ◼ ► and yet i still am able to to be right [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3230">TS</a>]
00:53:53 ◼ ► in the center of a of a Bacchanalia and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3233">TS</a>]
00:53:57 ◼ ► not feel either that I'm dis included or [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3237">TS</a>]
00:54:03 ◼ ► that that I'm bringing anybody down [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3243">TS</a>]
00:54:06 ◼ ► you know like people all around me are [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3246">TS</a>]
00:54:08 ◼ ► our I all the time and they know how I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3248">TS</a>]
00:54:12 ◼ ► feel about it they know i feel about [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3252">TS</a>]
00:54:13 ◼ ► them and I and yet I'd I guess I don't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3253">TS</a>]
00:54:18 ◼ ► feel like I'm I don't feel it that I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3258">TS</a>]
00:54:20 ◼ ► inhibit them and and and partly it is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3260">TS</a>]
00:54:23 ◼ ► that I'm that having cut all those [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3263">TS</a>]
00:54:26 ◼ ► things out of my life I do not register [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3266">TS</a>]
00:54:28 ◼ ► any fewer problems in my own life you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3268">TS</a>]
00:54:32 ◼ ► know what I mean like what i've done is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3272">TS</a>]
00:54:34 ◼ ► i have eliminated the following problems [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3274">TS</a>]
00:54:38 ◼ ► I no longer like hacking cough for 20 [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3278">TS</a>]
00:54:42 ◼ ► minutes when i first wake up in the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3282">TS</a>]
00:54:43 ◼ ► morning like wake up with an injury you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3283">TS</a>]
00:54:46 ◼ ► can't explain I that sucks i almost [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3286">TS</a>]
00:54:49 ◼ ► never have that although I was not even [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3289">TS</a>]
00:54:51 ◼ ► had that the right i mean isn't that's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3291">TS</a>]
00:54:53 ◼ ► that's a terrible feeling i mean even [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3293">TS</a>]
00:54:55 ◼ ► just waking up for me like you used to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3295">TS</a>]
00:54:57 ◼ ► be just waking up somewhere and clearly [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3297">TS</a>]
00:54:59 ◼ ► not quite sure how I ended up here and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3299">TS</a>]
00:55:03 ◼ ► what the hour before that look like in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3303">TS</a>]
00:55:06 ◼ ► the that I was having this conversation [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3306">TS</a>]
00:55:08 ◼ ► with some with a good friend the other [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3308">TS</a>]
00:55:10 ◼ ► day and she said you have a really [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3310">TS</a>]
00:55:12 ◼ ► amazing memory and I was like well it's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3312">TS</a>]
00:55:17 ◼ ► hard for me to to it's hard for me to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3317">TS</a>]
00:55:19 ◼ ► say because I don't know what it's like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3319">TS</a>]
00:55:21 ◼ ► to be inside other people's minds but i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3321">TS</a>]
00:55:24 ◼ ► am for years and years I assumed that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3324">TS</a>]
00:55:27 ◼ ► people were lying or faking when they [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3327">TS</a>]
00:55:31 ◼ ► sometimes like stuff that just happened [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3331">TS</a>]
00:55:35 ◼ ► recently who like what you mean you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3335">TS</a>]
00:55:38 ◼ ► I mean this is a bone of contention with [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3338">TS</a>]
00:55:40 ◼ ► people where they would say oh I ran [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3340">TS</a>]
00:55:42 ◼ ► into amazing clots and i would say Oh [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3342">TS</a>]
00:55:45 ◼ ► what amazing say oh she said that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3345">TS</a>]
00:55:48 ◼ ► everything's cool no I mean exactly what [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3348">TS</a>]
00:55:50 ◼ ► did she say like you said hi Maisie and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3350">TS</a>]
00:55:52 ◼ ► she said what I don't remember she said [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3352">TS</a>]
00:55:55 ◼ ► that everything was cool and it was like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3355">TS</a>]
00:55:57 ◼ ► that inability to remember conversations [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3357">TS</a>]
00:55:59 ◼ ► to remember conversations as though they [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3359">TS</a>]
00:56:02 ◼ ► were scripts blackout I can take i find [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3362">TS</a>]
00:56:06 ◼ ► that utterly magical being able to do [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3366">TS</a>]
00:56:09 ◼ ► that and and I can barely remember the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3369">TS</a>]
00:56:11 ◼ ► gist of the conversation I've ever have [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3371">TS</a>]
00:56:13 ◼ ► a lot of the names of the people that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3373">TS</a>]
00:56:15 ◼ ► were there and for me like when I meet [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3375">TS</a>]
00:56:17 ◼ ► somebody on the street i am recording [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3377">TS</a>]
00:56:19 ◼ ► our conversation in my in my memory like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3379">TS</a>]
00:56:24 ◼ ► yeah like it's a screenplay and i'm very [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3384">TS</a>]
00:56:27 ◼ ► excited about it when i talk to somebody [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3387">TS</a>]
00:56:28 ◼ ► later and they're like and and and rich [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3388">TS</a>]
00:56:31 ◼ ► sometimes months later i can recall the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3391">TS</a>]
00:56:35 ◼ ► conversation and the and the whole arc [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3395">TS</a>]
00:56:38 ◼ ► of it and what the salient point of it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3398">TS</a>]
00:56:40 ◼ ► was and and also liked what i thought [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3400">TS</a>]
00:56:43 ◼ ► that person was thinking while we were [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3403">TS</a>]
00:56:45 ◼ ► talking I mean I'm recording that stuff [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3405">TS</a>]
00:56:47 ◼ ► and I'm not doing it intentionally it's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3407">TS</a>]
00:56:49 ◼ ► just happening over and I always assumed [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3409">TS</a>]
00:56:51 ◼ ► that happen for everybody so I was I was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3411">TS</a>]
00:56:53 ◼ ► just I was stunned when people would [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3413">TS</a>]
00:56:55 ◼ ► relate conversations it's like a perfect [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3415">TS</a>]
00:56:58 ◼ ► pitch where you just go like oh well why [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3418">TS</a>]
00:57:00 ◼ ► would you not hear that that's an F [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3420">TS</a>]
00:57:02 ◼ ► sharp right and so even when I was the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3422">TS</a>]
00:57:05 ◼ ► most fucked up on on drugs and alcohol [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3425">TS</a>]
00:57:09 ◼ ► I never really blacked out and I never [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3429">TS</a>]
00:57:13 ◼ ► woke up in the morning and failed to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3433">TS</a>]
00:57:15 ◼ ► remember why my pillow was covered with [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3435">TS</a>]
00:57:19 ◼ ► like I would wake up in the morning I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3439">TS</a>]
00:57:20 ◼ ► would go oh right and and part of that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3440">TS</a>]
00:57:23 ◼ ► or up some of the fallout from that is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3443">TS</a>]
00:57:27 ◼ ► that I cannot forget some of the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3447">TS</a>]
00:57:30 ◼ ► episodes that i would most like to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3450">TS</a>]
00:57:33 ◼ ► forget and I think people who don't have [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3453">TS</a>]
00:57:40 ◼ ► because they because those in those like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3460">TS</a>]
00:57:44 ◼ ► psychic injuries that happen to them [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3464">TS</a>]
00:57:46 ◼ ► when they were young fade quickly and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3466">TS</a>]
00:57:49 ◼ ► fade to like us just become kind of a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3469">TS</a>]
00:57:53 ◼ ► smear and I can really go back to every [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3473">TS</a>]
00:57:56 ◼ ► one of the every bad episode and just [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3476">TS</a>]
00:57:59 ◼ ► relive the whole thing in in Technicolor [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3479">TS</a>]
00:58:03 ◼ ► wow if I allow myself to and that is not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3483">TS</a>]
00:58:06 ◼ ► it's not great it's not fun so so that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3486">TS</a>]
00:58:11 ◼ ► is that's like one of the one of the the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3491">TS</a>]
00:58:14 ◼ ► Bombers of being built the way I am as [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3494">TS</a>]
00:58:16 ◼ ► this is this ability to recall you think [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3496">TS</a>]
00:58:19 ◼ ► mythology like no matter what what no [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3499">TS</a>]
00:58:22 ◼ ► matter what horrible thing it's like you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3502">TS</a>]
00:58:24 ◼ ► know Gary all I have eternal life [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3504">TS</a>]
00:58:26 ◼ ► yeah I get to watch everybody ever loved [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3506">TS</a>]
00:58:29 ◼ ► I right first years i can read any [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3509">TS</a>]
00:58:32 ◼ ► paying you oh I broke my glasses that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3512">TS</a>]
00:58:35 ◼ ► time enough at last it's Billy money [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3515">TS</a>]
00:58:38 ◼ ► whoo-hoo so so I so I feel like I feel [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3518">TS</a>]
00:58:45 ◼ ► like the substance abuse thing in my own [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3525">TS</a>]
00:58:51 ◼ ► life like cutting out all the drugs [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3531">TS</a>]
00:58:54 ◼ ► cutting out all of the I mean everything [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3534">TS</a>]
00:58:59 ◼ ► that could potentially everything that I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3539">TS</a>]
00:59:01 ◼ ► could take refuge in against reality [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3541">TS</a>]
00:59:06 ◼ ► eliminating those things has eliminated [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3546">TS</a>]
00:59:10 ◼ ► all the side effects of them but we all [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3550">TS</a>]
00:59:14 ◼ ► the problems that are somewhat unique to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3554">TS</a>]
00:59:17 ◼ ► that the culture of being somebody who [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3557">TS</a>]
00:59:20 ◼ ► yeah right and and all of the and all of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3560">TS</a>]
00:59:21 ◼ ► the side effects that are specific to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3561">TS</a>]
00:59:23 ◼ ► each individual drug like the the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3563">TS</a>]
00:59:26 ◼ ► hangover that you get from from gym is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3566">TS</a>]
00:59:29 ◼ ► different than the hangover you get from [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3569">TS</a>]
00:59:31 ◼ ► wine you remember them all remember them [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3571">TS</a>]
00:59:34 ◼ ► all but what what what continues to be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3574">TS</a>]
00:59:39 ◼ ► true is that I have all of the problems [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3579">TS</a>]
00:59:41 ◼ ► with reality that i always had have all [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3581">TS</a>]
00:59:45 ◼ ► the problems integrating with the world [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3585">TS</a>]
00:59:48 ◼ ► and the challenge has been here that the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3588">TS</a>]
00:59:55 ◼ ► challenge with the birth or the the the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3595">TS</a>]
00:59:57 ◼ ► story of the black box that you're [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3597">TS</a>]
01:00:00 ◼ ► that you not only are you not only if [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3600">TS</a>]
01:00:03 ◼ ► you if you join Scientology are you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3603">TS</a>]
01:00:05 ◼ ► going to stop being an alcoholic but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3605">TS</a>]
01:00:07 ◼ ► also all the root problems are going to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3607">TS</a>]
01:00:09 ◼ ► go away to and and that is true of kind [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3609">TS</a>]
01:00:14 ◼ ► of every religious cult of every diet [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3614">TS</a>]
01:00:16 ◼ ► plan I mean nobody ever says go on this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3616">TS</a>]
01:00:18 ◼ ► crash diet you lose a bunch of weight [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3618">TS</a>]
01:00:22 ◼ ► miserable bitter angry son of a bit [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3622">TS</a>]
01:00:24 ◼ ► listen it's a magic way of seeing the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3624">TS</a>]
01:00:27 ◼ ► world that leads to a magic way of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3627">TS</a>]
01:00:29 ◼ ► solving your problems through like a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3629">TS</a>]
01:00:32 ◼ ► magic way of fixing all the things that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3632">TS</a>]
01:00:35 ◼ ► and it's all magic and for me the there [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3635">TS</a>]
01:00:38 ◼ ► has never been there's never been a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3638">TS</a>]
01:00:42 ◼ ► thing either a drug i took or quitting [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3642">TS</a>]
01:00:45 ◼ ► doing that drug that really made it any [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3645">TS</a>]
01:00:48 ◼ ► easier to get up in the morning light [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3648">TS</a>]
01:00:50 ◼ ► you know now I mean like quite the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3650">TS</a>]
01:00:53 ◼ ► contrary and that's why people drink and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3653">TS</a>]
01:00:55 ◼ ► that's that's that's the fucking point [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3655">TS</a>]
01:00:58 ◼ ► yeah that's why that's why speed is so [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3658">TS</a>]
01:01:01 ◼ ► tantalizing well it's it's it's you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3661">TS</a>]
01:01:03 ◼ ► it does make it easier to get up in the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3663">TS</a>]
01:01:05 ◼ ► morn there's this one's for Chris [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3665">TS</a>]
01:01:08 ◼ ► there's a Buddhist parable called the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3668">TS</a>]
01:01:11 ◼ ► the parable of the 84th problem uh is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3671">TS</a>]
01:01:15 ◼ ► that that's a jay-z song that's right [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3675">TS</a>]
01:01:17 ◼ ► bitch ain't one guy goes it goes to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3677">TS</a>]
01:01:20 ◼ ► second goes into a bar he goes up to the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3680">TS</a>]
01:01:23 ◼ ► to the the master that's and always [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3683">TS</a>]
01:01:24 ◼ ► always in one of the stories and he says [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3684">TS</a>]
01:01:26 ◼ ► about these problems i got you know it's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3686">TS</a>]
01:01:28 ◼ ► like he's got the life of job like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3688">TS</a>]
01:01:29 ◼ ► everything's just tits up in this guy's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3689">TS</a>]
01:01:31 ◼ ► lowlife his wife's cheating on his crops [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3691">TS</a>]
01:01:33 ◼ ► are dying he's got he's got problems [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3693">TS</a>]
01:01:34 ◼ ► kids are assholes and he just goes on he [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3694">TS</a>]
01:01:37 ◼ ► says and what do i do about this and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3697">TS</a>]
01:01:41 ◼ ► again the the master guy says well you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3701">TS</a>]
01:01:43 ◼ ► know the thing you don't realize is that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3703">TS</a>]
01:01:45 ◼ ► you've got 83 problems and everybody in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3705">TS</a>]
01:01:49 ◼ ► the entire world will always have 83 [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3709">TS</a>]
01:01:51 ◼ ► problems like as soon as you solve in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3711">TS</a>]
01:01:54 ◼ ► your mind one problem you'll find [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3714">TS</a>]
01:01:56 ◼ ► another problem you'll never have a day [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3716">TS</a>]
01:01:57 ◼ ► we don't have 83 problems right back to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3717">TS</a>]
01:02:01 ◼ ► the second set but you also have an 84th [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3721">TS</a>]
01:02:03 ◼ ► problem which is that you think you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3723">TS</a>]
01:02:07 ◼ ► call i I'm telling you man that story [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3727">TS</a>]
01:02:11 ◼ ► has more residents for me every couple [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3731">TS</a>]
01:02:12 ◼ ► years because I realize how true the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3732">TS</a>]
01:02:15 ◼ ► eighth especially the 83 problems part [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3735">TS</a>]
01:02:16 ◼ ► is it's another thing to think that you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3736">TS</a>]
01:02:18 ◼ ► know you should be above having problems [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3738">TS</a>]
01:02:20 ◼ ► in life but IM it for me like I always [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3740">TS</a>]
01:02:23 ◼ ► have talked about this a lot on the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3743">TS</a>]
01:02:24 ◼ ► other show idea but always make another [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3744">TS</a>]
01:02:26 ◼ ► show i do yeah yeah it says here on the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3746">TS</a>]
01:02:29 ◼ ► internet and I i discovered that i I'm [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3749">TS</a>]
01:02:33 ◼ ► I'm unhappily coming to realize and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3753">TS</a>]
01:02:37 ◼ ► accept I don't have an answer yet that I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3757">TS</a>]
01:02:39 ◼ ► i think i might just always being an [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3759">TS</a>]
01:02:42 ◼ ► anxious person in the sense that i will [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3762">TS</a>]
01:02:44 ◼ ► always find a primary thing to worry [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3764">TS</a>]
01:02:47 ◼ ► about several secondary things to worry [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3767">TS</a>]
01:02:49 ◼ ► about and then a seemingly endless [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3769">TS</a>]
01:02:51 ◼ ► collection of tertiary things to worry [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3771">TS</a>]
01:02:53 ◼ ► about getting rid of even getting rid of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3773">TS</a>]
01:02:55 ◼ ► the big number one we know that means [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3775">TS</a>]
01:02:57 ◼ ► there's a field promotion for one of the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3777">TS</a>]
01:02:58 ◼ ► secondary problems guess what you get to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3778">TS</a>]
01:03:00 ◼ ► go to the line as a kid you made it you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3780">TS</a>]
01:03:03 ◼ ► made another show 10 your girl's number [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3783">TS</a>]
01:03:07 ◼ ► one problem right now how do you feel [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3787">TS</a>]
01:03:08 ◼ ► thanks cap but you know it's silly [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3788">TS</a>]
01:03:12 ◼ ► parable maybe but I i find that to be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3792">TS</a>]
01:03:14 ◼ ► true then why say that because cool [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3794">TS</a>]
01:03:16 ◼ ► you're describing is if if you there's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3796">TS</a>]
01:03:18 ◼ ► something very comforting about certain [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3798">TS</a>]
01:03:20 ◼ ► kinds of problems and you know to get [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3800">TS</a>]
01:03:22 ◼ ► into like the crazy family dynamics and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3802">TS</a>]
01:03:23 ◼ ► abuse and stuff like that but there are [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3803">TS</a>]
01:03:25 ◼ ► certain things where you know if you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3805">TS</a>]
01:03:27 ◼ ► have to choose between the devil you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3807">TS</a>]
01:03:28 ◼ ► know than the devil you don't know even [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3808">TS</a>]
01:03:30 ◼ ► if you're not aware of it you might [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3810">TS</a>]
01:03:31 ◼ ► continue to seek out the problem that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3811">TS</a>]
01:03:33 ◼ ► you're familiar with and the problem [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3813">TS</a>]
01:03:35 ◼ ► that you're comfortable solving or more [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3815">TS</a>]
01:03:36 ◼ ► often not solving and sometimes I really [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3816">TS</a>]
01:03:38 ◼ ► honestly believe that somebody can be [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3818">TS</a>]
01:03:40 ◼ ► more whatever makes you happy like i say [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3820">TS</a>]
01:03:43 ◼ ► comfortable but more okay with just not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3823">TS</a>]
01:03:47 ◼ ► solving the same problem for a really [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3827">TS</a>]
01:03:49 ◼ ► long time and that problem is taken away [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3829">TS</a>]
01:03:50 ◼ ► from them if that that comforting [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3830">TS</a>]
01:03:53 ◼ ► relationship that little friend goes [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3833">TS</a>]
01:03:56 ◼ ► that's a that can be really only a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3836">TS</a>]
01:03:59 ◼ ► really crazy thing like having like a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3839">TS</a>]
01:04:00 ◼ ► little foundation and yes and I mean [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3840">TS</a>]
01:04:02 ◼ ► almost along the lines of like me to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3842">TS</a>]
01:04:03 ◼ ► talk about the dentist like having a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3843">TS</a>]
01:04:05 ◼ ► tooth root and you feel like it's not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3845">TS</a>]
01:04:06 ◼ ► your mouth anymore that tooth you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3846">TS</a>]
01:04:10 ◼ ► even if it's a rotten one it's one that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3850">TS</a>]
01:04:11 ◼ ► you recognize and now it's gone and now [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3851">TS</a>]
01:04:14 ◼ ► you're in a different kind of anxiety [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3854">TS</a>]
01:04:15 ◼ ► because now you don't even know what [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3855">TS</a>]
01:04:16 ◼ ► your next thing you should worry about [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3856">TS</a>]
01:04:17 ◼ ► should be enough that doesn't sound like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3857">TS</a>]
01:04:20 ◼ ► if you are if not you but if you select [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3860">TS</a>]
01:04:22 ◼ ► something like you notice the drunk and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3862">TS</a>]
01:04:25 ◼ ► fuck you you have the same dialogues I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3865">TS</a>]
01:04:27 ◼ ► loved Otis remember he's locked himself [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3867">TS</a>]
01:04:28 ◼ ► in and out of the cell was only trying [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3868">TS</a>]
01:04:33 ◼ ► the door knobs on all the bathrooms that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3873">TS</a>]
01:04:35 ◼ ► my problem is a my presentation my point [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3875">TS</a>]
01:04:40 ◼ ► that right yeah is that like just [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3880">TS</a>]
01:04:41 ◼ ► getting rid of all the problems that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3881">TS</a>]
01:04:43 ◼ ► come around because because one is a is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3883">TS</a>]
01:04:48 ◼ ► yes behavior problems anymore it's just [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3888">TS</a>]
01:04:50 ◼ ► you have more subtle and ultimately kind [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3890">TS</a>]
01:04:52 ◼ ► of difficult problems that are you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3892">TS</a>]
01:04:55 ◼ ► now now you gotta really do the real [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3895">TS</a>]
01:04:57 ◼ ► work with yeah they're looking at him [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3897">TS</a>]
01:04:59 ◼ ► instead of running away from the menu [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3899">TS</a>]
01:05:01 ◼ ► and and i don't mean running away I mean [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3901">TS</a>]
01:05:02 ◼ ► that the language of of recovery is so [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3902">TS</a>]
01:05:06 ◼ ► fraught and he say something like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3906">TS</a>]
01:05:10 ◼ ► runaway and automatically I i I'm like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3910">TS</a>]
01:05:14 ◼ ► impelled to say i don't mean running [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3914">TS</a>]
01:05:16 ◼ ► away in the sense of being cowardly you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3916">TS</a>]
01:05:21 ◼ ► know this is one of the things that so [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3921">TS</a>]
01:05:22 ◼ ► many alcoholics are like it's a it's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3922">TS</a>]
01:05:26 ◼ ► like an knee-jerk response to like they [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3926">TS</a>]
01:05:29 ◼ ► feel like doing drugs and being drunk is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3929">TS</a>]
01:05:32 ◼ ► heroic and that they are not running [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3932">TS</a>]
01:05:35 ◼ ► away from their problems they are they [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3935">TS</a>]
01:05:37 ◼ ► are fighting you know there because that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3937">TS</a>]
01:05:39 ◼ ► because their lives feel like a full of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3939">TS</a>]
01:05:42 ◼ ► strife and heroic fight and contest you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3942">TS</a>]
01:05:46 ◼ ► know because they stumble out of the bar [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3946">TS</a>]
01:05:48 ◼ ► at night and they run into some street [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3948">TS</a>]
01:05:50 ◼ ► person and they have some they go on [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3950">TS</a>]
01:05:53 ◼ ► some adventure and it all feels like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3953">TS</a>]
01:05:54 ◼ ► very Greek to be living the life and it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3954">TS</a>]
01:05:59 ◼ ► nightly quests you do you have nightly [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3959">TS</a>]
01:06:01 ◼ ► question sometimes that questions just [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3961">TS</a>]
01:06:03 ◼ ► like can i get home in this condition [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3963">TS</a>]
01:06:06 ◼ ► because I can't you know I can't drive [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3966">TS</a>]
01:06:09 ◼ ► or I can't find my car and it's raining [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3969">TS</a>]
01:06:11 ◼ ► and there are no cabs like can I even [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3971">TS</a>]
01:06:13 ◼ ► get home without without passing out in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3973">TS</a>]
01:06:16 ◼ ► the doorway and that when you do get [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3976">TS</a>]
01:06:19 ◼ ► home and the next morning like it does [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3979">TS</a>]
01:06:21 ◼ ► feel a little bit like a question [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3981">TS</a>]
01:06:22 ◼ ► certainly you're giving yourself some [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3982">TS</a>]
01:06:25 ◼ ► some obstacles that are both life and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3985">TS</a>]
01:06:32 ◼ ► easy to solve that you step out of your [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3992">TS</a>]
01:06:33 ◼ ► experience points yeah exactly like my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3993">TS</a>]
01:06:36 ◼ ► mama class is pretty high got good hit [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3996">TS</a>]
01:06:38 ◼ ► points and the reality is since I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/3998">TS</a>]
01:06:41 ◼ ► stopped drinking the number of times [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4001">TS</a>]
01:06:42 ◼ ► that I walk in the front door of my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4002">TS</a>]
01:06:44 ◼ ► house and go and collapsed on the floor [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4004">TS</a>]
01:06:45 ◼ ► ago I made it all but I have like a lot [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4005">TS</a>]
01:06:50 ◼ ► fewer because everything will become [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4010">TS</a>]
01:06:52 ◼ ► depressed whale good so next you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4012">TS</a>]
01:06:55 ◼ ► that's not the that's not the big quest [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4015">TS</a>]
01:06:59 ◼ ► and and I and that is something that i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4019">TS</a>]
01:07:03 ◼ ► miss be the daily kind of excitement of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4023">TS</a>]
01:07:08 ◼ ► of triumph and a conquering adversity [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4028">TS</a>]
01:07:14 ◼ ► that you just you put into your life but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4034">TS</a>]
01:07:19 ◼ ► you put into your life with drugs and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4039">TS</a>]
01:07:21 ◼ ► alcohol and honestly with food and with [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4041">TS</a>]
01:07:23 ◼ ► sport and all this stuff you know all [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4043">TS</a>]
01:07:25 ◼ ► this kind of action that seems very that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4045">TS</a>]
01:07:31 ◼ ► seems very heroic and then in the end [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4051">TS</a>]
01:07:32 ◼ ► all it is all that happened at the end [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4052">TS</a>]
01:07:35 ◼ ► of the day is that you made it home and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4055">TS</a>]
01:07:37 ◼ ► that was actually pretty easy to do for [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4057">TS</a>]
01:07:40 ◼ ► for me the-the-the-the ghost that haunts [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4060">TS</a>]
01:07:43 ◼ ► me or the the main my main brokenness I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4063">TS</a>]
01:07:48 ◼ ► guess is that i do not have a definition [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4068">TS</a>]
01:07:52 ◼ ► of success there is no there is no [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4072">TS</a>]
01:07:58 ◼ ► success in my life because I do not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4078">TS</a>]
01:08:01 ◼ ► allow there to be like I i have no there [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4081">TS</a>]
01:08:06 ◼ ► i have not defined success so therefore [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4086">TS</a>]
01:08:10 ◼ ► everything is a failure and my greatest [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4090">TS</a>]
01:08:16 ◼ ► triumphs are still failing failures and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4096">TS</a>]
01:08:20 ◼ ► that is a that is this puzzle box that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4100">TS</a>]
01:08:24 ◼ ► no matter what I do no matter what I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4104">TS</a>]
01:08:28 ◼ ► quit doing no matter what advice I quit [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4108">TS</a>]
01:08:30 ◼ ► doing no matter what a like new exercise [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4110">TS</a>]
01:08:36 ◼ ► his program i go on or what what [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4116">TS</a>]
01:08:39 ◼ ► studying i do or what new new exciting [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4119">TS</a>]
01:08:42 ◼ ► adventure i go on i don't have a simple [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4122">TS</a>]
01:08:47 ◼ ► definition of success for myself and so [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4127">TS</a>]
01:08:50 ◼ ► I I I never congratulate myself I don't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4130">TS</a>]
01:08:54 ◼ ► accept congratulations and at the end of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4134">TS</a>]
01:08:58 ◼ ► the day I look up at my wall at my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4138">TS</a>]
01:09:02 ◼ ► blue-ribbon wall and there are no blue [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4142">TS</a>]
01:09:05 ◼ ► there are like three white ribbons that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4145">TS</a>]
01:09:08 ◼ ► I have allowed that I deserve you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4148">TS</a>]
01:09:12 ◼ ► like okay good job third place you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4152">TS</a>]
01:09:16 ◼ ► the greatest events of my life I have [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4156">TS</a>]
01:09:18 ◼ ► allowed some I have allowed myself to to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4158">TS</a>]
01:09:21 ◼ ► reward myself a third place ribbon and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4161">TS</a>]
01:09:26 ◼ ► so I have this tattered little bulletin [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4166">TS</a>]
01:09:28 ◼ ► board that has like three or four white [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4168">TS</a>]
01:09:31 ◼ ► ribbons on it but you're like the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4171">TS</a>]
01:09:32 ◼ ► Russian judge you you're not going to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4172">TS</a>]
01:09:34 ◼ ► let anything up there that didn't really [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4174">TS</a>]
01:09:35 ◼ ► really irrefutably deserve to be there [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4175">TS</a>]
01:09:38 ◼ ► yeah and and you know maybe that's a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4178">TS</a>]
01:09:40 ◼ ► third place maybe that sublime bronze or [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4180">TS</a>]
01:09:42 ◼ ► well you know like my walk across Europe [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4182">TS</a>]
01:09:44 ◼ ► for instance where I very definitely for [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4184">TS</a>]
01:09:49 ◼ ► months on end was in constant combat [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4189">TS</a>]
01:09:54 ◼ ► with myself and then actually you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4194">TS</a>]
01:10:01 ◼ ► walked the last three days of that walk [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4201">TS</a>]
01:10:04 ◼ ► even though every voice in my head was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4204">TS</a>]
01:10:07 ◼ ► screaming at me you know just get on a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4207">TS</a>]
01:10:09 ◼ ► fucking bus you're there you made it to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4209">TS</a>]
01:10:11 ◼ ► Istanbul just get on a city bus and take [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4211">TS</a>]
01:10:15 ◼ ► um I you know I thought those voices and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4215">TS</a>]
01:10:19 ◼ ► walked all the way to the Hagia Sophia [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4219">TS</a>]
01:10:22 ◼ ► and so I cannot there is no part of me [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4222">TS</a>]
01:10:25 ◼ ► that can rob myself of that but I also [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4225">TS</a>]
01:10:29 ◼ ► can't get myself a first-place ribbon I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4229">TS</a>]
01:10:31 ◼ ► can't you know get myself a blue ribbon [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4231">TS</a>]
01:10:33 ◼ ► because of all the because of the fact [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4233">TS</a>]
01:10:36 ◼ ► that i spent the whole time finding [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4236">TS</a>]
01:10:37 ◼ ► myself instead of walking on a magic [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4237">TS</a>]
01:10:39 ◼ ► carpet in Buddhist bliss or whatever you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4239">TS</a>]
01:10:43 ◼ ► know like right right i should have been [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4243">TS</a>]
01:10:45 ◼ ► fighting myself I should have been [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4245">TS</a>]
01:10:46 ◼ ► arguing with myself for sale of points [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4246">TS</a>]
01:10:50 ◼ ► that's right you didn't go ahead and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4250">TS</a>]
01:10:51 ◼ ► nail to finish my form was all fucked up [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4251">TS</a>]
01:10:54 ◼ ► i should have been i should have had no [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4254">TS</a>]
01:10:56 ◼ ► possessions and I should have just [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4256">TS</a>]
01:10:57 ◼ ► walked from loving stranger to loving [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4257">TS</a>]
01:11:01 ◼ ► stranger basking in the glow of of my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4261">TS</a>]
01:11:06 ◼ ► humanity and I should have arrived in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4266">TS</a>]
01:11:08 ◼ ► Stamboul and dissemination have made me [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4268">TS</a>]
01:11:10 ◼ ► Pasha of all the infidels but none of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4270">TS</a>]
01:11:14 ◼ ► that happened so no blue ribbon but but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4274">TS</a>]
01:11:18 ◼ ► but you know but white ribbon 444 effort [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4278">TS</a>]
01:11:22 ◼ ► for getting there you know and that's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4282">TS</a>]
01:11:24 ◼ ► like one of the one of my big adventures [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4284">TS</a>]
01:11:26 ◼ ► right that's like a that is a thing that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4286">TS</a>]
01:11:28 ◼ ► i will the whole rest of my life I'm [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4288">TS</a>]
01:11:30 ◼ ► gonna be reflecting on the fact that I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4290">TS</a>]
01:11:31 ◼ ► once walked from amsterdam to Istanbul [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4291">TS</a>]
01:11:35 ◼ ► third-place finish and that's crazy it's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4295">TS</a>]
01:11:42 ◼ ► crazy to me and and as I'm talking about [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4302">TS</a>]
01:11:44 ◼ ► doing this weekly show up here in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4304">TS</a>]
01:11:46 ◼ ► Seattle my very close friends who are [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4306">TS</a>]
01:11:50 ◼ ► aware of this problem you know have have [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4310">TS</a>]
01:11:54 ◼ ► kind of leaned in and said what does [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4314">TS</a>]
01:11:57 ◼ ► success look like for you in this like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4317">TS</a>]
01:12:00 ◼ ► what you're about to do this it's a it's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4320">TS</a>]
01:12:04 ◼ ► what do you hope to accomplish and I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4324">TS</a>]
01:12:07 ◼ ► have no I mean not only can i not answer [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4327">TS</a>]
01:12:11 ◼ ► them but I'm rushing into a new project [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4331">TS</a>]
01:12:15 ◼ ► and i haven't even sat with myself and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4335">TS</a>]
01:12:18 ◼ ► and digested this possibility like are [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4338">TS</a>]
01:12:22 ◼ ► you doing a new show and you're just [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4342">TS</a>]
01:12:24 ◼ ► going to do it and every day is going to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4344">TS</a>]
01:12:25 ◼ ► be a new opportunity for failure [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4345">TS</a>]
01:12:27 ◼ ► uh-huh so that had that haunts me it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4347">TS</a>]
01:12:33 ◼ ► it haunted me when I was a little kid it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4353">TS</a>]
01:12:35 ◼ ► haunted me all the way through school it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4355">TS</a>]
01:12:37 ◼ ► was a big part of why I turned to drugs [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4357">TS</a>]
01:12:40 ◼ ► i think and then quitting drugs and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4360">TS</a>]
01:12:45 ◼ ► alcohol was a was a thing that I hoped [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4365">TS</a>]
01:12:49 ◼ ► would be a triumph that would break that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4369">TS</a>]
01:12:54 ◼ ► break the back of that forever but i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4374">TS</a>]
01:12:56 ◼ ► really only give myself a white ribbon [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4376">TS</a>]
01:12:58 ◼ ► for quitting drugs and alcohol to you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4378">TS</a>]
01:13:01 ◼ ► know it's just like it's the ribbon that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4381">TS</a>]
01:13:04 ◼ ► that you get as a kid wouldn't like you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4384">TS</a>]
01:13:06 ◼ ► showed up it's an attendance rip right [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4386">TS</a>]
01:13:08 ◼ ► right near perfect attend to that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4388">TS</a>]
01:13:10 ◼ ► near-perfect attendance and so so i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4390">TS</a>]
01:13:13 ◼ ► cannot i guess i cannot delight in my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4393">TS</a>]
01:13:16 ◼ ► achievement and it and I I don't even I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4396">TS</a>]
01:13:19 ◼ ► wouldn't even asked to delight in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4399">TS</a>]
01:13:21 ◼ ► achievement but just not to not to not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4401">TS</a>]
01:13:26 ◼ ► have my instinct be to denigrate my own [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4406">TS</a>]
01:13:28 ◼ ► achievement at every turn and I don't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4408">TS</a>]
01:13:33 ◼ ► yep you know and I don't know how to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4413">TS</a>]
01:13:37 ◼ ► I don't know what I end and over the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4417">TS</a>]
01:13:39 ◼ ► years people have put a thousand black [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4419">TS</a>]
01:13:41 ◼ ► boxes in front of me and said if only [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4421">TS</a>]
01:13:44 ◼ ► you accept this black box you'll go in [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4424">TS</a>]
01:13:48 ◼ ► one side you'll come out the other and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4428">TS</a>]
01:13:49 ◼ ► it will be you know and and psychology [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4429">TS</a>]
01:13:52 ◼ ► is one of those boxes and and zoloft is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4432">TS</a>]
01:13:58 ◼ ► one of those boxes and exercise and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4438">TS</a>]
01:14:01 ◼ ► nutrition exercise and nutrition is one [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4441">TS</a>]
01:14:03 ◼ ► of those boxes and the power of positive [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4443">TS</a>]
01:14:04 ◼ ► thinking by norman vincent peale is a is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4444">TS</a>]
01:14:09 ◼ ► one of those boxes etc etc etc and I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4449">TS</a>]
01:14:11 ◼ ► just have never have tried a lot of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4451">TS</a>]
01:14:13 ◼ ► boxes i have i have denied a lot of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4453">TS</a>]
01:14:17 ◼ ► boxes just on principle but you know I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4457">TS</a>]
01:14:21 ◼ ► honestly don't know and I feel like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4461">TS</a>]
01:14:24 ◼ ► maybe I should write post-it notes and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4464">TS</a>]
01:14:26 ◼ ► put them all over my house that say do [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4466">TS</a>]
01:14:28 ◼ ► it ! go for it you're the best you know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4468">TS</a>]
01:14:34 ◼ ► I see that stuff in thrift stores all [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4474">TS</a>]
01:14:35 ◼ ► the time peoples peoples like a picture [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4475">TS</a>]
01:14:39 ◼ ► of a thumbprint is your somebody and not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4479">TS</a>]
01:14:43 ◼ ► stop stop really thats hanging on the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4483">TS</a>]
01:14:46 ◼ ► walls of dentists office honestly harsh [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4486">TS</a>]
01:14:47 ◼ ► critic you know I mean it's it this is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4487">TS</a>]
01:14:51 ◼ ► nothing that you don't know but you you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4491">TS</a>]
01:14:53 ◼ ► do you think a lot you could think any [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4493">TS</a>]
01:14:55 ◼ ► idea into into a fine dust and and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4495">TS</a>]
01:15:00 ◼ ► problems your white ribbon bow now [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4500">TS</a>]
01:15:07 ◼ ► you do you think you thinking you and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4507">TS</a>]
01:15:10 ◼ ► you are you know it's a I don't know if [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4510">TS</a>]
01:15:15 ◼ ► you ever want to shut your thinking off [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4515">TS</a>]
01:15:17 ◼ ► but you know it's I think you think [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4517">TS</a>]
01:15:19 ◼ ► sometimes way beyond wind it's useful to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4519">TS</a>]
01:15:21 ◼ ► you but some trestle Inigo you need to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4521">TS</a>]
01:15:25 ◼ ► get into my special 17-point ladder rung [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4525">TS</a>]
01:15:29 ◼ ► hi well I'm and tell me like give me [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4529">TS</a>]
01:15:35 ◼ ► give me one of your patented Merlin uh [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4535">TS</a>]
01:15:37 ◼ ► Bob dressing-down dressings down essence [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4537">TS</a>]
01:15:41 ◼ ► down i'll give you a dressing-down well [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4541">TS</a>]
01:15:43 ◼ ► now i know i wouldn't i wouldn't you you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4543">TS</a>]
01:15:45 ◼ ► can't be helped but where's my bail outs [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4545">TS</a>]
01:15:57 ◼ ► yeah i mean i don't know i don't know [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4557">TS</a>]
01:16:02 ◼ ► I'm kind of surprised that I don't want [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4562">TS</a>]
01:16:03 ◼ ► to jinx you by saying this I'm kind of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4563">TS</a>]
01:16:05 ◼ ► surprised that you've had such good [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4565">TS</a>]
01:16:08 ◼ ► success getting on stage and rocking out [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4568">TS</a>]
01:16:10 ◼ ► because you seem to find a kind of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4570">TS</a>]
01:16:13 ◼ ► unselfconscious rocking outness onstage [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4573">TS</a>]
01:16:17 ◼ ► that is somewhat at odds with your [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4577">TS</a>]
01:16:19 ◼ ► obsession with white ribbons not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4579">TS</a>]
01:16:21 ◼ ► sexually but you know what i mean like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4581">TS</a>]
01:16:23 ◼ ► like you don't interrupt going to do I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4583">TS</a>]
01:16:26 ◼ ► do I look cool doing this right now [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4586">TS</a>]
01:16:27 ◼ ► right I'm sure that goes through mine on [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4587">TS</a>]
01:16:29 ◼ ► some level I can you have stage presence [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4589">TS</a>]
01:16:31 ◼ ► or not you know you're retarded but you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4591">TS</a>]
01:16:33 ◼ ► but you also like doesn't seem like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4593">TS</a>]
01:16:35 ◼ ► you're overthinking stuff as much in the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4595">TS</a>]
01:16:38 ◼ ► there is something about the guitar [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4598">TS</a>]
01:16:42 ◼ ► there really is something about the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4602">TS</a>]
01:16:45 ◼ ► electric guitar and the acoustic guitar [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4605">TS</a>]
01:16:47 ◼ ► different things that you know that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4607">TS</a>]
01:16:54 ◼ ► provide a psychological bed that for the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4614">TS</a>]
01:16:59 ◼ ► for the length of a show like I feel [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4619">TS</a>]
01:17:06 ◼ ► test as the years have gone by like I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4626">TS</a>]
01:17:08 ◼ ► know what they I know what they can do i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4628">TS</a>]
01:17:11 ◼ ► know that that that that they create a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4631">TS</a>]
01:17:19 ◼ ► kind of bubble around me that I playing [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4639">TS</a>]
01:17:23 ◼ ► the guitar it does it creates a bubble [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4643">TS</a>]
01:17:26 ◼ ► and within that bubble I'm critiquing my [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4646">TS</a>]
01:17:30 ◼ ► I'm you know when I walk off the stage [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4650">TS</a>]
01:17:33 ◼ ► if you talk to me in the first five [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4653">TS</a>]
01:17:34 ◼ ► minutes after show i will tell you that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4654">TS</a>]
01:17:36 ◼ ► it was the worse show that anyone's ever [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4656">TS</a>]
01:17:38 ◼ ► seen but while I'm on stage and in that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4658">TS</a>]
01:17:45 ◼ ► i I just I feel very safe and um and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4665">TS</a>]
01:17:51 ◼ ► that's the end of the storm of a rock [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4671">TS</a>]
01:17:53 ◼ ► do you feel confident I mean and others [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4673">TS</a>]
01:17:55 ◼ ► even thought they would go through your [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4675">TS</a>]
01:17:56 ◼ ► head but you don't you're not doubting [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4676">TS</a>]
01:17:58 ◼ ► your confidence when you're onstage [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4678">TS</a>]
01:17:59 ◼ ► no I am for sure I mean in particular [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4679">TS</a>]
01:18:03 ◼ ► because consuming John Hodges not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4683">TS</a>]
01:18:06 ◼ ► interrupting you blank playing guitar is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4686">TS</a>]
01:18:10 ◼ ► a thing that a lot of people do so when [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4690">TS</a>]
01:18:14 ◼ ► i'm playing guitar I am conscious of the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4694">TS</a>]
01:18:16 ◼ ► fact that there are people in the room [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4696">TS</a>]
01:18:18 ◼ ► or better guitar players than me and yet [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4698">TS</a>]
01:18:22 ◼ ► I know I know what I'm doing and playing [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4702">TS</a>]
01:18:25 ◼ ► guitar is it is individual enough that i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4705">TS</a>]
01:18:28 ◼ ► feel like if i do if i do a good job but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4708">TS</a>]
01:18:33 ◼ ► if i do a good job of playing guitar [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4713">TS</a>]
01:18:35 ◼ ► like me it's unassailable you know what [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4715">TS</a>]
01:18:41 ◼ ► I mean like some of the best guitars [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4721">TS</a>]
01:18:43 ◼ ► I've ever known have come up to me after [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4723">TS</a>]
01:18:47 ◼ ► shows with with just an unmitigated look [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4727">TS</a>]
01:18:53 ◼ ► of pleasure on their face and gone that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4733">TS</a>]
01:18:55 ◼ ► was an amazing show and so I had the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4735">TS</a>]
01:19:00 ◼ ► complimenting me on my guitar playing [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4740">TS</a>]
01:19:02 ◼ ► and he is by all metrics a better guitar [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4742">TS</a>]
01:19:08 ◼ ► communicated my guitar to the room in a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4748">TS</a>]
01:19:12 ◼ ► way that he not only admirers but like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4752">TS</a>]
01:19:15 ◼ ► is impressed by and wants to be able to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4755">TS</a>]
01:19:19 ◼ ► do himself you know he's a better guitar [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4759">TS</a>]
01:19:21 ◼ ► player than me but he's complimenting me [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4761">TS</a>]
01:19:23 ◼ ► on this on this on my guitar and the and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4763">TS</a>]
01:19:28 ◼ ► that the man is a character that's [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4768">TS</a>]
01:19:30 ◼ ► probably the wrong word but the style [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4770">TS</a>]
01:19:34 ◼ ► yeah and you know it did it did hang [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4774">TS</a>]
01:19:37 ◼ ► together and that's the thing that that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4777">TS</a>]
01:19:39 ◼ ► I'm that's the thing that I I and you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4779">TS</a>]
01:19:42 ◼ ► know and I i can't i can't say anything [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4782">TS</a>]
01:19:44 ◼ ► other than that that's the thing that I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4784">TS</a>]
01:19:45 ◼ ► practiced and practice gives you that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4785">TS</a>]
01:19:49 ◼ ► confidence i guess there is something [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4789">TS</a>]
01:19:52 ◼ ► magic about the guitar sound like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4792">TS</a>]
01:19:55 ◼ ► writing lyrics that does not make the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4795">TS</a>]
01:19:59 ◼ ► self critical voice come away by a long [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4799">TS</a>]
01:20:04 ◼ ► well they might be able to disappear [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4804">TS</a>]
01:20:05 ◼ ► because you're sort of famous or [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4805">TS</a>]
01:20:07 ◼ ► infamous for writing what turned out to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4807">TS</a>]
01:20:10 ◼ ► conceivable moment right yeah and there [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4810">TS</a>]
01:20:13 ◼ ► are lyrical there are lyrical turns out [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4813">TS</a>]
01:20:17 ◼ ► that I've put down that that are immune [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4817">TS</a>]
01:20:20 ◼ ► to my like nah school of self-criticism [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4820">TS</a>]
01:20:26 ◼ ► they can just stand in the open and the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4826">TS</a>]
01:20:31 ◼ ► na school flyover and go three and they [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4831">TS</a>]
01:20:34 ◼ ► don't have to run you know they don't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4834">TS</a>]
01:20:37 ◼ ► have to cower in a hole and there are [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4837">TS</a>]
01:20:40 ◼ ► there are more of those even then i [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4840">TS</a>]
01:20:42 ◼ ► would probably publicly admit like those [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4842">TS</a>]
01:20:44 ◼ ► are some of the things I'm proudest of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4844">TS</a>]
01:20:46 ◼ ► that I just say yeah that stands and and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4846">TS</a>]
01:20:52 ◼ ► I don't know where it came from a lot of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4852">TS</a>]
01:20:53 ◼ ► time I can't claim it really but but it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4853">TS</a>]
01:20:57 ◼ ► came from me and and and I admire tired [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4857">TS</a>]
01:21:03 ◼ ► Meyer it even as something I've done but [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4863">TS</a>]
01:21:07 ◼ ► that doesn't get me writing lyrics [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4867">TS</a>]
01:21:09 ◼ ► whoo yeah it's a it is a it's almost [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4869">TS</a>]
01:21:15 ◼ ► like you save even more occasions then [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4875">TS</a>]
01:21:18 ◼ ► you would even want to count you somehow [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4878">TS</a>]
01:21:20 ◼ ► at the last minute even full of fear [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4880">TS</a>]
01:21:23 ◼ ► managed to save a child from building [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4883">TS</a>]
01:21:25 ◼ ► but like it doesn't make you look [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4885">TS</a>]
01:21:27 ◼ ► forward to having to do it tomorrow i'm [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4887">TS</a>]
01:21:29 ◼ ► right kind of like it's a it's a you [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4889">TS</a>]
01:21:32 ◼ ► know it doesn't make you look forward to [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4892">TS</a>]
01:21:35 ◼ ► doing it tomorrow and also there's that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4895">TS</a>]
01:21:37 ◼ ► there's that there's that thing about [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4897">TS</a>]
01:21:39 ◼ ► art where you cannot quite claim it over [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4899">TS</a>]
01:21:44 ◼ ► because it cut it came from this [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4904">TS</a>]
01:21:47 ◼ ► admixture of luck and Alan influence [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4907">TS</a>]
01:21:52 ◼ ► their experience timing which ate for [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4912">TS</a>]
01:21:56 ◼ ► it's you know if it does if it isn't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4916">TS</a>]
01:21:58 ◼ ► actually an unintentionally about deadly [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4918">TS</a>]
01:22:00 ◼ ► or pretenders song I if it actually is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4920">TS</a>]
01:22:02 ◼ ► kind of its own thing it's it's really [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4922">TS</a>]
01:22:04 ◼ ► difficult to not sound like a total [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4924">TS</a>]
01:22:06 ◼ ► asshole to say anything but i'm not sure [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4926">TS</a>]
01:22:08 ◼ ► how that came up but it did well yeah [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4928">TS</a>]
01:22:10 ◼ ► and I mean and in contrast to the to the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4930">TS</a>]
01:22:13 ◼ ► conservative response to obama during [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4933">TS</a>]
01:22:16 ◼ ► the last election where they were all [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4936">TS</a>]
01:22:18 ◼ ► touting like I made that I made that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4938">TS</a>]
01:22:21 ◼ ► info because not because because it was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4941">TS</a>]
01:22:27 ◼ ► it was so obnoxious and so childlike [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4947">TS</a>]
01:22:28 ◼ ► like like even if I mean the critique of [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4948">TS</a>]
01:22:32 ◼ ► that argument just like did you not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4952">TS</a>]
01:22:34 ◼ ► drive on public roads did you not [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4954">TS</a>]
01:22:36 ◼ ► drinking people are people born on third [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4956">TS</a>]
01:22:38 ◼ ► base you think they invented baseball [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4958">TS</a>]
01:22:40 ◼ ► yeah but that but that but but just what [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4960">TS</a>]
01:22:43 ◼ ► what what kind of person stands and says [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4963">TS</a>]
01:22:51 ◼ ► I mean it's tough it's a three-year-olds [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4971">TS</a>]
01:22:54 ◼ ► idea of like ownership and pride like [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4974">TS</a>]
01:23:00 ◼ ► that isn't any kind of pride that I [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4980">TS</a>]
01:23:03 ◼ ► I made that the best thing I ever been [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4983">TS</a>]
01:23:06 ◼ ► is trying to write his name on your [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4986">TS</a>]
01:23:07 ◼ ► birdhouse up but I mean seriously the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4987">TS</a>]
01:23:10 ◼ ► best the thing I'm proudest of the first [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4990">TS</a>]
01:23:13 ◼ ► thing I would say about it is like well [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4993">TS</a>]
01:23:14 ◼ ► I couldn't have done it if if x y&z had [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4994">TS</a>]
01:23:17 ◼ ► lined up you know and and uh and so that [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/4997">TS</a>]
01:23:26 ◼ ► I guess it's only natural that you start [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/5006">TS</a>]
01:23:29 ◼ ► to think like well I didn't really ever [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/5009">TS</a>]
01:23:32 ◼ ► and I mean I guess that's why that is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/5012">TS</a>]
01:23:34 ◼ ► back home and wait to turn it around [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/5014">TS</a>]
01:23:39 ◼ ► Conservatives are so upset and get a [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/5019">TS</a>]
01:23:40 ◼ ► white ribbon for that Winchester the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/5020">TS</a>]
01:23:44 ◼ ► Conservatives are are are angry because [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/5024">TS</a>]
01:23:46 ◼ ► they think that we are trying to steal [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/5026">TS</a>]
01:23:48 ◼ ► from them and their family still their [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/5028">TS</a>]
01:23:52 ◼ ► family and their pride the family pride [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/5032">TS</a>]
01:23:55 ◼ ► from the pride that sounds like the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/5035">TS</a>]
01:24:00 ◼ ► grocery store and the black haha along [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/5040">TS</a>]
01:24:04 ◼ ► down the family pride then and the [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/5044">TS</a>]
01:24:07 ◼ ► biggest we're not trying to steal their [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/5047">TS</a>]
01:24:08 ◼ ► family pride it's just that we don't [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/5048">TS</a>]
01:24:10 ◼ ► have any family pride ourselves and [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/5050">TS</a>]
01:24:13 ◼ ► we're trying to smear everybody with it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/5053">TS</a>]
01:24:14 ◼ ► with our gayness are very gay penis is [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/5054">TS</a>]
01:24:17 ◼ ► rubbed all over there simply perfect it [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/5057">TS</a>]
01:24:20 ◼ ► gay black penis polyamorous penis [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/5060">TS</a>]
01:24:24 ◼ ► somebody accused me of being polyamorous [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/5064">TS</a>]
01:24:27 ◼ ► know that is low i said don't you talk [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/5067">TS</a>]
01:24:30 ◼ ► like that to me and they were like well [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/5070">TS</a>]
01:24:32 ◼ ► polyamorous means loves a lot of things [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/5072">TS</a>]
01:24:35 ◼ ► below that seems pretty broad and I was [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/5075">TS</a>]
01:24:39 ◼ ► like that does seem pretty broad [<a href="https://overcast.fm/+BmEOPolJk/5079">TS</a>]